“God almighty.”
“What nobody knew was that the state police were on to the drug dealers and patrolled the street every night. They burst in and arrested everyone. I never saw Sonny again, not as a free man.”
“What if he didn’t fire the shots?”
“Same as if he had.”
“But it’s not.”
“In the eyes of the law.”
“But in real life.”
“Real life?”
“Yeah-it’s not really the same. You know, like morally.”
“I’m not so sure of that,” his mom said.
She had the engine running in the old Cherokee and the heat blowing full blast; still, Wyatt felt cold.
“Does he ever write or anything?”
“No. Life goes on, Wyatt. We-” She cut herself off, resumed more softly. “We’ve got our own problems.” They sat in silence for a while. Then she turned and touched his shoulder. “We can make this work. We’ve got to.” Her gaze moved to his nose, and she quickly looked away.
“I’m staying with Dub.”
“For tonight, fine. But I know Rusty will feel bad about this in the morning. He’ll want to square things up.”
“You’re dreaming.”
“Don’t say things like that.”
“I’ll say what I want. He’s a pig and now he’s living off you.”
“That’s what’s killing him-don’t you understand? And he’s not a pig-he’s basically a good person.”
“Bullshit.”
“You can’t talk to me like that.”
Wyatt opened the door, got out.
“Wait,” said his mom, fumbling with her purse. “I’ve brought you some money.”
He slammed the door, went back into Dub’s house. The basically good person, even better than that, was his mom, of course, and he wished he hadn’t slammed the door. As he entered the Mannions’ house and felt the warmth inside, he realized she had had no real expectation that he’d be coming home anytime soon, maybe didn’t even want it, possibly fearing what might happen. Why else would she have brought him money?
Wyatt climbed the stairs and entered Dub’s room, a pigsty like his, except much bigger, fancier, airier, with a spare bed for overnight guests. No lights were on but Dub was awake.
“Hey.”
“Hey.”
“My mom called her sister, Aunt Hildy. You know, down in Silver City. And she’s cool with you living there, at her place.”
“Huh?” Wyatt said.
“No baseball, I know, but there’s no baseball here, either. And you could kind of get away, if you want. From Rusty, I’m talking about. Plus next year you’ll be a normal resident, so you can play. You’ll only be a junior.”
Wyatt lay down, closed his eyes. They wouldn’t stay closed.
“How much does she want?”
“How much does who want?”
“How much rent. Your aunt.”
“Rent? Zip, for Christ’s sake.”
“I’ll think about it,” Wyatt said. His eyes closed. His nose hurt for a while and then he was asleep.
6
Dub’s aunt Hildy had two kids, both grown and living on their own. Aunt Hildy, who worked as a paralegal at Weiner and Moor, the biggest law firm in Silver City, looked a lot like her sister, Mrs. Mannion, except older, thinner, and not as happy. She’d been married and divorced a couple times, now lived by herself in a white clapboard two-story, three-bedroom house just outside of town, up on a hill with a view of the Sweetwater River and mountains in the distance. Wyatt and Dub slept in the rooms vacated by Dub’s cousins, Dub in the big one over the garage, Wyatt in the small one on the ground floor.
Aunt Hildy-that was what she told Wyatt to call her-gave him his own key. It was a much nicer house than home, but Wyatt didn’t care too much about that. What he really liked was a kind of absence, namely the absence of tension, when he unlocked the door. Was Rusty inside? What kind of mood was he in? How was he treating his mom? None of that mattered anymore. Except the treating mom part: that was still on Wyatt’s mind, but he told himself that his departure must have raised Rusty’s baseline mood.
The departure: Wyatt, his mom, and Cammy, all standing around the Mustang in the driveway. Rusty stayed inside; Dub was in his truck on the street, engine running, the plan being to ride down in tandem. A cold wind blew. His mom’s face was very pale, Cammy’s, too. Cammy had a sleep seed at the corner of one eye. Wyatt fought off an urge to wipe it away.
“Take this,” his mom said, holding out an envelope.
“What is it?”
