Film Star’s Dog
Some months ago we visited our friend the painter in the city. Over lunch he told us that it was his habit to walk his dog in a certain park near his home, and that lately he had encountered there a famous film star and her dog, which his dog quickly befriended. Owing to the dogs’ relationship, our friend and the star entered into a cordial one as well. To keep the star’s favor our friend kept the conversation on the subject of dogs, believing that an acknowledgment of her fame, or in fact any mention of the film industry or suggestion of his fandom, would insult her and end their informal friendship, which he enjoyed. He told us that she had recently related the harrowing story of her dog’s near-death by rattlesnake bite in the mountains of southern California, and in fact the dog seemed to be in recovery from some illness, its fur patchy and its skin bright red, as if it had been scalded.
Not long after, we noticed a wire-service article about the star in our local newspaper. The article repeated the story of the snakebite and reported that the star had told it on a recent episode of a late-night talk show.
We found this funny, since it was a corroboration of our friend’s surprising story, but it wasn’t long before it occurred to us that our friend might have seen the talk show and invented his own involvement, for our amusement. We wouldn’t have put this past our friend, who led a mysterious and solitary life and was known for flights of fancy, but since he had recently suffered a bout of mental instability (he had reportedly had a fireplace installed in his home for the sole purpose of flinging paintings into it), we resolved not to confront him about the possibility.
In the end, however, our curiosity got the best of us and we sent the article to him without any note of explanation. We have not heard from him since.
Justice
A famous and wealthy retired judge moved to our town and bought a huge, stately downtown mansion. The mansion was surrounded by wonderful grounds, consisting of lush lawns and enormous spreading trees, which in previous years had been used, with the full permission of the friendly town magistrate who used to live there, as a kind of public park, available for all manner of recreation and enjoyment.
However, the new owner had a tall iron fence erected around the perimeter of the grounds, hired men to cut down all the trees and installed a giant private pool and a four-hole golf course, which additions he could be seen, through the iron bars, enjoying in solitude. In a feature article on the front page of our newspaper, the judge described his beloved collection of Cuban cigars, and responded to our complaints with the assertion that the house and the land it stood on were his alone, and that he alone would control all activities that took place in and upon them.
Not long ago a rumor circulated that the squirrels who once lived on the wooded grounds had, in the absence of trees, taken up residence in the judge’s mansion, and had found their way into his humidor and shredded his beloved cigar collection. The newspaper, eager to curry favor with the town’s wealthiest resident, printed an unsigned editorial denying the rumor, but we all happen to know the town exterminator, who insists it is true. We are pleased to learn that he has been careful not to kill all the squirrels, because although he cannot scoff at a client of the judge’s stature, at the same time he has, after all, a well-developed sense of justice.
Encounter
While walking alone one night on a deserted street in the city, I noticed a middle-aged man approaching from a block ahead, a tall African-American wearing a suit and carrying a thin briefcase. My initial instinct, given the time of day, the absence of other pedestrians and my general unwillingness to engage others when alone, was to cross to the other side of the street and avoid any encounter. But I questioned my own motives. Would I cross to the other side, I wondered, if this man, like me, were white? Perhaps not. This possibility filled me with guilt, so I resolved to remain on the same side as the man, convinced I could erase my discriminatory instincts by acting consciously against them.
When I met the man, he stopped and asked me for the time. I gave it to him. Then he asked, in a polite tone, if I lived nearby. He had no money for the bus, and wondered if he could use my telephone to call for a ride. I told him that I was sorry, but I was from out of town.
His face told me that he thought I was lying, in order to avoid bringing a black man into my home. In fact, I was telling the truth, but I wondered: would I have lied, had I lived nearby, for the very reason he had suggested? I didn’t think so, but since I would have been a different, perhaps more cautious, person entirely if I lived in this neighborhood, there was no real way of knowing. To preclude further misunderstanding, I quickly offered him money for the bus instead.
The offer made him even angrier, and he asked me did I think that every black guy I came across was a panhandler? Of course not, I said. But his refusal to accept the money got me thinking that perhaps he really was some kind of swindler, maybe a clever criminal in the guise of a modest businessman, who did, in fact, want to get into my house and rob it. I would lead him to the phone, and then he would turn and pull a gun out of his briefcase.
I glanced at the briefcase, then back at his face. He shook his head, called me a honky bastard and went on his way.
Of course, had I lived in the neighborhood, this final gesture would have filled me with remorse, forcing me to let him into my house after all, where, humiliated, I would or would not have been robbed.
The Letters
A stranger dropped dead in front of the post office. Nobody knew him and there was nothing anyone could do, so the ambulance was called and passersby waited with the body as sirens approached.
One bystander noticed that the dead man was clutching a pile of stamped letters in one hand. Wishing to be helpful, she took the letters from the dead man’s hand and dropped them into a mailbox. A few other bystanders nodded approvingly, while others glared as if in reproach. Still others had no visible reaction. In any event, the ambulance arrived, the man was pronounced dead and the body was taken away to be identified.
