by Lee Lynch
Abe lunged at her and mashed her in a hug.
“Abe! I thought you got rid of your sandpaper chin.”
Abe looked panicky. “R says the hormones are bad for me.”
“Son of a b. It sounds like the two spirits inside Abraham Clinkscales are getting to know each other pretty well.”
“You’re not mad at me, are you?”
Abraham was the most infuriating person in her life, but it was true, he’d done more than his share of caretaking. HIV had been his second Vietnam. And gender confusion had turned into a gay national pastime in recent years. That must have been irresistible to his lost soul. She heard herself thinking beyond anger. “Why would I be? Lots of queer folk come up here to find themselves. I’m glad it’s working out for you.”
“It is. I’ll be back for the two-spirit gathering. If they have an opening at the Gay Bay Area Youth Center I’m going to take it too, residential, graveyard, whatever they need, and I’ll finish my degree. This time, Don, I’ll do it. I think I’ve got something these kids can use. Thanks for everything, man.”
“Be careful who you call a man. It’s not safe to take anything for granted these days.”
While the scanner tripped over its channels, Abe looked to be studying her face before laughing. “You crack me up, Donny, you really do. You were such a wild young thing and now you’re such an old fogey.”
Donny let herself laugh too. She’d only looked wild from the outside. It had been home she’d been looking for all her life, and she’d woman-hunted with the wildness of desperation every time she lost one, not realizing that a woman was only part of the foundation. It had taken Chick, the store, the old ladies, and the politicking—and even this crazy-ass, out-of-the-way, mostly white hick burg out of a Western—to make her roots grow.
“The bus will be here any minute. You cool with me taking off?”
“Very cool. I need to go home.”
“Let me know.” Donny looked at Abe’s groin. “About everything.”
As she slid her flashing light onto the roof of the truck, she recognized that for all the aggravation of the evening, she still felt good. Wait till she told Chick that she hadn’t blown her fuse once.
Chapter Thirty-three
Garage Sale Dandy, The Shop
The call came as Jeep switched off the computer. She reached for the phone across her broad oak desk. The sight of it always made her smile. What a total find it had been at that estate sale. And the computer was one of a lot of twelve she’d found at an online auction site. She’d sold every one of them within three weeks of their arrival except the one she kept. The money bankrolled a nice selection of used instruments. The desk still smelled of the lemon oil she’d rubbed into it.
A small business loan had covered everything she’d needed to set up Garage Sale Dandy, including the refurbished laptop. She’d been working at Jethro’s Junk a couple of months when Jethro came back to work. He’d lost the weight he needed to for his back operation and felt fit enough to skip the surgery. Meanwhile, she’d been so successful at bringing inventory to the shop, both from scrounging around the county with Clara and Hector and from the internet deals, that she was crowding him out. Since Jethro lacked the ambition to do anything but go fishing and talked incessantly about retiring, they agreed things would work more smoothly if, instead of Jeep managing his shop, he let her use the upstairs gratis for Garage Sale Dandy and paid her a wage when she filled in for him downstairs. All this had been way too fun to even think about music therapy. She had gone ahead with giving lessons to three people so far, in three instruments, and was working on her first repair. None of this was what she’d dreamed of, but it sure felt good.
Luke had spent the day with her, except for Pollywog Day Camp, but Cat had him tonight. Jeep, who’d been without a computer for so long she’d reverted to a techno-peasant, needed the time to get her spreadsheet program under control, and to enter some new CDs she’d ordered for customers reluctant to travel to the nearest mall music shop up in Greenhill. If MP3 didn’t knock her out of the loop, she was pretty certain her little business would work. Bookkeeping was a downer. Why did they still call it bookkeeping anyway, if you did it on a computer? Compu-keeping? Spreadsheeting? Accu-comping?
She’d been buzzing along high on dreams and adrenaline and only realized it was so late because Jethro’s clocks were all chiming eleven downstairs.
