I couldn’t keep denying it now, even if I wanted to. Not when I’d seen every detail before ever setting foot at that crime scene.
Zero chance now that there could be any other explanation. This killer got inside my head somehow.
I paced and muttered to myself so damned much that I disturbed Myrt’s comalike sleep. She opened her sightless eyes and shifted her ears to follow my progress back and forth across the living room but didn’t bother picking up her head.
I poured a drink—vodka, stiff—and turned on the TV to try to distract myself with an episode of whatever the hell mindless reality show was currently airing. I found one, tried to focus on it. Every contestant sucked. The judges might not hear that slightly off-key warble, but imperfect pitch rang in my ears like a dog whistle in Myrtle’s. Real talent was rare.
My drink was empty. I poured another. I was contemplating a third when I must have drifted off in my comfy chair, lulled by the heat of the fireplace, because the door chimes startled me awake again.
Two hours had gone by. I got up and picked up my regrettably empty glass. The doorbell rang again.
“Rachel, you up?”
It was Mason’s voice. I dragged my feet to the door and turned the lock. “Come on in, it’s open.” Then I headed back to the bar for a refill and poured one for him while I was at it. I made mine weaker this time, though, and added soda. Yeah, image. I didn’t want him seeing me drinking straight vodka like water. People tended to form certain opinions of women who did that.
Turning, I offered him a glass, ice cubes clinking, and as he took it from me, his fingers brushed over mine. Ice-cold, and not all that steady. He looked like hell, and it wasn’t just exhaustion.
“So?” I asked, watching his face.
“Yeah, I can’t tell you all that much.”
“You don’t have to tell me all that much. I saw it. Remember?”
“You know that’s not possible.” I could tell by the lack of conviction behind those words that even he didn’t believe them.
“Then how do you explain what’s been happening to me?”
He shrugged and averted his eyes. Aha. He had a theory.
“I need to know if the details I saw were accurate, Mason. I have to know, okay? You can understand that, can’t you?”
“Yeah.” He drew a breath, let it out again. “Yeah, I can’t even imagine what this must be like for you. I really didn’t believe it, to tell you the truth. Until tonight.”
I wanted to ask if he believed me even now, but I was afraid of the answer. There was still no proof, I knew that. He’d been with me when the call came in, yeah, but before that I’d had all night. I could have slipped out, bludgeoned one guy, hanged another...yeah, right. He had to know as well as I did how impossible that was. Terry Skullbones must have had eighty pounds on me. Maybe a hundred. Probably a hundred.
“So? Were my details accurate?”
“Several of them were, yes.”
Yes? Not yeah, not uh-huh, not yup, but yes. Formal now. He was keeping a physical distance, too, now that he had his drink. Like I was carrying some virulent bug he didn’t want to catch. He was probably spooked. Hell, he oughtta try being me for an hour and see how fucking spooked he was.
“Which details?” I demanded.
“I can’t—”
“You can’t tell me that. You’re like a broken record, you know that?” I moved to the fireplace and cranked it up a notch, took a big gulp from my glass and decided to make the next one a little stronger. “What can you tell me, Mason?”
He shrugged. “There’ll be an autopsy, but it’s pretty clear he died from the hammer blows.”
“Three of them. The one that glanced off the side and tore half his ear off, the one dead center, topside, and the one in the back.” I touched my own head as I spoke. “Right?”
His body tightened. I felt it, knew it, even though I didn’t see it. He tensed up, sure as shit, and there was a hitch in his breath, just a small one.
“I’ll take that as a yes,” I said.
Shooting me a look, he said, “How do you do that?”
“Do what? Read you?” I shrugged, downed the rest of my drink, paced to the bar and made another. “You?” I asked with a lift of my tumbler.
“I’m sipping.”
“God forbid you get drunk and tell me what the hell is going on, right?” I didn’t sip. I gulped.
“If I knew—”
“I know you don’t know. I don’t know, either, but I’ve got some theories. And the one I keep coming back to is your brother.”
