The Great Lover

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by Cisco, Michael; Hughes, Rhys


  Now the gauges, which have been edging over steadily and at different times, all swerve at once to the line: transfer instant. The Great Lover spins his wheels and pulls levers. The cup-contacts attached to Hulferde’s body all puff and sigh at once, like cloud chambers; wisps of white vapor appear in them. The hydraulic rams batter at the cable like the pistons of a gargantuan engine and then with a single abrupt motion the cable spool stops rotating and the HR’s chopper severs the cable. The tail end feeds through the rams, and they fall silent as it is drawn into the separator drill. As the wires drop from the pulleys and slither across the floor into the prosthetic’s brain, Hulferde begins to laugh — a giddy bubbling mirth spilling from his mouth — the Great Lover catches it, begins chuckling horribly, his sharky mouth stretches and smuts of fire jet out... and now the Prosthetic Libido is laughing too, a high clear fluting note. A laughing chorus billows around the room and chimes ring out.

  Hulferde confusedly thinks the sewerman is ringing a bell — I can’t see where he has it.

  (Unlike me, Hulferde is unable to see that a small liberty bell has appeared just above the Great Lover’s head, masturbating crazily its clapper whanging the inner surface of... The Prosthetic Libido hears it clearly. —The Author.)

  —the Prosthetic Libido raises his torso, flexing at the waist, raises its arms elbows curled hands bending back at the wrists, as though the laughing and the music were buoying him up — his face is transported, his body sways and twines itself up the air — he is singing out with passionate joy—

  The Great Lover capers up and down the room roaring with laughter, like a toe-dancing bull cavorting around the equipment, his tangled choker of spectacles rattling like a shamanic instrument. He thrusts his face, hard with fierce satisfaction, within an inch of the Prosthetic’s dazzled eyes gloating and cackling, the bell above his head crashes and whips against itself as though a hurricane were driving it. He turns and dances out of Hulferde’s house.

  *

  Hulferde gingerly removes the metal tube and the wires from his head; there is no sensation. He bandages his wound carefully and extricates himself from the contacts and devices. Not yet fully able to appreciate the change he sits on the stretcher a moment, rubbing his face.

  Hulferde stands, and crosses the room, pulling the curtain aside. The Prosthetic Libido lies on its table, masturbating blinking and sighing — he turns his glorious eyes on Hulferde in astonishment and pleasure. Sunlight vibrates from his skin.

  Hulferde looks at his creation with sour distaste — finally throws a cloth over it and wheels it into the storeroom. As he locks the door, he is already thinking only of the work that waits for him. He turns away preoccupied, a benzene ring in his mind.

  CHAPTER FOUR

  The earth is hollow — and I can prove it to you! (goes down steps to subway station)

  ...

  I need love like I’m a plant in a cave but now there’s no Love at all to be found, nothing like it anywhere, aynewerhe, wheneraye — I kick around in the trash feeling — I’m just sighing and pining. I clutter together among the other objects at the dark end of the platform, past the reach of the sodium lights that turn the mist into a blizzard of orange motes. I look out at a switching yard filled with broken furniture and tufted bracken, dark iron trestle bars the sky. The platform trembles, but I don’t see the train for a long time. There is something at work below the trestle, right down deep into the earth, that is shaking the platform.

  The train pulls in with rain rilling down its sides and I take a seat in the first car. It’s empty. I close my eyes and I open my eyes and I see needles of light reflected in the polished steel pole. I close my eyes and open my eyes and I see tan floor streaked cream and plum. The train creaks through black space upon which lights and illuminated surfaces have been scattered. The distant skyline is stationary and the intervening buildings hurtle past and fall back into the cavernous night. A building stands there, crowned with an amber cone. Dead trees whisk along scribbling on the lights. Gleaming steel and fluorescent lights in the excessively bright car like a mobile morgue, a ghostly, transient feeling, like visiting a hospital.