“Chill,” she said calmly to Cat on the phone. This was no more than a blip in her perfect stratosphere. Luke was safe somewhere. “So Luke’s not in his bed. Maybe he’s in the music room, sleeping under the drum set. He’s done that before.” She listened to all the places Cat had searched, then, doing a 360 on her worry meter, told her, “I’m on my way.”
Her skateboard wasn’t going to cut it. She was a little anxious to get home and couldn’t use the board once she reached the hill. Chick liked to hear the sound of Jeep’s skateboard going by the store late at night; the neighbors wouldn’t. She rang Chick’s number to see if she or Donny could give her a ride, but only the machine answered. No way they were out anywhere—they crashed early, like most everyone else she knew in this town. It was a country thing. No one else lived close enough to make getting a ride worthwhile. The truth was that she liked to have Donny or Chick around in a crisis. They were Luke’s grandparents; they’d know what to do. She thought of another grandparent and called Casino Cab. Waterfall Falls had never needed a cab before the casino went in.
Hattie the cabby arrived in the alley as Jeep was locking the back door to the shop.
“You have an emergency?” Hattie asked when Jeep dove into the front seat beside her.
She felt her anxiety rev up as she answered, “Luke’s missing.”
Hattie responded by backing non-stop out of the alley instead of weaving through the dumpsters and discarded display racks. If Hattie was that worried, maybe they should call the sheriff. Hattie had raised more kids that anyone Jeep knew. Hattie’s live-in great-grandson, born with cerebral palsy, had been in Jeep’s class last year. Jeep figured Hattie was at least seventy, well beyond the age someone should have to drive a cab or raise a kid, but Hattie claimed she couldn’t sleep nights anyway and loved getting out and meeting the people she called “those dumb clucks from Greenhill who couldn’t find anything better to do with their cash than give it to the tribe.” Her nephew, whom she’d raised, was a tribal bigwig at the casino, so what Hattie wanted, she got.
Donny’s truck was at the Greyhound stop. She was standing there with Abe under the drugstore’s neon mortar and pestle sign. The bus was southbound this time of night; maybe Abe was having an emergency too. Jeep’s fingers ached with cold. Her mouth tasted like aluminum foil. The needle on her worry meter jiggled like a compass in a meteor storm.
She grabbed the ceiling handle when Hattie slammed on her brakes to avoid Sheriff Sweet. Siren shrieking, the cruiser was rounding the corner of Stage and Cliff in the other direction.
“I’ve been saying all evening,” Hattie drawled as if she wasn’t doing fifty through the blind underpass, “there’s something in the air tonight. Dark of the moon.”
“The little guy’s a sleepwalker,” Jeep explained, as much to herself as to Hattie. “Cat’s house is so big he could be anywhere. One time we found him curled up sound asleep in the attic on a pile of old afghans stored in Cat’s grandmother’s hope chest. At least he left the chest open.” She blurted out, “That kid rocks my world, Hattie.”
“The young ones do. It’s a dangerous world for them. If it isn’t sharks at the seashore, it’s terrorists in the cities. You let me know when he turns up,” Hattie said outside Cat’s place. She wouldn’t take money, but Jeep laid it on the seat and took off up the steps at a run.
Cat looked so fragged Jeep didn’t have to ask whether Luke had shown up yet. Her blouse was untucked, and her hair had gone all flat in the back. She guessed she knew what Cat had been doing this evening and that she’d been doing it with Joan. There was a huge charge of elect
ricity between those two, and they didn’t get much chance to drain the energy. Like Hattie the cabby, Cat knew kids better than Jeep did.
“Is this why the sheriff went through town like the aliens had landed?”
“Joan was here all evening until her squawker went off. She said it was about cleaning up unfinished business. I looked in on Luke after she left and saw he wasn’t there.”
“When did you last see him?” Jeep asked, propping her board in the hall closet.
“We were watching TV. I’d put Luke to bed at eight, checked him at nine thirty. He was fast asleep. I wanted to close the window, but you know how he is about keeping it open. I think he wants to make sure the tooth fairy gets in when he’s older.”
“You don’t think he went out the window?”
Cat put an arm around her and they hugged quickly. “It was only open a crack. I brought George inside. He was barking out there like there were burglars jimmying every window and door. I was getting nervous.”
