by Naomi West
But in answer to Daria’s question, I’d said his whole like was the club, which was entirely true. Jason Steele lived and breathed club life, always had. When I thought about how many years he’d been running the Nightmares and how long he’d been president, I began to have second thoughts about our stakeouts. Especially since we’d uncovered nothing of interest in the weeks we’d been at it. It was like he knew that he was being watched and kept his movement to a minimum as a result.
Was he just being careful? Paranoid? Or did he know we were here and was just trying to indulge us, like an adult with a child, or someone that knew he’d won either way. The thought made my blood boil.
Daria was equally as disappointed about the uninteresting sleuthing we were doing, though she was more vocal about it.
“Are you sure this is the right guy?” Daria had asked me earlier.
“More than sure.”
“‘Cause he really isn’t doing anything at all.”
“Do you really think I’d get it wrong?”
Daria had let out an innocent giggle. “That’d be pretty funny.” I had to smile at that. Only Daria could distract me from the firing hatred within me.
“I told you this would be boring.” And I had. She’d seemed intent on coming anyway. I knew even despite my warnings that some part of Daria had hoped, or even expected, that things would be infinitely more exciting. In a way, I had too. Or at least I’d expected something … more. At least I had some company, even if she did fall asleep half the time.
The truth was, I was more than glad she’d come along, and not entirely because she could make me laugh like no one else. It was a little darker than that. It didn’t happen every time but some days when it was really quiet, at two, three in the morning when Daria was fast asleep, I’d look at the clubhouse and wonder what exactly was stopping me from walking right in there and putting a bullet in Steele’s head. I could do it as well. I knew I could. Whether I would or should was a different matter altogether.
In those moments, I would usually look over at Daria and see her smiling face or her sleeping form, feeling completely safe in my presence, and instantly change my mind. It wasn’t even a conscious decision a lot of the time, but my vengefulness would just drain out of me.
Even though I’d told Daria time and time again that I wanted Steele dead, the moment I became a killer I knew she would never look at me the same. Sure, she would still be around, maybe she would smile at me the same way, laugh with me just as much, but inside she would hate me for giving in.
It would happen eventually though. I wouldn’t be able to give up my desire for revenge for anyone, even Daria. But for now, I’d enjoy her soft smiles and sweet laughs.
At that moment, Daria stirred in her sleep and mumbled something incoherent. After a second of snuggling back into the barely comfortable leather chair she sat bolt upright and started looking around frantically.
“I’m up, I’m up,” she said, rubbing her eyes and blinking until she deemed herself looking awake enough.
“You don’t actually have to stay up all night.”
I knew she was exhausted from spending days at the shop and nights with me. The truth was, I was tired too.
“Yes, I do. I said I would and I will. Besides, I wasn’t sleeping. I just closed my eyes for a bit.”
I suppressed a smile as she looked at the time displayed on the dash clock.
“How long was I out?”
“About three hours,” I said and almost laughed at the way she deflated entirely.
“Sorry,” she said with such remorse I couldn’t contain the bark of laughter that burst out of me.
“It’s fine. Go back to sleep. I doubt anyone’s going anywhere at this time.”
Or at any other time. We hadn’t moved since before she’d fallen asleep. Almost six hours of stillness.
“I don’t want you to be bored,” she pouted.
I snorted. “Luckily for me, your snores are entertaining enough that I could never be bored.”
“Hey!” she grumbled, smacking me lightly on the arm.
Just that light touch was enough to send sparks coursing through me.
What was wrong with me?
All this time spent alone with Daria was getting to my head. I spent all my time with her, and when we were apart, I spent all my time thinking about her. It wasn’t even the fact that she was so beautiful I couldn’t take my eyes off her, though there was that too. Especially since I’d seen her naked. I couldn’t lie and say she hadn’t starred in a fantasy of mine, or two.
But it was much more than that. It was the fact that we never had to force conversation to keep it flowing and we were silent when we didn’t want to talk. It was the way we seemed to read each other’s minds and communicate without talking, with just a raised eyebrow or a nod of the head. It was the way she would pretend to have just ‘closed her eyes for a bit’ because she didn’t want to admit defeat. It was the fact that she came out with me, night after night, to sit for hours in a car, bored out of her mind even though she tried to deny it.
Speaking of cars, Daria had been so furious when she’d found out that I’d even had a car. I had to admit that maybe I’d slightly misled her when she asked me if I’d owned a car, but I had to get her on the bike somehow. She didn’t hesitate to bring it up either, something that I wouldn’t be forgetting for long while.
