Back to Me
Wanda B. Campbell
www.urbanchristianonline.com
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Epigraph
Acknowledgments
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Discussion Questions
About the Author
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What We Believe:
Copyright Page
Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord:
though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be
as white as snow; though they be red
like crimson, they shall be as wool.
Isaiah 1:18 (King James Version)
Acknowledgments
First and always, I give thanks to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, for empowering me with the gift to write novels that not only entertain but also change lives. I wouldn’t be on this journey without His favor and grace.
On May 14, 2014, I celebrated twenty-five years of marriage to my friend Craig Campbell, Sr. We have enjoyed the perfect marriage, one filled with joy and happiness, heartache and pain, triumphs and failures, broken promises and forgiveness. Through every twist and turn we’ve held on to our commitment, and I’m a better person for having you in my life.
Chantel, Jon, and Craig Jr., most days I sacrifice my comfort and desires to ensure that you have every possible opportunity to succeed, and not once have I regretted it. Often I don’t agree with your choices and methods, but at the end of the day, after I finish fussing, Mama’s got your back.
As always, I send much love to my Alameda Health Systems–Highland Campus family: Mary Wong, Alaina, Denise, Camilla, and Amy. You ladies are the best. Rhonda Roberts, Shenette Jones, Cassandra Maxwell, and Tyora Moody, thank you for taking the time. A special thanks goes to Wanda B. Campbell Readers & Supporters Facebook Group and Denise Langston. It’s your dedication and unwavering support that motivate me to keep writing. And readers and book clubs everywhere, thank you for investing your time and resources in my novels.
I never close out without giving special thanks to Israel Houghton. Once again your music ministry has carried me through. Jesus is definitely at the center of it all, and He is more than enough.
Prologue
Paige placed the lighted vanilla-scented pillar candle on her nightstand. She stared at the flame momentarily, then opened the drawer and removed the envelope. When she purchased it, the envelope had a glossy finish. Thirteen years of tears and sweat had rendered the surface dull and the corners cracked. It wasn’t much, but the photo inside was the only memento she had to commemorate the day that forever changed her life. Before her trembling fingers could untuck the flap, a steady stream of tears flowed down her cheeks and gathered under her chin.
Under the weight of the memory of that fateful day, Paige dropped to the floor beside her bed with the worn envelope in hand. The pain from her knees slamming against the hardwood floor was nothing compared to the piercing ache in her heart. If she could turn back the hands of time and do things differently, she would. She would do so many things differently if she could just go back and use the knowledge she now had in her old situations. No matter how hard she willed it, Paige couldn’t go back and right her wrong. She had conceded long ago that the hole in her heart would remain there until the day she died. During this time of the year, Paige wished that day would come sooner rather than later.
She reached for the terry bath towel she’d placed on the bed, and wiped her face. She had learned long ago that the strongest tissue was too weak to handle her heavy tears. After partially drying her face, Paige summoned the strength to look at the one and only picture she had of her baby boy. It wasn’t a good picture. The once white edges had yellowed with time, and the fuzzy black-and-white image was recognizable only by a trained professional eye. Still, Paige was grateful to have the sonographic image, considering the sonographer had gone against the clinic’s protocol by giving it to her. The older woman had hoped to change Paige’s mind but had failed. Thirteen years later the image was all Paige had left of the baby fetus she’d once carried. Although the baby’s sex couldn’t be determined at ten weeks’ gestation, instinct had told Paige that the baby was a boy with her espresso skin and the father’s hazel eyes. She’d secretly named him Jonathan.
“Why didn’t I keep you?” she groaned, cradling the worn picture. “I am so sorry. I really did want you. I was just so selfish.” As it did twelve years prior, the apology turned into sobs, which then transformed into a prayer of repentance. “God, I am so sorry for destroying the gift you gave me. Father, please forgive me and give me another chance. I promise I won’t place my will above yours again. Just one more chance, and I promise to be a better person. I’ll help everyone I can. I’ll feed the hungry and help the homeless. I’ll be faithful to church. I’ll pay my tithes. . . .” Paige bargained with God until no words were left and only her sobs communicated the depth of her despair.
Chapter 1
Paige McDaniels unlocked the door to her North Oakland real estate office on Monday, at precisely 7:00 a.m. After stepping inside and flipping on the light switch, she set her briefcase on the reception desk and raced to deactivate the alarm system within the allotted time. As her fingers punched in the numeric code on the keypad, the previous night’s tears threatened to return. No one in the office but Paige knew that the alarm code she’d chosen was her baby’s due date. Although the office was empty and would remain that way for two more hours, before the arrival of her staff, Paige refused to shed more tears today. She had already lost a full night’s rest and was depending on the double espresso she’d picked up from Starbucks on her way in to get her through the morning.
