His tongue sucked and stroked her nipple in the exact rhythm of his fingers below. The combination had Ella moaning in delight. Somehow she thought this would last longer. He hadn’t even removed a single piece of clothing yet. It didn’t seem fair, but there was no way she was stopping what was happening now to insist he remove his shirt. It was building fast, and he moved up to kiss her as her body began to tremble. She had to move away from his mouth so she could breathe—cry out.
“That’s it,” he whispered in her ear as the waves of pleasure shot through her again and again. She arched her back, fisting his shirt as if her life depended on it. “That a girl,” he whispered again as he mercifully pulled his fingers away.
He kissed the side of her face when she buried it in his neck, completely out of breath, her body still quivering with pleasure. Very slowly, as her body began to calm, the trembling did too. She made note of how he’d remained hard the entire time even now that he stroked her hair so gently. She lifted her face to look at him. “Make love to me.”
His eyes widened and he seemed to tense. “Ella, I . . .” He shook his head. “It’s not that I don’t want to,” he said, glancing down at his lower region at the bulging proof that he really did and smiled nervously. “I just thought when it happened we could do something special. I don’t want you to think—”
“What could be more special than doing it here in the room you said yourself you’d never thought you’d use to impress anyone until today?” She was almost afraid to ask, but she did anyway. “Have you ever done it in here?”
“No,” he said immediately then smiled big. “I haven’t. And just for the record—I know you’ll probably find this hard to believe because of my lifestyle and the way everything’s set up in this place—I really haven’t used this house for that a whole lot. I won’t lie. I have but not often as I’m sure you’re imagining.” He frowned. “Since this is the one place that feels more like home and not just a place to crash for tax purposes, I like for it to feel that way—like home. So after a while I decided my home would be only for friends and family.” He leaned in and kissed her. “And now my girlfriend.”
She began to undo his pants button with a wicked smile. Her pounding heart still didn’t know what to expect, but she knew one thing for sure. She was ready for this. God, was she ever.
Shifting on top of him, she gave him room to pull his jeans down and off. Then he pulled off his shirt to reveal what she already knew from watching his fights and some of his training, that his shoulders, arms, chest, and abs were mouthwatering perfection. It left her breathless as she stared in awe. For weeks now she’d been privy to just how hard his body felt over his shirt, but to see it up close was unreal. A near trembling hand reached out for it and touched him then leaned in and kissed his hard pec. His snug boxer briefs were the only thing on him now. He’d finished kicking off his pants and shoes while she’d been in a trance, admiring his naked upper body.
He reached down for a second, breaking her out of the spell-like daze and came up with a condom packet, showing her and lifting a brow. Knowing what was but minutes or maybe seconds away, Ella’s breath caught, but she didn’t think he’d noticed.
“You still okay with this?”
She nodded. No way was she stopping now. He leaned in and kissed her. As she fell into his kiss again, the arousal took over her nerves. She climbed further up on the chaise with one knee on either side of his hard thighs. Her hands cradled his face as the massive bulge pressed up against her between her legs. She was so ready for him, and he hadn’t even taken off his briefs.
Bringing down her one hand slowly, she traced her fingers over his big arms then moved them down to his chest and incredible abs. She mentally reminded herself she needed to do more crunches. Her own abs, compared to his, were an abomination. Her belly was flat enough, but it’d never be near this hard. She could at least try firming it up a bit.
Then her hand slipped lower, touching the waistband of his suddenly tighter boxer briefs. Slipping her hand lower, she pulled away a little to give herself room. Felix’s head fell back as her more-than-weeklong fantasy came to life. She wrapped her hand around him to find that Carmen’s accounts of what she’d read weren’t far off. Ella gulped as he groaned, and then she pulled him out, trying not to freeze when she got her first look at it in all its glory.
“You sure you wanna be on top the first time?” he asked.
Her head jerked up, searching his eyes and wondering why he’d ask. She’d only ever been on top once with Grayson, and she did remember there was a difference, but that was because it’d been the only time she’d come during the act, without the help of his fingers.
She nodded, the anticipation of it already building. Within seconds, he’d slipped on the condom. Lifting her hips, she stared into his eyes as she lowered onto him. She felt him there a lot sooner than she’d expected, and she still had a ways to go before she’d be completely on him.
A gasp escaped her as he slid in deeper, and she experienced fullness like she’d never felt before. “You okay?” he asked, staring at her a bit concerned.
Squeezing her eyes shut, she nodded, biting down on her lower lip as she slid down, slowly feeling the burn until he was all the way in. She’d gotten past the discomfort of it and was now at a whole new level of pleasure. Just sitting there without moving, having him so deep inside her, made her eyes water and her fluttering lashes tremble.
His hands nudged her hips gently, and she began sliding up and down slowly. The panting and moaning were immediate as she wrapped her arms around his neck, loving the sensation of the fullness. It was incredible and she couldn’t get enough. She spread her legs wider, wanting him even deeper as she squirmed every time she went all the way down. Felix groaned with her now too.
