Apparently not the only thing, Samantha had said.
Samantha just didn’t understand. They’d been friends since grade one, but as sophomores in high school, their differences had become more and more apparent over the last three years and were now taking them in opposite directions. Midnight didn’t think they were going to remain friends, let alone best friends, much longer. Life had a way of making that happen.
Midnight grabbed the plush purple bath towel off the rack and dried herself.
Why did He spare me?
It wasn’t the first time the thought had crossed her mind. She wasn’t anyone special. Hadn’t done anything really great or mindful or caring in the last fifteen years. She was just another teenage girl trying to fit into a world she didn’t understand and which seemed to be going to hell anyway. Just yesterday, two planes had crashed into the World Trade Center and now everyone waited for the world to end.
God spared me for this bullshit?
Midnight gave her reflection in the mirror the middle finger, walked out of the bathroom with the towel wrapped around her, and crossed the hallway to her room. She could hear her dad snoring in his bed. He’d probably been up late, as he normally was, either working on his writing or working on a bottle.
She hoped it had been his writing this time.
She pulled on a pair of low-rise blue jeans and a short-sleeved black t-shirt and headed to the kitchen to grab a piece of toast with blueberry jam. She made a pot of coffee, not so much for her but for her dad, hoping the smell would get his butt out of bed. If he’d actually hit the bottle last night, he would need his black java.
Midnight poured herself a cup as well and drank it black, just like her old man. She sort of hated it, but figured if she was making it, she might as well get addicted to it too. After she’d finished eating her breakfast, she put the dirty dishes in the dishwasher, brushed her teeth, grabbed her backpack, and headed for the door.
“What, you don’t have a kiss for your old man?”
“Hey Dad,” she said and kissed his cheek. “Guess the black java tickled your nostrils.”
“Yes, thanks for making it.”
“Headache?”
“A little.”
“Told you not to drink so much.”
“Have I told you how much I love you?”
Midnight grinned. “I know. Got to go. Love you too.”
“Have a wonderful day at school,” he said. “Make someone happy.”
She closed the door behind her and didn’t look back. Sometimes, her dad worried her. It had been twelve years since his dream life had ended, but he still bled it every single day. Funny how he felt it was her Christian duty to make someone happy, yet she couldn’t make him happy. Not that he was unhappy with her—she was a straight-A student, didn’t get into trouble, took care of him best she could. But he was such a mess most of the time. His heart was so full of love and goodness and Midnight hated to see him wasting away like he was. She would even welcome a stepmom if that pulled him out of his lifelong misery.
He deserved that much after everything he’d done for her. After everything he’d given up for her. Midnight stopped and glanced back at the old house she’d called home since the day she was born. The roof shingles had needed replacing for years, but still they’d managed to get through one more winter. The heat of last summer had made more of them curl at the corners. She knew they didn’t really have the money, but eventually the roof would get damaged and they’d be looking at a whole lot more money to fix that.
Her gaze shifted to the living room window, where she could see the shadow of her father looking out at her, a cup of coffee in his hand. She resisted the urge to wave, letting him think that she couldn’t see him. She knew he worried about her, probably felt guilty about the state of their lives. She had never complained. He’d done his best to raise her and Octavia, her older sister. He’d figured a way to work from home and be there for them. Being a freelance writer had meant spells where assignments didn’t come and money had to be stretched, but they’d never gone without life’s basic necessities. Sure, some of the kids at school nowadays were showing up with cell phones, but she didn’t see the need for one. They had basic cable at home, which was fine and kept her TV-watching to a minimum, and their groceries fit within a tight budget, but she’d never gone hungry.
Midnight didn’t let these trivial things bother her.
It’s just the way her life was and she was fine with that. Some might think she were poor, especially by twenty-first-century standards, but she had a roof over her head, clothes on her back that Octavia had passed down to her, and maybe they weren’t as fashionable as when her sister had worn them, but Midnight didn’t really care. She liked the retro style. For the most part, she was happy. Not somersault-and-backflip happy, but by her definition of the word, she was. All that really mattered was that her dad was there for her, that she never had to worry that he wouldn’t be there when she came home after school, that he would never abandon her.
And she would never abandon him.
He needed her probably more than she needed him now. The drinking was bothering her, though. It was a demon he struggled with—had been for a long time—and sometimes he seemed to be winning, but most times it owned him.
Midnight pulled her lower lip between her teeth. She wondered what would happen to her father if she weren’t there to take care of him.
Maybe that’s why He spared me.
* * *
Samantha Carmichael sat at the beautifully crafted cherry makeup table in her bedroom where she went through her morning ritual, applying black eye shadow, black eyeliner, and black mascara—the look she preferred lately. She pulled it all together with glossy pink lipstick that made her already full lips look that more delicious.
Samantha smiled, but there was venom in that smile, cobra-venom, like she owned you if you stared at her for too long. That smile bordered on a sneer. Careful what you wish for, it seemed to taunt.
A few unfortunate past boyfriends—four, to be exact, in the last twelve months—walked wide circles to avoid her now.
With broken hearts.
