by Mia Ford
I sat there staring at her, not knowing what to do or say, but I knew I couldn’t let her go. I couldn’t let her walk away from this job, from everything, and from me. I started to doubt myself, feeling that I had lost control again, but this time I didn’t care anymore. I just wanted to have the right words come to me so that I could convince her to stay, to be there across the hall from me. I couldn’t promise her it wouldn’t be hard seeing each other every day, but that was not my worry at that point. My worry was that she was going to walk away, and I would never see her again, left without her expertise at MJ, and without her presence in my life. I had never felt fear like that before over a woman, and it was making me think about things I would have never thought about when I was single for the last decade. I wanted to be completely unselfish, needing her to be happy and well.
“Look,” I said leaning forward. “It’s obvious that I want to see you all the time, that hasn’t changed. But I’m asking you to stay for more than just selfish reasons. I want you to stay because there is so much opportunity here for you. The merger is here, and if you are part of that, you can go anywhere with your career. No one your age can say they were part of the leadership team in a multibillion-dollar merger. It is just unheard of, but you are the best person for the job. I don’t want you to miss out on that because you are unsure of us. Please, don’t do that. Take the weekend and really think about what you want, don’t just make a rash decision.”
She sighed and put her hands up to her face, stressing out by the amount of choices she was facing. She was so beautiful, and I wanted nothing more to go over to her and wrap my arms around her. She was the woman I wanted, no matter what decision she made, but I couldn’t say that, not yet. I needed to let her make this decision for herself. It was so difficult, though, and I couldn’t help but think about my life without her in it. Just the thought made me feel sick to my stomach, and I began to panic, thinking she was going to make the wrong decision. I didn’t know what the wrong decision for her was, though, only knowing that if she left, it would be the wrong decision for me.
Instantly, I felt the panic growing stronger and stronger. I stood up from my stool and walked around the desk, pulling Ava up from her chair. She looked at me with confusion in her eyes as I stared at her, my face crumpled in fear. I had never felt this way about any woman before in my life, and I knew that if I walked away from this now, never showing her how much I cared, I would regret it for the rest of my life. I pulled her in and hugged her tightly, feeling her body go from stiff to relaxed as she leaned into me. It felt so good to feel her near me, to have her breathing close to my chest. At that moment, I knew there was no way that I could let her go without a fight.
“I’m not asking you,” I whispered. “I’m begging you. Please don’t leave. Stay with me. Stay here at the company. Stay in my life. I don’t care in what way.”
She pulled back and looked at me with surprise, assuming I would never reach that level. In all reality, I never thought I would reach that level either, but it was like my heart wouldn’t allow my brain to be embarrassed about it at all. She looked at me, breathing hard, thinking about my words, her face softening. A small smile moved across her lips, and she shook her head.
“I don’t know what to say,” she whispered. “That was more than anyone has ever said to me before.”
“You don’t need to say anything at this point,” I said, pulling her back toward me.
I leaned down and tipped her chin toward me, pressing my mouth against hers and kissing her passionately. She reached her arms around my neck and hung there, allowing me to taste her skin, move my lips over hers, and rub my arms over her back. This seemed exactly perfect, more perfect than I had realized before, and I never wanted to let Ava go.
I had spent my entire life, looking forward, fighting through the rough patches to get to where I wanted to be. My company was almost taking over itself at that point, and my life was becoming less and less stressful. I hadn’t thought about starting a life outside of work for a very long time, but with Ava in my life, it seemed like I wasn’t going to have a chance to make any other decision.
I could feel her breathing heavily as I moved my lips over her mouth, across her cheek and down her neck. She moaned softly in my ear, and I went from desperate to prove to her she needed to stay to turned on and ready to show her just how much she needed to stay, for personal reasons. I took a deep breath and moved my hands up to her face, cradling it in my hands. I looked deep in her eyes and stood there, showing her without words how much I wanted her. She reached forward and gripped onto my shirt with her fists, pressing her abdomen against my crotch, rubbing up and down. I groaned, trying to keep my cool, but just having Ava touching me was setting me off.
I couldn’t keep my hands off her, and though this started as a desperate attempt to keep her at the company, it had quickly turned into an opportunity to show her just how much I wanted her. I looked over at the desk and back at her, curling my lips into a smile. This was one of my biggest fantasies.
Chapter 28
Ava
When Tanner looked me in the eye, I was done for. When he told me the truth, begged me to stay, I melted into a puddle at his feet, remembering how much I loved him. His kiss was loving but quickly turned passionate, and when he glanced over at the desk, I couldn’t help but feel electricity shooting through my chest. I reached up and kissed him hard and deep, allowing his hands to fall to my sides and grasp onto my skirt. Slowly he began to pull my skirt up, exposing my thigh high stockings and my black satin panties. I moaned quietly as he pulled it all the way up to waist, running his hand across my panties, and groping at my wetness. He stepped forward, moving my body with his strong arms, and pushing me up against the desk. I lifted myself into a sitting position and spread my legs open, running my hand down the huge bulge in his pants.