“You’re so damn tight.” He grunted.
She’d never tell him, but that was likely because he was so damn big in comparison to the only other guy she’d ever been with. Deep inside, he’d probably appreciate knowing that, but it seemed so unladylike to say it.
The thought almost made her laugh. She was concerned about not being ladylike at a moment like this when she was riding her boyfriend like a pro, her body shamelessly aching for him as deep as possible.
The incredible sensation against the very spot where she needed it most was so much more intense this way. The buildup was massive and fast. It was already happening again, and she began crying out panting loudly. Felix grunted with her, slapping her down onto him harder and harder each time until he brought her down one last time and buried himself deep inside her. The intensity of her climax was unbelievable, and she swayed against him, wanting it to last forever.
After a few minutes of enjoying the afterglow, Felix lay back onto the chaise, looking as spent as she felt. She laid her face against his hard chest, feeling the pounding of his heart. It made her smile. Her own heart was still racing and then she waited.
She remembered how after she’d slept with Grayson the first time she was consumed with a strange regret. It was almost as if her heart knew things were going to change; she just never realized how drastically. Of course, she’d never tell Felix about that and especially not that she’d wondered if she’d feel the same thing after sleeping with him. She hadn’t slept with Grayson too many times because the change in him came so quickly after the first time that she’d begun avoiding sleeping with him soon after. It was easy. He couldn’t possibly expect sex from her when she was pissed at him. And after she’d slept with him, his entire demeanor had changed so much she’d been pissed at him often.
“You tired?” Felix asked, kissing the top of her head.
She nodded but didn’t say anything. She was still waiting.
“We can go lie in my bed if you wanna take a nap.”
“No, I’m good here.” She smiled, looking up at him. “I like it in here.”
He smoothed her hair, smiling back at her. “Whatever you want.”
She took a few d
eep breaths, still waiting for the feelings of regret. They never came. What did come was exhaustion. Before she knew it, she was out right there in his arms, her naked breasts pressed up against his hard chest, their hearts beating in perfect rhythm.
~~~
The glorious feeling of waking in Felix’s arms with zero regrets was an enormous relief. Well, maybe zero was a bit of an exaggeration. Ella couldn’t, without being completely honest, say she didn’t regret a part of it. There was something she regretted a little. How eager and unabashed she’d been. Gazing at him as he slept soundly, she could see regretting her eagerness would be pointless. Already she could tell she’d be just as eager if he woke and initiated another round. Her eyes roamed over him again slowly from top to bottom as he slept. His arms and shoulders were big and hard. The curves of his muscles were so pronounced. He was perfection. It surprised her that in her haste and the heat of passion she hadn’t noticed the tattoo. But then she’d been sitting in front of him in the beginning then collapsed and slept on his chest the rest of the time. Now that she’d slipped out from under his arm, she could see the tattoo on the back of his upper shoulder.
Ella read it, her insides tightening. Jordan. One simple word. A girl’s name in script with a small blue butterfly landing on the top of the n. He’d already admitted the only time he’d ever come close to having a real relationship had been with Bianca. Her mind worked fast to try and remember any accounts of a Jordan in all the stories she’d read of him. Maybe. There were so many reports and sightings of him with different girls. Many of them couldn’t even be confirmed if they were actual love interests, just friends, or even business acquaintances. Like the ones she’d seen of him and Drew talking behind the scenes at a charity event last year sometime. After reading that one, she’d decided she couldn’t trust any of the stories because that one claimed Drew was a backup singer for Celine Dion. Not even close.
If the tattoo hadn’t squashed the anticipation of going another round when he woke, what she felt when she slid off the chaise and stood did. She remembered feeling sore after her very first time with Grayson, but this was different. As she took a few steps toward the doorway, she could feel just how different. She was now paying the price for her eagerness and wanting him so deep inside her.
Standing in the huge hallway just outside the library door, she slipped on her panties and Felix’s shirt she’d grabbed off the floor. Of course, it smelled amazing just like him, and she wondered if she could persuade him to let her keep it. She’d likely never wash it.
As she walked down the hall, she wondered which way was the bathroom. She remembered passing one downstairs, so she headed that way instead. After using it and adjusting her clothes, she started back toward the stairs then stopped when she glanced at the mantel with the photos she’d begun to look through earlier.
Ella bit her lower lip and looked up then back at the mantel. There was still no movement at all from upstairs. Giving into the temptation, she started toward the mantel, practically tiptoeing. She glanced at the photo of him and little Gio again and smiled, but her eyes were quickly on the one she really wanted to look at. It was of a baby in an incubator. Ella stared at the odd small piece of white tape over the glass on the frame just over where the card that normally displays the baby’s last name on the incubator would be. Someone had written Sanchez on the tape.
There was another photo next to it. That one was of Felix holding the baby in his arms and kissing him or her on the forehead. Felix wore scrubs, and the baby was full of tubes, but he didn’t look as tiny as a preemie. The baby looked normal-sized for a newborn.
