by Elia Winters
She might drive Scarlett mad, and Scarlett might have some unresolved issues with her that she did not want to resolve now, but the curiosity was stronger than the resentment at this point. “Don’t you want to use that passport? It seems perfect. We’ll drive up to Quebec for the wedding. Go a few days early to see the city, go to that Winter Carnival thing, and then come home. Unless you don’t want to leave Florida.”
“I want to leave Florida,” Megan said defensively. “You think I like never having done anything with my life?”
Scarlett didn’t need to tell Megan that she wasn’t the only one who hadn’t done anything with her life. They would probably have to have that conversation eventually. If they became friends again. “What do you think?” Scarlett asked.
Megan’s face went through a number of expressions. “How are we supposed to pay for it?”
“I’ve got a little money saved up,” Scarlett lied.
“But not enough for plane tickets?” Megan asked.
“Okay, so I don’t really have any money.” Scarlett pulled her legs up onto the couch. “I don’t know how we’re going to pay for it.”
Megan grimaced. She seemed to be considering something for a long time. “Okay. Look. I got a big check from Winston and Martha for severance. I was...thinking of going somewhere with it anyway. I can pay for the hotels and food if you can pay for the gas.”
Scarlett did not need to do the math to know she was getting the way better end of the deal, and her conscience wouldn’t let her stay quiet about it. “Why would you even have me go if you’re going to pay for almost everything?”
“Because I can’t do all that driving myself,” Megan said, like it was obvious. “And I’ve never done a road trip before. I don’t know how to do it.”
“You pretty much just drive north,” Scarlett said, but then changed her mind. “Never mind. It’s okay. I’m just letting you know you’re really getting ripped off.”
“I think that even if you were paying for half of everything, I’d still be getting ripped off,” Megan said, matter-of-factly, “because of the fact that we’re going to be stuck in a car together for a week or something.”
Scarlett rubbed her chin. “If we drive straight through in shifts, we might be able to do it in less.”
Megan raised her eyebrows. “Are you kidding? This is my one road trip, I’m going to make a whole trip out of it. I’m the one paying. We’re going to all the places on my list.”
“Wait a minute, wait a minute.” Scarlett held up a hand. “This suddenly became a carjacking.”
“It’s not a carjacking when it’s my car.” Megan gave her a smug smile.
“Ugh. This is the worst.” Scarlett rolled her eyes. Megan had her, and she knew it. “Do you at least have good places on the list? I’m not driving out to the fucking Grand Canyon on our trip to Quebec. You’re allowed to go two hours off of I-95 in any direction, but no more.”
Megan looked defeated, like all the fight went out of her. “I don’t even know where I want to go, all right? I was just talking. I don’t care.”
That was clearly a blatant lie, but Scarlett didn’t want to examine it or probe into it right now, and Megan was looking all sad, which hit some soft place inside Scarlett that should definitely have calloused over by now. She’d pressed her luck enough for one night. “Are you okay if I come by sometime to plan? And maybe message you in the meantime?”
Megan hesitated, then nodded. “Sure. Whatever. Now can you get out and let me sleep?”
Scarlett got up off the couch. “I’d hate to be a bother.”
“Yeah, right.” Megan ushered her out and closed the door in her face, leaving Scarlett standing in the cold wondering what in the world she was going to do now that Megan had said yes.
* * *
Megan stared at the closed door with her heart hammering in her ribs. For all her ability to seem unaffected by emotionally intense conversations, the evening with Scarlett had rattled her. If she hadn’t been so exhausted and ready to drop off to sleep, she might have been able to process it better, but right now she just wanted to mull it over after a full night’s rest.
But rest wouldn’t come, so Megan did what she always did when her mind refused to shut up: she took a bath. She stripped off her pajamas and filled the tub with hot water, hot enough for her skin to barely tolerate, and dumped in some of the Epsom salts bubble bath she’d first bought to soothe her sore legs from standing all day and later just kept around because it was practical. Then, she lit two candles, the generic kind since the official Yankee Candle brand was too expensive for her to justify purchasing, and turned off the bathroom lights.