I pushed back on his desk, moving the papers behind me and pulling my knees up. I pushed him backward and he fell into the chair, smiling mischievously at me. I bit my bottom lip and pulled my panties aside, slowly rubbing my fingers through my folds, feeling my juices flowing. He groaned rubbing his cock through his pants and staring down at my pussy. I took my fingers and put them in my mouth, sucking on them deeply before pushing them inside of myself.
“Yes,” he groaned, watching me finger myself.
“You, too,” I said smiling. “Pull out your cock.”
A huge grin began to spread across his face as he unbuckled his pants, pulled his zipper down, and reached into his boxers. He groaned loudly as he pulled his cock from his pants and ran his hand up and down the shaft. It was so hard and red, and I could tell he wanted to fuck the hell out of me. I stared down as he fisted his cock softly, watching intently as my fingers moved in and out of my juices. I reached up with my other hand and began to rub my clit, leaning my head back and biting my lip, trying not to be too loud. The heat in my stomach grew with every stroke of his cock. I loved to watch him watch me. I loved to feel his eyes on me and know how much he wanted me. Just knowing the pleasure between his palms was waiting to push into me, made me move my fingers faster over my nub.
As I pushed in and out of myself with my fingers, I could feel myself falling over the edge of pleasure as he began to fist his cock, leaning forward licking his lips. I pulled my fingers out and wrapped my hand over my mouth, muffling the sounds of my screams as my other had rubbed my clit over the edge. My back arched and I rolled my eyes back, moaning into my hand. I could hear Tanner standing from his chair and felt his fingers enter me, pushing my pleasure to new heights. As my orgasm began to slow, he grabbed my thighs and pulled me off the desk, turning me around and pushing me down on the desk
Tanner’s hands grasped me around the waist and he spread my legs apart. I could feel the animal magnetism surging through his body as he leaned forward, ramming his cock deep inside of me. I bit down on my fist as he filled me completely, his huge cock pulsing in and out of my pussy. He reached up and slapped my a
ss, causing me to lurch, trying not to let loose and scream out in ecstasy. His cock felt so good banging into my body over and over again. I could hear him grunting softly as he thrust his hips into me.
I reached across the desk and grasped onto the sides, trying to strengthen myself, keeping the desk from shaking and moving. Tanner reached around and ran his hand between my legs, running his fingers around my clit. I tilted my hips upward, opening up for him to push deeper and harder, wanting so badly to moan out loud, and let him hear just how good he felt. He grabbed my hips and began to smack into me, no longer giving a shit about who might hear us. I moaned loudly into my arm, allowing him to hear just enough to stay secret. He groaned into my shoulder as he slapped into me, lifting my feet slightly from the floor with each thrust.
“God,” he groaned. “I’m gonna come.”
“Yes,” I moaned out. “I want to feel you. Fuck me harder.”
He growled and sat up slamming into me as hard as he could, feeling his cock begin to harden and pulse inside of me. I reached down with one hand and rubbed my clit feverishly, wanting to feel this orgasm rock my body. As my fingers danced across my nub, and his cock slid deep inside of me, I pulled my head upward and moaned with my mouth closed, feeling the juices in my pussy explode around his shaft.
“Fuck, yes,” he moaned as he thrust several more times before grabbing my waist and pushing deep inside.
The waves of pleasure washed over my body, and I could feel his cock begin to twitch in my pussy. He pushed into me further and further until he tucked his head into my neck and groaned loudly in my ear. His fingers dug into my sides when he erupted in pleasure. Our bodies tensed against each other’s and while my pussy vibrated wildly around his cock, he gave my wetness the same treatment. After several moments, we both began to quiet, the waves of pleasure dissipating. He slowly pulled out of me, kissing my back and shuffling backward, his pants still around his ankles.
I groaned as I pulled myself up off the desk and pulled my skirt back down, grabbing onto the desk to catch my wobbly knees. Tanner looked up and laughed as I stumbled around, completely caught off balance from that amazing sex. He tucked in his shirt and walked over to me, smoothing the fly away hairs down to my head. He grabbed me around the waist and pulled me in, kissing me passionately on the lips. It felt so damn perfect, and I could no longer ignore the feeling in the pit of my stomach. When he pulled back I looked up at him and smiled.
“Is this how you get what you want?”
“Did it work?” He laughed and kissed me again.
“I know one thing, I can check off fucking on the office desk, something I always wanted to do,” I smiled. “Not that I wouldn’t do it again, just saying.”
“You dirty girl,” he said biting his lip.
“I say we do the copy room next,” I said, laughing. “Get some good pictures as you pound me.”
“Can I hang them on the lost document board?”
I leaned my head back and laughed, pulling him into me. He smelled so amazing, and I pressed my head against his chest, taking in a deep breath. There was something so freaking sexy about him, and how he handled himself. The last thing I imagined when I came to his office was having hot sex on his desk. He had been so open and honest with how he wanted me to stay, and my feelings for him just freed me from any guilt. I still wasn’t sure what I was doing, but I did know that it felt good and I was going to go with it as long as I could.
