by Sienna Grant
I take a breath in anticipation of wondering what she’s gonna tell me. I’m so fucking angry, I wanna find him and beat the shit out of him. I clench my fist, move Lex off me and stand, I put my hands at the neck and breathe slowly. “Are you okay, I’m sorry I shouldn’t have told you,” she looks down at the floor and I to go to the bathroom to calm down.
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
ALEXIA
All the time I was talking, Blake just listened not saying a word, just stroking my hair, rubbing his thumb across my hand soothingly while I carried on telling him the horrors of my marriage. We were married as soon as I turned 18, it was the biggest mistake I ever made. I hear the toilet flush and the bathroom door open, I drink the rest of my wine and pour some more. I’m emotionally exhausted but I have to carry on, or I’ll lose my nerve again.
He takes a seat next to me, “I’m sorry,” I look at him confused, “What for Blake?” he frowns at me and tips his head to one side.
“For getting angry, for walking away when you needed me,” I take his face in my hands this time and kiss his lips.
“You didn’t walk away from me, you took a breather, believe me, you needed it, it wasn’t a pretty story to hear,”
“You are the strongest woman I’ve ever met, you’re amazing!
“What…for staying in an abusive relationship, for not walking away when I had the chance. For putting my son through that shit. I could have walked away before I had him, or better still before I got pregnant. He tricked me into being happy Blake, he made me think we were getting better, kind of, we had sex once, that was it, and Grady was the result, he was still fucking tarts left right and centre in the different towns he was staying over in for work. I should have left when I had the chance, before he had the chance to nearly kill me, and before he had the chance to get what he wanted and rape me…!” I stop dead…
I didn’t mean to tell him that bit, shit!
I’m so angry, my chest is heaving with emotion and Blake is sitting – stunned - saying nothing. His eyes darken, and I can see the rage building in his eyes. He goes into the kitchen. I leave him to have his space. I swig off the rest of my wine and lie on the sofa, I curl up in a ball and let all my emotions out, I cry for everything, the scary thing is, I may never be me again, I was outgoing, feisty, strong, he knocked too much out of me. I don’t hear Blake come back into the room until he touches my shoulder.
“Princess,” I don’t answer him, but I feel him lifting me up like I weigh nothing, he sits down and puts me on his lap and cradles me on his lap, all the time shushing me gently and rubbing my back, stroking my hair.
I see him taking his phone from his pocket, and he types out a text. He puts his phone on the arm of the sofa, and twists his body so his legs are resting on the cushions, kicks his shoes off and lies underneath me, we lie there for what seems like hours, eventually I can feel myself drifting when I hear my name.
“Lex, come on let’s get you to bed, you’re exhausted,” I nod my head at him. He lies me on my bed and follows me, he pulls me into him.
“I’m not leaving, but I’ll sleep on the sofa, I don’t want to leave you alone, not tonight. Is that okay with you?” I nod my head.
“Will you stay with me?” I ask him in a weak sounding voice, and I hate the way it sounds. “Here, though, I don’t want to be alone,” He nods,
“Of course, if that’s what you want?” I nod my head again.
“It is.” I get up to change into my PJ’s in the bathroom, I have a wash and clean my teeth. When I enter the bedroom Blake has taken his t-shirt and socks off but kept his jeans on, “Why have you still got your jeans on? You can’t sleep in those or are you not wearing boxers” teasing him, I wink at him.
Blake smirks but also nods his head when I tell him to take his jeans off. We get into bed, and he spoons me from behind, wrapping his arms around me, keeping me safe, he kisses the top of my head, and I drift off to sleep in the warmth and the safety of Blake’s arms.
I’m hot, I can’t breathe, he’s pinning me to the bed, oh god, not again…please no…get off me, I’m shouting, but he doesn’t hear me, his hands are trying to rip my underwear off. I’m thrashing under him, but he won’t stop. I shout louder and louder…
“Princess, wake up. Lex, you’re dreaming.” I wake up in a hot sweat, Blake is brushing my hair away from my face. Once my breathing is under control, I lean up to kiss him, he kisses me, but I know he’s holding back.