Samantha braided her long golden blond hair, then changed her mind and combed it out a dozen times, until all the knots were gone. She let it fall over her shoulders, down the middle of her back. Satisfied, she stepped into a pair of skin-tight, low-rise blue jeans and donned an antique white blouse, untucked, sleeves rolled up, the top three buttons undone. She knew it would tease the boys at school as they tried to get a good look.
Samantha admired herself.
Perfect.
Totally BBM.
Beautiful.
Blonde.
Money.
A lethal combination, she knew, but so what? So what if her daddy had made his money in the stock market? So what that most of her friends were her friends because she now had money? So what if all the boys wanted to get into her pants?
Let them think they could.
She was just a teenage girl, and this was what teenage life was about. A time to screw up and not care because it didn’t really matter. Teenage years were the audition for the rest of your life, and you weren’t expected to get it right. It was a time for foolishness and experimentation, and that was exactly what Samantha Carmichael was doing. Sure, she felt like a fraud at times, but weren’t they all at that age? Most of her friends, she wouldn’t trust to turn her back to, but then again, most of them wouldn’t dare cross her. Samantha was it-girl, the in-girl, the one they all wanted to be seen with.
And she relished it.
Why shouldn’t she?
But all good things had to have a bad side, and as popular as she was at school, home life wasn’t like the facade she wore at school. No, home life was full of tension, anxiety, and high expectations.
“Your grades slipped last year,” her mother had reminded her last week when school started. “You had better pull it togethe
r this year if you want to get the grades for university. You’ve got opportunities I never had.”
Samantha was so bored of that conversation. At least her dad didn’t bitch at her all the time. Then again, she rarely saw him. He came home late, when he came home at all, and was gone before she woke. She actually didn’t really know what he did, had never cared to ask. They had moved to this five-bedroom mansion last summer, a far cry from the tiny three-bedroom townhome they’d lived in. Now her room was more than twice the size as before, she and her younger sister Emily shared an ensuite, one of the spare bedrooms was a gym for her mom, and the fifth bedroom was for when visitors stayed over; the kitchen was the size of the first floor of their old house, and the backyard had a gigantic in-ground pool that looked tiny in the expanse of the entire yard.
All because her daddy had become rich in stocks. At least, that’s what they were told. She didn’t care. It was nice to live in a house big enough that if she wanted to avoid her mother, she could do so easily. It was nice not to hear her parents fighting because their room wasn’t adjacent to hers anymore. It was on the other side of the house, at the end of the hallway, separated by three other bedrooms and the ensuite. It was nice to wear designer clothes, and to have straight teeth—her braces had come off last September, which is when her popularity had climbed to new heights. She’d started to blossom two years ago and now she was absolutely gorgeous.
And she knew it.
And she used it.
And to hell with those who didn’t like it.
But she wasn’t all bravado. She knew how quickly everything had changed for the better and when she was alone in her room, lying in bed with the lights turned off, she worried that all her good luck could evaporate as quickly as it had come. At those times, she pulled the blankets over her head and cried quietly so that Emily didn’t hear her, and she cried until exhaustion dragged her into troubled sleep.
Her parents fought a lot. Too much to be happy. Too much to be in love. It had been that way at the old house, mostly fighting about money and the lack of, but now it was about Dad never being home, Dad always working and leaving Mom alone, and well, where the hell did the money come from if it wasn’t because he was working his ass off, so cut him some slack. Samantha had no idea if one had to work hard to make money in the stock market, barely understood what the stock market was, and she’d heard that yesterday’s attack on the U.S. could be disastrous for the stock market. She just hoped her dad didn’t lose all their money, and if he needed to work like a dog to make sure they didn’t lose it all, then her mom should just shut up about it and let him work.
Samantha had always thought her mom to be somewhat needy and she often wondered what had brought her parents together. They seemed so different.
“Samantha, we’ve got to go,” her mother shouted from the bottom of the stairs. “Come on or you’ll be late for school, which means Emily will be late too.”
Samantha took one last look at herself in the mirror, nodded, grabbed her backpack that was sitting on her bed, and hurried down to the foyer where her beautiful mother waited with the patience and grace of a rabid Dalmatian.
* * *
Midnight decided to wave to her dad after all and then started to walk away. Out of habit, she glanced at the neighbour’s house, an identical home to hers built some thirty years ago. It seemed that builders lacked imagination back then, as they’d built the same model with just slight variations in elevation, siding or brick colours, and window offerings. An older couple with a Shih Tzu—her name was Snow, which was appropriate because she was mostly white with a few blazes of light chocolate running across her back and belly, and she always ran up to Midnight with her tail wagging—lived there now. They were a nice couple of Russian origin and had thick accents. Now that she was older, Midnight chatted with them on occasion, mostly about Snow, who had been a five-month-old puppy when they’d bought the house from the Murphys. Tyler Murphy had lived there.
Her first and only boyfriend.
His family had moved away when she was five and she hadn’t seen him since. Every morning, as she walked by his old house, she wondered if he ever thought of her or even remembered her. It had been ten years, and he was a boy, so she doubted he ever gave her a passing thought.