“Just a little money.”
“I’m set for money.” Wyatt had cleaned out his bank account, had $356 in his pocket.
“I want you to have it.”
Send it when Rusty gets a goddamn job. That was Wyatt’s thought; he kept it to himself, instead just saying, “Don’t need it, Mom.”
The envelope remained in the space between them, wavering in her hand, and then she slowly withdrew it into the folds of her coat. His mom stood there, the wind ruffling her hair, revealing more gray than he’d ever noticed, plus it seemed thinner, too. She looked a bit confused.
Wyatt stepped forward and hugged her. “Bye, Mom.”
She squeezed him close, then took his face in her hands-hurting his nose by mistake, a pain he ignored-and kissed him three times, almost angrily, if that made sense.
“Bye, Mom,” he said again, letting go of her and backing away; her arms were reluctant to disengage, almost clinging to him. And down below, Cammy was clinging, clutching his legs with her little hands.
“Don’t go,” she said.
He patted her head. “See you soon.”
“When?”
“I don’t know. Soon.”
She didn’t let go. Linda pried her away. Cammy was crying when Wyatt drove off, behind Dub in the truck. Wyatt checked in the rearview mirror and saw his mom was waving, her other arm around Cammy.
It took about twenty minutes to get to Bridger High from Aunt Hildy’s. Wyatt and Dub took turns driving, a pretty drive that paralleled the river for a while and then cut through downtown Silver City-a much nicer downtown than East Canton’s, with some restaurants, a coffee shop, and a few stores with gold-lettered signs-and up a hill to the school, bigger and newer than East Canton High and surrounded by well-groomed playing fields that went on and on. The very first day, Wyatt noticed something at the bend in the road, just before it left the river: a sprawling, earth-colored complex on the other side.
“What’s that?”
“The pen.”
“Pen?”
“State pen. The prison.”
“Sweetwater State Penitentiary?”
“Think that’s the name.”
Wyatt would see Sweetwater State Penitentiary twice every school day. Had Sonny Racine been transferred somewhere else? Wyatt preferred to think so.
As for Bridger High, Wyatt soon realized it was better than East Canton High, meaning the classes were harder.
“You believe all this homework?” Dub said one evening, about three weeks after their move, the two of them at opposite sides of the kitchen table. “What’s obsequious mean?”
“Like a sequoia tree, maybe?” said Wyatt.
“Big, you mean?”
“Gigantic.”
Dub stuck the end of his pen in his mouth, gazed at the page. “Yeah, that fits.” They worked in silence for a while and then Dub said, “First practice is tomorrow.”
“I know,” Wyatt said.
The next day, first baseball practice, Wyatt and Dub drove to school in their separate rides, since Dub would be staying late. But Wyatt didn’t go right home. He came close, walking out to the upper parking lot, reserved for students, with his books under his arm. But as he neared the Mustang, his footsteps slowed, as though some magnetic effect was holding him back, and after a moment or two he came to a stop and just stood there. The upper parking lot was at the highest point of the ca
mpus, looking down over most of Silver City, the river, and in the distance, Sweetwater State Penitentiary. Wyatt gazed at nothing for a minute or so, then turned, walked around the school, and headed for the baseball diamond.
A beautiful diamond: the base paths reddish just like in the big-time, and perfectly groomed; the outfield grass amazingly green for the time of year, the fence a smooth blue curve about six feet high, topped by a bright yellow stripe. Two coaches, one old, one young, stood at home plate, watching the players jog around the field. They all wore gray baseball pants, blue stirrups, blue warm-up jerseys, and white caps with a blue B. The caps, especially, were very cool, and Wyatt couldn’t help wanting one.
A few parents sat down low in the stands, huddled together against the wind. Wyatt climbed to the top row and moved toward the very end, past third base, as far from the action as possible. He spotted Dub, dead last in the line of joggers-somehow he’d been getting slower every year-wearing number 19. At East Canton, he’d always worn 9. That meant someone else had 9. Wyatt ran his gaze over the players, found 9 in the middle of the pack-a short, blocky kid with thick legs, a catcher for sure. Last year’s starter? Or last year’s backup to a senior, expecting to be the starter this season?