“Blake, please kiss me, I need you to,” at my needy request, he cups face in his hands and kisses me with passion like he’s never kissed me before, his tongue demands entrance, I let him, and I kiss him back with everything I’ve got in me.
He softly nudges me onto my back, he leans over me with one hand holding my head still so he can take control of the kiss and the other one is snaking down my body and teasing as he brings it back up, skimming my breast, his thumb very lightly skating my nipple. He leans up and gazes into my eyes.
“Do you want me to stop?” I shake my head at him.
“No, please don’t,” I say breathlessly “I need you, Blake, I need you to make me forget him. I want you to touch me.” At my request he starts touching me, kissing down my neck.
Blake inches my vest top up and pushes it over my head, he reclaims his spot and goes back to kissing and licking towards my breast, he takes my nipple in his mouth, sucks and lightly scrapes his teeth across it. My whole body is tingling, he slides his other hand down my tummy until he’s cupping me on top of my knickers, he looks up at me, looking for an answer to the unspoken question, I nod at him. His hand goes under the waistband, his finger touches my clit, and I moan loudly.
“Sshhh,” I quieten down.
He rubs and pinches it, his finger slides down further to my opening and enters me. Blake pulls out and spreads the moisture up over my clit and rubs harder. I try to close my legs, but he stops me, he goes back to kissing me, hard, I moan into his mouth as he enters another finger into me. Finding my sweet spot and rubs my clit with his thumb until I’m shaking and moaning loudly, he muffles the sound with his mouth, I can feel my orgasm approaching.
“Let it go, Princess, for me,” he whispers into me ear, so I do, my legs are shaking, and I’m panting hard by the time I’ve come down.
I open my eyes to a breath-taking smile. He fixes his eyes on me, I smile shyly at him. “You are so beautiful, I don’t care if you don’t believe me because I’m going to tell you all the time until you start to believe it yourself. I’m not going anywhere, no one could compare to you, your understated beauty, your strength, and what’s more your heart. I’m going to look after you and keep you safe, and I meant what I said the other day, no one will hurt you again; I promise.”
He kisses my nose, my cheeks, my forehead and then on the lips. He rolls to his back and takes me with him, I lie on my side and put my head on his chest and slowly, I sink into oblivion…
If Blake Davids turns out to be my downfall, it’ll be the greatest fall I’ve ever had.
BLAKE
Wow! That was intense, I’m lying on my back with Lex lying on my chest soundly sleeping, she stunning, her long dark hair hanging loose, while my arm is wrapped tightly around her. When she was re-telling her story I wanted to punch something – him preferably! But when she said the bastard had raped her; I felt physically sick. How can anyone do that, that was his wife, I’m not really a violent man but I can hold my own, and I won’t let anyone hurt the people in my life.
I know Lex means more to me than she should in such a short space of time, but I can’t help how I feel, she’s consumed me, I’m totally lost in her. Her personality, her beauty and her heart. She has so much love to give, but it’s been locked up tight, and now she’s started opening up to me, I’m going to find that key to her heart and open it up for good and hope she feels the same way for me. I’ll make her see she can trust me. Grady’s snoring softly, so I decide to get a couple of hours of sleep before I need to get up
for work.
I wake a few hours later with Lex still tucked into my side. She hasn’nt moved from my side, from when she drifted off but, I need to piss, I don’t want to wake her, so I gently slide my arm from underneath her and softly move off the bed, I go to the bathroom, rinse my face, swill my mouth with some mouthwash until I can clean my teeth properly and head back to the bedroom.
It’s 5.30, Grady’s a little restless, so I quietly get dressed and try not to wake him fully. I enter the kitchen to put the kettle on to make coffee, Lex needs all the rest she can get after last night. I tidy around in the lounge while the kettle is boiling to keep myself busy and then go back to the kitchen to make my coffee.
I’m sitting at the table drinking my coffee when I hear soft footsteps padding into the kitchen behind me, I feel her hands settle on my shoulders.
