by Jade Blue
'So? Your the angry kind of girl?' Matt whispered.
I rolled my eyes and said nothing. He can think whatever he wants. I don't give a damn.
He nudged me on my arm. 'Well? Are you? Because If you are, your not going to survive in this school.' He whispered. I could sense him staring at me. He came closer to me. So close that that if I looked at him, our noses would touch. 'You won't survive. Specially that you've caught my eye.' He whispered. He went back to his work.
My hands tightened. How dare he speak to me like that?
He didn't say anything throughout the lesson. But his words were annoying the hell out of me. What does he mean that I've caught his eye? Of course I did, I'm a girl surrounded by boys!
I looked at him. He was gorgeous. His black hair was messy but it made it look sexy. Whoa, his eyes made me tingle with excitement. I knew that he was going to make my life a misery. But for some reason, I wasn't worried.
CHAPTER 12: NEVER KNEW
The bell rang.
'Right, class. Bring your worksheets here and then you could go.' Miss Rain said. I looked next to me, to see Matt staring at me. His eyes filled with amusement.
'What?' I said to him, annoyed as hell. I hate it when people stare!!
He smiled. 'Nothing.' He said, before getting his books and leaving the room. I frowned.
What was all that about?
Everyone went one by one except for Finn. 'Hey.' I said, grabbing my books. I smiled when I thought the he was risking his reputation in this school by wondering around with a girl.
'Hi.' He looked uncomfortable. We went out of the class and were walking to next lesson.
'Is everything okay?' I said, worried.
'Yeah.' He said smiling. And then he frowned again. 'Actually no. The guy you were sitting next to. Matt-'
'Don't get me started on him! He thinks hes some big bully who can boss people around.' I said, too angry to hide my words. 'Who does he think he is? And guess what he said to me.'
I didn't even stop for him to guess and just continued. 'He said that I wouldn't survive in this school! How dare he? Does he even know who I am?'
'He's not that bad.' Finn said. My eyes opened.
'Not that bad? He's the worst!' I said, outraged. We went up the stairs. Boy's looked at me but I was too mad to get nervous. If that's impossible...
'He's a pain sometimes but he's okay when you get to know him.' He said, like he wasn't even there when Matt came.
I was going to answer back but I knew there was no point. 'So, how come your defending him?' I said, trying to not shout it.
Finn looked at me and said, 'He's my cousin.'
'What?' I said. I can't believe this! That guy, that weird guy is related to Finn. I seriously can't believe this. Finn is so nice, sweet and cool and then theres Matt.
He nodded, feeling kind of embarrassed. I should be the one who should feel embarrassed. I was the one complaining about him for so long.
'I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-'
'Its fine. I would do the same.' He smiled, making me smile too. I like Finn. 'Anyway, lets get to class. Race you there!' He shouted, before running.
I ran behind him and then I went faster and this time, he was behind me. The door to next lesson was a few seconds away.
'I win!' I said, breathless. I looked back to see him still running. He looked exhausted. I laughed.
Finally, he came and smiled. 'I....let.....you....win...' He said, breathlessly. I rolled my eyes before opening the door to lesson.
CHAPTER 13: WHEN WILL CECE EVER LIVE IN PEACE?
I sat on the bench that I sat when I first came. It was still sunny and I smiled, thinking of Finn. I can't believe I like him... I've never liked any boy. Maybe superstars but I don't know.. Finn makes me smile and I just feel so happy. I put my head back on the bench side and put my legs up.
I smiled to myself while thinking of Finn. I just met him yesterday but It's so weird that from all the people in the airplane, I met Finn who was going to the same school as me and who was in the same class as me AND who was cute. I can't think of anything bad about him. Except that he has Matt as his cousin. The way that Finn talks about Matt shows that they are kind of close. Maybe they are..
I guess the only way to get close to Finn is if I get close to Matt. Pff! That's not going to go well.
'CeCe!' I looked up to see Miss Rain running towards me. Her face was still red and she looked exhausted.