A third and smaller photo was a hospital portrait, like the many she’d seen of babies first photos taken in the hospital. In that photo, the baby didn’t have any tubes and looked to be sleeping soundly, but the quote above the photo said otherwise.
In the company of Angels
At the bottom of the photo, it said baby, and again, just over the glass, there was an odd little piece of tape where someone had written Sanchez. Only this one looked to be half off.
“Baby Sanchez,” Ella whispered, her heart aching for Felix.
Ella thought of the endless articles she had to sift through of the Gio-Bianca-Felix love-triangle scandal. She remembered the stories of the girl he’d gotten pregnant during that whole mess and how she’d first claimed he’d not just demanded but bullied her to have an abortion but later she’d recanted the statement. After that it was as if she’d fallen off the face of the earth. Since Felix didn’t have any children, Ella thought for sure the girl had gone forward with the abortion.
Curiously, Ella lifted the tape that was half off already and saw that underneath it, in the photo, it actually said Diaz. Maybe the mother had only given the baby her last name? In the photo where Felix was holding the baby, he was wearing scrubs. The baby couldn’t have been more than a few days old. Obviously he’d been involved from early on. Why wouldn’t the baby have taken his name?
“You could’ve just asked me.”
Felix’s sharp words startled Ella, making her flinch and gasp at the same time. She turned to face him. He walked the rest of the way down the stairs then pulled his shirt over his head. When he was close enough, he looked down at the photo. The glare he wore went even more severe. “The photo wasn’t enough? You had to investigate further?”
Ella looked down at what he was staring at. “No.” She shook her head, realizing he was talking about the tape on the bottom photo that was half lifted. “It was already like that.”
She handed it to him, and he ripped the piece of tape off then set it down on the mantel facedown without even looking at it.
“I’m sorry,” her words were barely a whisper. “They were displayed on your mantel. I didn’t think you’d be upset if I looked at them.”
Swallowing back the guilt because she knew that was bullshit, she inhaled deeply, hoping he’d believe her. His reaction earlier to her being near the photos should’ve been telling enough. If he’d wanted her to know about this, he would’ve told her already.
“Let’s get you home,” he said simply.
Feeling the instant tightness in her chest at his cold response, she reached for his arm and touched it. “Felix, I really am sorry. I should’ve never—”
“I don’t wanna talk about it, okay? Let’s just go. I have somewhere I need to be early tomorrow morning.”
“My . . .” She stopped to swallow again because she could already feel her throat aching as he walked away from her. “My shoes and purse are upstairs.”
He grabbed his keys from the table by the front door then opened the closet door near the entrance, grabbing a sweatshirt out roughly and throwing it over his head. Without looking back at her, he pulled the front door open. “I’ll wait for you in the car.”
He stalked out in a hurry, making Ella flinch again at the unforgiving slam of the front door.
Chapter 14
Felix
As expected, Ella had been the epitome of composure. She hadn’t pushed for more or even tried to explain further why she’d been snooping downstairs. The entire ride to 5th Street where she’d left her car tonight was a silent one. It was as if she knew talking about it would only make it worse. All she offered was another whispered apology before getting out of the car.
A few blocks down the road after dropping her off, Felix slammed his fist against the steering wheel. “Damn it all to fucking hell!” he growled.
Why’d she have to find out that way? Why today? And why the fuck hadn’t he put more thought into bringing her to his place?
He’d snapped, plain and simple. All these weeks leading up to tonight he’d been so consumed with trying not to push but at the same time doing his best to convince her that he’d changed.
Not a long time ago.
Not because he regretted or didn’t enjoy his lifestyle.
But because he’d meant it when he said he’d do whatever it took to prove to her she wasn’t making
a mistake taking a chance on him. And now look what happened. He’d been just as big of an asshole to her as Grayson was.
For a moment, he was tempted to turn around, go back, and beg her to forgive him. She hadn’t deserved his reaction. She was right. He did have the photos displayed openly for anyone to see. But that’s because his dumb ass didn’t expect to have anyone but family and friends over to his home anymore. And they all knew anyway. Then it dawned on him. He still didn’t know exactly where she lived. She’d mentioned the general area, but he’d never had a need for her exact address. As usual, today she’d insisted on leaving her car at the gym.
He pulled his phone out when he got to a light and hit speed dial. He’d at least apologize over the phone for reacting like such a dick, especially on the night when they’d first . . .
“God damn it!” he said through his teeth as her phone went to voicemail.
Of course she wasn’t going to answer his call. Why would she after the way he’d treated her? He’d fucked her then practically threw her out without so much as a goodnight kiss. Excellent way to drive home the fact that he was a heartless man whore like she’d probably thought all along. Fuck!
He hit speed dial again only this time he called Hector. The last thing he wanted to do was discuss this with Abel. The guy had already been leery enough about Felix’s interest in Ella even after Felix had assured him this wasn’t like any interest he’d had in any other girls and that he wouldn’t be playing with Ella.
“What’s up?” Hector answered.
“Hey, do you know where Ella lives?”
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