The team took infield, the older coach standing at the plate and hitting grounders, the players fielding them-or not-and firing to first, the first baseman then throwing home, where Dub and number 9 took turns catching the ball and handing it to the coach. Once in a while the coach laid down a bunt, and whichever catcher was up had to scramble out, scoop up the ball, and snap it to first. This was maybe the moment when everyone began to see what Dub could do, because despite how slowly he ran, he was much quicker than number 9 at the scrambling part; and as for their arms, no comparison-Dub had a cannon.
The coach began hitting line drives and fly balls to the outfield. Three kids were playing center, Wyatt’s position; it was easy to pick out the starter, a tall kid, number 1, maybe taller than Wyatt and leaner, whose long legs didn’t seem to be moving fast but who easily got to every ball and hit the cutoff man every time with throws just as good as Wyatt’s, if not better.
The sun, still looking pale and wintry, sank behind a cloud, and the wind rose a little more. Wyatt slipped his arms out of the sleeves of his sweatshirt, tucked them against his chest for warmth. The younger coach rolled a screen out to the mound, started throwing batting practice, each batter getting six pitches. Dub hit the first one he saw over the fence in center, then crushed a few more. Number 9 couldn’t get the ball out of the infield. Number 1 batted last. Wyatt was shivering by that time, but he had to see what this kid could do. Swing and a miss; chopper to third; one-hopper to short; blooper to right; foul down the right-field line; swing and a miss. Wyatt rose, clambered out of the stands, headed for the parking lot. Anyone could have a bad day, but Wyatt knew he could start for this team, could have started on opening day, next week. He missed baseball so bad.
Wyatt didn’t watch any more practices. The next day he found a batting cage beside a bowling alley in a run-down part of town. No one was around. He went into the bowling alley: about a dozen lanes, snack bar, popcorn machine with popcorn popping, and only one person in view, a girl his own age or a bit older, stacking bowling shoes on shelves behind the counter.
She turned, came closer. Yes, a bit older. She was good-looking, with long shiny black hair and a silver eyebrow ring. “Hey,” she said, “looking to bowl?”
“How much for the batting cage?” Wyatt said.
She raised an eyebrow, not the one with the ring. She had shiny dark eyes, almost as dark as her hair. “You want to buy it?”
“No, uh, just use it,” Wyatt said. “For hitting.”
“Sorry,” she said, “just pulling your leg.” She had a throaty kind of voice, like someone who’d smoked for years, but Wyatt didn’t smell any smoke on her. “It’s five bucks per half hour,” she said, “but tell you what-since you’re the first customer of the year, you can hit for free if you help me set up.”
“Hey, thanks.”
She put on a short leather jacket with thick silver zippers and led Wyatt outside. The wind was blowing again.
“It’s not a little cold for baseball?”
“No.” Wyatt opened the trunk of the Mustang, took out his bat, a thirty-four-inch, twenty-nine-ounce thin-handled Easton Reflex he’d bought last summer from a graduating East Canton senior for forty dollars.
“Your car?” said the girl.
“Yeah.”
“Nice.”
“Thanks.”
They walked over to the cage and the girl unlocked it. The pitching machine had an arm-style delivery and a hopper with twenty or thirty balls on the side. Wyatt plugged it in, and it started humming right away.
“Liftoff,” said the girl. Her hand moved to the dial. “Slow, medium, or fast?”
“Fast,” Wyatt said.
She turned the dial, went out the door, and closed it.
Wyatt took his stance at the plate. Hands up, weight back, balanced, still, eyes on that steel arm. It swung back, took a ball that rolled in from the hopper, and came whipping forward. Wyatt saw the ball clearly-those spinning red laces clearer than anything he’d seen for days, weeks, months-and swung. He hit the ball on the screws, rocketing it to the far end with a force that shook the whole cage. And the next one just the same. And the next and the next and the next, smashing every ball in that goddamn hopper. He realized he was stronger than last year, maybe a lot stronger.
