by Sienna Grant
“I was sick of lying about, I feel so lazzzzyyyy,”
“Well I’ve got something for you,” he says rooting the other overfilled bag, “I’ll be back I have to go to the car.” I start putting the groceries away.
I look behind me when I hear the front door shut again, “Mummmy,” I look down and see Grady with some Thorntons chocolates and Blake is standing in front of me with a big bunch of flowers. A huge smile is plastered on his face and the tears are filling up in my eyes. I stand shocked with my hands covering my mouth.
I bend and say thank you and cuddle my baby, I pick him up and hold him to me. I lean into Blake and kiss him, “Thank you, you shouldn’t have, though,” I say tearfully but happily, he frowns and wipes the tears from eyes,
“Why shouldn’t I, don’t tell me you are allergic to flowers?” laughing I shake my head at him.
“No,” he takes Grady from me and hands me the flowers. I fill a vase with some water and arrange the flowers in it. I turn, and Blake is standing with a box in his hand looking rather sheepish.
“I don’t know if I’ve missed a period yet, though, but there again I don’t have periods. Oh well, what the hell,” I take the box out of his hand and go to the bathroom, when I turn to shut the door Blake is right behind me. I lean into him, peck his lips gently, stare into his gorgeous eyes and smile a little.
“Out! You’re not standing there while I pee,”
“I’m not shy babe,” shaking my head, I shut the door, lock it and take the stick from the packaging.
Once I’m done peeing, which by the way seems to take forever, I put the lid on and open the door once I’m presentable. As soon as I unlock the door, Blake’s in the bathroom with me.
“Three minutes, two lines is positive, I sit on the toilet lid and fiddle with my hair, Blake takes my hands in his, “It’ll be fine, I’m just going to check on Grady, don’t look at it until I’m back,” Blakes tells me.
“Yes sir,” I answer saluting him,
“You best remember that,” Blake says winking as he walks out of the room.
Oh wow, I’ve never been so happy
I wrap my arms around myself and smile happily, I’m so tempted to take a peek, oh god what if it’s negative. I don’t get any more time to think about that though, because Blake walks back in with Grady in his arms and puts him on the floor, he leans on my legs and is babbling. He’s starting to say some words but nothing understandable apart from a few.
“Surely it’s been longer than three minutes just open it…” he’s more nervous than I am.
I take the lid from the test slowly, my stomach is churning, “I can’t do it you look,” I put my hands over my eyes. I peek from between my fingers and watch Blake’s expression, he has a lazy grin forming on his face, he holds the test up so I can see, two lines…it’s positive!
“It’s positive?” I ask Blake nervously. Blake’s has a massive smile on his face and is nodding at me
“Yep, princess we’re gonna have a baby,” I’m a little shocked, even though I kind of expected it, just didn’t want to believe it.
He stands and pulls me to my feet, he puts his hands on my backside and lifts me, I wrap my arms around his neck, he takes me from the bathroom and into the kitchen where he sits me on the counter.
I open my legs a little so he can stand between them, “Thank you, baby, I’m so happy, and before you start to worry, we’ll be fine…I promise, I know it’s early days but who cares, I love you so much! You, Grady and now this little one are my whole world and if I have to tell you every day for the rest of our lives, I will.”
My heart completely melts for him, he has well and truly stolen my heart, I have unshed tears in my eyes, he wipes my eyes and pulls my face towards him and kisses me, he doesn’t need to wait for entrance anymore. I open up to him as he takes me over with his passion for me. He breaks away from me and smiles...big!
“I love you, Blake, so much, I never knew a man like you existed, but the day I walked into you in that café must have been fate, God, I’m so glad I’m clumsy,” I roll my eyes and he laughs at me.
“Yeah? Well I for one am glad that you’re clumsy.” He kisses me on the forehead, “now we need to make you a doctor’s appointment babe,” I sigh and nudge him out of the way.
“I’ll go do it now,” he lifts me off the counter, “Oh and Blake, don’t say anything,” he questionably looks at me.
