The architect stood with a log in each hand looking after them and smiling all by himself. There was something about the Twinklers that lightened his heart whenever he caught sight of them. He and his fellow experts had deplored the absence of opportunities since Mrs. Bilton came of developing the friendship begun the first day, and talked of them on their way home in the afternoons with affectionate and respectful familiarity as The Cutes.
“Now,” said Mr. Twist, having passed through the verandah and led the twins to the bottom of the garden where he turned and faced them, “perhaps you’ll tell me exactly what you’ve done.”
“You should rather inquire what Mrs. Bilton has done,” said Anna-Felicitas, pulling herself up as straight and tall as she would go. She couldn’t but perceive that the excess of Christopher’s emotion was putting her at a disadvantage in the matter of dignity.
“I can guess pretty much what she has done,” said Mr. Twist.
“You can’t — you can’t,” burst out Anna-Rose. “Nobody could — nobody ever could — who hadn’t been with her day and night.”
“She’s just been Mrs. Bilton,” said Mr. Twist, lighting a cigarette to give himself an appearance of calm.
“Exactly,” said Anna-Felicitas. “So you won’t be surprised at our having just been Twinklers.”
“Oh Lord,” groaned Mr. Twist, in spite of his cigarette, “oh, Lord.”
“We’ve given Mrs. Bilton notice,” continued Anna-Felicitas, making a gesture of great dignity with her hand, “because we find with regret that she and we are incompatible.”
“Was she aware that you were giving it her?” asked Mr. Twist, endeavouring to keep calm.
“We wrote it.”
“Has she read it?”
“We put it into her hand, and then came away so that she should have an opportunity of quietly considering it.”
“You shouldn’t have left us alone with her like this,” burst out Anna-Rose again, “you shouldn’t really. It was cruel, it was wrong, leaving us high and dry — never seeing you — leaving us to be talked to day and night — to be read to — would you like to be read to while you’re undressing by somebody still in all their clothes? We’ve never been able to open our mouths. We’ve been taken into the field for our airing and brought in again as if we were newborns, or people in prams, or flocks and herds, or prisoners suspected of wanting to escape. We haven’t had a minute to ourselves day or night. There hasn’t been a single exchange of ideas, not a shred of recognition that we’re grown up. We’ve been followed, watched, talked to — oh, oh, how awful it has been! Oh, oh, how awful! Forced to be dumb for days — losing our power of speech—”
“Anna-Rose Twinkler,” interrupted Mr. Twist sternly, “you haven’t lost it. And you not only haven’t, but that power of yours has increased tenfold during its days of rest.”
He spoke with the exasperation in his voice that they had already heard several times since they landed in America. Each time it took them aback, for Mr. Twist was firmly fixed in their minds as the kindest and gentlest of creatures, and these sudden kickings of his each time astonished them.
On this occasion, however, only Anna-Rose was astonished. Anna-Felicitas all along had had an uncomfortable conviction in the depth of her heart that Mr. Twist wouldn’t like what they had done. He would be upset, she felt, as her reluctant feet followed Anna-Rose in search of him. He would be, she was afraid very much upset. And so he was. He was appalled by what had happened. Lose Mrs. Bilton? Lose the very foundation of the party’s respectability? And how could he find somebody else at the eleventh hour and where and how could the twins and he live, unchaperoned as they would be, till he had? What a peculiar talent these Annas had for getting themselves and him into impossible situations! Of course at their age they ought to be safe under the wing of a wise and unusually determined mother. Well, poor little wretches, they couldn’t help not being under it; but that aunt of theirs ought to have stuck to them — faced up to her husband, and stuck to them.
“I suppose,” he said angrily, “being you and not being able to see farther than the ends of your noses, you haven’t got any sort of an idea of what you’ve done.”
“We—”
“She—”
“And I don’t suppose it’s much use my trying to explain, either. Hasn’t it ever occurred to you, though I’d be real grateful if you’d give me information on this point — that maybe you don’t know everything?”
“She—”
“We—”
“And that till you do know everything, which I take it won’t be for some time yet, judging from the samples I’ve had of your perspicacity, you’d do well not to act without first asking some one’s advice? Mine, for instance?”