  Travel has an erosive effect on what is called sanity; the further one goes, the more uncompressed and irrelevant become the thoughts. The train dives into the ground and suddenly the fluorescents overhead go out; in rushing darkness I hear the door at the end of the car snap open, bang from the jam, slide back and clap shut. When the lights dazedly blink on again, there is a large shambolic man in a shapeless sweater sitting opposite me, writing something on a sheet of paper against his leg. Brow knotted against the upper rims of his thick glasses and crazy grey hair sticking out all over, his lips protrude to form a rigid bow-shaped funnel. Over the sweater he wears a burgundy vinyl jacket that’s too small for him and a broad rock-and-roll belt with two parallel rows of metal-rimmed eyelets on crooked across his hips.

  Suddenly he thrusts the paper at me, with a chewed-up pencil under his planklike thumb. There are three algebra problems written out on it. “Show your work,” it says. Subway stations and tunnels pass like illuminated shipwrecks on the other side of the express brackets. I finish doing the problems and hand the paper back. The man runs the pencil down the page, making marks and checks. As the train stops, he gets to his feet swaying nearly off balance, hands the page back, and blunders out the door without a word.

  In a circle at the top it says:

  “A-

  —this would have been a B+, but I’ll give you extra credit for factoring the problem so thoroughly.”

  He’s added this at the bottom of the paper:

  “I am the first leper corpse and I lead a leper corpse.” Train rolls through the station and for an instant I’m eye to eye with the head of a black man hanging in the window.

  *

  Riding on the undertaker in love withdrawal some days later — the passengers thin out in the mid-afternoon and you can feel the daylight energy of the sun just overhead. I’m sandwiched between that warmth and the icy entrails of the planet under me. So now we’ve just left the station and we’re rolling steadily into the dark. I’m alone in the last car. An unfamiliar voice comes over the PA and says, after announcing the next stop and the transfers, in a tone so level and quiet I wonder if I am hearing it:

  “Through the interstices of impersonal indifference hovers over the city like devil wings, not the indifference of one soul or another, but a property of the indifferent air and the hard blank canvases of the pavement the buildings. Like the ether of early astronomy it is infinitely rigid and permeates everything, a hard canvas the painted figures can feel unyielding behind them.”

  I get up and make my way through the cars to the one with the conductor. He is coffined up behind his steel door, speaking over the PA. At the next stop, I get off quickly and rush round to peer in his window. No one there. I look along the train and see a head drawn in as the doors close and the train pulls away from me.

  Riding the train you discover the other chronics — there are those who, this or that or no reason, lose interest in work, in daily affairs, in food, in sleep, and take to riding the subways, settling on the trains like marine snow on the sea bottom. Overwhelmed and drained by the vampiric demands of bills and mail, haircuts, laundry, rent, they begin to fill up with a desire for complete quiescence, and this desire adds to their inertia. They don’t want to die, to sleep — they want to forget and to meditate. They want to fall out of their sconces and stop working so hard to resemble this or that. No one is anything when they travel, or travel tends to rub identity.

  ...Vera swings a little against her father. On the subway, bodies shudder and tilt with the motion of the train like empty sacks. The communication of this movement makes the car into a big soup of partially-blended, partially-independent people. Most of them don’t notice how loose their edges get when they ride, because they get on at an important stop and get off at an important stop. The trip in between is only an interruption the
ample business of their lives immediately reabsorbs...

  I can pick out the ones who ride all the time — they let it happen. The encroaching anonymity is turning into a new person. It cuts right through me like a knife — it’s a horrible sound: I want you to watch me die, I want to be cut open and bleeding to death, and I want you to watch me bleed to death: it would be a tender, an intimate scene — the head goes pale and the lips droop — the face slowly drops with beautiful, celestial musi—

