PRAISE FOR OUR DAILY BREAD
“A powerful, harrowing and deeply unsettling work. It’s the sort of novel that keeps you reading even as your skin crawls and your blood pressure mounts. . . . Our Daily Bread proceeds like a noose tightening. . . . A stark, beautiful, sad and frankly terrifying novel. Our Daily Bread is finely crafted, with careful attention to characterization, style and pacing. It succeeds on every level.” —Quill & Quire (starred review)
“An unforgettable read, frightening at times, but as enlightening and redemptive as it is disturbing. So good, in fact, that this reviewer read the book twice. . . . A riveting page turner.” —Serving House Journal
“Chilling and emotionally authentic.” —Jane Ciabattari, former president of the National Book Critics Circle
“Rendered with gorgeous prose, this compact, fast-moving novel features an astonishing range of tones, from hope to heartbreak, from black humor to white-knuckle terror. It will stay with you long after the covers are closed.” —Dexter Palmer, author of The Dream of Perpetual Motion
“Davis puts a human and individual face on suffering. Because of the exceptional quality of the prose, the result for the reader is pure pleasure.” —Robert Adams, literary critic and lecturer
“Thrilling . . . unflinching . . . unforgettable.” —Truthdig.com
PRAISE FOR THE RADIANT CITY
Finalist for the Rogers Writers’ Trust Fiction Prize
“[The Radiant City] is engrossing and convincing. . . . Davis’s question here is how can human beings look into a heart of darkness . . . and crawl back to the light again?” —Quill & Quire (starred review)
“A startlingly good novel about suffering and redemption. . . . A powerful and well-written story.” —Toronto Sun
“The Radiant City shines. [A] thoughtful, complex, meditative . . . brilliant novel.” —The Globe and Mail
“A starkly realistic story of friendship, courage and the effects of violence on the human spirit. Davis’s taut, unadorned narrative breathes life into the characters. . . . This novel will resonate in the minds of many readers.” —Winnipeg Free Press
“The Radiant City is a compelling read, sociologically informed, dark in its subject matter yet illuminating in its insight. . . . Left us craving more.” —The Gazette (Montreal)
“In this moody, exciting, clever novel, people hit the streets of the real [Paris] neighbourhoods. . . . For those who still think life in Paris happens on the Left Bank, The Radiant City is quite an update.” —The Vancouver Sun
“With extraordinary compassion, insight and intelligence, Davis illuminates the human aftershocks of senseless violence and in that cold light, somehow, astonishingly, rekindles hope.” —Merilyn Simonds, author of The Convict Lover and The Holding
“Beautifully wrought style of prose . . . [with] an intensity of images and ideas not easily left behind with the closing of the back cover. . . . [A] story of modern times to haunt any reader with a conscience.” —The New Brunswick Reader
“Lauren B. Davis evokes a Paris that is decidedly on the edge. . . . A cohesive, beautiful and stunningly realistic portrait of life on the fringes of the City of Light, far away from the haute couture and tourist destinations that fiction about Paris is known for. . . . While the book certainly delves deeply into the trauma of war—and Davis should be commended on her excellent research on the subject—The Radiant City is at the heart a novel about recapturing a sense of wonder and belonging.” —Paris Voice
“It’s difficult to put the book down. . . . Gripping cinematic progression. . . . The fragmentation and bareness of the prose slices past the wafer-thin charm of the surface to reveal a deeper reality: the truth of lives undone by violence. The writing communicates with precision and immediacy and has a cumulative impact. Meticulous details are also part of the recipe to evoke a sureness of place and time. . . . This is smooth, engaging writing that doesn’t flinch from the rawness that for so many people is life. ‘Light is neutral and indifferent.’ We can’t afford to be. Perhaps that’s the most important revelation of all.” —Books in Canada
“I cannot imagine a more timely and relevant novel.” —Robert Adams, literary critic and lecturer
PRAISE FOR THE STUBBORN SEASON
“This is a wonderful novel. . . . Every character is sincerely drawn; these sentences just gleam. The Stubborn Season is one of those rare novels I look forward to reading again.” —Toronto Star
“Davis’s talent is unmistakable. . . . Margaret is one of the most memorable characters I have encountered in contemporary Canadian fiction. . . . Inspiring.” —National Post
“Lauren B. Davis’s The Stubborn Season ranges through a wide landscape of history and intimacy, thwarted private dreams and public oppression. . . . A skillful weaving of emotion and event. . . . Poignant and well-crafted. [The Stubborn Season is] an epiphanic hourglass for the harsh dust that trickled through one of the worst times.” —The Globe and Mail
“Lauren Davis’s debut novel, The Stubborn Season, is as close as you’d want to get to the Depression without being there. . . . Meticulous research informs everything. . . . The writing is clean, direct and efficient.” —Quill & Quire
“The Stubborn Season raises the bar for first novels.” —The Gazette (Montreal)
“Beautiful. . . . Lauren B. Davis’s voice is as authentic, compelling and deep as a Mordecai Richler or Robertson Davis at their best. A real literary achievement.” —Paris Voice
“Poignant and compassionate.” —Robert Adams, literary critic and lecturer
PRAISE FOR RAT MEDICINE AND OTHER UNLIKELY CURATIVES
“Put this book on your literary map and circle it in gold, for here lies buried treasure. Dig into its pages and discover a new voice, one that can be tender, tough and—in the best and most adventurous sense—dangerous. Read at your own risk, for in Lauren Davis’s stories, you may find yourself.” —Timothy Findley
Our Daily Bread
A NOVEL
Lauren B. Davis
This book is dedicated to the children,
like those of the Goler Clan,
whose pleas fall on deaf ears.