They started a methodical tour of the house with George at their heels. Lump Sum, disturbed in the living room, followed as far as the kitchen. Jeep willed herself to go slowly. She didn’t want to involve the whole town if Luke was only well-concealed. “You checked the basement?”
“Only four times.”
“The attic?”
“Let’s look again. The light’s so poor up there.”
“I’ll grab the bigger flashlight.” When she climbed the narrow stairs she immediately smelled it. “Cat?” she called back. “Why does it smell like dope up here?”
Cat’s head appeared at the opening. “I noticed that. I thought it was time for an airing. You think it’s dope?”
“Oh, yeah.”
“George, stay,” she commanded. “Wait for us right there.”
Jeep went to the small dormer window at the north end of the attic and opened it. “Don’t you usually keep this window locked?”
“Always.”
“Look at this. Somebody—” she picked up a scrap of thin white paper and some ash. She smelled it, mystified. “Who in hell would be dousing roaches on your attic windowsill? Luke isn’t old enough to know what weed is, much less smoke it. Or is he? You’re the teacher. Tell me the preschoolers are getting high.”
“How long has it been there?”
“Cat. It’s clean paper. The smallest draft would have blown it away otherwise. Rain would have disintegrated it.”
“This is creepy. I’m going to try Joan again.”
“I have a feeling she may be up to her ass in alligators, Cat. She was heading east at warp speed.”
“Shh,” Cat said.
“What?”
“Shh!”
She didn’t hear anything, but the attic was weirding her out. This was normally dead space. Not tonight. Were the spirits Katie always talked about flying? Katie. It felt like decades since she’d been with Katie.
“Luke?” she called softly. “Lukie? Come on out, dude. You’re not in any trouble.”
They both stood very still for longer than Jeep thought she could tolerate. That’s when she felt the chilled air. This was way wrong. Where the fuck was it getting in? From the trap door to the roof? The door, reached by wooden rungs nailed to the east wall, normally was fastened tightly with a block of wood that swung in and out of place on a nail. The wood was in its open position, which could mean the door had been closed from outside.
“Holy holodeck,” she whispered, pointing. Cat moved swiftly toward the ladder. “I’ll check the yard,” she told Cat. “He could be lying out there with a broken neck!”
Instead she stood frozen in place, staring as Cat heaved the door upward. It had been built with an overlap to prevent rain from getting inside, and that made it even heavier. The night air smelled of wide-open dangerous spaces. Cat could need her help here. Yet every second might count if Luke was injured. How could he have lifted such a thing by himself? Why was she so paralyzed?
Cat was half-out, supporting the door with her left shoulder. “I’m going on the roof, Jeep. Would you hold this thing open?”
She found the fast-forward button in her brain and shot up the rungs on the wall, catching the door as Cat eased it onto her hands. “Be careful,” she whispered, not because she was afraid Luke would hear, but because she was afraid. Now that she held the rough wooden weight of the door she knew he hadn’t lifted it. Not alone.
Hattie had been right; it was the dark of the moon. She could hear Cat scrabbling along the rooftop more than see her. Then there was a sharp intake of breath.
“Who are you?” Jeep heard. Then, “Let him go!”
“Cat!” Jeep cried.
“Come to me, Luke.” Cat said. “Who are you!”
Jeep heard a small voice, but couldn’t make out what it said. Another child? A woman? Then it was clear.
“My mama!”
She’d heard enough of Luke’s whispery baby-talk attempts at speech to recognize it. A flicker of relief was erased by alarm. His mother? Here? To do what? Kidnap him? Was it kidnapping to take back a foster child? Maybe, if she was a fugitive, Jeep conjectured, trying to understand the implications of it all, but it had never been clear if the mother actually was charged with anything or if she’d run away with her drug lord. At that, an enormous sense of loss came over her. She felt like a horn player who’d lost her lip, a pianist with broken hands. The mother would take the boy. She was going to lose him.
Cat persuaded mother and son to come in off the roof. Jeep relinquished the door and backed slowly down the rungs. It might not be tonight, but she would lose him. He’d spoken aloud for his mama. Maybe he always had.
