Dear Reader:
Sometimes you always want what you can’t have, and for some, like the characters in Dream Girl Awakened, you can’t have whom you desire. Such is the case of Aruba Dixon, who feens her best friend Victoria’s husband, Winston. Aruba, married to a man who can’t seem to hold down a job, constantly dreams of an ideal relationship with Winston, a wealthy prospect. Meanwhile, she is unaware that her own husband, James, whom she has put on the back burner, is actually being pursued by Tawatha, a single mother of four. No one is satisfied with what’s waiting at home.
Imagine a novel where everyone is entangled in hopes to fulfill their own dreams. Stacy Campbell’s debut project is complete with twists and turns and surprises. But like everything you do in the dark, you cannot hide it forever. Find out what her characters face as their eyes are opened to what’s going on behind closed doors.
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Zane
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Contents
Acknowledgments
Chapter 1: Owed to Myself
Chapter 2: Ready or Not, Here I Come
Chapter 3: Cappuccino, Latte, or Me
Chapter 4: Lies Have Short Legs
Chapter 5: Old School, New School
Chapter 6: The Doctor Will See You Now
Chapter 7: Glamour Doll
Chapter 8: It’s Generational
Chapter 9: Palm Saturday
Chapter 10: Let’s Start Fresh
Chapter 11: Flirting in September
Chapter 12: For the Love of Money
Chapter 13: Long Time No See
Chapter 14: The Gift that Keeps on Giving
Chapter 15: Old Before My Time
Chapter 16: Somebody’s Got a Secret
Chapter 17: Your Office Hours are 9 to 5
Chapter 18: Leads, Leads, Leads
Chapter 19: Protector, Provider
Chapter 20: The Well’s Running Dry
Chapter 21: Star Gazer
Chapter 22: Sista Spa Night
Chapter 23: My Name Is
Chapter 24: Make It Wiggle, Make It Jiggle
Chapter 25: The Hardest-Working Man in Indy
Chapter 26: Do Me This Solid
Chapter 27: Out of the Mouths of Babes
Chapter 28: All in My Lover’s Eyes
Chapter 29: That’s What Friends Are For
Chapter 30: Clueless
Chapter 31: Westside Walk It Out
Chapter 32: It’s Not What You Think
Chapter 33: Let’s Get This Party Started
Chapter 34: I Am Changing
Chapter 35: Toyota Camry Confessions
Chapter 36: We’re Gonna Have a Funky Good Time
Chapter 37: It’s the Thought that Counts
Chapter 38: Have a Little Faith
Chapter 39: Wit’s End
Chapter 40: Let’s Help Her Together
Chapter 41: Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust
Chapter 42: Midnight Train to Georgia
Chapter 43: Taking My Time
Chapter 44: The Real Housewife of L.A.
Reader Discussion Guide
Forgive Me Excerpt
About the Author
Acknowledgments
This book is dedicated to the four people who knew I had wings and could fly before I did:
Mattie Lawrence-4/19/1929-11/19/1997 (Mother)
Anthony Bernard Gilbert-10/12/1967-2/25/2002 (Cousin)
Brenda Hillard-8/5/1967-8/29/2003 (Cousin)
Roy Lawrence-3/19/1926-11/2/2012-(Father)
Putting finger to keyboard or pen to paper takes courage. Thank you God for everything and especially giving me the courage to use the gift of writing.
Mom, you didn’t get a chance to see my writing dream come true, but you always chided me to stop wasting my time and my talents. This is to let you know I was listening. Thanks for being such a wonderful mother and virtuous woman. I miss you dearly.
To my dad, Mr. Roy Lawrence. I am writing this on the morning of your funeral. You will always be the King, the Emperor, the Man, and the best father a woman could ever have. Thanks for being my first male cheerleader, date, encourager, buddy, Chevy Truck shotgun partner, and all-around stand-up guy. Your eyes lit up when I told you I’d written a book. When I told you the writing game was now a game of sales, you grinned wider and said, “Baby, you ‘gon sell them books.” Your desire for all of your children to receive an education is why I read and write. And write. And write.
To my agent, Sara Camilli, Stephen Camilli, Zane, Charmaine Parker, Strebor Books, and the entire Dream Girl team. Without you, these acknowledgements wouldn’t be possible. Thanks for taking a chance on an unknown writer. I appreciate the opportunity you’ve given me and plan to do my best to honor that chance.