Finally, she came and sat on the bench next to me. She put her hands to her head.
I bit my lip, trying not to laugh. She was a mess. 'Are you okay?' I said.
'She looked at me and smiled. 'Yeah... I just....' She said, breathlessly. 'I've been finding....you..everywhere....'
'Oh, sorry. It's break now so I thought I would just, you know. Have a rest or something.' I said, feeling a bit uncomfortable.
She kept on breathing loudly for 3 minutes. 'Okay. I'm done.' She said, finally.
I gave her a smile, before looking back at the trees at the far end.
'How was your first lesson?' She said. I frowned. She was there with me in the lesson. She noticed and said 'Sorry, stupid question.' She looked more uncomfortable than me.
'Is everything okay?' I said.
'Yeah.' She sighed. 'It's just I never knew your first day would be so...' She looked at me. 'Challenging.'
I laughed. 'What do you mean?'
She smiled. 'I thought you were going to get a bit-'
'Pissed?' I said, cheekily.
'Ermm... well not that exact word but yeah.' She said. I knew she has the urge to tell me off for swearing. 'It's just, when I saw you shouting at Matt Rhodes, I was kind of-'
'Mad?' I said. I was going to say 'pissed' but I knew she would tell me off.
'No, not mad at all. I was kind of proud. I mean, I knew some boys like Matt would bully you and get you angry and when you shouted at them, I was proud that you didn't just sit there and listen to him annoying you.' I was shocked by what she was saying. She was proud when I shouted at Matt?
She saw me looking shocked and said, 'CeCe, I didn't mean that its right to do this. It's just that boys are..... different and when they act like... Matt... you have to stand up and try to defend yourself. And I'm really happy you did that.'
I smiled. 'Thanks.' Selma understands me. I never knew the day that a girl would understand me.
'Don't tell you dad I said this.' She said.
'Don't worry. Its between me and you.'
There was a silence. It wasn't awkward at all. It felt okay. I've never felt comfortable when I'm with my mum or dad or any of my cousins. And I feel comfortable with a lady who I just met a few hours ago.
'AAAH!' She shouted.
'Are you okay?' I looked at her.
'I forgot to tell you why I'm here.' She said. 'Your dad wants you to eat lunch with him. In his office.'
'Oh.' I said. My dad wants me to eat lunch with him? Why?
As if reading my mind, Selma said, 'It's because he's kind of insecure. He doesn't want you to eat lunch with boys.'
I smiled. That's why..
'Well, I've got to go. Next lesson is Art and be strong.' She said getting up. 'Matt's going to be in that lesson.'
Oh Man! Why him?
'Wait, Is Finn going to be in that lesson too?' Selma looked at me and gave me a cheeky grin.
'You've got a crush on a boy?' She said, nudging me.
I laughed. 'He's just my friend.' Yet.
She laughed. 'I'm sorry, sweetie. Finn doesn't have that lesson. He takes another lesson instead.'
I frowned. Well, this is going to be the worst.
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CHAPTER 14: CECE IS AN IDIOT
It's been 2 weeks in this school and to be honest, its not that bad.
Except the fact that Matt's always taking Finn away from me whenever I want to hang around with him, everything is fine. But I've m
ade a lot of friends. And I haven't got mad and threw anything or broke anything in so long! I can't believe I'm actually happy.
I was sitting outside for lunch, eating my apple. Finn was sitting next to me, looking gorgeous as ever.
Does he like me?Will he ask me out one day? No, why would he like me? Finn caught me staring at him. I looked back at the book I was reading, feeling embarrassed.
He laughed. I looked at at him, confused
. 'What's so funny?' I said.
He bit his lip. 'Your... erm, book is wrong way round.'
I looked back at my book to see he was telling the truth.
'Haha, oops.' I said, smiling. He was about to say something but Matt came towards us, with his group of friends. 'Hey Finn, want to go play some football?' Matt said.