It was almost midnight. The house was quiet, and would probably stay quiet because Matt would spend the whole night playing video games. She had time to process in the way she liked, and so she sank into the steaming bubbles, hissing as her cold skin contacted the water. She couldn’t quite submerge all the way in this bathtub; even though she was slim, her legs were too long, and her knees poked up out of the bubbles like an iceberg. She was able to get her whole torso beneath the water, though, the bubbles brushing her chin, a few bits of foam sticking to her hair. In the dark, only the flickering candlelight to illuminate the room, she ran through what she had just agreed to and what in the world she was going to do next.
She had to be practical, of course. She needed to figure out the exact mileage between Crystal River, Florida, and the Château Frontenac in Quebec. Then she needed to get her car serviced. It was a Toyota, so it was going to last forever, very unlike whatever ridiculous vanity car Scarlett had bought back in high school and then tried to keep limping along nearly a decade later. She was so irresponsible sometimes. Scarlett always blew her money on dumb purchases, when Megan was likely to save and be smart and start a responsible bank account and a Roth IRA. Megan could afford to fly to Quebec if she wanted to. Scarlett could not.
Maybe if she hadn’t blown all her money on fancy-ass private college, Scarlett could have afforded it. What was she doing freelancing, anyway? The University of South Florida wasn’t good enough for Scarlett. A mean little inner voice wondered how she’d even gotten into a private college; it wasn’t like her grades were anything special. As soon as she thought it, though, she winced and pulled the words back. She might be jealous, but she wasn’t mean. That wasn’t like her.
Jealous. She rolled that thought around while she gathered handfuls of bubbly foam and piled them on her knees, only to watch the bubbles slide back down her skin again. Was she really jealous of Scarlett? Certain things, sure. Her amazing body, with those incredible curves that landed everyone Scarlett ever wanted: guys, girls, even people who didn’t fit into either of those categories. Scarlett was the first bisexual person Megan had ever known, the first person to be out in their middle school—middle school, for crying out loud! She had always known who she was.
And Megan? Megan didn’t know shit about herself for most of her life. She hadn’t figured out that she wasn’t straight until college. She’d been through three relationships before figuring out how to ask for what she wanted in bed, and even then, she was better at doing it herself than getting a partner to do it for her. That was good, because she kind of hated dating. Nobody gave Megan a second glance. Megan was average, and average meant nobody noticed you. Average meant blending in.
Nothing about Scarlett was average, and she was never someone to blend in.
But now, Scarlett was out of money, and she needed Megan’s help, and she wanted Megan to drive her to Quebec. And Megan had...had what? Had volunteered to pay for it, even. God, had she been suckered again? Was Scarlett using her as a way to get to Canada? A little nugget of sickness settled into her stomach. This trip was a terrible idea.
But.
But.
Megan had had twenty-five years to accumulate goals and dreams for herself, and she had a scrapb
ook filled with the places she wanted to travel to and the goals she wanted to achieve, and she wasn’t going to make the first step on her own. She never made the first step on her own; it had always seemed a ridiculous indulgence to put herself first. Even now, even on the other side of their friendship in this morass of weird discomfort between them, Scarlett was pushing her to take the first step.
Megan looked up at the ceiling, where the flames cast long shadows. She was going to have to stay in a car with this woman for a week. Maybe more than a week. What in the hell had she gotten herself into?
Even after her bath, she couldn’t settle. She wandered around the house for a while, cleaned some things, and then tried to read a book. That’s where Matt found her when he rolled in a little after one, key fumbling in the lock, crashing inside with no attempt to be quiet. “Hey!” He grinned, stumbling a little as he came inside. “You still up?”
“Yeah.” Megan closed her book. “Are you drunk?”
“A little.” He rubbed his face. “What the fuck do you care?”