To my husband, Hulian, daughter, Ylana, and son, Malik. I appreciate your love and support. The three of you make me feel I can achieve anything. How did I get blessed with the three of you?
My rock star siblings: Curtis Lawrence, Barbara Mapp, William Lawrence, Becky Lawrence, David Lawrence, and Lillie Lawrence. You have made every day on earth magical through our blood connection and so much more. I love each and every one of you more than words can express. To my nieces and nephews, Mark Anthony Adams, Vernon Lundy, Markina Mapp, Surece Mapp-Nunnally, Joy Mapp, Jerine Reynolds, Ronrico Woodard, Andrea Allen, Crystal Woodard, Antario Wilson, and Jason Lawrence. It’s been amazing to grow up with each of you and see how strong and independent you all are. I love you. Cousin Amy Stanton, you complete the tribe. To my sisters-in-law, Darlene Lawrence, Lorraine Lawrence, Veronica Lawrence, and Latumba Campbell, I’m so glad we got to know each other through the gift of marriage.
To my extended family members and in-laws, the Stantons, Lawrences, and Campbells. Without you, I’d have no history, memories, or family.
The Indianapolis Crew: Rhonda Morgan Dix, Nikisha Mundy, Kimberly Wize, Jenice Myers, Mary Lee McClendon, Lisa Coffman, Maria Spicer-Walker, Anita Lauderdale-Woodson, Kara Batts, and Patricia Diawara. Thanks so much for your love, support, and all those nights at dinner that you introduced me as “our friend, the writer.”
The Georgia Crew: Detrell Hawkins, Vickie Shorts, Antonio Bernard Lawrence, Victor Carroll, and Lillian Latrealle Smith. Your friendship throughout the years has been phenomenal. I’m glad we crossed paths. A special, come-on-over-here and gimme a big hug to Devetrice Conyers-Hinton. Not only are you a friend and a sister to me, you are a wonderful example of what it means to be an encourager. This book was written in one of the MANY beautiful, leather-bound journals you’ve gifted me over the years.
To my New Beginnings Fellowship Church family. Spiritual growth is achieved through teaching and the Word. No one does it better than Dr. James Anthony Jackson, Sr. My, how I’ve grown under your leadership, Dr. Jackson. I thank God for you and First Lady, Tara Cox Jackson. You have reminded me what it means to fellowship with others and I am so thankful that you continue to coax me out of my shell. I extend big hugs to the Multimedia Ministry team. Angela Collins-Cooper, Nicole Norwood, Anita Jones, Sandra Loyd, Tammi Kinchlow, Paulette Spicer, and Anthony Moore. You make ministry a joy and I love co-laboring with you.
To my UPS Family: Sheila Brown, Shayla Gardner, John Woodall, Katie Chapman, Cliff Laswell, Candice Brewer, Connie Mottram, Jeanine Walker, Jajuana Batts, and Andrea Johnson. You
make coming to work easy. Not a day goes by that I don’t appreciate your wisdom, guidance, and the teamwork we display. To my Trends International Publishing Family: All a girl needs to write a book is two fifteen-minute breaks and a thirty-minute lunch break. Thank you Sherry Gardiner, Carla Briggs, Karl Riley, Aurora Carillo, and Meegail Roberts for unwittingly giving me space and inspiration to write. A special thanks goes out to Mrs. Barbara Twyman-Gibson for all the prayers, pep talks and big sister support.
To the Hancock Central High School Class of 1987. We spent our formative years together and are still growing strong. I appreciate and love all of you and I pray we continue to grow in love and wisdom.
To all the writers along the way who’ve encouraged me, shared nuggets of wisdom, or simply said, “Stacy, shut up and write,” I thank you. I can’t name each of you, but I want to give a shout-out to Trisha R. Thomas, Cheri Paris Edwards (let’s write that book together for real), Victoria Christopher Murray, Sonsyrea Tate-Montgomery, Parry Brown, Terry McMillan, Margaret Johnson-Hodge, Josette Dixon-Hall, Electa Rome Parks, Adrienne Thompson, Kimberla Lawson-Roby, Dee Stewart, Lolita Files, Bernice McFadden, Marissa Monteilh, Pamela Rice, Kuwana Haulsey, Dijorn Moss, Darryl Wimberly, Lutishia Lovely, Sandra Gould, Gigi Levangie-Grazer, Walter Mosley, and Richard Dry. Marita Golden, thank you for your excellent instruction. I have taken the lessons to heart.