He wasn't looking at Finn that much, mostly at me.
I rolled my eyes and looked at my book. Don't go Finn, don't leave me, I thought to myself.
'Sure, why not?' He said, happily.
I bit my lip, getting angry at him. Why does he keep on leaving me?
'Sorry CeCe, but I have to go-'
'It's fine, I'll see you next time.' I smiled. He nodded and packed his stuff up.
I looked at Matt who was staring at me, like he was confused. Finn went with Matt and his gang. Here I was, left alone. Again. I walked to the library so i could finish my homework. I saw Jack, Finn's best friend and sat with him. We've been very close lately. Everytime Finn went, I used to hang around with Jack.
'Hey, what's up? You seem down.' He said, looking at me. 'Let me guess, Finn left again?'
'Yes!' I shouted, angrily. The librarian shushed. I bit my lip. Oops.
'Why does he keep on leaving whenever Matt comes?' I whispered to Jack.
'Don't know.' Jack said, he quickly went back to his work. He looked really guilty for some reason. Was he hiding something that I didn't know about?
'Spill.' I said. He looked at me, confused. 'I know that something's up so just tell me now or I'll find out later.'
'CeCe...'
'Please?' I said, doing my puppy face.
'Fine.' He said, giving up.
'But don't tell anyone, okay?' I nodded.
'Okay.' He whispered.
'Matt's dad died 4 years ago when he was 13.' My eyes widened.
'And...' Jack continued. 'Ever since then, the few weeks before his father's death anniversary, Finn does whatever Matt wants him to do because Finn doesn't want to hurt him.'
I looked down. I didn't know. I didn't know. I didn't know.
'He used to be really close with his dad and that's the reason why he's always naughty.'
I bit my lip to stop myself from crying. All these mean stuff I've been thinking about Matt when the truth is I never really knew him.
All he wanted was his cousin to be with him and I just turned against him. I'm such a bad person. I got my stuff and ran. Jack called after me but I ignored him and ran upstairs to my room.
I heard a knock on the door. I didn't say anything and just covered my face with my arms. 'Celia, you okay?' It was Dad. My dad. The dad that I was being mean to, the dad that i wanted to suffer.
I didn't want to see my dad ever again when he left me, but the truth is, Matt won't be able to even if he wanted to.
'Sorry, I mean CeCe.' Dad said, 2 minutes of quiet.
'Did something happen?' I said nothing. Not because i didn't want to talk to him.
But because I couldn't trust my voice and if I said anything or looked at him, i would burst into tears. 'CeCe, I may not be very close to you but we could always talk. You know, about school and stuff. Not the girly stuff though, I'm not really an expert on that.' I smiled.
'If you need me, all you need to do is call.' He said, before closing the door. I got up and looked out the window. Okay CeCe, these are your aims for school.'
One: Be friends with Matt even if it kills you
Two: Don't get emotional ever again!
Three: Make it easier for Dad.
I was about to go downstairs, when I saw Matt kicking the ball from my window. He looked so happy with Finn. They were laughing and throwing the ball at each other. I smiled, watching them have fun. I guess I've found another reason to like Finn. Because he makes everyone happy. Specially Matt.
CHAPTER 15: EVEN IF IT KILLS YOU
I was in my dad's office, eating. He ordered pizza so I wasn't going to dodge this. Pizza is just so damn good. 'Do you like it?' He said.
'Yep, its erm, really nice.' I said, looking at my watch. It was nearly time for Matt's football practice and since every time I see him, I make a mean comment, I need to start being his friend.
For Finn, obviously. 'Celia, do you need to be somewhere?' He said, seeing me looking at my watch.
'Erm, I'm sure it could wait.' I smiled and took another bite of the pizza. 'And it's Cece.' I added.
He smiled. 'I don't know why I always call you Celia.' He said. 'So, I wanted to talk about what happened yesterday.'