I didn’t have to look at him to feel him react. The ice cubes in his glass tinked the sides more loudly than before the second I said “brother.”
“My brother is dead.”
“I know. But his organs live on. What if Terry back there got his bone grafts from your brother just like I got my corneas?”
I turned to look at him. He was taking a long, slow pull from his glass. When he lowered it, he moved closer to the fire and stood staring at the flames, his back to me, and I knew what he was doing then, too. Trying to focus on something so intently that I wouldn’t be able to keep reading him the way I was. “What if he did? How would that explain any of this?” he asked.
He was picking every word so carefully, speaking so slowly, making sure nothing he didn’t want to reveal would leak out, and that made me even more certain that he was holding something back.
“Don’t you see it, Mason? It would connect us. I’ve got the corneas, Terry got some skull bone, both from the same donor. Somehow that linked me to the killer. I was seeing the stuff Terry was doing.” I lowered my head. “Maybe your brother was a psychic and you just didn’t know it. Maybe he was seeing the killings, too, and that’s what he couldn’t live with.”
His breath rushed out of him. Relief? And for the second time he was feeling it when I talked about his brother being a psychic. Why?
I walked up beside him, ostensibly to stare into the fire but really so I could see more than just the back of his light blue shirt. “I know you think Terry was a copycat, but I don’t. The thing is, why would he suddenly off himself like that? I mean, after killing thirteen other men, why kill himself after number fourteen? And without even bothering to hide the body, as if there was no point in trying to keep you from knowing it was him. Were you getting close to catching him?”
Mason shook his head slow. “He was never a suspect. But they’ll search his place, anyway.”
“For his trophies. The missing driver’s licenses.”
He nodded, then stopped himself. “You’re not supposed to know about those, either.” He turned to search my face. “How do you?”
“I don’t know. I must have seen it. It’s just there with a pile of other useless crap I didn’t have before the transplant.”
“What kind of crap?”
I shrugged. “A love of hot sauce and reggae music. A fondness for very lame rhymes.” I blinked. “Wait a minute, wait a minute. Terry said something about that at group.”
“Something about what?”
“Rhyming.” I gulped, then shook my head. “Look at me now. I’m one of those woo-woo freaks, seeing signs and omens in every little thing. This is ridiculous. Terry’s dead. I guess the guilt must’ve gotten to him. Maybe that’s why he didn’t hide the last body. So the families would have closure and the police could stop wasting time looking for a killer who was already dead. His way of atoning for his sins or something. At least it’s over now. No one else will have to die. And maybe...maybe we can find where he dumped the bodies, right? Find my brother. Give him a decent burial.”
“I hope so.”
“Then why do you sound like you don’t believe it?”
He lifted his head but didn’t look at me. He looked at his drink instead, then quickly downed it. “I should go.”
“Really?”
Then he looked at me.
I shrugged, rolled my eyes. “Look, I’m not hitting on y
ou, okay? But it’s a big house, and I’ve had a rough night.”
“You’re scared.”
“Shitless, to put it delicately. And I know it’s stupid to be. He’s dead. The Wraith is dead. This is over now. Right?”
He almost relaxed, nodded. “All right, Rachel. I’ll sack out on your couch.” With one blow, he broke the tension that had been squatting on my shoulders. Knocked it right off me.
“No need. There’s a perfectly good guest room upstairs.”
“Okay. Is there a perfectly good shower to go with it?”
“Oh, hell yes. But breakfast is gonna consist of instant oatmeal and coffee. I’m no cook.”
“Neither am I.”
“No worries. We’ll muddle through.” I slugged back the rest of my drink and set the glass down. “This way, Detective.” And I headed up the stairs.
Myrtle jumped up—or what passed for jumping with her—and came scrambling up behind me, scrambling also being a relative term. I mean, she was an overweight bulldog, after all.
“Aren’t you going to lock the door?”
“Oh.” I paused on the stairs. “Yeah, I guess so. I don’t usually. It’s... I mean, you know, quiet out here. I’m in the middle of fucking nowhere. And there’s a gate.”