To my fellow aspiring authors, keep writing and keep believing. It can happen for you, too. To all the boys and girls who lost friendships and possible lifelong connections due to grown folks’ tomfoolery, this one’s for you. If I’ve missed someone, please, please, please charge it to my head and not my heart.
Stacy
[1]
Owed to Myself
May 21, 2008
Aruba propped up the girls in a Miracle C-cup, checked the smooth, waxed bikini line in her thong, and released her shoulder-length hair from a barrette, proud she’d made an appointment at Aveda Fredericks to iron out her leonine mane of curls earlier in the day. Just as she slipped on her dress, Jeremiah called from the door, “Mommy, you smell good.”
As she turned, she stopped mid-smile at the sight of Jeremiah perched atop James’s shoulders.
“Yeah, Mah-mee, I haven’t seen you this beautiful since—well, you’re always beautiful. Are you trying to make me jealous?” asked James, hoping to elicit a smile. “Where you going looking so good?” James was careful not to offend her. He needed to get back in her corner, back into her accommodating thighs.
“Just a company function. Won’t be out too late. One of us has to work in the morning. May I have five more minutes to get dressed? Please.”
James walked out the door with Jeremiah blowing kisses at Aruba. She balled her fists at James’s back. Ten years and this is the best I can do. Ten years of hanging my hopes on this man’s dreams. Ten years of supporting him and he won’t even keep a decent job. Was I that dumb in 1998 thinking James was the best I could do? It all ends tonight. Definitely! I have one year to accomplish my goal, to make things better for myself and my son. Mind-blowing sex can’t make up for all I’ve endured with this man.
She shook her head in disgust as her mind drifted back two weeks. That Wednesday, James ambled into the great room, parked himself on the sectional, and sprinted into his usual discourse on the job market, the Edomites—his term for the oppressors—and how he never got a chance to shine. He grabbed a 40-ounce from the fridge and proclaimed, “Edomites always tryna keep a brotha down!”
She glared at him as he jumped up, then paced back and forth in the living room, his steel-toed boots leaving small tracks in the carpet.
“I’m glad I walked off that fucking site. Ain’t no way in hell I’ma settle for fifteen dollars an hour under those conditions.”
“You did what?” she shouted. She counted the cost of his latest job loss, then grew angrier. She knew she’d have some explaining to do since her Uncle Walstine had put in a good word for James at Hinton and Conyers Construction.
“You know how those Edomites do. Segregating us to the high, roofing positions while they let the young bloods, the young white bloods do the painting and drywalling.”
She counted to ten, then remembered Jeremiah was still at Angels in Halos, near Indianapolis. “Maybe I’ll discuss this when I get our child from day care!”
“Aruba, baby, I forgot about Jerry. Lemme go—”
“Forget it, James! I’ll deal with you when I get back.”
Aruba grabbed her keys, stormed out the house, and rushed to the center. As she weaved in and out of traffic on I-465, she tallied the twenty-five-dollar-per-minute late fee steadily accruing. Just as she approached the Allisonville Road exit, Mrs. Timmons, the day care director, rang her cell.
“Is everything okay, Aruba? Big meeting today?”
“Yes,” she lied, hoping to stay in Mrs. Timmons’s good graces. “I’ve been traveling my region, training for State Farm nonstop. Things have been hectic at the office.”
“Not to worry, Aruba. I’m here with Jeremiah and he’s playing with Lyric Austin. They’re having a blast.”
Aruba sighed, unsure of how she’d atone for yet another lie told to cover for James. Before she could exhale with relief, Uncle Walstine’s name and number flashed on her caller ID. “Mrs. Timmons, I’m around the corner. See you soon.” Better get this over now. She swapped from Mrs. Timmons to her uncle.
“Unk, how’s it going?”
“You know damn well how it’s going! Works-when-he-feels-like-it James just ruined my good name at Hinton and Conyers. I had two more good prospects lined up and he goes in there ranting and raving about the Edomites—and Hinton and Conyers are black folks!”
“Unk, I had no idea—”
“Save it. We told you that boy was no good when you brought him around. ’Bout the best thing you got outta that union was Jeremiah!”
“That’s not fair, Uncle Walstine. I’ve been try—”
“Trying. Working like a dog to take care of that . . .” Walstine paused. “I’m just saying, baby girl, I’m tired of seeing you work so hard. You need to be in a relationship where you complement, not supplement.”