“Until we’ve seen the doctor I mean, don’t say anything, please?” he tells me he pinky swears, and I go to my room to get my phone. I manage to get an appointment for Friday morning at 9.30 am and on Saturday we’re having a get together with Liv and Harry as it’s been a year since his mum passed away. Hopefully, as long as everything goes well at the doctors, we’ll have some good news to share.
BLAKE
We’re sat in the reception area of the doctor’s surgery waiting to be called. It’s very rare I go to the doctors, and now I can see why, there’s more germs in here than outside, ugh, people hacking up over everyone, get me out of here, “You okay babe?” I feel Lex’ hand on my knee to stop it bouncing, “Blake?” I turn my head to look at her.
“What. I’m fine, I want to get out of here that’s all,” I look around the room again in disgust until I hear her name being called. I take her hand, and we go into the doctor’s room.
“Take a seat please,” the doctor is scrolling through Lex’ notes on the computer, she hasn’t even looked up yet. She looks at Lex with a soft, welcoming smile, “Hi Ms Williams, how can I help?”
“Well, I took a pregnancy test the other day, and it came up positive.”
“Is it congratulations?” The doctor actually looks nervous about asking.
“Yes, it is, thank you. We just want to get it confirmed really and also I’ve had some dizzy spells,” the doctor frowns and digs into her draw.
“Okay first things first, can you do a sample for me and I’ll test it, and we’ll do your blood pressure.” Lex goes to the bathroom to do a sample, while I’m left sat like a naughty schoolboy in the headmistress’ office. “So Mr…”
“Davids, we’re not married” she nods at me and smiles, Lex comes back into the room before she can ask me anything else. She hands the sample to the doctor and sits down and takes my hand. She dips the test in it, and we wait…again!
“Well, Alexia it seems you’re expecting, congratulations to you both, I smile wide and kiss Lex’ cheek.
“Right let’s do the basics,” the doctor does her weight and her blood pressure, “Okay then, your blood pressure is a little lower than it should be, just eat little and often and make sure to rest.
“Yes well, that won’t be a problem, I’ll make sure she rests.” The doctor smiles and nods her head at Blake.
“Other than that you’ll be fine, because you were on the pill injection we can’t really establish a due date, if you pop up on the bed I’ll do an internal and I might be able to give a bit more information.”
Lex goes behind the curtain, and Doctor Munroe does what she needs to do. Lex sits back down next to me and takes my hand again.
“Okay, from the examination it seems you’re about four weeks, I would say anyway we’ll need to book you a dating scan,” she looks on a chart and writes something down on a sheet.
“Okay, we’re looking at May/June time.” She smiles kindly at us both and hands Lex a pile of forms and papers and tells us the scan letter will be in the post, she tells us to book an appointment for 8 weeks for when she should be around 12 weeks then.
We walk out of the doctors happy. We go to dads to pick up Grady, and we share the news with him. He’s so happy, he wraps Lex up in his arms and pecks her on the cheek, “Thank you, Lex, I’ll always treat Grady like my own. But this is even better, I’ve got two grandchildren to look forward to now, Angie would be over the moon if she were here,” I see Lex look at him with compassion.
“She is here Harry, I wish I could’ve met her, if Blake and Liv are anything to go by, you both
did a fantastic job, and I hope I can be a good mum like she was,” dad has tears in his eyes when he pulls away from her,
“You both will,” he smiles through his tears at her and walks over to me, shakes my hand and pulls me in for a hug and taps my back.
“Your mum was so proud of you son, she would be even more now, just seeing how you are with Grady, I know you’re gonna be a great dad, congratulations. Just wait until your sister finds out.” Dad walks away shaking his head with a wide beaming smile and wiping the tears from his eyes.
We stayed a while longer, and I took the rest of the day off work, we took Grady to the park while the weather was still okay and Lex phoned in sick to work again.
We’ve popped back to my house so we could go and see Max, I haven’t seen him properly, Liv has been looking after him since she’s not gone home yet. Lex is standing at the French doors looking out, she’s like a vision, which makes this question a whole lot easier to ask. I walk behind her and wrap my arms around her middle, I rest my chin on her shoulder.
