by Asja Bakić
Just as the girls got up to walk along the gravel path, their cousins arrived. They feasted on lunch. The adults discussed the drought and the new wells. Grandma and Auntie eventually decided to drill just one and share the expense.
“I only hope,” said Grandma, “that Zoran finds water. Sometimes it seems like the whole area’s dried up. Like the water fled somewhere.”
“It must’ve fled to a place with better people,” said Uncle, looking up at the sky.
The next day Zoran came to investigate what was happening with the water. He carried two wires for welding, bent on one end. He grasped them like improvised handles and began tromping around near Grandma’s old well. The wires reacted weakly: they didn’t fan out. The water line was elsewhere.
Zoran kept searching for water. The children watched him. They agreed he was weird and they didn’t like him—he looked like a big fake. When they couldn’t stand watching him anymore, they left for the shed. They perched on a woodpile and discussed whether it was possible to identify and expose a monster.
“Maybe his face would change if we took away those wires?” said one boy.
“I don’t think that would make any difference,” said one of the girls. “Yesterday he didn’t have them, and he looked the same.”
While the children deliberated, the adults followed the well digger’s progress anxiously.
“Okay, let’s drill here,” said Zoran after some time.
Everyone gave a collective sigh of relief; only the children still watched with concern.
“What if instead of water he finds the treasure?” they wondered.
5.
Zoran said that after he’d dug the new well, he’d fill in the old one. The children didn’t want to be bothered with the drilling, even though, of course, they recognized its amusing sexual connotations. They knew the well digger had a special van with a drill attachment, that he would install concrete pipes, a pump. They’d overheard the adults talking about it.
While he was preparing the drill, Zoran spoke with the other adults about politics (the nineties were beginning) and inflation (the dinar had never been so weak), but mostly about the disappearance of some old women from the neighboring village.
“Not one of them suffered from dementia,” said Grandma in a distraught voice. “It’s odd that the women would vanish just like that.”
“They were alone,” Uncle said. “Their children didn’t take care of them. Maybe they took them abroad.”
“Or to a nursing home,” added Auntie.
“It’s strange,” Zoran said. “Sometimes I get scared living alone.”
“You’re young, nothing will happen to you,” Grandma reassured him.
Auntie laughed. “Maybe they took the water with them.”
“Anything’s possible,” said Uncle.
But he was wrong. Not all things were possible. For example, it wasn’t possible for the children to ever like Zoran. They watched him carefully from a great distance.
“We should follow him,” the eldest granddaughter proposed.
The rest of the children disagreed.
“He lives too far away. Let’s go to the field and eat roasted corn instead.”
In the evening, the children gathered around the fire, laughing and playing. They had stopped thinking about Zoran, and were no longer watching him.
Later that night, Zoran dragged two enormous bags into their yard. Cement? Construction scrap? No one could see him; everyone was sleeping. The children were arranged like an orderly row of magazines, from the first issue to the last. Uncle had fallen asleep on the couch. Grandma lay in her bed. And the neighboring cottage sat in darkness. You couldn’t even see your hand right in front of your face. The dog wasn’t barking at Zoran’s slog through the yard; there wasn’t a dog because no one lived there anymore. Who would take care of feeding a dog? The children wanted one, but children want everything.
Zoran, under cover of the Smoluca night, continued tending to the wells he planned to fill in the next day. He threw one of the bags into each of the dried-up wells. Actually, he didn’t throw them—he lowered them slowly, using a rope. Before he began, his pulling accidentally caused one of the bags to tear, but no one could see what lay inside. He was quiet, shoveling a thin layer of earth over both of the bags, covering them quickly, then heading back home. He didn’t stumble once; he knew every stone, every slope. He’d grown up there and knew the area better than all the other residents combined.
While he slowly climbed the hill, his mind was somewhere else. He wasn’t thinking about his childhood. He wasn’t thinking about his family, his mother, his father, who’d spent the whole day in the fields. Who’d left him in a barrel, or tied him to a tree, so there’d be no worrying about where he was or what he was getting into while unsupervised. He’d spent those years looking up from the bottom, circling a small tree on a short leash. But had he really grown up? Had he ever managed to break out of the barrel, to untie the knot and get away from the tree? Had he freed himself from his horrible parents, their neglect? He never asked himself these things.
He walked slowly; the climb was nothing to him. In the morning, he carried on his work from the previous night without incident, but he couldn’t do it for long. He was exhausted, it was plain to see.
“I’m going home,” he said hastily.
It wasn’t even noon. Grandma patted him on the shoulder.
“You don’t look well, Zoran,” she said. “Why don’t you lie down here? You need to eat something.”
Zoran tried to leave, but he couldn’t. Grandma was stubborn, and even Uncle began to insist.
“Mom’s right,” he said. “Go lie down.”
“Okay,” said Zoran. “Okay, I’ll just stretch out for a bit.”
The children were horrified. They didn’t want him lying in their bed.
While Zoran slept, the grandchildren decided to go to the old wells and check on their enemy’s work. They were nervous on the way, trudging through the grass, trudging and trudging until finally, one of the girls saw something shiny.