I froze. Shoot, how am i going to explain me running to my bed looking depressed? 'Erm. I missed my mum.'I lied. Actually, it wasn't a complete lie. I kind of did miss her even though she didn't bother phoning me.
'Oh.' He said. He was about to say something but then closed his mouth.
I looked at my watch again. Wow, time goes fast, I thought sarcastically.
'You could go if you want.' He said. 'I could clear everything up.'
'You sure?' I said, getting my bag. He nodded.
'Sure. Where are you going anyways?' I bit my lip. 'Erm, I need to go study for Finals.' I lied.
He knew that I had to leave for another but he didn't say anything. I loved this feeling. My mum asks so much questions before I go out but my dad doesn't.
Its because my dad trusts me. And I love that. I smiled. I ran outside to see Finn, Matt and a couple of his friends walking out of school to the field. 'Finn!' I shouted. He heard me and looked back. And Matt did. I ran to him, out of breath.
'Can I come?' Finn smiled but Matt looked at me, suspiciously.
'Sure, I guess.' Finn said looking at Matt.
'I mean, I've got nothing else to do so I thought I might hang with you guys, if thats-'
'Do you know how to play football?' Matt interrupted.
'Erm, I-'
'Yes or No?' He said, annoyed.
I bit my lip.'No?'
He rolled his eyes. 'Theres no point for you to come.' He looked annoyed.
Maybe I wasn't doing a right thing and instead of making Matt happy, I'm making him annoyed. I smiled and tried to hide that I was hurt.
'You're right. What was I thinking?' I put my hand through my hair, nervously.
'Have fun.' I turned my back on them and walked away. 'Wait!' I looked back. Matt put his hand through his hair. 'Fine, you can come.' I smiled. They made their way out of school and I followed behind them.
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'YOU WANT ME TO WHAT?' I shouted.
Matt smiled. 'For the last time, I want you to get the footballs from the forest.'
'But its dark out there.' Finn said, helping me out.
'Look, if you don't want to do it, that's fine!' He shouted. He looked pissed off.
I sighed. He was doing this because he wanted to seek revenge for the way I treat him. And if this made him happy, then I have to do it. He was going through a lot already.
'Fine. I'll do it.' I said. Everyone looked at me, shocked. Even Matt looked shocked for a second.
'Cece, you don't need to do this.' Finn said. He looked at Matt. 'Matt, tell her she doesn't have to do this.' He shrugged.
'Finn, I'll be fine. Its just a few footballs. Don't worry.' I gave him a smile. I got a bag I made my way to the forest. I looked back. Everyone was getting ready for their game. I saw Matt looking at me.
CHAPTER 16: THE THINGS I DO FOR YOU
The forest got darker from every step I took.
Okay, Matt said the footballs were going to be nea
r the left. Okay, Lets see. I looked around. Nothing.I looked behind the trees and under the bushes.
I even moved moved chunks of mud to look.I kept on remembering the aims that I did. 'Be friends with Matt even if it kills you.' I repeated to myself.
All my clothes were wet with mud and I still hadn't found any footballs. I sighed,Then I heard something from behind. I looked back to see a football floating on some mud.
I smiled to myself. Finally. Without thinking, I ran to get the ball and I slipped, landing in a big pile of mud. I screamed.All my clothes were covered in mud. And even my hair.
Tears built up in myeyes. No, its just mud CeCe. It's just mud.
10 minutes later, I found the rest of the footballs and made my way to the field to show them.I could see them playing. When they saw me, everyone laughed. Even Finn.I felt hurt but when I looked at Matt and how happy he looked, I couldn't help but smile.
'Be friends with Matt even if it kills you.' I whispered to myself.
'CeCe, what happened?' Finn said, looking at me from head to toe.
I sighed. 'You don't want to know.'
I looked at Matt. 'Here are your precious footballs.' I said. I couldn't help but get a bit mad. He smiled.
'Thanks.' He took the bag of footballs and gave them to Finn.'Come on. We're done.' Finn said.