There are only two kinds of people in the world; those who believe there are two kinds of people in the world, and those who don’t.
—Robert Benchley’s Law of Distinction
Hain’t we got all the fools in town on our side? And hain’t that a big enough majority in any town?
—Mark Twain, Huckleberry Finn
Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Acknowledgements
Lauren B. Davis on the Story Behind the Novel
An Interview with Lauren B. Davis
About the Author
Copyright
About the Publisher
Chapter One
<
br /> Satan draws the soul to sin by choosing wicked company. “Do not be deceived; evil company corrupts good habits.” Corinthians 15:33. I say to you, you shall not suffer yourself to dwell among the wicked, nor shall you permit them to dwell among you, lest you become one of them. You shall cast them out, as you would a wolf among the sheep. Send them out, I say, to live in the wild places of their wickedness, like wolves in the barren mountains. Suffer not the sinners to taint the peaceful valley, where the righteous dwell.
—Reverend Edward Johns, Gideon,
Church of Christ Returning, 1794
Near the top of north mountain a tumbledown shed leaned against an old lightning-struck oak at the edge of a raggedy field. Inside, Albert Erskine bent over a sprouting box and gently, methodically, planted the marijuana seeds he’d soaked last night. He placed each one half an inch deep in the soil-filled paper cups, pushing the seed down with his index finger, the nail black-rimmed. The air, hazy with dust motes, smelled of warm mouldy earth mixed with the fertilizer he used in the sprouting mix. The seeds had been perfect, virile, and had given off a good solid crack when he’d tested them on a hot frying pan. Once the seeds were settled in their nest of humus, soil, sand and fertilizer, he’d water them and leave them in the locked shed under a grow-light fuelled by a small generator. Later, in a couple of weeks, he’d plant the seedlings out in the field. In the meantime he’d prepare the field with hydrated lime and a little water-soluble nitrogen fertilizer.
Growing a good cash crop of marijuana took smarts and Albert was well aware of how smart he was. He knew, too, the power of his physical presence. He would have been called handsome in another place, with the cleft in his chin and the furious shine in his brown eyes. Even as a whip-thin, lock-jawed boy there had been something to notice about Albert, some flash of sinewy grace.
Albert finished up, locked the shed with a bicycle chain and combination lock and headed back to the compound. It was a couple of miles through the woods, up and down and slipping sometimes on the spring-mucky ground, but he didn’t mind. It was quiet out here, except for the song of the cat-bird and the early robin.
Halfway to the compound he skirted around the slope, coming up on an old trailer from the low side so he wouldn’t be as easy to spot. He paused at the edge of a clearing. The uncles, Dan, Lloyd and Ray, were paranoid bastards at the best of times. Albert knew he should just keep clear of whatever they were up to in there, but yesterday his little brother, Jack, told him the uncles had started a cooking operation. Albert couldn’t believe even they would be that stupid; he had to see for himself.
The rusty, partly-yellow trailer tilted on its blocks. The windows were covered with tin foil. The breeze shifted and the scent of something sickly sweet wafted toward him. And something else . . . ammonia? Jesus. Albert crept to a stand of trees closer to the trailer to get a better look. A small pile of rubbish lay half-hidden under some branches. Used coffee filters. Part of an old car battery. Drain cleaner. Dozens of empty cold remedy packets. If things had been bad on the mountain before, Albert suspected they were about to get worse. Much worse. Meth made everything worse.
“What you doing up here, Bert?”
Albert swung round. At the edge of the treeline, Ray, a shrivelled, short man smiled at him over the barrel of a rifle. His teeth were brown stubs, and his close-set eyes glittered with malice. Uncle Ray might not be a big man, but even among the Erskines his temper was legendary. He’d beat his wife, Meg, so bad she had convulsions, and when his son, Billy, didn’t have a black eye, he had a split lip or another missing tooth.
“Just getting my seeds ready for planting.” Albert made sure he kept his voice steady. “Good day for it.”
“Field’s nowhere near here, now is it?” Ray shrugged the rifle closer in on his shoulder.
Behind Albert, the trailer door opened. “What’s this then?” It was Lloyd’s voice. “Ray, now, put that rifle down. Ain’t nothing but Bert.”
Ray did not lower the rifle. “He’s spying on us.”
Although Albert didn’t like the idea of turning his back on Ray, he glanced over his shoulder. Lloyd, his dark hair and beard bleeding together in a shaggy mass, wore a plaid lumber jacket. His jeans drooped below his boulder of a belly. He stretched as though he’d been hunched over something and his back was cramped.