Midnight crossed the street and glanced at the park where they used to play soccer, football, tag, and any other games they could think of. She had kissed him, full on the lips, behind the spruce that now stood twenty feet or more but back then had been half the size and width. The park looked really old now.
And empty.
Seemed all the little kids in the area had grown up and barely ever came to the park now, except late at night to drink and smoke behind that row of spruces close to the fence that stood between the park and the next row of backyards.
Midnight picked up the pace. She didn’t want to be late. Being late was a sign of disrespect—another thing Samantha didn’t quite grasp. She believed everyone should be waiting for her, that the whole damn world should pause until she showed up.
It truly irritated Midnight.
The friendship had been in a slow decline, it seemed forever. Somehow, they’d managed to remain friends. For now. She should feel sad about that, and there were times, mostly when she was home alone, that she did, but when the two of them were together, it just made Midnight’s vein in the middle of her forehead throb. She reached the end of her street and waited for Samantha’s mom to pick her up. Midnight was more than willing to walk to school even though it took her thirty minutes, but Mrs. Carmichael said she didn’t mind, that it was on her way. Not exactly true, as she had to get off the main road, but come winter Midnight would be grateful for the ride. Her dad could drive her, but he couldn’t always be depended on.
Less than five minutes later, the beige minivan pulled up.
“Need a ride, mister?” Samantha said and laughed. “Oh sorry, you’re not a boy after all.”
“That joke was old months ago and now it just reeks of decay,” Midnight said and climbed in to take a seat beside Emily. “Hey Em.”
“I have no idea why you’re friends with my stupid sister,” Emily said.
“I often wonder that too,” Midnight said. “Morning, Mrs. Carmichael.”
“Morning, honey. Hope we didn’t keep you waiting too long. Had to wait for Miss Princess to put herself together. How’s your dad?”
“He was just getting ready for work when I left,” she said.
“He’s still doing that writing thing?”
“I think you asked Midnight that just last week,” Samantha said. “It’s his job, so why wouldn’t he still be doing it?”
Midnight felt the temperature dip ten degrees so she quickly jumped in. “He likes it. And I like it that he’s there when I come home.”
Her father had converted Octavia’s bedroom to an office after she’d moved out, which had been better than being stuck in a cold damp basement like he’d been all the years before that. Octavia was seven years older and had moved in with her boyfriend Mark last year. Midnight missed her sister and often visited, although it took her two buses and nearly an hour to get to her place.
“I’m glad to hear that,” Mrs. Carmichael said. “You guys doing okay?”
“We’re fine,” Midnight said. She knew Mrs. Carmichael worried about her and even though Midnight had never told Samantha’s mom, she was grateful. It was nice that someone other than her dad cared. “We are.”
Midnight saw Samantha’s mom look at her in the front mirror, and if she didn’t quite believe Midnight, she didn’t call her out on it.
“Okay, so let’s drop Emily first and then the big girls.”
“Ugh,” Samantha said. “I really hate it when you call us that.”
“Better than being called a tramp,” Mrs. Carmichael said. “Or worse.”
“Seriously, Mom.”
“Guess next year when I’m in grade seven, I’ll be one of
you,” Emily said.
“Fantastic! You can be the big girl in my place. I’ll gladly give up the moniker.”
“Wow! Did you hurt yourself?” Emily said. “You don’t usually use big words. Oops! There’s that word again.”
“Shut up.”
“Make me.”
“Girls.”
Midnight looked out the side window and tuned out the nonsense that was going on with the Carmichaels. She couldn’t remember ever bickering with Octavia. Maybe the age difference had something to do with that. Or maybe it was because she loved her sister. Maybe Samantha and Emily did love each other and this was their way of showing it.
Midnight shrugged. The minivan moved away from the curb and instinctively she tried to look down the street, but she couldn’t see her house, nor Tyler’s old house.
* * *
Midnight always enjoyed Art Class, except that today she simply sat there staring at a blank piece of paper, a frown on her brow. So much had happened yesterday, and the world had become a little uglier.
Last night, she and her dad had watched the news, which kept showing the planes flying into the towers over and over again, and he had looked completely devastated.
“This is so close to home,” Midnight said.
“New York city doesn’t seem that far from Ottawa,” Jim said.
“Will we have a war?”
“I don’t know,” he said after downing the last of his third beer. “Terrorism has no borders. It’s not like a specific country can be blamed. These people are almost impossible to find.”
It was during that conversation that she really noticed that her dad had grown older over the past year, the crow’s feet around his eyes deeper, and his hair thinner and greyer, as if this latest world tragedy was his burden to bear alone. He was a man of deep feelings, something that made him a wonderful man, but also a tormented man. He seemed unable to let go of things he couldn’t change.
He’d had too much to drink again last night and her thoughts drifted to two years ago, when out of desperation and anger, she had gotten rid of all the booze in the house, pouring it down the kitchen sink while he took a nap—well, he’d passed out, to be truthful—but when he’d woken up, it had been an ugly sight.
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