Definitely getting too old for this sort of thing. He could feel the single cigarette he’d smoked, telling on him with a wheeze. No one had followed him, however. He had managed to jog as far as the south-side beach and now he sagged, gasping, against the pipe rail of the boardwalk, looking across the blocks of scrubby waste ground between the strand and the lights of Edgemere Avenue, thinking confusedly of the fields of fire surrounding various third-world palaces where he had once reported.
All this beachfront somehow undeveloped—and likely to stay that way, now, for a good while longer. When he had caught his breath enough he lit another cigarette in the shelter of his hood, then turned to face the wind and water. There was surf, beating down to white foam on the waterline. Perhaps a mile to the east were the lights of the high-rises. Westward, the dull glow of the city lit a sagging belly of snow-filled cloud.
When the cigarette had burned to the filter he flicked it out onto the sand and turned in the direction of the address William had given him. It was astonishingly cold and there was no one else on the street. The attack on the subway stairs had been random, he thought. Just a blast from the past—from the city he used to live in thirty years ago. He remembered that he hadn’t remembered his knife, and that he was lucky he hadn’t been shot.
* * *
Etheridge Elliot had lost his two top front teeth but his smile exuded the same überconfident charm as before. He wore a blue bandanna secured at the center of his forehead with a row of gnarly little knots of a style once favored by a certain Flatbush Crips set. Or so the journalist seemed to recall; it was ten years or more since he’d reported that one. A blast of heat swirled out of the basement door Elliot had opened and the journalist stepped gratefully into it, clenching his teeth so they wouldn’t chatter.
“Ragamuffin!” Elliot cried. The journalist fumbled a hipster handshake. They were standing in a square of partially finished basement; a drape of kente cloth hanging from the ceiling tiles divided them from what must have been the larger part of the space.
“Wattagwan wid wi?” Elliot said, expanding his smile around the black gap of the two missing teeth.
“Same as it ever was,” the journalist said, after a moment of bewildered cogitation. The patois he’d picked up among the maroons had long since rusted away, and to the best of his recollection Etheridge Elliot had spoken reasonably standard English the last time they had met. They had never addressed one another as “ragamuffin,” so far as he could recall. Still, the overwrought accent touched him, like a warm breath of the island wind.
Elliot held up one finger and stepped through the kente cloth. The journalist waited, still on his cold feet. The only seating option was a pair of bucket car seats, still bolted together. From above, footsteps crossing a floor broke up a steady throbbing of bass. There were also some other people besides Elliot in the space behind the kente cloth, the journalist thought, though he was unsure of his reason for thinking so.
Then Elliot came back with two bottles of Red Stripe and a short dog of Bacardi gold. He offered the rum first.
“Cut de col’, mon.”
Gladly, the journalist took a belt from the bottleneck, then chased it with the beer Elliot proffered. They sat down side by side in the twinned car seats. The length of Elliot’s legs put his knees up somewhere around his ears. He and the journalist clicked their beer bottles, then Elliot passed him the short dog again. The warmth of the rum restored to the journalist a glimmer of optimism.
“Lessee wheh dot ting.” Elliot twisted over the arm of the car seat to scrabble in a beer box mostly full of shiny old newspaper advertising inserts. The back of his shirt rode up to disclose the grip of a nine sticking up from his waistband, along the pale knobs of his spine. The journalist took the opportunity to probe the flesh around his jarred knee joint—a little tender but he thought there’d be no long-term consequences.
Out from under the litter Elliot fished an oblong bundle about the size of a telephone book, wrapped in black plastic and silver duct tape. The journalist accepted it into his lap, then, after a discreet pause, zipped it into his shoulder bag. He leaned forward and set his empty Red Stripe on the concrete floor.
“Okeh den,” Elliot said. “Yuh wanna ride inna town?”
The journalist thought it over. What if the jump at the subway hadn’t been random after all? Or he might draw another piece of random. If Elliot wanted to take him off he could do it anywhere and besides that play didn’t make any sense.