  The petrified subway tunnel landscape: pencil-shaped stalactites, scurfy black scales, mineral ooze hardened like charcoal scum on the tunnel walls, dirty ink of puddles and leaks, flat blots of old fossil chewing gum... lichenous rust adhering to steel columns in modestly fantastic shapes, like gills of fungus... girders filmed with a thin layer of gelatinous metal, or sheathed in an elastic integument of thick paint like flexible amber. The lights in the tunnel, the pearly gates hanging in beaded lines... the corky crud between the rails, like chipped bark... thick flakes of congealed muck the size of rats’ heads and matchbooks... hoses and wires, painted-over half-moon lightbulbs... alarmingly bright dry orange stain on the ground at the base of one of the pillars... thick black dust on the tiled wall opposite, something intimate and cloistered there like a familiar closet under the stairs, a boy’s fortress as empty now as a rotted-out tortoise shell... steel button-box marooned high on the wall, where only the operator can reach it from the window of his compartment... serrations in the lower edge of the tiled wall like the outline of an inverted battlement... the motto “Don’t Piss Here” spray-painted in pale yellow on concrete piling out on the railed cement pier past the no-entry sign. Smell of urine, heaps of tools, bags of metal. Rumble of trains is like ventriloquism, hard to place the source until you see the lights, or hear them angrily rampaging overhead, and often you never know where they are. Messages everywhere, almost all of them impossible to read correctly at first sight. Soiled feeling of old iron, old painted metal, just solid soil.

  Sitting on the train we’re subdued, watchful. To young thugs and religious old ladies on the train: you are wasting your time. This one here is so self-contained he absorbs light: his reserve is hostile most likely without meaning to be. My weird reflection in onyx window like the Cup of the Ptolemies, my grin warps out to the window’s edges, my eyes like twinkling black pits. My face asks: so what do you want to do today? — What are you asking me for? I look at the advertisements. There’s everything to read, but none of it makes sense, or the sense it makes is accidental. Silent and unconscious signs are also transmitted and received: I will stand here in the coveted spot by the door, I am just letting you on, I will move back to my spot by the door. Decay’s alchemy makes these tunnels more and more like living things or to speak more precisely and not using anything as crude as metaphor or similie the distinction between the tunnels and platforms on the one hand and the decomposing remains of once living things on the other hand is to be made with a difficulty that can only be relied on to increase steadily.

  Passengers break away like spores from a single dark cloudy mass of cavernous night, bobbing heads lightly pour in through the doors without the slightest displacement of air. Tidal forces pull passengers on and off the platforms... and here and there people reel or spin or sway a little in the eddies of these tides you sometimes feel roll along you — or you may rock with the motion of this inorganic train.

  Sitting and hurtling through space in my seat, looking at my counterpart there in the glass, because it’s underground that you meet yourself, and he says, “Oh Master I say : stay a journeyman” I tell him so that he nods agreement as the train pivots changing tracks. Watching from cover of an invisibility only the homeless can possess I make the whole system into my terrarium picking out the damned accommodationists from the typeless types I’m looking to contact. They eye me and I them and we make uncertain gestures testing testing 1 2 3.

  Clean-shaven middle-eastern man in wool jacket and wool vest with a tote bag with “meadowlab” stitched on it; a shambling old man with a struggly beard, the pockets of his dirty down jacket stuffed with envelopes; woman in a kerchief and circles under her eyes surreptitiously picks a pornographic Spanish cartoon book from the seat beside her and, having concealed it in the plastic bag in her lap, pages through it poker-faced; drawn-featured black kid draped over a seat, head in a cave, his eyes scan crystal subways and amber subways, soapstone cars ride amber rails — roll on static cushions... I see his friends blast through the station on their skateboards and he glides out to meet them hands at his sides. The skinheads want you to see them as soldiers polices and racketeers, congregating in the last cars of each train hooked on nerve gas: they stow the canisters in their too-big-camouflage-jackets and dose themselves with modified inhalers. You catch a zap when the doors open and your whole face is wrenched around, your nostrils and sinuses burn like flaring embers...