As it happened, the stranger was from another town, and had stopped in our town while fleeing his family and job. The letters had been addressed to several friends and relations, and confessed to a number of shocking betrayals which included romantic affairs, dishonest business dealings and lapses of confidence. Those who received them were horrified, and their good memories of the man they had known were tainted.
Not long afterward, the bystander who mailed the letters was successfully sued in civil court for damages related to the emotional distress inflicted upon the dead man’s family and friends. The family and friends agreed that the bystander had not written the letters; nor had she caused to be mailed any letters that the dead man would not have wanted mailed himself. In fact, the dead man’s family and friends admitted that they would have done the same thing had they been the bystander. Nevertheless, if it hadn’t been for the bystander’s act, they might have been spared the knowledge the letters contained, as the dead man’s wife, upon reading them, would probably have destroyed the letters and left secret their grim revelations. The bystander, a city employee, was unable to pay the full amount of the suit, and so her wages will be garnisheed until the balance is met.
Ex-Car
We got rid of our old car and immediately regretted our decision. It wasn’t that our new car was unsatisfactory; in fact it ran more smoothly and reliably than the old one ever had, even when it was new. But the old car had acquired a “personality” assembled from memories of our lives during the time we owned it, and we found that we missed it deeply, as we would have a favorite cousin who had died or moved away.
A few months after selling the car, we saw it in the parking lot of a restaurant in a nearby town. Our initial reaction was to deny that it was our old car, as the restaurant was of a decidedly inferior quality and, obviously, a place our car would never go. But this car was dented in the same place as our ex-car, and two of the six letters of its chrome nameplate were broken off as they had been on
ours, and so there could be no doubt.
We pulled into the restaurant parking lot and looked at our ex-car in the glow of our new car’s headlights. Clearly it was sad. Its grille, which, when we owned the car, had the appearance of a wide grin, now resembled a set of teeth gritted in desperate endurance. Its round headlights, once a sign of the car’s good nature and eagerness to run, now seemed to indicate shocked surprise. And a crack in the windshield the car used to wear with embattled pride had become a grisly scar, a symbol of our betrayal.
In the end, we had to go into the restaurant and ask the car’s new owner if we could buy it back. He thought it over while he chewed on a fish stick, then told us we could have it back for twice the price he bought it for.
We gave the offer serious consideration, but ultimately decided to reject it. On the way across the parking lot I opened up the hatchback of our ex-car and stole the jack. I don’t know why I did this; it certainly wasn’t in the best interests of our ex-car; but I still have the jack and have not seen the old car again.
Almost
Looking one early morning out the third-floor window of our hotel room during a trip to the city, I saw a man and woman passing, one going east and the other west, on opposite sides of the street. The man, spotting the woman, glanced about the empty sidewalks then reached into his pocket and pulled out a knife. He stepped off the curb and cut a diagonal path between parked cars toward the woman, now walking with her back to him.
Before I could call out to warn her, another man opened an apartment door across the street, startling the knife-wielding man. The new man picked up a newspaper from his stoop, waved to the man with the knife and ducked back inside. The first man hurriedly stowed the knife and resumed walking in his original direction.
Since then I have not gone out onto the street without wondering when, and how often, I am sized up and rejected, for whatever reason, as the object of a violent assault. Perhaps this paranoia would have been mitigated somewhat had I called the police on that day, but I doubted city police would have reacted with appreciation to a report of a crime almost, but not quite, committed.
Treasure
A local legend had it that Indian treasure was buried somewhere in our region, and as boys my friends and I determined that this treasure must lie in a certain triangle of woods bounded by the creek that ran behind our houses, the fence that demarcated the edge of our school’s property, and the parking lot of the nearby grocery store. Though young, we were aware that our selection of this particular woods was purely arbitrary and opportunistic, and were skeptical about the likelihood of the local tribes having socked away the kind of treasure—gold, jewels, Spanish doubloons—that we were looking for. Nonetheless, we established a detailed hierarchy of military-style rank for everyone in our group, and organized elaborate searching parties, for which we fashioned special tools and uniforms. For much of one year, we spent every weekend in the woods looking for the treasure, and though it didn’t turn up, we made many worthwhile discoveries (of discarded toys, clothing and bottles) that more than justified our efforts.
Our group had a self-proclaimed ringleader, S., an unusually tall, unhandsome boy whom few of us liked but to whose natural leadership abilities we automatically deferred. One fall Saturday, S. shouted to us from his corner of the woods that he had found the Indian treasure. We rushed to the scene to find S. standing over a wooden shoe-shine box, emptied of its usual contents and filled with prosaic household items tightly wrapped in aluminum foil. These included a toothbrush, a roll of tape and a few wooden nickels, which S. had “engraved” with the crude likeness of an Indian princess. He declared that the search was over and that, as the High Commander of the Seekers of the Treasure, the box and its contents belonged to him.