She swallowed the lump in her throat and relocked the office door. Before retrieving her briefcase, Paige surveyed the three-thousand-square-foot office space, which she owned the title to. “Father, I don’t deserve this, but I do thank you. You’ve definitely ordered my steps.”
When Paige graduated with a master’s degree in business marketing from Stanford ten years ago, she’d no idea she would one day own the most prestigious and profitable independent real estate company in the Bay Area. She’d big plans to work for a Fortune 500 company, like Coca-Cola or Procter & Gamble. That changed when her parents listed their home for sale with a national real estate franchise and received less than satisfactory results. After months of excuses from the Realtor, her parents ended up selling the house for less than it was worth and had to scale down their retirement plans.
The ordeal sparked a desire in Paige to learn as much as she could about real estate. Eventually, she stopped sending out her résumé for other positions and started studying for the state broker’s exam. She passed on the first try and planned to use the license to keep family and close friends from experiencing the stress
her parents had when they sold their home. One day, while stopped at a red light on her way to the post office to mail off a batch of résumés for positions open in real estate, a real estate office sign caught Paige’s attention. To this day, she still couldn’t explain what had attracted her to the stucco building, but once she stepped inside, Paige knew that was where she belonged. An extensive conversation with the owner served as confirmation.
The owner, a broker named Mr. Carrington, ran the business with his wife, but he was planning on retiring the following year and was looking for someone to take over the business since his children had moved to the East Coast. That day Paige stopped seeking a job with a Fortune 500 company and went to work at the real estate office. For twelve months Paige worked long days and weekends, soaking up everything she could about the business from Mr. Carrington. He complimented her often on her work, yet when he presented her with an offer to sell her the business, Paige was awestruck. The business was worth more than he was asking for it and included the building. With her family’s encouragement and Mr. Carrington’s creative and lenient financing terms, Paige took a chance and dove into the Bay Area’s competitive and oftentimes cutthroat real estate world.
Through the years, Paige watched new offices sprout up overnight around Oakland and in the surrounding cities, especially during the real estate boom of the early 2000s. She then watched those same businesses close just as fast when the housing market fell. Her business, Highpoint Real Estate, wasn’t unscathed by the bust, but the company managed to reinvent itself to adjust to the real estate climate. After a barrage of foreclosures and short sales, both Highpoint’s assets and clientele increased, and the company added a property management division. Paige’s personal assets also increased. Thanks to upside-down mortgages and short sales, she acquired two single-family homes and a fourplex. Paige appreciated God’s favor on her life but would trade the material blessings for a chance to go back and right the wrong she committed thirteen years ago.
She walked past the eight workstations and thanked God that each of them was occupied by an honest and reliable agent. Not all of them were Christians, but they all had integrity and good morals. Only once in ten years had a complaint been filed against Highpoint with the CalBRE, and that case was dismissed without prejudice. Once inside her spacious office, she switched on the light and, with slow, deliberate steps, trudged into the room in which she spent more hours than she did in her bedroom.
Ten–hour workdays were the norm for Paige on most days. In addition to running her business, Paige taught a junior entrepreneur night class at the local high school on Monday evenings. She also attended Wednesday night Bible study, Thursday night choir rehearsal, and Friday night intercessory prayer clinic. Between attending to clients on Saturdays, Paige volunteered at the local food bank, where she created food packages. Sunday, which she considered her day of rest, included singing on praise and worship in all three worship services and visiting the sick and shut-ins in the afternoon with the home care ministry. Although she enjoyed working and serving, Paige often wondered if she was doing enough.
She booted her computer and waited for the strong brown liquid to work its magic while she checked her e-mail. Halfway through the double espresso and before 7:45 a.m., she finished returning e-mails and went over the agenda for the next junior entrepreneur class. She was just about to review the company’s trust account when her cell phone rang. She hesitated briefly after reading the caller ID.
“I didn’t expect to hear from you today,” Paige stated without offering the caller a greeting. It was Tyson Stokes, her good friend and the man who had fathered her baby all those years ago.
“Why not?” Tyson asked, as if he found the statement absurd. “We’re friends, and I remember what today is just as well as you do. I know this time of year is hard on you. I just wanted to check on you.”
“How does your wife feel about you checking on me?” Paige didn’t mean to sound bitter, because she really wasn’t. When the unwanted pregnancy occurred, she and Tyson discovered they made much better friends than lovers. They made the decision together to end the pregnancy. He supported her through the ordeal, and like Paige, he spent years regretting that decision. Through the years they would encourage one another, but now Tyson had others to lean on and to fill the empty space. When he recently married and celebrated the birth of his daughter, Paige shared in his joy by attending both the wedding and the baby shower. God had given her friend a second chance, but not Paige.
“Come on, Paige. You know Reyna’s not like that. In fact, she’s sitting right here, nursing Destiny. I explained everything to her, and she understands.”
