by L P Peace
It had lasted a month, followed by anger, coercion, and him undermining her experiences. One night he pushed it too far, and while he hadn’t forced her and left when she demanded it, it had not only ended any kind of relationship they could have, but it also destroyed all remaining faith that she could overcome her past and find someone to share her life with.
Was she ready to try again? Would they take no for an answer? She wanted to trust them. She wanted the things they were talking about. ‘What do you propose?’
‘You take the lead,’ Aerdan answered. ‘If you want to kiss, you initiate the kiss. If you want to be touched, you tell us where and how much. If you say no, or stop, we stop. No questions, judgements, or recriminations.’
Danielle shook her head, not certain she believed them. ‘It’ll never work. The first time someone has a stiffy, they’ll get angry if I don’t put out.’
Everything went quiet as the three males exchanged looks.
‘What’s a stiffy?’ Haddis asked from behind her.
The question struck her as funny. She hadn’t realised she’d used the term. ‘It means… erection. You know, when you become... hard.’
The quietness continued. Finally, Aerdan, a smirk on his face, moved a little closer. ‘Danielle, I’ve had a “stiffy” since I met you. My,’ he let out a breath, ‘need for you has been great. I will never get angry about your right to say no. I will always stop. You have my vow.’
‘And mine,’ Haddis said from behind her.
‘Mine too. You have no reason to be frightened. If any of us get out of hand, the others will stop him. If the three of us ever hurt you, Sidha and Kentor would rip us apart. They are very protective of you.’
‘Our people have always honoured the rights of the individual, regardless of what body they were born with,’ Haddis said. ‘We honour the strength and power of females in particular. You are the ones who keep our worlds together and you are the one female we want to build our world around.’
It wasn’t just the words that affected Danielle, it was the way Haddis spoke and the vehemence and determination on her guys faces as they looked at her. It scared her. It excited her and it left her feeling too many emotions to process.
‘Besides, if we abused your trust, every Temerin on this planet and beyond would kill us,’ Bedvir said. ‘There’s not much we take seriously as a people, but abuse is at the top.’
The statement was followed by serious looks and solemn nods.
‘We want you. But if you tell us no, we will honour it and bring you to Tessa.’
The thought of leaving them turned her stomach. Almost reflexively, Danielle shook her head. ‘I don’t want to leave,’ she finally admitted, to them and to herself. She glanced around at the two males facing her, unable to see Haddis, who was still sat at her back. ‘But I don’t know if I can… I’m just so fucked up.’
‘You’re not,’ Aerdan frowned, ‘fucked… vrokked up. You’re perfect.’
‘I’m not. I’m not fucking perfect. I don’t know how to move past it.’
‘Past what?’
‘I don’t, can’t talk about it.’ Danielle looked at Aerdan, pleading with her eyes not to push her. The very thought of trying to talk about it made her feel sick to her stomach. Whenever she did, she saw the looks on her parents' faces as they discussed it in the corner. The looks that changed from fearful and sympathetic, to angry and disbelieving as they talked. They refused to leave their jobs to take her out of his care, refused to pay for another babysitter when her father’s brother would do it for free, and refused to believe they’d failed as parents, so they doubled down and left Danielle under her abuser’s power.
The thought of saying it aloud. The thought of the expressions on all three of their faces changing. The thought of them knowing was too much for her to bear.
‘We take your lead, Danielle. Whatever you want to say, whatever you want to keep to yourself. We are yours and we will take what you are able to give, whenever you are able to give it.’
Danielle wanted so much, to believe them.
Something of her hesitance must have shown. Bedvir put his hand on her shoulder. ‘You will see, as time passes and we do not change.’
Danielle nodded, listening to every word and feeling a burgeoning hope, it was something she hadn’t felt for a long time. Even when Zoe showed up with her gladiator friends and saved them from the cages on Vasa, she still hadn’t felt any hope, any relief. It just felt like her whole life was out of her hands. Like she was being cast about by the whims of others and it could—and probably would—turn around again at any moment.
A twinge of discomfort went through her mind as Danielle realised something. She acted like she was defeated. Like whatever life threw at her, she was already going to lose, or had lost long ago.
When did I become this person?
It was a question she’d been asking herself since Zoe chewed her out on Tolomus’s ship. Danielle had protected herself for so long, built so many walls she was practically a fortress.
Here, she had three males. Aliens, which she’d given Zoe shit for, pledging their lives to making her happy, but how were they ever supposed to make any headway with her when she worked so hard on not letting anyone in? At the same time, she was so scared to be vulnerable. To trust anyone. Everyone she’d ever trusted had betrayed her. Even Rebekah.
The thought of letting go, of being vulnerable terrified her.
These three males terrified her, but only because she was so attracted to them. From the first moment they’d set eyes on her. The way they’d moved towards her at the table. Stared at her. Talked to her. They’d made her feel things at the breakfast she wasn’t ready to feel, so she’d run away, scared of her own reactions to them.
Over the time she’d known them, they’d become important to her, even Aerdan with all of his bluster and demands. That was beyond her physical attraction.