“Look!” she said.
An antique gold ring gleamed in the eldest granddaughter’s palm. The children gathered around it. They gaped at the piece of jewelry, utterly amazed.
“The treasure really exists!” exclaimed the youngest.
“Then surely Martians do too,” concluded her cousin.
Zoran slept nearby, one of his eyes still open, his ears pricked up. The monster had emerged from the forest and given the children a gift. The summer slowly came to a happy close.
THE TALUS OF MADAME LIKEN
Lichen: nature’s chaos. A body of algae and mushroom, the symbiosis blanketing the corpse found in the nearby forest. The police ruled it a violent death. Someone had covered the naked male body with lichen, all but the lips, gently parted.
My house was in the immediate vicinity; I watched the coroner, the police vehicles, through the window. Who would identify the deceased? No papers were found on him. No traces. I smiled—all these years, and this was the first body they’d discovered.
“Mrs. Liken!” a young policeman called through the open window.
“Just a moment!”
“Could we ask you a few questions for our report?”
“Of course. I’ll do anything to help.”
All clichés. The medicine bottles worked in my favor. They were my alibi. I was sleeping. I didn’t hear a thing.
“I was sleeping. I didn’t hear a thing.”
“Thank you. Let us know if you notice anything.”
“I will, of course! Goodbye.”
I noticed that you don’t have a clue. Should I tell them that? But ignorance isn’t suspicious. It would be strange were it otherwise.
When the young policeman returned, I kept calm. He didn’t even know how to pronounce my last name, and I didn’t correct him. To appear even more convincing, I asked whether I was in any danger, whether I was safe.
“Don’t worry
, Mrs. Leeken, we have everything under control.”
I acted as though a weight had been lifted from my heart.
“That’s a relief,” I said.
It rained for days and the yard was unbearably muddy. Everything outside got drenched and morphed into an uglier version of itself.
The policeman kept coming by, grasping for every little crumb, genuinely worried because the investigation hadn’t yielded anything. He asked me to describe my neighbors.
“You see how far away our houses are from one another.”
“Sure, I understand,” said the policeman, “but still—the town has a general store, a bar and restaurant, a gas station … Surely you know some of your neighbors.”
“We’ve met,” I replied, “but it’s not polite to inquire about the details of other people’s lives.”
As soon as the errand boy left, I plopped down on the sofa. There was some reality TV show on about a famous American family. I enjoyed sticking my nose in other people’s business, watching them get tortured by the shit they’d been dealt. You could learn a lot from the fools on TV, just as you could from everyday life.
Right as I was about to change the channel, someone knocked on my door. I thought the policeman had returned. I cracked the door open just enough to peek out and kindly say that I was busy. A young woman stood on the porch, sopping wet. She asked if she could come in. She seemed exhausted.
She had addressed me as “neighbor,” but I’d never seen her before.
“Where did you come from?” I asked once she was inside.
“From the north,” she said curtly.
She was shivering. I gave her a clean towel and clothes to change into. She took them without a word; she didn’t even thank me. I returned to the sofa. I heard the young woman undressing in the bathroom. If I had to describe her succinctly, I’d say she was very beautiful. Later I’d reflect on her appearance, but at that moment it didn’t mean much to me.
“You said from the north, but where exactly?” I asked when she reappeared.
“The mountains,” she replied. “I live in a cottage near the lake.”
“Did your car break down?”
“I don’t have a car. I go everywhere on foot.”
“It’s not the season for walking,” I said. “It’s cold, and people are idiots.”
She nodded. “They are.”
A kindred spirit, or a victim? I couldn’t immediately tell. I stared at her curiously, unable to control myself. Her hair was gathered into a bun. She’d thrown on my sweater, which was too big for her. Then, completely by accident, I noticed her feet.
“Do you come to town often?”
“I wouldn’t call this place a town,” she said.
I wasn’t thrown off.
“Do you come down from the mountain often?”
“No.”
I asked how she made a living, whether she had anyone to keep her company.
“I have hunting dogs. I’m not alone.”
I made tea for both of us. The young woman drank hers slowly, like she was in no hurry to leave, but as soon as the rain let up, she collected her clothes, slipped on her boots, and made her way to the door. She thanked me for the sweater, said she’d return it as soon as she could. She waved and then disappeared into the mist. I was excited. I’d forgotten to ask the young woman her name.
When they found the next body in the woods, it wasn’t mine. I asked around to find out who the victim was—a local man who’d had a bad reputation for illegal hunting. He hadn’t deserved to die, though. The news hit me hard; we’d been good friends. I knew that he’d been struggling with financial problems. Maybe he’d owed the wrong people money and couldn’t pay?
The days passed slowly. The weather worsened—winter was finally arriving. No one could get to the lake; the road was pure mud. I didn’t leave the house. I’d call the store with a list of supplies to be delivered. Everyone in town knew one another, of course. We were like family, but the police didn’t need to know that. The death of our neighbor had shaken us. Some more, some less, but no one was unaffected.