  The more you see the more you will see — stopped between stations and there’s a dimly-lit brick passageway plunging into the dark directly before me. Someone is walking there, away from me. She turns and looks in my direction — a middle-aged woman with a ruddy face, a brimless hat perched on the head’s crown, green wool coat. Her features are like a man’s just slightly feminized and saturated with a weird charisma, as though behind that face a hand held something rare and precious together in a gently firm grip. She turns and walks away swinging a censor of black iron triangles and trapezoids. The feathers of incense rub up against her shoulders and then stretch themselves like nerves, reach for the walls and muffle the exposed bulbs. The train reels a little forward, then accelerates in earnest, taking away the woman. On the elevated line at sunset, I moved my head so as to bring my shadow over the man’s eyes opposite me, shield the man’s eyes with my shadow from the glare of the setting sun — I had no sympathy for the man himself, but I had sympathy for his eyes. What I did, I seemed to do for her, as though I wanted her to see me do it and approve. I get the feeling she’s just died. I crack my hold on things in general fall into destabilizing gales, blow a tangle of clumsy, sincere nerves making cloud segments that fly away in every direction.

  ...Dr. Thefarie points out the Great Lover to me. Yes, he is clearly visible through the safety glass of the partition doors, alone in the car ahead — a filthy beggar, still in perfect possession of his faculties and yet he does not perform for the crowd. I do not believe he is — he is not oblivious to the crowds, on the contrary it is plain he attends to them closely, but he is observing them, and by that I mean he is scrutinizing them. That he is sensitive, and charged with a mercurial vitality which makes itself felt even across this distance, is as obvious as the raw and naked feeling he does nothing to conceal. His cheeks are wet with tears.

  “I see: he will slump exhausted finally in his seat... and then, becoming transparent, he will turn and tilt slowly backwards, penetrating as he does so the wall of the car. His body will undulate as if it were forming a chrysalis, causing him to unravel into the wall like a spool of thread. No he will slide into the wall of the car in circular sections like a piece of flesh being cut by a deli slicer, his body rotating parallel to the cutting plane and paring in a continuous spiral shaving through the wall and down into the concrete of the platform. His fingertips will spin into the wall, dwindling to dirty pink buttons, then to dots, and then vanish altogether, followed by the legs, the shoe treads, all into the wall, and, from there, down into the station’s concrete, where he will lie under multicolored layers of sediment accumulating over millions of years...

  “On the surface above, wind, lightning, water, ice, and wildfire will rend the earth with their talons, claw at it with a slow patient fury like the diurnal vultures clawing Prometheus, until a slough of black, oleaginous muck is exposed, steaming in the sun, a putrescence concentrated and gelatinized into sizzling immortal slime. Then he shall emerge from this slime, in which decomposition has metamorphosized him into a hideous landbound merman, his legs smashed into a paddle-like
tail. He will push his torso upright on his palms and waddle, dragging his useless hindquarters; his flesh will have become a ridged mass, like ropes of wax mashed together, and long strands of livid fungus will dangle about his head and shoulders like streaming tresses of white hair. Two apple-sized craters will be his eyes, their pits lined with a thickly-veined membrane the color of rust and quivering receptive to sensation; the mouth will be a lipless cavity with rigid edges, turned down like the mouth of a Greek tragedian’s mask. With his emaciated, blind sockets bent back to the leprous sun, he shall survey from a flat stone the transformed landscape of primordial salt flats and pulverized metal that once was this wicked city, oozing shadows and boiling mud belching viscous clouds of grey protein slivered with magenta flames. Over a century of liberated carbon will revive, after a period of time in the ground, into new and violent organic compounds. A sadness dense as a suffocating dream billows from him now—”

  Dr. Thefarie seizes Father Ptarmagant’s shoulders as the older man sighs and slumps over nearly fainting, tosses a brightly colored afghan around them.

  “Contact him,” the voice returns quietly, pressing his hand to his brow. A Saami woman in native dress sprinkles camphor on a handkerchief and hands it to him, turns then resuming her game of darts.

 

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