“If you can drive me to Canarsie,” he said, “I could catch the double L.”
He hefted the bag and stood up, wrinkling his nose. From behind the cloth divider came the scent of scorched foil and burning resin.
“Deh chasen de dragon,” Elliot half whispered. “Doan you wanna taste?”
“I don’t think so,” the journalist said with a pain like the pang of lost love.
“Still yuh would do, mon,” Elliot said, his voice turning wistful now. “Back in de day.”
Surely the dragon had opened its maw and would smother the journalist in its vapors. Neurons were standing up all over his system, like the hair of a terrified cat. He had the odd and distant thought that maybe Elliot was only pretending to have recognized him when he came in, that in fact he did not know him at all. Or that he did know him, but not from experience.
“No,” he said finally, uncertain whether he was declining the proposition of the moment or just the idea that Elliot had ever seen him accept it. Back in the day when they’d known each other the journalist was a tenure-track prof at a cozy East Coast college and he would not have swapped his shot at security for this. Later on he had traded it for something else, he couldn’t now remember what.
An associate of William’s met him at the Baltimore station, not in the empty, elegant lobby but on the second level of the parking garage below. His headlights swept over the journalist as the car rounded a bend of the garage, and the journalist stepped aside from the beams as the tinted driver’s side window slid down. The associate had once been a waiter at the restaurant William used to manage before it went down. The journalist didn’t recall his name but was sure enough of his identity to pass the package on to him. In return, the associate flipped him an old campus-mail envelope folded three times over and snapped tight with a rubber band. The journalist tucked it quickly into the inside pocket of his jacket.
“Who loves you, baby?” the associate said. The associate had not shaved recently; the journalist wondered if that might be a new style open to him now that he was no longer employed as a waiter, or the result of a drop in morale.
“Only my mother,” he replied, but the associate had already driven away. “And she’s dead.”
The journalist drifted toward the southern face of the garage, thinking. I ask myself: What is a stable commodity in a time of deep recession? I answer: whatever the consumer can’t stop wanting. This solution was congruent with the gritty, powdery feel of the package through its plastic, and with the sum of money William had offered him for bringing it down. The journalist touched the thickness of the envelope through the leather of his jacket but he didn’t want to look at it yet, in case it should prove to be only dried leaves.
He stopped at the vertical bars that closed off the garage, wondering if they were meant to stop people going out or coming in. Out, most likely, as there was a two-story drop to the expressway below. He took out the cigarettes and stuck one in the corner of his mouth and tossed the box out through the bars, watching its red and white edges flashing end over end until it had disappeared into the slow current of night traffic.
No snowflake falls in the wrong place. The journalist lit his last cigarette and flicked the match pack after the box. As he exhaled he seemed to feel a warm breath on the back of his neck but he knew all that was mere illusion, only the idea of the dragon, snuffling at him one more half-interested time before it moved on. He felt that he missed the dragon already, although he knew it would surely return.
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LAWRENCE BLOCK
THE ROAD VEERED a few degrees as it reached the outskirts of the city, just enough to move the setting sun into his rearview mirror. It was almost down, its bottom rim already touching the horizon, and would have been somewhere between gold and orange if he’d turned to look at it. In his mirror, some accident of optics turned it the color of blood.
There will be blood, he thought. He’d seen the film with that for a title, drawn into the theater by the four uncompromising words. He couldn’t remember the town, or if it had been weeks or months ago, but he could summon up the smell of the movie house, popcorn and musty seats and hair spray, could recall the way his seat felt and its distance from the screen. His memory was quirky that way, and what did it matter, really, when or where he’d seen the film? What did it matter if he’d seen it at all?
Blood? There was greed, he thought, and bitterness, and raw emotion. There was a performance that never let you forget for a moment that you were watching a brilliant actor hard at work. And there was blood, but not all that much of it.