“Did you drive?”
“No, I didn’t drive. Dan drove me home.” Matt yawned. “That reminds me. Can you drive me to his place tomorrow to get my car?”
Megan stared up at him. What a fucking asshole. She sighed. “Sure. You get me the rent yet? I’ve been asking for days.”
“Oh right! Remind me tomorrow. It’s one in the goddamn morning.” He went to the fridge and grabbed a Gatorade. “Can you get more Gatorade next time you get groceries?”
“Write it on the list.” Megan tried to focus on the book again, but her unease was still unsettling her.
A few envelopes fell onto her lap from above, making her jump. “I got the mail,” Matt said. “You actually got something that’s not a bill.”
Megan held the heavy envelope and knew immediately what it was. She pulled out Juliet’s invitation and turned it to catch the light. The navy blue card stock was decorated with golden stars, the fancy golden script proclaiming, Together with their parents, Mr. Gabriel Bouchard and Miss Juliet Letourneaux request the honor of your presence at their wedding...
“What’s that?” Matt flopped down on the couch next to her, shoving her feet out of the way.
“It’s a wedding invitation.” She was going to have to tell him at some point. “It’s in Quebec.”
Matt snorted. “You want me to throw it out?”
Megan pressed it to her chest. “No. I’m going.”
Matt stopped, bottle halfway to his mouth, and slowly lowered it again. “You’re what?”
“I’m going to the wedding.” Megan hated how her voice trembled even when she tried to sound confident. “It’s next month.”
“You’re not going.” He laughed and took another sip. “You don’t go anywhere. You don’t even have a passport.”
“Yes, I do.” He didn’t know her at all.
“Why? Waste of money, if you ask me.” He kicked his feet up onto the coffee table. “Look, no offense, Meg, but you’re not the traveling kind. Some people are adventurous, and some people aren’t. You’re not.” He patted her shin. “Nothing wrong with that.”
“I said I’m going, and I’m going.” Megan flared in anger, all her frustration and confusion suddenly directed at him. “I’m driving up there with Scarlett.”
“Scarlett who?”
“Scarlett Andrews.”
Matt scrunched up his nose like he was trying to remember her. “Did I ever sleep with that one?”
Revulsion ran through Megan at the mere thought of it. “God, I hope not.” Shit, what if he had?
“What got into you tonight? That time of the month?” Matt got to his feet, shaking his head. “Ugh. Whatever. I’m going to bed.”
He left her there on the couch and wandered into his room at the other end of the house. Megan watched him go, annoyed and for some reason embarrassed. Embarrassed by what? Maybe her past, maybe what she had and hadn’t done with her life. She’d been a little uncertain about her decision, but now, she needed to go to prove Matt wrong. She needed to do something to move forward.
She grabbed a pen and the RSVP card. Matt could say what he wanted. She was going to Quebec.
Chapter Four
“Knock knock!”
Megan opened the door at Scarlett’s verbal knocking, already bracing herself for the encounter she was about to have. They’d basically tiptoed around each other for the past couple weeks, but Megan had RSVP’d yes to the wedding, and Scarlett did the same, and now they were only a few days away from leaving and the logistics were piling up into a panic-induced extensive list of to-dos. One of those was the actual itinerary, which Scarlett had insisted on reviewing even though Megan was confident she could do it on her own. Okay, that was a lie. Megan wasn’t confident she could do any of this on her own. That, after all, was why she was bringing Scarlett into it.
“What are those?” Scarlett asked immediately as soon as Megan led her into the kitchen, stopping short of the table that was currently covered in maps.
“They’re maps?” Megan tried not to sound confused but was definitely confused. “What, haven’t you seen them before?”
“I’ve seen maps before, but here in the twenty-first century, most people use the GPS. It’s like the future now.” Scarlett waggled her fingers like she was showing off a magic trick. “I don’t know why you’ve got ancient technology spread out here like we’re taking the covered wagons to Oregon. You worried about dying of dysentery along the way, too?”