“Thank you. I understand how you feel and I’m so sorry about what happened. I’ll talk to James about it. I promise.”
With that, they said good-byes. Aruba retrieved Jeremiah, went home, and chose to say only hello and good-bye to James for the next two weeks. His romantic overtures; yellow, long-stemmed roses; and candlelight, homemade dinners were met with no enthusiasm. The more she looked at James, the more she thought of Winston. She knew she couldn’t give James the silent treatment tonight. She had to weave her web, lay a foundation for the new life she and Jeremiah would soon come to know.
Aruba decided tonight was perfect to take what she deserved—her friend Victoria’s husband. After all, Victoria whined about Winston morning, noon, and night. Aruba mimicked Victoria’s complaints as she applied makeup to her soft cheeks, compliments of an organic honey-almond facial.
“Aruba, Winston’s never home.”
“We’ve moved three times in four years with his practice and I’m tired.”
“He only gives me a three-thousand-dollar allowance each month.”
“You wouldn’t understand unless you’ve walked a mile in my Manolos, Rube.”
Aruba grunted at that statement and double-checked the night’s game plan sprawled across the bed: MapQuest directions to the conference center where Winston would conduct a presentation on cardiovascular breakthroughs; Winston’s favorite CDs—Glenn Jones’s Forever: Timeless R&B Classics, Boney James’s Shine, and Charles Hilton Brown’s Owed To Myself—she had heard wafting from his home office; the last pay stub from James’s fifth job in seven months; Winston’s favorite perfume, Flowerbomb; photos of her son, Jeremiah, and Winston’s daughter, Nicolette, at a Mocha Moms outing. Tonight she had bigger salmon to marinate and pan sear. In one swoop she tossed the plan in her oversized bag and threw on a trench
coat. She exhaled deeply when James and Jeremiah reentered the room.
“I wanna come, Mommy,” said Jeremiah. Aruba marveled at her three-year-old’s obsession with following her.
“Mommy and Daddy will take you to Great Times this weekend. Okay?”
Jeremiah wiggled from James’s shoulders as he reached for Aruba’s arms. “Mommy and Daddy gonna talk this weekend?”
Embarrassed that her child had noticed the distance between them, Aruba hugged him, and said, “Yes, we’re gonna have lots of fun. Pinkie promise.”
Jeremiah wrapped his left pinkie finger with Aruba’s, and said, “I’m happy. Daddy said you were in an itchy mood.” Jeremiah’s tendency to drop beginning letters saved yet another fight brewing between his parents.
James, sheepish and remorseful, chimed in, “You know how I get when I’m mad. I’m sorry.”
Aruba waved him off without acknowledgment and headed to the garage. James and Jeremiah followed her, giggling and singing “Sesame Street.”
Aruba faced James before she entered her SUV. “How ’bout this tune, James. Happy Birthday to me. Happy Birthday to me,” Aruba sang and poked her chest.
James thwacked his forehead, embarrassed he’d forgotten her birthday.
“I was gonna get you a gift, but you know I’m a little light right now. I’ll get you something soon. I promise.”
James tried to lighten the mood as she started her vehicle. “Baby, I’m gonna get another job. I promise,” he said, his eyes pleading, sincere.
She backed out of the garage into the driveway, waving to them both. She blew Jeremiah a quick kiss. Yeah, you’ll need a job when I’m done with you. I owe this to myself.
[2]
Ready or Not, Here I Come
Aruba circled the Marten Hotel parking lot until she spotted Winston’s Range Rover. According to Victoria, Winston wrapped up his speeches like clockwork. The Lilly Conference Center, housed within Marten, was the spot of many lectures and speeches Winston facilitated. He didn’t mingle too long with colleagues and headed home when he wrapped up his talks because he wanted to respect his wife and marriage. Since his scheduled speaking time was seven-fifteen, Aruba anticipated he’d walk out the front door at approximately eight-twenty-two. That gave her enough time to swing around to the Half Price Books entrance, turn on her hazard lights, and wait for Winston to cruise by since she “accidentally” ran out of gas. She’d even taken care to leave her gas can home. No need to make his job easier. She had inroads to make. As she waited in the hotel parking lot, she received a nod from the heavens: raindrops. A few sprinkles multiplied, fell heavier, and relaxed her. I couldn’t have planned this any better.
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