The sun burned bloodred in his rearview, and he bared his teeth and grinned at it. He could feel the energy in his body, the tingling sensation in his hands and feet, a palpable electrical current surging within him. The sun was setting and the night was coming and there would be a moon, and it would be a hunter’s moon.
His moon.
There would be a woman. Oh, yes, there would be a woman. And there would be pleasure—his—and there would be pain—hers. There would be both those things, growing ever more intense, rushing side by side to an ending.
There would be death, he thought, and felt the blood surging in his veins, felt a throbbing in his loins. Oh, yes, by all means, there would be death.
There might even be blood. There usually was.
Yes. This was the place.
It was the third bar he’d walked into, and he stepped up to the rail and ordered his third double vodka of the evening, Absolut, straight up.
As far as he could tell, all vodka was the same. He ordered Absolut because he liked the way it sounded. Once in a liquor store window he saw a vodka that called itself Black Death, and he’d tried ordering that for a while, but nobody ever had it. He didn’t suppose it would taste any different.
The bartender was a short-haired blonde with hard blue eyes that took his measure as she poured his drink. She didn’t like what she saw, he could tell that much, and under the right circumstances he’d enjoy setting her straight. She had an inch-long scar on her sharp chin, and he let himself imagine giving her some new scars. Breaking some bones. Driving the heel of his hand into her temple, right next to the eye socket. If you did it just right, you got the eye to pop out. If you did it wrong, well, there was nothing to stop you from trying again, was there?
He didn’t like her, didn’t think she was pretty, wasn’t drawn to her. But he was hard already, just thinking of what he could do to her.
But all he did was pick up his glass and drain it. On nights like this the only effect alcohol had on him was to energize him. Instead of taking the edge off, it honed it. The anticipation, the heightened excitement, caused his body to metabolize alcohol differently. It coursed in his veins like amphetamine, but without the overamping, the jitters. Picked him up and straightened him out, all at once, and a pity they couldn’t use that in their ads.
The bartender had gone off to make a drink for somebody else. He thought again of the hard look in her eyes and pictured her eye popped out. He put his hand in his pocket and touched the knife. Let her keep her eyes, at least for a while. Cut her eyelids off, put her in front of a mirror, let her watch what happened to her. Cut her lips off, cut her ears off, cut her tits off. Teach her to look at him and size him up, teach her to judge him. Teach her good.
He couldn’t pick her up, no chance of that, but he could easily wait for her. Lie in ambush, be there in the shadows when she closed the bar and walked to her car. Next thing she knew she’d be naked, wrists and ankles tied, mouth taped, watching herself in the mirror. Like that, bitch? Happy now?
Then he turned away and saw the girl and forgot the bartender forever.
What other men would see, he supposed, was a pretty woman. Not supermodel looks, not heart-stopping beauty, but an exceptionally attractive oval face framed with lustrous dark-brown hair that fell to her shoulders. He saw all that himself, of course, but what he saw most clearly was her utter vulnerability.
She was there for the taking, there to be taken, and it was almost too easy, like shooting tame animals at a game farm. Not that he ever considered letting that dissuade him from scooping her up. Her vulnerability had a powerfully erotic effect on him. He was rock hard and knew he’d stay that way until dawn. He’d be able to fuck her all night long, he wouldn’t stop until she was dead. And maybe not even then. Maybe he’d throw one more fuck into her afterward, just for luck. What was death, after all, but the ultimate submission?
He watched her, felt the energy flowing, and willed her to look his way. He knew she’d be unable to resist, and sure enough her head turned and her eyes met his. He put everything into his smile and knew the effect it would have. At moments like this his face turned absolutely radiant, as if lit from within.
She answered with a tentative smile of her own. He walked over to her, and didn’t she look like a bird hypnotized by a snake? One hand holding her stemmed glass, the other resting on the bar, as if for support.