“Are you alright princess?” I ask as I kiss her neck, I place my hands on her tummy and rest them there.
“Just admiring the view and thinking about the baby,” she answers nodding. I kiss her cheek softly; I turn her in my arms so I can see her face.
“Lex, with the baby and everything, why don’t you move here, with me, there’s more room, the kids can get a bedroom each, you know I want nothing more than to have you and my boy here with me.”
Lex gets all teary eyed, “You called Grady your boy,” I’m nodding in bewilderment at her, “Yeah why wouldn’t I, unless…” she puts her fingertips over my lips.
“Shhhh,” she removes them, I can feel her breath on my face, then she kisses me, she takes control of the kiss, she pours her whole self into this kiss.
I slow it down a little and caress her mouth with mine, I pull away from her and run my fingers down her face, “Yes,” she whispers in my ear, my eyes widen.
“Are you saying what I think you’re saying?” nodding her head.
“Yes Blake, I’ll move in with you,” I spin her around forgetting about her blood pressure, I put her to her feet slowly in case she gets dizzy again.
Later once Grady is in bed, I made sure to show my girl how much I really love her by making slow, sweet love to the mother of my child.
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
ALEXIA
One week later
It’s been a week since Blake, and I found out I was expecting, we’ve had an appointment come through the post for my dating scan for 4 weeks’ time, which by then I should be eight weeks. I’ve started packing our things up, but we haven’t got that much really. We’ve talked it through with Dean, the landlord and he’s letting Liv take over the lease, totally off my recommendation, he was only concerned about the rent, and that’s not a problem so he’s happy. I can’t believe that within a few months, I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I’m expecting again, Grady is thriving and most of all I have Blake. I’m ready to take the next step.
I’m leaving all the furniture for Liv as we won’t need it, it’s only Grady’s cot we’re taking that’s bulky. Harry is looking after Grady while I get some things packed up in the flat, I’m sat in Grady’s bedroom packing up a few of his toys he doesn’t really play with and some clothes, we’re hoping to be moved into Blake’s by the weekend.
I can’t do a lot because Blake won’t let me. I can’t wait for Grady to have a garden to play in and his own room especially as he starts to get older, and I can’t wait to move in with Blake and build our life together!
My phone ringing grabs my attention, I get up to answer my phone, but I miss it and rings off as I get there, my phone pings with a voice message, it’s Mr Roberts, the lawyer. I listen to a message telling me he needs to speak to me urgently, I ring him back straightaway and sit on the sofa while the call connects.
“Ms Williams, it’s so good of you for getting straight back to me,”
“Hi, that’s fine, what’s the problem?” I nervously ask him.
“There’s been some news about your husband.” My stomach churns just from the thought of him calling Paul my husband, even though he still is, I haven’t thought of him like that in so long.
“Okay, you’ve found him then. Is he going to accept the divorce, I really need to know Mr Roberts.” He coughs to clear his throat.
“Alexia, I’m going to need for you to come in the office, tomorrow if you can?” my nervousness goes up a notch then.
“Why can’t you tell me now. He’s contesting the divorce, isn’t he? That…why can’t he just let me go! Why does he keep on doing this to me? I’ll never be happy, he’ll never let me!” I take deep breaths to stop myself getting more worked up.
“Alexia, Alexia, calm down love. Look he’s not contesting it – he’s passed away.” I drop the phone, after a minute or so I can hear a voice coming from the floor, shit. I pick up my phone and place it back against my ear.
“I didn’t want to tell you over the phone, I’m sorry,” his voice is soothing.
“It’s fine…um, how did he die?”
“I don’t want to say over the phone, could you come to the office tomorrow, say ten am, I’ve got a free half an hour then.” I’m nodding, and Mr Roberts has gone quiet on the other end, I realise he can’t see me so I answer him.
“Um, yes of course. I’ll see you then.”