“Which you left open. How do you think I drove right up to the door? Humor me.”
I waved an arm. “Be my guest.”
He went to the front door, and turned the lock and dead bolt. “Are the other entrances...?”
“Already locked. I keep them that way, since we hardly ever use them. Will you come to bed already?”
He sent me a look, a quick, unguarded, surprised one.
I winked at him. “Just wanted to see your face. You’re a little bit scared of me, aren’t you, Mason Brown?”
“A little bit, yeah.”
I was surprised he’d admitted it. “Good,” I said. “You should be. This way.” And I headed up the stairs again.
* * *
He didn’t sleep. Hell, he wasn’t about to sleep. He had to keep an eye on the mouthy, spooky chick, because he was half-afraid she really was the serial killer. Okay, not really.
Or maybe.
He didn’t know what to think. But he was sure this wasn’t about his brother, couldn’t possibly be about his brother. There were no ghosts, and there were no such things as unseen connections made through body parts, no matter what some psychiatrist thought. Tissue and bone did not have intentions or minds or evil in them. And the thought that kept on coming to him, that somehow his brother was still killing...no. Just no.
But he had the shrink’s book stuffed inside his jacket, anyway. Cellular Consciousness. So he lay awake reading it. At first he was just skimming, and then it sucked him in. This Dr. Vosberg had a lot of documentation. Page after page of cases—the names turned into aliases, of course—where transplant recipients not only developed cravings for their donors’ favorite foods but felt inexplicable familiarity with their favorite places, started using turns of phrase their donors had used, even recognized the donors’ family members, though not by name.
Eric had loved reggae music and hot sauce. And his most irritating habit had been those weird rhymes he came out with. Used to drive Mason crazy when they were kids.
Mainly because it never seemed like Eric who said them but like someone else. Someone mean.
Was there any way Rachel could be making up her newfound love of hot sauce and reggae? Had she faked the vision that knocked her to her knees when she stepped into his apartment, or lied about having seen the latest murder go down? Maybe, but where the hell would she have gotten the information? And why would she want to? What would she have to gain?
PR? She was a writer, after all.
But not a psychic. She’s making a killing off her books as it is. She has no reason to add to the positive thinking thing she hypes, not when it’s working so well for her as it is.
Maybe sales were down and she needed to heat things up.
He fished his phone out of his discarded jeans to go online and did a little scoping out of her latest few titles. But they’d apparently been her bestsellers to date. The most recent one had spent seven weeks on the New York Times bestsellers list. She didn’t seem to be hurting for money or fame.
So he was forced to consider other options. Options like the one where maybe she was telling the truth. Maybe she really was seeing the things she claimed to be seeing, and maybe it was because a part of his brother really was alive inside her head.
He hoped to God it wasn’t true, then went back to his reading.
* * *
I didn’t sleep well, what with Mason Brown in the room right next to mine, though probably better than I would have if I’d been there alone, given all the horrors of the night before. God, Terry Skullbones, a serial killer. Who the hell would have thought?
Eventually I must have slept, because it was the sound of Mason’s banging around that woke me. I got up, pulled a robe on over my typical nighttime attire—big T-shirt and undies—and wandered toward his room.
He was freshly showered, hair still wet, and dressed in the clothes he’d worn the day before. He looked over at me, then sort of kept looking at me. Suddenly self-conscious, I pushed a hand through my hair and wondered why I hadn’t bothered to look in the mirror before coming to his room.
“You’re up early,” I said, while bitching myself out for being such a girl.
“Yeah, have to get to work. Important meeting this morning.”
“Yeah? With who?”
“Can’t say.”
Well, that felt like a slap. “Oh. Sorry for asking. I guess I thought we were sort of...teaming up on this.”
He lowered his head, like he felt a little guilty or mean or something. “I can’t really do that, Rachel. I mean, I admit you’re getting some valid stuff, but I’m still a cop and you’re still—”
“Oh, come on, I can’t be a suspect. The Wraith is dead.”