“Hi,” he said, and dropped his own hand on her free hand. Her hand was small beneath his, small and soft. If he pressed down hard he could break all the bones in her sweet little hand, and he could picture the look in her eyes when he did, but for now his hand rested very lightly upon hers.
“My name’s Jerry,” he said. “Actually it’s Gerald, with a G, but people call me Jerry, with a J.”
None of this was true.
You know where this is going, don’t you? Of course you do. Why, you could probably write the rest of it yourself.
Clearly, there’s going to be a twist, a surprise. Otherwise there’s no story. Boy meets girl, boy fucks girl, boy kills girl—that’s not a story. However dramatically you might present it, however engaging their dialogue, however intense his pleasure and her pain, it just won’t work as fiction. We might hang on to the very end, completely caught up in the action, but by the time it was all over we’d hear Peggy Lee singing in the background: “Is that all there is?”
No, that’s not all there is. We can do better than that.
For example:
He didn’t need any more vodka. But she poured drinks for both of them, and another would do him no harm. He tossed it back and had just enough time to register the thought that there was more in it than alcohol. Then the lights went out.
They didn’t come back on all at once. Consciousness returned piecemeal. He heard music, something orchestral, harshly atonal. He was seated on some sort of chair, and when he tried to move he found that he couldn’t, that he was tied to it, his wrists to its arms, his ankles to its legs. He tried opening his eyes and discovered he was blindfolded. He tried opening his mouth and discovered it was taped.
And then she was touching him, caressing him. Her hands knew their business, and he responded almost in spite of himself, desire shoving fear aside. Her hands, her mouth, and then she was astride him, engulfing him, and God knows it wasn’t how he’d planned the evening, but then the evening wasn’t over yet, was it? They’d do it her way for now, and later it would be his turn to tie her up, and what a surprise he’d have in store for her!
But for now this was fine, this was more than fine, and she took him right up to the edge and held him there, held him there forever, and then tipped him over the edge.
The climax was shattering, and it sent him away somewhere, and when he came back he was no longer wearing the blindfold. He opened his eyes and she was there, naked, glistening with perspiration, and he would have told her how beautiful she was but his
mouth was still taped shut.
“You naughty boy,” she was saying. “Look what I found in your pocket.” And she held out her hand and showed him the knife, worked the catch to free the four-inch blade, turned it to catch the light. “Now tell me, Gerald with a G or Jerry with a J, just what were you planning to do with this?”
But he couldn’t tell her anything, not with his mouth taped. He tossed his head, trying to get her to take off the tape, but all that did was make her laugh.
“That was a rhetorical question, sweetie. I know what you had in mind. I knew the minute our eyes met. Why do you think I picked you? I wasn’t sure you’d be bringing a knife to the party, but it’s not as though I don’t have a knife or two of my own.”
She turned, put the knife down, turned back to him, and her hand reached out to take hold of him, the soft little hand, the one he’d had thoughts of crushing. She stroked and caressed him, and if he could have spoken he’d have told her she was wasting her time, that he wasn’t capable of response. But his flesh had ideas of its own, even as the thought went through his mind.
“Oh, good,” she said, using both hands now. “I knew you could do it. But sooner or later, you know, you won’t be able to.” She bent over, kissed him. “And when that happens,” she murmured, “that’s when I’ll cut it off. But whose knife shall I use, yours or mine? That’s another rhetorical question, sweetie. You don’t have to answer it.”
That’s better, isn’t it? The only thing wrong with it is the predictability of it. The biter bit, hoisted upon his own petard, and what’s the use of a petard if you’re not going to be hoisted upon it? He’s on the hunt, he finds Little Miss Vulnerability and makes off with her, and in the end he’s the vulnerable one, even as she turns out to be Diana, goddess of the hunt. Perhaps this particular Diana makes it a little more interesting than most, but still, we saw it coming. A surprise ending is more satisfactory when the reader as well as the protagonist is taken by surprise.
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