I drop the phone on the seat beside me, and I realise my hands are shaking, I don’t understand why I feel like this, I wished him dead so many times, I’m not even sad…
I’m free.
I’m finally free.
A lone tear runs down my face, I wipe it away, a huge sob leaves me.
What is wrong with me, why am I crying?
I hear the key in the door, I try to wipe the tears away and compose myself the best I can.
“Hey Princess, did you get much done?” Blake calls as he walks straight into the kitchen with some boxes to put my stuff in.
Blake finds me on the sofa with my arms wrapped around my knees hugging them to my chest, he enters the lounge and sees me, he comes toward me tentatively.
“Baby what’s wrong?” I tuck my face in towards my knees so he can’t see me.
“Lex please tell me.” Huge sobs wrack my body, I can’t talk for the sobs, the worst thing is I don’t know why I’m crying.
He takes my hands from around my knees, lifts my chin up and holds both of my hands, he takes one look at my face, and his mood changes instantly, it’s a mixture of anger, worry and sadness.
“Tell me what’s wrong, is everything okay with the baby?” I take a deep breath in and find the strength to tell my Blake.
“He’s dead.” He never takes his eyes off of me as I say it, “What, who’s dead baby?” I gaze into his gorgeous blue eyes, and I can see my world in those eyes. Blake, me, Grady and the new baby, my family.
Those eyes that make everything right in my world.
“Paul is dead,” I tell him quietly, so quiet that I don’t think he hears me.
“Lex, are you okay?” he brushes the backs of his fingers down my cheek and wipes the tears away.
“I don’t know why I’m crying, I don’t understand, I’m not even sad. Blake, he made my life hell for years.”
“Tell me how you’re feeling Princess, it’s just me, let it out sweetheart,” he directs me to his lap and wraps his arms around me and holds me tight.
“I really don’t know, it’s weird. I’ve wished for this to happen so many times so I could be free from him and I know that’s nasty, and you probably hate me, but I kinda feel free.”
Blake’s looking at me like I’m deluded. I can feel his eyes on me, I find a spot on my t-shirt to pull at so I can avoid his gaze.
“Lex look at me, really look at me,” I do what he asks and stare at the expression on his face, it hasn’t changed from earlier. He has so much love for me, I feel comforted and wrapped in warmth just from tha
t.
“I could NEVER hate you, you hear me? I hate him for what he did to you, for what he put you through if you ask me he got what he deserved! Do you know what happened?” I shake my head no. I’m numb at the moment, not knowing I should be feeling.
“We have to go to see Mr Roberts tomorrow morning, he didn’t want to tell me the details over the phone.” Blake kisses my head and lies it against his chest, his fingers soothingly brushing down my cheek.
“Princess, you’re free now. We can do anything we want to. You haven’t got to worry about the divorce or about showing up at court or even thinking he’ll find you one day; he’s gone.” I raise my chin a little so I can see him better he leans down so he can touch my lips with his.
“It’s all about us now sweetheart, our family. You are my whole world.” The tears track down my face, I love him so much, I never thought I could feel like this after everything I went through with Paul, but Blake has made me feel beautiful, safe, he protects me, and I know he loves me with all his heart. I’m finally free!
They say you have to take a walk in the dark before you can enter the light. Blake is my light.
BLAKE
After Lex had the news about Paul, I wasn’t sure how she’d take it, but something changed yesterday. She’s lighter, she lets herself smile more, not that she didn’t before, and I know I make her happy, however, today, even though we have to go to the solicitors and find out how he died – it’s like a weight has been lifted.
I know this is a personal touch by the lawyer, he doesn’t have to see her. I pull up to the car park of the office, I have her hand in mine, she’s clutching it tightly, sucking on her bottom lip, deep in thought.
“Penny for them?” I ask Lex as she turns to face me.
“What? Sorry, I was in my own little world.”
“I said, penny for them; your thoughts?” I ask her again. She sighs heavily,
“Ahhh, nothing, not really. Just thinking I’ll be glad to get this over with.” I brush her knuckles with my lips to soothe her.