“That was unexpected,” he said.
“It was,” I replied. “But it was a happy surprise. I missed your scent, your feel, your arms around me. I have been up for days thinking about you. I haven’t been able to get past any of this. I am glad my father is back in my life, but I never meant to have you leave it. After spending this time apart, I realized just how strongly I felt for you. I want to make sure that we are honest with each other from this moment forward.”
“I agree,” he said. “Our relationship has gotten out of control, and it was ruined by all the secrets and lies. I don’t want any more lies, even with Dean. I want to make sure we’re on each other’s side instead of working against each other. I know that everything was very stressful for you when your father showed up, but I never want to be in that situation again with either one of you. You are so special, so beautiful, and I have been completely lost thinking that I was going to completely lose you from my life.”
“I don’t want to go anywhere,” I said, hugging him tightly. “I just have never felt this close or attached to anyone in my life. I honestly need you in every way possible.”
“So where does that leave us?”
I stood there and looked up at his charming smile, unable to even think about walking away from him at that point. We already knew that the most important thing was to be honest with each other, which should eliminate a lot of the stress in our relationship. However, I still had my father to think about, and because of me, he thought I wasn’t seeing Tanner anymore. It was the last lie that needed to be cleared up, and it was going to be a tough one because I had already made up with my dad. Either way, I needed to make things right with him to feel comfortable about dating Tanner at all.
“I don’t know,” I said. “I need to straighten all of this out with my father. He deserves honesty as much as we do toward each other.”
“I agree,” he said smiling. “Dean deserves that respect, especially after everything we’ve put him through.”
“Okay,” I said taking in a deep breath and stepping back. “I am going to go ahead and take the rest of the day off like I was originally going to do anyway. I need to formulate my plan to talk with my father.”
“Go relax,” he said smiling. “Everything is almost back to normal. The only thing left to do is talk to your father, and then, the decisions can be made from there. Either way, I want to talk with you when everything has come full circle. Can you do that for me?”
“Of course,” I said, feeling like I was starting to have a partner and not just someone fighting against me.
I kissed him on the nose and made sure my clothes were straight before leaving the office. Lily didn’t even look up when I left, and I assumed that we had been quiet enough. I walked into my office and grabbed my purse, looking over and blushing as I caught Tanner staring out of his doorway at me. I felt like I was on cloud nine, even though there were still some serious issues to resolve.
I climbed into the elevator and watched as the doors closed, feeling my heart beating wildly in my chest. As soon as the doors had slid shut, a huge smile spread across my face, and I leaned my head back against the elevator mirror. This whole situation had been such a roller coaster of emotions. I couldn’t wait until it was all over, and I could go back to my life, could bring Tanner into my life permanently and not have to wonder from hour to hour whether we were seeing each other or not. The suspense had to be over.
Chapter 29
Tanner
I watched as Ava left her office, chuckling to myself at how much her cheeks blushed when she realized I was watching her. It was like everything that had happened over the last couple of weeks had finally began to settle. There was only one more conversation that needed to happen in order for Ava to feel comfortable with us becoming an official couple. I hadn’t meant to sleep with her, and in fact, I was completely prepared to say goodbye to her, but as she sat there, showing how much I affected her, I couldn’t help it. I lost all ability to control the situation, and I begged her to stay. I didn’t regret it, though, I knew that if I didn’t go all in and do my best to let her know how much I wanted her in my life, I would never feel at ease if things didn’t work out. There was still a chance that things could backfire, but I was ready to put myself on the line and wouldn’t let my fears of commitment or love get in the way of attempting to keep Ava in my life.
Ava, at that moment, was staying with the company, but I knew it was confusing for her, and she wouldn’t feel comfortable making any decision without letting her father know the e
ntire truth. At the same time, I needed to make peace with Dean, let him know how much I cared for his daughter. He would never go along with any of it if he still harbored such a strong animosity toward me. I got up and closed my door, wanting privacy when I made this phone call. I knew there was a good chance that Dean was going to either not answer at all or turn me down for the chance to talk, but I had to give it a shot. If Ava talked to him before I had a chance to make things right as his friend, I might lose her before I even had a chance to try.
I dialed Dean’s number and listened as it went to voicemail. I hung up and sat there, staring at the phone, trying to figure out what to do next. I didn’t know where he was or where I could find him, and I wasn’t going to show up at their house in case Lindy was there alone. She didn’t like me, and I really had never been very fond of her either. A face-to-face with her was not something I was interested in having at all. I picked the phone back up and dialed him again, hoping he would get the hint that it was important. To my surprise, he answered the phone.
“Tanner,” he said, not sounding too excited to hear from me.
“Dean,” I said in a kind voice. “I think that it’s important that we get together and talk. Not only do I want to try to work through all of this, but I need to talk to you about Ava as well.”