“She—” began Anna-Rose again; but her voice was trembling, for she couldn’t bear Mr. Twist’s anger. She was too fond of him. When he looked at her like that her own anger was blown out as if by an icy draught and she could only look back at him piteously.
But Anna-Felicitas, being free from the weaknesses inherent in adoration, besides continuing to perceive how Christopher’s feelings put her at a disadvantage, drew Mr. Twist’s attention from her by saying with gentleness, “But why add to the general discomfort by being bitter?”
“Bitter!” cried Mr. Twist, still glaring at Anna-Rose.
“Do you dispute that God made us?” inquired Anna-Felicitas, placing herself as it were like a shield between Mr. Twist’s wrathful concentration on Christopher and that unfortunate young person’s emotion.
“See here,” said Mr. Twist turning on her, “I’m not going to argue with you — not about anything. Least of all about God.”
“I only wanted to point out to you,” said Anna-Felicitas mildly, “that that being so, and we not able to help it, there seems little use in being bitter with us because we’re not different. In regard to anything fundamental about us that you deplore I’m afraid we must refer you to Providence.”
“Say,” said Mr. Twist, not in the least appeased by this reasoning but, as Anna-Felicitas couldn’t but notice, quite the contrary, “used you to talk like this to that Uncle Arthur of yours? Because if you did, upon my word I don’t wonder—”
But what Mr. Twist didn’t wonder was fortunately concealed from the twins by the appearance at that moment of Mrs. Bilton, who, emerging from the shades of the verandah and looking about her, caught sight of them and came rapidly down the garden.
There was no escape.
They watched her bearing down on them without a word. It was a most unpleasant moment. Mr. Twist re-lit his cigarette to give himself a countenance, but the thought of all that Mrs. Bilton would probably say was dreadful to him, and his hand couldn’t help shaking a little. Anna-Rose showed a guilty tendency to slink behind him. Anna-Felicitas stood motionless, awaiting the deluge. All Mr. Twist’s sympathies were with Mrs. Bilton, and he was ashamed that she should have been treated so. He felt that nothing she could say would be severe enough, and he was extraordinarily angry with the Annas. Yet when he saw the injured lady bearing down on them, if he only could he would have picked up an Anna under each arm, guilty as they were, and run and run; so much did he prefer them to Mrs. Bilton and so terribly did he want, at this moment, to be somewhere where that lady wasn’t.
There they stood then, anxiously watching the approaching figure, and the letter in Mrs. Bilton’s hand bobbed up and down as she walked, white and conspicuous in the sun against her black dress. What was their amazement to see as she drew nearer that she was looking just as pleasant as ever. They stared at her with mouths falling open. Was it possible, thought the twins, that she was longing to leave but hadn’t liked to say so, and the letter had come as a release? Was it possible, thought Mr. Twist with a leap of hope in his heart, that she was taking the letter from a non-serious point of view?
And Mr. Twist, to his infinite relief, was right. For Mrs. Bilton, woman of grit and tenacity, was not in the habit of allowing herself to be dislodge
d or even discouraged. This was the opening sentence of her remarks when she had arrived, smiling, in their midst. Had she not explained the first night that she was one who, having put her hand to the plough, held on to it however lively the movements of the plough might be? She would not conceal from them, she said, that even Mr Bilton had not, especially, at first, been entirely without such movements. He had settled down, however on finding he could trust her to know better than he did what he wanted. Don’t wise wives always? she inquired. And the result had been that no man ever had a more devoted wife while he was alive, or a more devoted widow after he wasn’t. She had told him one day, when he was drawing near the latter condition and she was conversing with him, as was only right, on the subject of wills, and he said that his affairs had gone wrong and as far as he could see she would be left a widow and that was about all she would be left — she had told him that if it was any comfort to him to know it, he might rely on it that he would have the most devoted widow any man had ever had, and he said — Mr. Bilton had odd fancies, especially toward the end — that a widow was the one thing a man never could have because he wasn’t there by the time he had got her. Yes, Mr. Bilton had odd fancies. And if she had managed, as she did manage, to steer successfully among them, he being a man of ripe parts and character, was it likely that encountering odd fancies in two very young and unformed girls — oh, it wasn’t their fault that they were unformed, it was merely because they hadn’t had time enough yet — she would be unable, experienced as she was, to steer among them too? Besides, she had a heart for orphans; orphans and dumb animals always had had a special appeal for her. “No, no, Mr. Twist,” Mrs. Bilton wound up, putting a hand affectionately on Anna-Rose’s shoulder as a more convenient one than Anna-Felicitas’s, “my young charges aren’t going to be left in the lurch, you may rely on that. I don’t undertake a duty without carrying it out. Why, I feel a lasting affection for them already. We’ve made real progress these few days in intimacy. And I just love to sit and listen to all their fresh young chatter.”