“You should have woken me,” I hold her hand that’s resting there. I twist a little and stare up at the gorgeous women looking down at me, “I was gonna leave you a little longer and bring your cup of tea into bed to you, where’s the little man, he was a little restless when I got up,” she rubs her hand over my cheek, smiles a little.
“He’s playing in his cot,” answering as she leans down to kiss me, just a soft peck on the lips but it has so much feeling.
“What was that for,” I pull on her hand and guide her to my lap, she straddles my legs, in tiny shorts, which barely cover her luscious arse, I rub my hands up her thighs.
“Because I can Mr Davids, and to say thank you, for last night. For being here and staying with me, and not running when you heard what I had to say; about the ugliness of my life.” I take hold of her face and gaze deep into her gorgeous brown eyes and kiss her lips,
“I’m here, always. You can tell me anything, and I promise to listen, when you’re happy, if you’re sad, if you’re worried. I know you’re scared to open your heart back up, but I want it to be me that you open it up too. I know it’s only been a short time but I know how I feel about you Lex and I hope you feel the same for me, you can trust me Lex. I promise.” I kiss her again, but with fervour this time, until her eyes are hooded and my hard on is trying to break free from its restraints of my trousers.
“I need to get to work princess, but I need to go home first,” she nods her head and lifts herself off me,
“I’ll go get Grady,” she heads off to the bedroom. Once I’ve calmed myself I go to the sink to rinse my cup out, by the time I’ve finished, Grady loudly enters the room. I smirk and go to them both, I kiss Lex’s forehead and Grady’s cheek but before I turn away, I get an idea.
“Can you get a babysitter on Saturday?”
“I might be able to why,” she asks with an adorable frown on her face,
“because, Princess, I want to cook for you. But I want some time for us, how do you feel about that,” nodding her head she says,
“I’d love to, I’ll ask Becka if she can take him for the night,”
“Okay baby, I have to go. Speak to you later.” I kiss her once more - then I turn and leave them both.
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
ALEXIA
Grady is waving to him as he walks out of the room, I hear the front door shut, I sink into a chair and let out the breath I was holding, I touch my lips and trace them with my fingers, they’re still tingling from the touch of his lips. I know what he said was true, I can trust him, I know I can, because I feel so safe with him, I felt it from the first time I spent time with him, I also know that Blake is an exceptional man, and I could open my heart to him. I want to so badly.
Even though it’s only been a short while, he’s shown me more respect, love and compassion in that time than Paul ever did in the seven years we’d been together. I make a promise to myself to try.
I think that decision may have been taken out of my hands already, though.
The rest of the day flies by, we’ve been to town to do some shopping and stopped off at the park while the weather is still nice enough. Everyone knows how quick British weather can change after all. Grady is now asleep in his pushchair; I’m gathering the washing when I hear my phone ring; Becka. I had texted her earlier to tell her I needed a favour.
“Hey hun,”
“Hey beaut, you okay,” she asks sounding concerned.
“Yeah, I’m fine,”
“So, what’s this favour. What can I do for you?”
“Wow! Just jump right in, why don’t ya,”
“Yep, there’s no use in beating around the bush, and anyway I’m way too nosey for that, you know that well enough,”
“Don’t I just,” I whisper under my breath sarcastically. “I was wondering if you could have Grady for me Saturday night if you’re not doing anything of course?”
“Oh my god, yeah, of course, I will, the girls aren’t at my parents this weekend either so they’ll love it,” she chirps.
“What about Mason, will he be okay?”
“Are you kidding me, he loves it when he sees Grady, it’s another male in the house, for a while anyway,” she replies laughing. I go on to tell her about Blake asking me to go to his for the night, and I tell her that I’ve started opening up to him, to say she’s happy is an understatement.
“Oh my god Lex that’s fantastic, I’m so pleased. It’s going well then between you two?”
“Yeah, when I told him about Paul, he was so angry! I hope he never finds me because I dread to think what would happen if Blake got his hands on him!”