Nobody cared about the fake treasure, though each of us examined it with some interest, hoping to find some shred of evidence that it was real. What most chagrined us, however, was that S.’s cheap ploy had ended our game. The game had depended on an unattainable goal, and now that the goal had been attained, the organization had no reason to exist. Though it would have been possible to call S.’s bluff and expose the treasure as bogus, none of us had either the courage or the heart to do so.
The group soon disbanded, and each of us went our separate ways. Occasionally S. would collar one of us in the halls of our school and insist he had heard about a new treasure, this one in another local woods, but these claims fell upon deaf ears. He had overestimated our loyalty to him as leader, and allowed his pride to topple him. Soon his family would move away to another state, and the members of our group would grow apart, finding new interests and cliques, and the entire treasure-hunting episode would come to seem childish and stupid.
The Bureau
Two couples we knew went together to an estate auction, hoping to find some inexpensive antique furniture. One couple found nothing of interest, but the second couple fell for an old bureau with four drawers and curved inlays, which they agreed would, once refinished, look good in their bedroom. This second couple agreed on a maximum price they would pay, and were thrilled, after a brief run of lackluster bidding, to secure the bureau for much less.
After the auction, the second couple collected their bureau, and the first couple helped them load it into their van. But while they were loading it one of the drawers slid out onto the ground. The husband of the first couple bent to pick up the drawer, and, noticing that it was lined with an old scrap of newspaper, paused to read what was printed there. He was astonished to find that the newspaper was dated just a few days after his own birthday several decades before. Even more astonishing, however, was the fact that the newspaper was from his own home town, many hundreds of miles from here, and that the particular page the drawer was lined with bore the announcement of his own birth. The man’s wife and their friends paused to discuss the coincidence for a while, and the man was given the newspaper page and brought it home as a keepsake.
The fact was, the man’s parents had been killed in a train accident when he was a baby and he knew very little about their lives. Soon he grew obsessed with the bureau and, convinced it held the key to his buried past, plotted ways to get into the second couple’s bedroom to see it. He began stopping by their house on his lunch hour, and struck up a secret friendship with the wife of the second couple, who stayed home during the day to care for her baby. Their friendship developed into a romantic affair, and most days, after they made love and the woman fell asleep, the man would examine the bureau in minute detail, opening and closing the drawers and touching the woodwork with trembling hands.
Eventually the man and woman left their families, married one another, and moved very far away. It wasn’t until they arrived in their new town that the man realized the bureau had not come with them. The woman had left it with her ex-husband, who was the one who had liked it in the first place. At first the man was heartbroken, but since there was nothing he could do he gave up thinking about it and concentrated on his new life, which was neither better nor worse than the one he had left behind.
The Cement Mailbox
A farmer who lives on our road had lost three mailboxes in as many weeks to the drunken antics of some local youths, who had taken to driving past late at night and smashing the mailboxes with a baseball bat. Because the police had been uncooperative in apprehending the youths, the farmer devised a solution to the problem: he bought two mailboxes—a gigantic, industrial-strength one and a small aluminum one—and arranged the boxes one inside the other, with a layer of cement between the two. He mounted this monstrous megabox on a length of eight-inch steel pipe, which was set into a four-foot post hole and stabilized there with thirty additional gallons of cement.
The following weekend the youths sped past in their convertible, and T., the captain of the high school baseball team and a local slugger of some renown, swung at the box from a standing position in the back seat. With the bat moving at more than seventy-five miles per hour relative to the car, and the car it
self traveling nearly as fast, the combined velocity of the impact was approximately 150 miles per hour. It was at this speed that the bat ricocheted and struck the head of J., a seventeen-year-old girl who had been sitting in the car, killing her instantly.
A series of criminal charges and civil suits followed. T. was tried as an adult and convicted of involuntary manslaughter. The driver of the car was sentenced to community service on charges of vandalism and reckless endangerment. The farmer was also convicted of reckless endangerment and fined; in response he sued the police department for failing to address the problem beforehand. The parents of the dead girl lobbied to have all the car’s living occupants, five in all, expelled from school; they also sued T., the driver and the farmer for several million dollars. They even tried, and failed, to sue the hardware store where the farmer had bought his cement-mailbox supplies, arguing that the store’s employees ought to have figured out what the farmer was doing, and stopped him. In a peripheral case, T.’s parents sued the hospital where he was treated for a broken arm; apparently the doctors there had set the break improperly, resulting in a painful re-setting that was likely to ruin T.’s chances to play baseball in the major leagues. Their lawyers demanded a percentage of T.’s projected future salary.
In the end, all judgments were reversed on appeal. It seemed that everyone involved was to blame, which the courts determined was no different from no one being to blame. All that remains, apart from the many legal debts incurred by the litigants and the accused, is the cement mailbox, which has proven too costly and cumbersome to remove.
Trust Jesus
A local teenager was caught spray-painting on an abandoned railroad bridge above a busy two-lane highway. Her graffito, which had nearly been finished when she was apprehended, read: TRUST JESUS.
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