“What do you mean, get in the car?” she screeched.
“Exactly that. I didn’t realize it was so difficult to understand.”
“Shut up, smart ass. You told me that you didn’t even have a car! You said that because you owned a bike store that you wouldn’t have a car.”
“I never said that. You just assumed.” I was trying to be calm and gentle but that just set her off again.
“It was implied!”
She was getting so worked up that it was starting to get adorable. If I was able to record the conversation and prove how ridiculous it was then, I would have.
“Are you trying to tell me that you made me ride that death trap when you had a car all along?”
At that I had to snort. Not only was that exactly what I’d done, but she had no right to any anger. She loved the bike, probably as much as I did, and we both knew it.
“Please,” I said. “You love that bike more than I do. I can practically hear you begging that I take you out for a ride more often.”
Daria had huffed and looked away and I knew that I’d won.
“Get in the car, Daria. Or you don’t have to come if you don’t want to.”
With another huff, Daria had slid into the car and slammed the door behind her, mumbling under her breath the entire trip.
I smiled fondly at the memory. She really did get worked up too easily. Although, even that somehow made me like her more. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt this way about a woman. In fact, I didn’t think I’d ever felt this way about a woman before.
“What are you thinking about so hard over there?” Daria asked, partially interrupting my thoughts.
“Nothing,” I turned to her and tried to look like I wasn’t just thinking about her.
“You're getting tired, aren’t you? I knew it! You just want me to sleep so you can too.”
Before I knew it, she’d made me laugh yet again. If I could explain what exactly it was that drew me to her, then maybe I would be able to stay away. As it was, I had no idea. How was she able to captivate every part of me without fail? It was like magic the way she was able to call to me.
“Nice try,” I said, shrugging off my thoughts. “Actually, I think we’re done for the night. Let’s get outta here.”
“Are you serious?” she gasped.
And just like that it was immediately worth it. A couple more hours of our stakeout, most likely sitting there doing the exact same thing wasn’t worth missing out on Daria’s almost palpable joy at the prospect of going home.
“Yeah, I’m serious. We’re done for the day.”
> Daria threw herself into my side and granted me a quick hug. Unfortunately, she pulled back before I was completely satisfied, but then again would I ever be?
“Thank you, thank you!” she chanted as she let go of me.
Yes, it was definitely worth it.
Chapter Seventeen
Daria
It was going to be another long and exhausting night ahead, I could already sense it. Rocky and I had just finished work and I was more exhausted than I could possibly imagine.
We had definitely been burning the candle at both ends, and I could tell it was getting to Rocky just as much as it was to me. There had been several days of staking out our rival clubhouse and I was sorry to admit that Rocky was entirely right about how boring it would be.
Still, it was nice to spend all the time with Rocky. We were so comfortable with each other now, it was beginning to worry me. Had it really been so long since we’d last had sex? Rocky probably only saw me as nothing more than a friend. I hated that it annoyed me.
We spent hours upon hours together, working at the shop and then staking out the clubhouse. Did he even see me as a woman anymore? Or just another friend that he hung out with.
Sometimes, and it was only very rarely, he ran his eyes over me when he thought I wasn’t looking and it would immediately get my hopes up that maybe he felt what I did. But then he would look away or shake his head and I could practically see the thought growing fainter and fainter in his head.
“Are you ready?” Rocky called out, getting into his car and turning on the engine. I was still furious that he even owned a car, or a ‘stang’ as he referred to it.
“Yeah,” I yelled back through a yawn, shuffling over and getting into the car. It was six o’clock and I was already ready to collapse into a bed. Instead we head to stay up for another ten hours at the very least. I felt bad for Rocky more than anything. At least I could occasionally catch a little nap in the car, though I would deny it. Rocky had to stay up all night and drive there and back, too. The Nightmare MC was almost an hour’s drive away, and yet, Rocky made the trip with no complaint every day. It was taking its toll though.
I shuffled uncomfortably in my seat and shifted around to get comfortable, finally settling on curling my feet under me and leaning on the window.
Rocky backed out of the garage and started driving, sending me glances every few minutes.
“What?” I finally asked, a few minutes into the drive.
“You look awful,” he said bluntly.
“Gee thanks. Maybe it’s because I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in ages. I don’t know how you do it.”
That was a lie. I was slowly coming to the realization that vengeance could keep a man up for years without showing even a trace of fatigue.
“Maybe I’m starting to feel it too,” Rocky said, though it seemed to be more to himself than me.