“Hey,” said the girl, watching from the safety of the other side of the chain link.
7
When Wyatt went back after school the next day, the bowling alley was closed even though the hours-of-operation sticker on the door read 11 A.M. TO MIDNIGHT. But the day after that it was open. Wyatt entered, bat in hand. The girl was alone again, behind the desk. She watched him approach.
“More BP?” she said.
“Yeah.”
“Have to charge you this time.”
Wyatt laid a five-dollar bill on the counter. She was wearing a black bowling shirt with GREER stitched in white over one breast.
“Can you see that all right?” she said. “Greer-with two E s?”
He quickly raised his gaze up to her face, nodded a little too vigorously.
“The problem is everybody always spells it I-E, ” Greer said. “I’ve had to correct them maybe a million times.”
“You know a lot of people,” Wyatt said, a not completely unfunny remark that maybe surprised both of them.
Greer laughed. “What’s your name?”
“Wyatt.”
“Wyatt. Never met a Wyatt. Sounds like a gunslinger riding in from the old West.”
This might have been a place for another not completely unfunny remark, but none came to mind. Wyatt’s mouth seemed to open on its own, and out popped something really stupid. “How old are you?”
Greer raised the non-ring eyebrow. “How old am I?”
“None of my business,” Wyatt said, backtracking as fast as he could.
“It’s not a state secret,” Greer said. “Nineteen. And you?”
“Me?”
“Yeah, you. Now that we’re minding each other’s business.”
“Seventeen,” Wyatt said. “Just about.”
“When’s your birthday?”
“August.”
“So what you mean by ‘just about’ is that you’ll be seventeen in, like, four or five months.” Greer’s eyes, so dark and shiny, seemed to get even brighter, like she was about to laugh, but she didn’t.
“Yeah.”
“What date?”
“The second.”
“Me, too.”
“August second?”
“November,” Greer said. “You believe in astrology?”
Wyatt had never really thought about that; did now, real fast. “No,” he said.
“Me neither,” said Greer. “It’s complete bullshit. For example, suppose
we were living on another planet.”
“Then, um, uh…”
“The angles would be different, of course,” Greer said.
“And?”
“So the stars wouldn’t line up the same way. The constellations would be gone. No Gemini, no Aquarius, no Taurus the bull. No constellations, no astrology.”
A silence fell in the bowling alley. “Are you in college?” Wyatt said.
“Nope,” said Greer. “I’m in the bowling alley business.”
“How’s that working out?”
What was this? A second not completely unfunny remark? Yes, because Greer laughed again. Wyatt had gone out for a month or two with a girl in the freshman class last year, and been to a few drunken parties in houses when the parents were gone, parties where there’d been some pairing off to various bedrooms, but other than that he had little experience with girls, so…so actually this was going pretty well.
Greer stopped laughing, very sudden. “It’s working out like shit,” she said.
“Oh, um.”
Greer’s eyes narrowed and she looked like she was about to say something negative, but then the phone rang. She picked it up. “Torrance Bowl,” she said. Wyatt heard a man on the other end. He sounded irritated. The brightness went out of Greer’s eyes. She took a key off the wall and handed it to Wyatt, not really looking at him. He went outside, let himself into the cage, turned the dial up to fast, and crushed baseballs for half an hour.
Back inside, Greer was still behind the counter, punching numbers on a calculator. “Time’s up already?” she said, not taking her eyes off the little screen. “You can hit some more if you like. How much does the electricity cost? A few cents?”
“There’s wear and tear on the machine,” Wyatt said, a concept that came directly from one of Rusty’s diatribes. For the first time, it occurred to Wyatt that maybe Rusty had had a role in shaping him; a very unpleasant thought.
Greer’s fingers went still; she looked up. “Yeah,” she said. “You an accountant in training?”
“No.” But-supposing he didn’t make it to the big leagues, an idea he knew to be a fantasy yet still hadn’t abandoned completely-he’d need a job someday and he wasn’t bad with numbers.
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