“Hey, Lloyd.”
“That right, Bert?” said Lloyd. “You spying?”
“Just rambling.”
Lloyd spat and stepped down from the trailer’s cinderblock step. “Bullshit.”
Albert stepped to the side so he could keep both men in his sights.
“Don’t take another step,” said Ray.
Lloyd was now within arm’s reach. He scratched his beard. “You know, Bert, you are a mystery. You don’t act like family at all now, do you? Don’t come visiting. Live in your little shack. Course maybe you have your own parties. That it? You have the kids come see you? That’s not hardly sociable, now is it? You got your own little weed-growing business going and we leave you alone with that don’t we? We let you have your way there, ain’t that true?”
“I think I’m generous,” said Albert. “You get your taste.”
Ray laughed. “You’re generous? That’s rich. This is Harold’s fucking mountain, Albert. You breathe because Harold says you breathe.”
“The point is,” said Lloyd, “you live like you don’t want to be an Erskine, and that ain’t right. Makes us think, especially when we find you snaking around like this. Nope. I don’t think Harold’s gonna like this at all.”
“You do what you gotta do, Lloyd, but I’m telling you, nothing good’s gonna come from—”
Lloyd’s fist shot out. Albert crumpled to his knees, gasping for breath. It felt like he’d been hit with a pile driver. He struggled to keep his eyes open and watched Ray’s boot travel in slow motion to his head. He rolled and the kick landed on his shoulder, another landed on his kidney.
Lloyd bent down, put his meaty hand under Albert’s chin and twisted it so they were eye to eye. “Albert, you need to watch yourself, boy. You’re Erskine. You’re family. We take care of family, don’t we, Ray?”
“We sure do.”
Albert heard a zipper and felt something wet and warm spray on his legs. He wrenched his face away from Lloyd, kicked out and squirmed away from the urine stream.
“That’s enough, Ray, put yer pecker away. Now, you get on back to that little shack of yours, Bert, and remember who you are. All right now, say it with me. Erskines don’t . . .”
“Talk,” he croaked.
“And Erskines don’t . . .”
“Leave.”
“Good boy,” said Lloyd, and he pulled Albert to his feet. “Now, get on back where you belong.”
It took half an hour to reach the compound. Albert made his way past the old outhouse. Bastards. One of these days he’d show them. His shoulder and back ached. He smelled Ray’s piss. He slapped at a cloud of gnats. That’s what the Erskines were: a cloud of biting gnats. No matter how you swatted at them, they reformed and came at you again.
A few minutes later he came on the cabin his mother Gloria lived in with whatever man she was shacking up with, and Albert’s brother and sister, Jack and Jill, and Kenny, Jill’s son. Smoke slithered out of the rusty chimney, so somebody was probably inside, but he kept going. Gloria had never been a source of comfort.
He veered toward the back of Harold and Fat Felicity’s tin-roofed grey-sided three-room main house on which the compound centred. Harold and Felicity’s grown children, simple-minded Sonny, Carrie and Carrie’s son, Little Joe, lived there, too, as did an ever-revolving stream of uncles and cousins and other assorted Erskine flotsam. A pair of shutters hung on one of the windows. The shutters and the door had once been painted red, but all were faded and peeled now, as much grey as red. The top half of the door held
three panes of glass and one of plywood. There were no curtains on the windows, and under the porch canopy rested a spring-sprung couch. Next to the house sprawled a pile of garbage: disposable diapers; plastic bags, which rose up in the wind and festooned the trees, hanging on the branches like pale shredded skin; empty bottles of various kinds, some soda, but mostly beer, wine and bourbon; used sanitary napkins; a stained and swollen mattress; the twisted wheel of a bicycle, the spokes sharp and defensive-looking; a small refrigerator Uncle Dan had dragged home from the dump thinking he could fix, but with which he’d become bored after a day and there it lay on its side, its door gaping; various household objects—a bent spoon, a broken cup and three plates, an old brown-stained pillow where mice now nested; two shoes, not matching.
Scanning the house for signs of life, Albert caught a glimpse of Sonny in the front window, waving. He waved back and Sonny smiled and picked his nose. Albert crossed the dirt and ignored Grunter III, the huge brown and tan mongrel who crawled out from under the house and sidestepped over to him, wanting a scratch behind the ears, but fearing a kick. A sympathetic desire, perhaps, but Albert was in no mood.
Six-year-old club-footed Brenda, one of Lloyd’s kids, stood on an old bucket and looked in a back window. She wore a boy’s jacket over a filthy pink nightgown, and a pair of rubber boots several sizes too large, to accommodate her twisted left foot. She’d been in need of a bath several weeks ago. Albert knew what she was probably seeing in there, and he knew if she got caught she’d get a worse beating than he just got. If he called out he’d just scare her and she’d make a noise and then they’d both be in for it. He should just walk away and let whatever was going to happen go right on and happen. Erskines don’t talk, and Erskines don’t leave, and Erskines better mind their own fucking business. She turned then, and looked at him, tears pouring down her face.
Our Daily Bread Page 1