“That’s it,” he said suddenly.
Out of nowhere, Rocky threw the wheel in the other direction and turned the car around, speeding back to where we’d come from.
“Where are we going?”
“Home,” Rocky said simply.
I held back my skepticism and waited patiently until we pulled into a shabby apartment a few blocks away.
“Where are we?” I asked again.
“My place.”
I followed him inside the apartment, climbing the stairs to the top and following him inside. I smiled as I surveyed the room; it looked exactly how I imagined his place would look. A comfy sofa instead of a leather couch, papers on the table and a jacket hanging off a chair, plates in the sink a window flung open. It looked lived-in and exactly Rocky’s style.
“Did you forget something or…” I trailed off as Rocky began taking off his shoes and jacket, grabbing his cell phone and throwing himself on the sofa.
“Do you want take out?” He asked casually.
“Yeah, I’d love some. But don’t we have things to be doing?”
“Look, you're right. We’re both exhausted. Let’s take the day off.”
I narrowed my eyes at him and tried to see if this was a joke. When he didn’t break under my stare, I smiled widely and slumped down on the sofa beside him, resting my feet on the coffee table.
“How do you feel about pizza?”
“Depends,” I said. “Pepperoni?”
“Deal,” he agreed and began dialing on his phone.
Surprisingly, it only took a short while for the pizza to be delivered. We wolfed it down in a matter of minutes and I was glad Rocky had the good sense to get two.
We lay resting on each other, stomachs full and pizza finished, and before I knew it I was drifting off to sleep.
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I woke a few hours later, an ache in my back and a cramp in my leg. I realized why only a second later when I discovered that Rocky and I had fallen asleep in arguably one of the most uncomfortable positions ever. I had half a leg thrown over the side of the couch, the other stuck underneath me, and half my upper body entirely on Rocky. Rocky on the other hand was half sitting and half reclined, legs on the coffee table and an arm thrown around my shoulders to pull me further on to him.
Trying to extract myself from him proved mostly futile because of the crushing weight of his arm and the cramp in one of my legs that had caused most of it to go numb
Well then, I thought to myself.
With a great sigh, I shoved Rocky as hard as I could in the side hoping he would either wake up or move.
Instead, he let out a loud grunt and turned to the side, curling another arm and leg around me. Slightly frustrated, especially since I was coming to realize that I had a very full bladder as well, I gave him another hard shove.
“Rocky!” I whisper-yelled. I didn’t really want to wake him, though it was beginning to seem like I had no other choice. Still he slept on.
I reached up to his face and decided this was the only thing left to do. I pinched his nose between my thumb and forefinger, blocking his breathing and hoping he would wake up.
A few seconds later, his body started to shake, and at first I was terrified. That was until I realized he was shaking with laughter.
I released his nose with a shriek and jabbed him hard in the side.
“You asshole! Were you awake this entire time?”
“Well you basically tipped the sofa over when you woke up, I’ve never seen someone jolt awake like that.”
I glared at him. “Can you get off me now, I need to pee.”
“Maybe. I’m kind of comfortable actually.”
I jabbed him in his side again. Apparently, he deemed this unacceptable because he quickly lifted me up and pinned me down with his entire weight on top of me.
“Listen buddy, unless you want a soiled sofa you’ll get off me right now!”
“Alright,” he said calmly, lifting off me immediately and pulling me up so I was sitting upright.
“Thank you,” I said uncertainly, evacuating the room as quickly as I could.
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When I returned back from the bathroom, Rocky was packing away the pizza boxes strewn on the floor.
“What time is it?” I asked.
“Just past eleven. We didn’t sleep that long.”
“I really needed that. Thanks for letting us skip the stakeout.”
“It’s alright.”
I settled on the sofa once more and soon enough Rocky joined me.
“Do you want to stay or do you want me to drive you home?”
I weighed up my options at that. I was sure he wasn’t saying what I thought he was saying, there was no way in hell. I was also sure that getting home now would only wake up my mom, which was something that I didn’t want to deal with. She still wasn’t completely okay with me spending my nights with Rocky, dragging myself into ‘things I had no business dragging myself into.’
Usually, Rocky would drop me off at the hotel just as my mother was waking up, which made it a lot easier to avoid conversation while she was g
etting ready for work.
If I arrived home now, there was no telling what nonsense she would begin to spew out.
“I’d rather stay if that’s ok.”
“Your mom?” he asked.
“How did you know?” It was creepy sometimes how he would be able to read every single thing that crossed my mind. Creepier still that I could often do the same to him.