But of course, she supposed that’s what children were about: the over-the-top joy of them, the rearing as best you could, the letting go. It was all happening kind of fast for her taste, but even if they fought the mother, or kept Luke until the mother was free, or raised him until he went off, which he for sure would, with a ragtag band lucky enough to find a drummer as fine as Luke was going to be, she was going to miss him big-time. She’d make the mother take his drums. She’d tell her to give Luke his music.
Then she’d vamoose to Reno. Go back home and help out with her nieces and nephews when they started arriving. She’d buy instruments from gambling musicians down on their luck and peddle instruments to them when they’d won enough money to get to their next gigs. Maybe Luke’s band would come through town some day. Maybe he’d remember her. She and Sarah could have had a rug rat of their own by now. Or a slew of them. As a joke she’d given Sarah a turkey baster for Valentine’s Day their second year together. Jeep doubted Sarah had gotten rid of that, even though she went on about overpopulation and how she wanted to adopt. Unless maybe she’d found someone else to use it with. She couldn’t believe how wigged out she got every time that possibility came to mind.
She didn’t know for sure, but when she’d called Sarah last week, Sarah acted single. It was Jeep who had to say, “There’s someone else in my life.”
Sarah said, “I could have figured that out.”
“No, not like that,” she’d replied and told her about Luke and how she and Cat were co-foster parenting him and about the sheriff and living with Cat. She could feel Sarah loving the boy through the phone lines and realized she might never have gotten involved in this Luke thing if Sarah hadn’t taught her about the importance of adopting and the crime of overpopulation. She’d never thought of that stuff before Sarah.
“It’s not that I want or need a kid in my life, it’s that Luke needs someone and he’s so special.
“I’ve made some changes too,” Sarah eventually told her. She’d stayed in personnel, but moved to another hotel. With all her old enthusiasm she told Jeep, “It’s like architecture. I get to take all these different elements—people—and create a functional structure—the department. I love meeting all the applicants and employees and hearing their ambitions and seeing myself in them.”
She wondered if they would ha
ve ended up making the same kinds of decisions if she hadn’t left Reno.
Jeep brought herself back to the present. They were all in the living room. Luke wouldn’t leave his mother’s side, but petted George with his free hand.
“Hey, dude, where’s the smile?” Jeep teased him, but he only grabbed tighter to his mother’s bright Mexican patchwork jacket. Jeep felt like the enemy.
The woman was short and thin, with long graying brown hair and some missing teeth. She sat on the couch with Luke.
Another siren came down off the freeway, and she realized that she’d been hearing the whooping and blaring for a long time.
“My name is Pennylane. I came in the back door,” the mother was saying, in answer to Cat’s questions. “It wasn’t very locked. I know how those store-bought locks work.” She brought Luke so close to herself on the couch he looked like a piece of her.
He’d never given a hint that he missed his mother, Jeep marveled. She’d thought he was content, and yet here he was, obviously not about to let the woman out of his sight any time soon, even though she looked and acted like she’d stepped out of a time machine from the nineteen sixties. What did a kid know?
“I heard you talking in the kitchen with the woman pig,” Pennylane continued. “So I went down the hall and looked around.” She smiled down at Luke, and Jeep could see where he’d gotten his beaming smile. “My baby was asleep in a room. I saw all the Leap Frog and Harry Potter and Matchbox stuff you got him. I thought about splitting because you’re giving him a good life, but then I tripped on a cat that was lying on its back right in my way. I must have made a sound without meaning to because he was out of the bed and on me whispering, ‘Mama, Mama,’ and I thought my heart would break like it did when I left him behind.”
That dumb Lump Sum, Jeep thought. The woman was lucky George hadn’t bounded to greet her.
The woman composed herself, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand. Jeep gritted her teeth to hold in her anger—where had this soft heart been when she’d abandoned Luke. She tried to hand Pennylane her bandanna, but Luke took it, opened it, swiped roughly at his mother’s face, and went back to pinning her to the couch like a proud young wrestling champ.