Danielle had two choices. She could continue living the life that she’d lived until now, becoming harder, more acerbic, and bitter as time went on until she was so isolated she might as well not exist.
Or she could reach out now. Accept their word and work on her own trust issues. If it didn’t work out, it didn’t mean it could never work out with anyone.
Danielle’s shoulders slumped. How long had she been this lonely without realising it? How long had it been since she’d let a man touch her? Too long, she knew it was. Each time, she’d tried to satisfy the needs of her body but was always too afraid to go beyond a certain point. After two failed attempts at physical intimacy, she’d given up. Even just allowing a man to touch her had taken effort she simply wasn’t willing to expend for anyone.
Until now.
Looking up, Danielle realised that in all of her musings, Aerdan, Bedvir, and Haddis had never interrupted her once. They simply sat there patiently, waiting for her to decide.
‘I want to,’ she said, nodding to reinforce her words, energy spiking through her body, excitement, determination, and fear. She wouldn’t let the fear win. She wouldn’t let him win. It was time to face her future. The future she wanted, not the one she thought would simply carry her far away from her family.
She was about as far away as a human could get. On a planet uninhabited by sapient life, surrounded by three males who wanted to build a future for her, with them.
It was every dream she’d never known she wanted. The dreams destroyed by his actions. But she wouldn’t let that be anymore. She’d rewrite her future, with Aerdan, Bedvir, and Haddis.
She moved towards Aerdan, cupping his cheeks and slammed her lips against his.
It was awkward and embarrassing, but Aerdan quickly took over and her inexperienced kissing was replaced by his experience, his tenderness. His lips were firm and brushed over hers in long, loving strokes. It stoked heat in her veins, stomach, and abdomen.
After a minute or so, Aerdan broke the kiss. She looked into his indigo eyes that watched her closely.
; She turned to Bedvir.
‘You don’t have to do this, Danielle.’
‘I want to,’ she repeated before hooking her hand around the back of his head, intertwined with his hair and pulling him to meet her lips.
Bedvir had been the easiest of the three males to get on with. He was careful of his words and movements and always seemed to anticipate her need.
His kiss was totally dominating. What power she’d had at the beginning was completely usurped within moments. Bedvir moved closer to her and she was aware of his rising to his knees even as his hand fisted her hair and angled her for a deeper kiss. A moan slipped out, her lower body suddenly on fire.
She became aware of Haddis’s body pressed into her back and Aerdan, holding her hand in one of his and stroking her arm with the other.
Instead of feeling trapped, she felt comforted. Those dark memories that had always pushed themselves to the fore before were silent now. She knew exactly where she was and who she was with because three males touched her. Three males comforted her.
When Bedvir broke the kiss, Danielle moaned in disappointment. She was breathless, her mind a fog of want. A moment later, Haddis turned her head, and she looked into his scarlet eyes.
She moved towards him, her eyes moving to his lips and taking her cue, Haddis met them.
His kiss was slow, teasing, tempting her for more. His hand held her chin, his long fingers stroking along her cheek and jawline, finding sensitive skin that, when he touched her there, seemed to zing across her body, straight between her legs.
She was slick with arousal, she realised. Even though she wanted them, she was still afraid, but now that clashed with her need.
Realising she was pumping her hips, Danielle tried to still herself, but her need only increased until she was whimpering from it, her lips leaving Haddis’s as her whole mind was suddenly overwhelmed.
‘If you would like one of us to relieve your ache, it would be our honour.’
Immediately, the thought of one of them touching her caused her fear to spike.
‘Or,’ Bedvir said, ‘if you want to relieve it, we can be here, if you’d like.’
The thought of touching herself in front of them. Danielle bit her lip. It shouldn’t make her feel hotter, but it did.
Hesitantly, Danielle searched through the opening of the wrap dress, leaving it in place to cover her, her fingers found her sex. It was sodden, the scent permeating the air. Her hips jerked as she gently moved her fingers through her folds, lightly teasing over her clit before she pushed two inside her. She cried out at the intrusion; at the same time, it didn’t feel like it was enough.
‘That’s it, Danielle,’ Bedvir whispered in her ear. ‘We want to see your body shaking with pleasure.’
‘We want to hear your cries,’ Haddis whispered in her other ear.
‘We are here for your pleasure, Danielle,’ Aerdan added.
Their words fuelled the fire of her arousal. Her fingers moved quicker inside her, then out, flicking over her clit, a shock of pleasure going through her as she gasped.
Danielle’s free hand automatically went to her breast, plucking on her taut nipple through the fabric.
Despite how embarrassed she thought she would be, she kept her eyes open, making sure she could see the three males surrounding her, the beauty of their alien bodies, markings, their muscles moving and rippling under their skin.
She saw the hunger in Aerdan’s eyes as he watched her pulling and moving her finger and thumb over her nipple. His need for her was like an aphrodisiac. Boldly, she let go and, taking his hand, placed it over her breast.
Aerdan’s growl was ragged as he plucked at her nipple, his actions matching hers—only it felt so much better than when she was touching herself.
Bedvir claimed her lips again, immediately taking control. She whimpered, lost within the moment, her eyes closing, focusing on the taste of him, the feel of his lips moving and demanding. The sensations Aerdan played over her body with one finger, one thumb.