“Hi, Paige,” she heard her former employee say in the background and regretted the misplaced hostility.
“Tell Reyna I said hello.” Paige paused. “I didn’t mean anything by that comment. I’m really happy for you, I just wish . . . well, you know.”
“Trust me, I do know. I just completely released the guilt last year. Hold on. It will get better.”
Paige had heard those words so much in the past, she wasn’t sure she believed them anymore, but she needed something to hold on to, especially today.
“I know. I just have to keep working and believing.”
“That’s good. Stay positive and do something nice for yourself today,” Tyson suggested.
“I am. I’m working,” she said with a slight sigh. She heard the baby crying in the background. “Thanks for checking on me, but you better go. I think your spoiled daughter wants your attention.”
“Spoiled she is,” Tyson said proudly. “Oh, one more thing before you go. Kev said to tell you he referred a colleague to you.”
Another client was just what Paige needed in her already jam-packed schedule to keep her mind occupied. “Thanks. Now get back to your family.” She hung up the phone without waiting for a reply and then gulped the now lukewarm espresso.
“The most important thing is to create a product our schoolmates will like,” suggested Jasmine, a twelfth grader with green synthetic braids pulled back into a ponytail.
“We have to consider quality and value first,” Seniyah countered.
Jasmine’s lips twisted, and her neck rolled. “Who cares about quality and value? Our target market is high school students, and everybody knows high school kids don’t care nothing about quality and value. If it’s popular, we’ll buy it.”
“It could be toast on a stick,” another girl added, “but if the right football player endorses it, the entire student body will walk around eating burnt toast attached to toothpicks and will swear up and down how cool it is.”
“That may be,” Seniyah pleaded, “but our business can’t give validity to every stereotype about us. We should want our business to make a difference.”
“We will make a difference.” Jasmine paused for dramatic effect. “All the way to the bank,” she hollered, then gave one of the girls a high five and laughed.
To keep from laughing along with the high-strung teenager, Paige shifted her stance, leaning against the podium, and glanced down at her watch.
“Everything isn’t about money,” Seniyah said, pouting.
“When you don’t have any, it is.” Jasmine’s face twisted as she scanned up and down Seniyah’s thick frame. “Based on those Goodwill specials you have on, your every thought should be about money. You should wake up in the middle of the night, screaming, ‘Lawd, where is my money!’”
Seniyah sulked in the chair, while the other seven girls laughed.
“Let’s focus.” Paige regained control of the junior entrepreneur class before the lively discussion got out of hand. “Although they have different philosophies, Jasmine and Seniyah are both correct in their approach to business. The key, which can sometimes be difficult but is possible, is to balance quality and value with demand. Do you get my point?”
All the girls nodded except for Seniyah, who hung her head. Paige felt sorry for her. She couldn’t admit it openl
y, but Seniyah was her favorite in the group. For a teenager, she had great business insight and was a 4.0 student with a sixteen hundred SAT score. In four months Seniyah would graduate from high school at the top of her class, and then she would be off to Stanford on a full scholarship. Not bad for a girl from the roughest and most violent neighborhood in Oakland, a place known as the “killing ground.” She was the youngest of six children and would be the first sibling to graduate high school.
Jasmine’s home life wasn’t much better, but thanks to her older brother, who specialized in street pharmaceuticals, Jasmine could afford the latest fashion trends and had a car. The green and yellow hair would make one think she wasn’t too bright and didn’t have any goals that didn’t include acrylic nails and extensions. Paige thought that very thing until Jasmine approached her after the first class session and shared her five-year and ten-year plans. If Jasmine reached her goals, she’d own a chain of salon–child-care centers by the time she was thirty.
Paige walked over to Jasmine. “Let me explain further,” she said, pointing at Jasmine’s green hair. “Colored hair is in high demand. I’ve seen adults, as well as teenagers, with every color of the rainbow on their heads. The demand is there. The challenge is to produce a high-quality product that looks natural—something that doesn’t make your hair frizz and that’s easy to manage. Maybe a grade you can curl and not just braid.”
“I get it.” Jasmine looked perplexed, like she was in deep thought.
Seniyah finally looked up. “That’s what I was trying to say.”
“Well, you didn’t say it right,” Jasmine snapped.
Paige spoke up before more insults flew. “Now that we have an understanding, let’s create our product.”
Forty-five minutes and two interventions later, Paige jumped up from the small school desk, grinning like a proud mother instead of the community volunteer she was. After brainstorming and debating, the ladies had agreed unanimously on a business name and had decided to create and sell a product that would not only make their business profitable but would help others as well. DWAP, or Divas with a Plan, would make and sell beaded necklaces. A percentage from each sale would go into a fund to purchase blankets for the local shelter to distribute.
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