I spent most of my days devising a plan for when the young woman returned. I wasted a lot of time thinking about her. I watched TV, lying down, waiting for something interesting to happen, something that would spur me to act. I’d never hurt my neighbors, but strangers meant nothing to me. The young woman meant nothing to me.
A powerful storm is the most thrilling weather. I watched it through the window: the thrashing trees, things flying through the air that weren’t meant to leave the ground. The colors were impressive. Everything outside matched my mood. I was standing as usual at the window, listening to the thunder, when I noticed the young woman approaching. I couldn’t see which direction she’d come from. I opened the door as soon as I heard her steps on the porch.
“You always come at an infelicitous moment,” I said.
She didn’t know what “infelicitous” meant.
“What are you doing here?” I asked.
“I came to return your sweater.”
“Now? In such terrible weather?”
“The weather is ideal.”
She wasn’t wet at all. It was like the storm had skipped over her completely: there wasn’t a drop of water on her raincoat.
“Your sweater,” she said.
She pushed it under my nose.
“There really wasn’t any rush.”
“I don’t like debts.”
“Would you like something to drink?” I asked.
“Sure.”
The young woman wore her muddy boots through the entryway and into the living room, but she didn’t care. She flung herself into an armchair and allowed me to watch her for some time in silence. My excitement grew palpable. The last time I’d been this excited was while beating that young man to death, the one who’d been found in the woods not long before. While I was killing him, I had to wipe my mouth with my sleeve every now and then because I couldn’t stop salivating.
I briefly escaped to the kitchen to calm down. I forgot to make the tea. I was still clutching the sweater.
“Aren’t you afraid of being out in this weather?” I asked the young woman. “The thunder is terrible.”
“I’m not afraid of thunder,” she said.
“Not one bit?”
“Not one bit.”
She acted so confidently, as if nothing could hurt her, as if nothing scared her. Not even me, though my appearance didn’t exactly inspire trust.
“Did you know the man who was murdered?” she asked suddenly.
Her tone surprised me. It was accusing.
“Which one? They found two.”
“The first one.”
“I didn’t. He wasn’t from around here.”
I was overtaken by suspicion. Maybe she worked for the police. She seemed intelligent. She would understand what the young policeman couldn’t.
“It was shocking that they found the body so close to my house,” I said calmly.
“It must’ve given you the creeps,” she said. “Who wouldn’t it.”
The creeps? I didn’t know what the creeps felt like. I’d never felt them.
“It did,” I said. “It was awful.”
While saying this, I felt a hole in my sweater. It was big enough to fit my index finger through. It seemed to have been made by a bullet.
“Your friend,” the woman said, smiling, “was wearing that sweater when he died.”
I looked at her in disbelief.
“I have no friends,” I said.
“True,” she said, “not anymore.”
We stared at each other across the table, where the young woman had propped her muddy boots. She was letting me know that she was now the master and I the apprentice, one who still had much to learn about the art of violence and suffering. My head began to hurt. I felt a pressure in my temples, as if the young woman had taken my head in her hands and begun to squeeze.
“I don’t plan on staying l
ong,” she said, not budging.
“All right.”
I contemplated my next move. There was a model airplane close at hand; I could bash her head in with it. But I quickly dismissed the idea. The young woman looked toy-proof.
“Do you often go hunting?” I asked to distract myself from my headache.
Instead of answering, she reached into the backpack she’d brought with her and retrieved a thin notebook.
“I like to cross a debt off my list once I’ve settled it,” she said.
Her drawing of the line across the paper lasted an eternity.
“You mean the sweater?” I asked.
She didn’t answer. She returned the notebook to her backpack and finally stood up.
“It’s time for me to go home.”
“Yes,” I replied absently.
She paused for a moment at the door.
“That young man was important to me.”
No more would she call me “neighbor.” We’d returned to being strangers.
We didn’t shake hands at the door; she didn’t even acknowledge me. While she was walking away, I saw—or it seemed to me I saw—that the young woman’s muddy boots had been replaced with gold sandals. At the very edge of the property, near the road, before she was lost to the landscape, her silhouette no longer had a backpack thrown over its shoulders. On an unfamiliar back hung a bow and arrow. I recalled the naked man’s body, his lips—gently parted. I wanted them to breathe in the air once more. I shivered, I’d like to say because of the cold. But my reality had completely changed. I could no longer lie so calmly.
ABBY
“I don’t want to eat that,” I said, pushing away the plate. I didn’t even know what it was that I didn’t want, but it stank. As if someone had served me something rotten.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you no longer liked shellfish.”
Only then did I look: I’d pushed away a plate of mussels. My mouth began to water.
“I’ll take a little then.”
It was strange to suddenly notice things. At times I’d been feeling like I was falling asleep. I knew there was a disorder where people would fall asleep out of nowhere—narcolepsy—but I could tell that wasn’t what was happening to me. After taking a bite, I noticed a cut and a bruise on my right forearm: I’d fought with something, against someone. I peered at the wound.