“Did I say suspect?”
I shook my head. I was being petulant, and that wasn’t like me.
“Civilian. I was going to say civilian.”
I sighed heavily. “It doesn’t matter. It’s over now.” God, please let it be over now. “Besides, I have an important meeting this morning, too.”
“Good. I’ll get out of here and let you get to it.”
“Good.”
He was shoving his wallet and phone into his jeans, then turning to look around the room to be sure he hadn’t forgotten anything. He’d even made the bed. Neat freak.
I rolled my eyes, swallowed my pride. “Thanks for staying with me last night.”
“You’re welcome.” He came to the doorway. “If you want me to come back and do it again, I will.”
“You will?”
“Sure. You’ve been through a lot. Besides, we still have to figure out where your brother is. I’m not going to give up on that.”
Wow. He was actually being...nice to me.
Yeah, what the hell is up with that?
Before I could ask, he was cupping a hand around my nape and leaning in. His lips brushed over mine, and I damn near had a heart attack. Then he just backed off and moved on past me, trotting down the stairs and out the front door almost before I’d opened my eyes.
What the fuck?
* * *
I had a breakfast date with my BBF, Mott, that morning. I’d phoned him last night—before the murder, the vision, the visit to the crime scene and Mason’s mind-warping goodbye kiss.
That was no kiss—barely a peck, in fact—but it sure left me thinking about one.
I needed my friend right now, and I had pretty much guilted him into getting together, but I’d be damned if I was going to let him ruin our friendship just because I could see and he couldn’t.
He’d agreed to the meal, but got all huffy when we discussed a place. The conversation went something like this.
Me: “So I’ll meet you at the Hollywood, then? Eight
sound good?”
Mott: “Oh, sure, because it’s easier for you to come to Cortland than for me to go Whitney Point, you being sighted at all.”
Me: “Yeah, Mott. Everything’s easier for me now that I’m sighted. Deal with it.”
Mott: “So you think you’re more capable than I am now. You see why this isn’t going to work anymore?”
Me: “Fine. You come here. The Country Kitchen. MapQuest it, fuckface.”
I used to avoid the small, crowded diner. I loved it now. It had everything a small-town diner ought to have, right down to the mouthy waitress. I’d bantered with her a few times over coffee. She was almost as good at Sarcasm Ping Pong as I was.
I waited outside for Mott, because the place wasn’t exactly blind-guy friendly. Before he arrived, I got the eeriest feeling I was being watched, and I hunched deeper into my coat while looking all around.
Then his taxi pulled up, and he got out. I couldn’t help it. I ran over and hugged him. Damn, I’d missed him. “You’re an idiot to pay cab fare when I offered to come to Cortland.”
He hugged me back, not as enthusiastically as I would have liked, but he wasn’t ice-cold, either. “You bought a car and I’m wasting money?”
“I don’t care, I love her. She’s a classic. Come on, let’s eat. I’m starved.” I looked Mott up and down, loving seeing him clearly for the first time. I’d known he was a Brillo head, but the sheer depth of his brown curls amazed me. And his face was nicer than I’d pictured it, too. Close to my imaginary picture of him, but better. Small features, an elfin nose and narrow mouth. “I’ve missed the hell out of you, Mott.”
He lowered his head. “I’ve missed you, too. But here I am, feeling self-conscious about how I look. I never felt like that with you before.”
“You look great, and I don’t care about that anyway, and you know it.” I hooked my arm through his.
He pulled it away. “Don’t do that to me.”
“Do what? There are three steps, here, I was just—”
“Then tell me there are three steps. Don’t guide me like I’m helpless.”
“Wow, bite my head off, why don’t you?” I walked ahead of him. “Follow me and hope for the best, then. You’re at the steps now.” I walked up and let him follow behind, trying not to touch him or help in any way. “Door is on your right, I’m opening it and going through now. Stop when you’re two steps in.”
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