“Nothing that the bastard doesn’t deserve Lex!”
“Yeah I know, but as much as I’d love to see Paul get his comeuppance, I don’t want Blake to get hurt. I don’t know how I’d feel if he turned up now, I’m better than before, I’m settled here, I like it, I have you, and now I have Blake, Grady’s happier than he was. Everything is just better!”
“I know babe, don’t worry, we’re here, I promise. If Paul did find you, he wouldn't get to you, he won’t get the chance.”
“Bec, I love you, and I know you think you can stop him, but you can’t be with me twenty - four hours a day, seven days a week. It’s just not pliable. I’ll be fine!”
“Yeah, okay if you say so, well I need to go, let me know what time you want me to pick him up,”
“Will do hun, see you later.”
I put the phone down, I sit at the kitchen table, wondering what will happen if he does ever find me. I hear Grady waking up in his pushchair, I let him out of his pushchair, and he goes to play with his building blocks.
The next couple of days have flown by, I’ve worked Thursday and last night. Blake and I are settling into a nice routine, we text back and forth, and he rings me if he gets a chance while he’s working. He’s picked me up the last two nights from work and leaves once he’s kissed the life from me so we can both get some rest.
It’s now Saturday, and as much as I’m tired from working the last two nights, I can’t wait for Blake to come and pick me up. I really need a car, I hate having to rely on people to take me places, and I don’t like Blake having to run around for me, but he says he doesn’t mind – but I hate being dependent on someone, after being independent for so long.
Becka picked up Grady an hour ago so, I’ve showered, shaved and I’m know standing in front of the wardrobe wondering what to wear, hmmm…jeans and a cami or a maxi dress? I’m only going to Blake’s so I go for comfort instead, a light coloured floral dress with a pair of sandals. I blow dry my hair and leave it down in waves down my back, I put a little mascara on and gloss on my lips, and I’m ready for him. While I’m putting some things in an overnight bag, I hear the security buzzer sound. “This is it, Lex!” I say to myself. I let him in, and two seconds later he’s knocking the door. I’m nervous, god knows why.
Oh well, pull yourself together girl!
I grab my phone, and my keys drop them in my handbag, pick up my overnight bag and open the door. Standing in front of me in a dark pair of jeans, a dark polo and a broad smile on his face – is Blake. He le
ans forward and plants a sweet kiss on my lips, “Hey princess, are you ready?” I lick my lips where he’s kissed me and nod my head with a sweet smile for him. He takes my overnight bag from me, and we leave. “Your carriage awaits, mi’lady” he opens the door for me to get in, I smile and thank him, and head towards Blake’s.
BLAKE
It’s Saturday, the day I get to have Lex to myself. The last two days since I left Lex on Wednesday morning have dragged, I’ve gone through the motions, working, speaking to Lex on the phone, or texting, then picked her up after work to take her home. A number of times I’ve wanted to do so much more than kiss her and just take her to her bed has shocked even me, but I’ve resisted the temptation because I want it to mean something to her, to both of us.
I’m nervous…shit, I’m never nervous! But with Lex, it means so much more. I can’t wait to pick her up later. I spend the day doing some chores around the house, I don’t want Lex to think I’m a slob and incapable of keeping shit clean so I clean the house, put some clothes in the washer machine and go for a run to get rid of this nervous energy. I don’t take Max with me this time, I need to concentrate.
Once I’m back, I make a call to dad, I still haven’t heard a thing from Liv, the little madam, neither has dad, I make a point to ring her tomorrow, I don’t think about my sister anymore - tonight's about Lex. I’ve got the food all ready to be cooked once I’ve picked her up, I jump in the shower, get ready and head out of the door.
I pull up outside Lex’ building, blow out a nervous breath and go to the door. Once in, I knock on her door and wait…the door opens, and there she stands, absolutely stunning! Simple, understated beauty. I can’t take my eyes off her, so I lean forward and kiss her lips because I have to taste her lips again. I make sure she’s ready, take her bag from her and lead her to the car.