CHAPTER XXIX
This was the last of Mr. Twist’s worries before the opening day.
Remorseful that he should have shirked helping the Annas to bear Mrs. Bilton, besides having had a severe fright on perceiving how near his shirking had brought the party to disaster, he now had his meals with the others and spent the evenings with them as well. He was immensely grateful to Mrs. Bilton. Her grit had saved them. He esteemed and respected her. Indeed, he shook hands with her then and there at the end of her speech, and told her he did, and the least he could do after that was to come to dinner. But this very genuine appreciation didn’t prevent his finding her at close quarters what Anna-Rose, greatly chastened, now only called temperately “a little much,” and the result was a really frantic hurrying on of the work. He had rather taken, those first four days of being relieved of responsibility in regard to the twins, to finnicking with details, to dwelling lovingly on them with a sense of having a margin to his time, and things accordingly had considerably slowed down; but after twenty-four hours of Mrs. Bilton they hurried up again, and after forty-eight of her the speed was headlong. At the end of forty-eight hours it seemed to Mr. Twist more urgent than anything he had ever known that he should get out of the shanty, get into somewhere with space in it, and sound-proof walls — lots of walls — and long passages between people’s doors; and before the rooms in the inn were anything like finished he insisted on moving in.
“You must turn to on this last lap and help fix them up,” he said to the twins. “It’ll be a bit uncomfortable at first, but you must just take off your coats to it and not mind.”
Mind? Turn to? It was what they were languishing for. It was what, in the arid hours under the ilex tree, collected so ignominiously round Mrs. Bilton’s knee they had been panting for, like thirsty dogs with their tongues out. And such is the peculiar blessedness of work that instantly, the moment there was any to be done, everything that was tangled and irritating fell quite naturally into its proper place. Magically life straightened itself out smooth, and left off being difficult. Arbeit und Liebe, as their mother used to say, dropping into German whenever a sentence seemed to her to sound better that way — Arbeit und Liebe: these were the two great things of life; the two great angels, as she assured them, under whose spread-out wings lay happiness.
With a hungry zeal, with the violent energy of reaction, the Annas fell upon work. They started unpacking. All the things they had bought in Acapulco, the linen, the china, the teaspoons, the feminine touches that had been piled up waiting in the barn, were pulled out and undone and carried indoors. They sorted, and they counted, and they arranged on shelves. Anna-Rose flew in and out with her arms full. Anna-Felicitas slouched zealously after her, her arms full too when she started, but not nearly so full when she got there owing to the way things had of slipping through them and dropping on to the floor. They were in a blissful, busy confusion. Their faces shone with heat and happiness. Here was liberty; here was freedom; here was true dignity — Arbeit und Liebe....
When Mr. Twist, as he did whenever he could, came and looked on for a moment in his shirt sleeves, with his hat on the back of his head and his big, benevolent spectacles so kind, Anna-Rose’s cup seemed full. Her dimple never disappeared for a moment. It was there all day long now; and even when she was asleep it still lurked in the corner of her mouth. Arbeit und Liebe.
Immense was the reaction of self-respect that took hold of the twins. They couldn’t believe they were the people who had been so crude and ill-conditioned as to hide Mrs. Bilton’s belongings, and actually finally to hide themselves. How absurd. How like children. How unpardonably undignified. Anna-Rose held forth volubly to this effect while she arranged the china, and Anna-Felicitas listened assentingly, with a kind of grave, ashamed sheepishness.