Behind her, Haddis began kissing and teasing at her neck.
Danielle’s hips bucked, every muscle of her tensing, her fingers slipping through her folds faster and faster, the noise of it filling the small clearing, the air pungent with her scent.
Aerdan’s lips descended on her nipple, through the cloth, and he sucked hard.
Danielle cried out into Bedvir’s mouth, his tongue tracing over her lips as the most intense orgasm of Danielle’s life ripped through her body, tensing every muscle, shattering her nerves and body into a million stars. She opened her eyes and took in the stars above through the glowing blue and purple leaves of the trees. A tear from each eye slipped down the sides of her face to fall into her hairline as her body shook in rhythm to the after pulse of her release.
Her body shaking, she sent out a silent prayer of thanks. Maybe the stars had been looking after her all along.
Rather than confuse Danielle by taking her back to the ship and abandoning her to her own room after what he was sure must have been an important experience for her, when she fell asleep on the blanket, the three of them settled down around her.
Haddis was the first to slip out into the woods to relieve his own ache. Watching Danielle come apart had given Aerdan the most painful ‘stiffy’ of his life.
As soon as Haddis was back, Aerdan jumped to his feet, unable to resist the urge any longer, and stumbled off into the woods on unsteady feet, feeling the throb of his need in both of his shafts.
As soon as he was a respectable distance from their small camp, he pulled out both of his cocks. With one hand, he stroked up one shaft, then the other, his knees almost buckling from the surge of intense pleasure that went through him.
He could still feel the nub of her sweet breast in his mouth. Though the damnable fabric had gotten in the way, it hadn’t mattered. He knew it was his lips that had finally lit the touch paper of her climax.
Aerdan groaned, moving from one cock to the other to steadily work them both to his own release.
Temerin cocks both needed stimulation to cum. He knew there were races out there where their seed sack was connected to both shafts; that wasn’t the case for Temerin. They had a seed sack for each cock, and to fully satiate arousal, both cocks had to be milked. How he wished he was buried ball deep in his delectable Danielle.
When he reached a certain level of arousal, he gripped one cock in each hand and worked them at the same time. He was leaning heavily against a tree, his hips jerking in his hands, moans and groans falling from his lips as he pictured her, naked, pale, and beautiful as she lay out on his bed. His mouth pulling on both of her nipples, tasting her lips as he pumped in and out of her cunt. Spilling first from one cock, then the other as he brought her to ecstasy again and again.
His toes curled, his body tensing as intense pleasure struck down his spine, through his balls and the stems of both cocks before first one and then the other released their load onto the ground. The shock of his orgasm was such that he instinctively folded in on himself, groaning long and loud in the quiet forest.
Forcing his breath back under control, Aerdan opened his eyes and saw his seed splattered across the luminescent leaves of a low-lying bush at his feet.
He wanted to spill inside Danielle. He wanted to hear her moans, feel the fog and bliss of two bodies finding their release while their limbs were entwined, his lips capturing hers, his tongue plundering her mouth as she cried into it.
Balls and shafts twitching, Aerdan put himself away and turned back to make the short journey back to Bedvir, Haddis and Danielle.
Despite the jealousy that had plagued him, and hadn’t fully gone away yet, Aerdan hadn’t been as bothered by the sight of Bedvir and Haddis enjoying Danielle’s body as he’d thought he would be. In fact, it had been arousing. While they were lost in pulling on the sensual threads Danielle didn’t seem to know were a vital part of her, weaved throughout her being, he’d had the pleasure of watching her reactions, and they�
��d been intoxicating. Watching the way the nub of her nipple pressed against the thin cloth of her dress. The way she pulled and pinched at it as it grew more prominent. He would gladly invite the taste of fabric into his mouth a thousand times to feel it again.
She was everything.
Aerdan knelt onto the blanket and lay down. Danielle was tucked between Haddis and Bedvir.
‘You can go whenever,’ Aerdan said, hoping Bedvir would move so he could take his place.
‘I will not be going.’
‘What?’
‘The next time I release, it will be at Danielle’s bidding. By her hand, or mouth, or cunt. Not a moment before.’
‘Why would you do that?’ Aerdan asked, the memory of his ache still clear in his mind.
‘Because my release will be all the sweeter for having waited for her.’
Aerdan shook his head, unable to understand Bedvir’s compulsion, but unwilling to talk about his friend’s “release” anymore.
‘How do you think next rote will go?’
Aerdan sighed. ‘I think games are inevitable.’
‘So we’ll be here a few rotes yet.’
Aerdan nodded.
‘Good. We sleep here for the next few nights. I’ll set everything up so that she’s more comfortable and we have everything we need.’
Aerdan hummed in response. ‘I’ll go to the ship at first light and bring back breakfast.
‘Sidha helped me set this up earlier. He said he and Kentor would bring food after the sun rises.’
Aerdan hummed in response again, feeling the heaviness of sleep pulling him down. It was odd that he wasn’t jealous of being the one not tucked into Danielle, but a part of him knew it was because there were thousands of nights to come.