Megan rolled her eyes. “Maps are better because you can see the whole route spread out in front of you.”
“You could just zoom out on the screen.” Scarlett scooted closer anyway and peered across the table full of papers. “Where did you even get all these, a museum? Do they have highways on them, or just horse paths?”
“I got them at AAA, thank you very much. Apparently it’s very common. Nobody even looked at me weird.” Megan folded her arms. Fuck Scarlett’s judgment. She liked maps. “And...” She started to add more, but then stopped, until Scarlett looked up at her with raised eyebrows.
“And what?”
“And...it’s kind of classic. You know. The Road Trip.” The words were capitalized in her mind. “It feels like it’s not right to do it without a paper map.” Suddenly saying it out loud, she realized how silly it must sound to Scarlett. “Never mind.”
Scarlett’s lips curled up, just the hint of a smile. “You don’t do anything halfway, do you?”
“Never have.” Megan didn’t want to admit how intimidating it was to see the whole route spread out in front of her, all those states and even that whole other country sprawling at the far end of the table. She wasn’t afraid; she was just new to having adventures. Most of all, she was not going to let Scarlett see her as anything other than perfectly competent. Or at least unbothered about her lack of competence.
“What’s your plan?” Scarlett put her hands on her hips and surveyed the maps. “Or our plan. I guess I’m in this with you.”
Megan had prepared for this. “I expect you to do a lot of the driving, since I’m financing almost everything.”
Scarlett shrugged. “Sure. I like driving. It’s the least I can do, right? And pay for gas.” She put her hands flat on the table and leaned over to see farther. Her curly light brown hair tumbled down over her shoulders. How could she be so effortlessly lovely? Megan always looked like she fell off a barge, and Scarlett was ridiculously attractive. Scarlett probably fell into bed with good looking people everywhere she went. It was supremely unfair.
Scarlett tapped the map. “You don’t have anything marked.”
“What do you mean?” Megan looked at the map, puzzled. “I highlighted the whole route.” She’d traced the entirety of I-95 with her yellow highlighter, up until they changed roads near the border with Canada, and then the r
est of the path all the way to the Château Frontenac.
“You highlighted the main road, and that’s it. You said you wanted to make a bunch of stops, but you didn’t put stars on them or circle them or anything.” Scarlett stood the rest of the way up. “You think we’ll just take I-95 with no detours?”
Immediately on the defensive, Megan waved an arm across the table with a wild gesture. “You said you wanted to make this as simple as possible!”
“And you said you wanted to do a real road trip. Real road trips have stops.” Scarlett was still the picture of nonchalance. “I said we could do two hours in each direction of I-95. There’s got to be some places you want to go. Put some detours on there. No need to get all worked up about it.”
Megan was still flushed, and suddenly irritated as well. “I don’t know why you’re not worked up about this. I’ve done all this stuff to get ready. I bought a dress. I got the car tuned up so it would make the trip. I got all of these maps! All you’ve done is show up and criticize me.”
“You bought a dress?” Scarlett tipped her head to the side, a smile flirting with the corners of her mouth. “Can I see it?”
Megan’s skin got hot all over. “It’s just a dress. You’ll see it at the wedding.”
“Please?” Transformed, all her previous nitpicking disappeared, Scarlett folded her hands on the table and looked up at Megan with sparkling eyes. “I love dresses. I want to see what you’re wearing. I want to make sure you’re not wearing the same thing as me.”
“I somehow really doubt that.” Megan sighed. It was going to be easier to give in than to fight her. “Fine. You want to see it? I’ll show it to you.”
She led Scarlett into her bedroom.
“Jesus, you always keep your bedroom this clean when nobody’s seeing it?” Scarlett folded her arms and looked around.
Megan hadn’t thought of her bedroom as particularly clean. It was just a bedroom. But then Scarlett’s comment caught up to her. “Hey, who’s saying nobody’s seeing it?”