The result of this reaction was that Mrs. Bilton, whose pressure on them was relieved by the necessity of her too being in several places at once, and who was displaying her customary grit, now became the definite object of their courtesy. They were the mistresses of a house, they began to realize, and as such owed her every consideration. This bland attitude was greatly helped by their not having to sleep with her any more, and they found that the mere coming fresh to her each morning made them feel polite and well-disposed. Besides, they were thoroughly and finally grown-up now, Anna-Rose declared — never, never to lapse again. They had had their lesson, she said, gone through a crisis, and done that which Aunt Alice used to say people did after severe trials, aged considerably.
Anna-Felicitas wasn’t quite so sure. Her own recent behaviour had shaken and shocked her too much. Who would have thought she would have gone like that? Gone all to pieces, back to sheer naughtiness, on the first provocation? It was quite easy, she reflected while she worked, and cups kept on detaching themselves mysteriously from her fingers, and tables tumbling over at her approach, to be polite and considerate to somebody you saw very little of, and even, as she found herself doing, to get fond of the person; but suppose circumstances threw one again into the person’s continual society, made one again have to sleep in the same room? Anna-Felicitas doubted whether it would be possible for her to stand such a test, in spite of her earnest desire to behave; she doubted, indeed, whether anybody ever did stand that test successfully. Look at husbands.
Meanwhile there seemed no likelihood of its being applied again. Each of them had now a separate bedroom, and Mrs. Bilton had, in the lavish American fashion, her own bathroom, so that even at that point there was no collision. The twins’ rooms were connected by a bathroom all to themselves, with no other door into it except the doors from their bedrooms, and Mr. Twist, who dwelt discreetly at the other end of the house, also had a bathroom of his own. It seemed as natural for American architects to drop bathrooms about, thought Anna-Rose, as for the little clouds in the psalms to drop fatness. They shed them just as easily, and the results were just as refreshing. To persons hailing from Pomerania, a place a
rid of bathrooms, it was the last word of luxury and comfort to have one’s own. Their pride in theirs amused Mr. Twist, used from childhood to these civilized arrangements; but then, as they pointed out to him, he hadn’t lived in Pomerania, where nothing stood between you and being dirty except the pump.
But it wasn’t only the bathrooms that made the inn as planned by Mr. Twist and the architect seem to the twins the most perfect, the most wonderful magic little house in the world: the intelligent American spirit was in every corner, and it was full of clever, simple devices for saving labour — so full that it almost seemed to the Annas as if it would get up quite unaided at six every morning and do itself; and they were sure that if the smallest encouragement were given to the kitchen-stove it would cook and dish up a dinner all alone. Everything in the house was on these lines. The arrangements for serving innumerable teas with ease were admirable. They were marvels of economy and clever thinking-out. The architect was surprised at the attention and thought Mr. Twist concentrated on this particular part of the future housekeeping. “You seem sheer crazy on teas,” he remarked; to which Mr. Twist merely replied that he was.
The last few days before the opening were as full of present joy and promise of yet greater joys to come as the last few days of a happy betrothal. They reminded Anna-Felicitas of those days in April, those enchanting days she had always loved the best, when the bees get busy for the first time, and suddenly there are wallflowers and a flowering currant bush and the sound of the lawn being mown and the smell of cut grass. How one’s heart leaps up to greet them, she thought. What a thrill of delight rushes through one’s body, of new hope, of delicious expectation.
Even Li Koo, the wooden-faced, the brief and rare of speech seemed to feel the prevailing satisfaction and harmony and could be heard in the evenings singing strange songs among his pots. And what he was singing, only nobody knew it, were soft Chinese hymns of praise of the two white-lily girls, whose hair was woven sunlight, and whose eyes were deep and blue even as the waters that washed about the shores of his father’s dwelling-place. For Li Koo, the impassive and inarticulate, in secret seethed with passion. Which was why his cakes were so wonderful. He had to express himself somehow.
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