Having drunk its fill, the breagar turned to leave. Water dribbling from its complex snout, it suddenly paused. Maybe it heard something; maybe it smelled something new and different. In any event, it turned and without warning broke into a gallop directly toward Flinx and Clarity. Only a dozen or so meters away, it had very little ground to cover.
The minidrags, unfurling pink and blue wings, launched themselves toward their masters. They had no chance, Flinx saw, of arriving in time. Letting out a shout that was half scream of fear and half warning, Clarity scrambled to rise and head for the lake. A breagar could swim but not half as fast as a human. Flinx saw that she would not make the water in time. Estimating the distance that the minidrags, Clarity, and the breagar had to travel raced through Flinx’s mind in an instant.
That same mind responded.
As Pip and Scrap sped toward them and a frantic Clarity threw herself into the water, he let that portion of himself that was so sensitive to the feelings of others range outward. The past several years had demonstrated that his ability to receive and influence the emotions of other beings was not restricted to the more Byzantine emotions of sentients but extended to any creature evolved enough to feel them.
From the breagar he received hatred and hunger. He responded by projecting the calm that had come over him ever since he had stepped off the transport earlier that morning. Concentrating, focusing, he dimly heard Clarity screaming at him to run for the water. He half closed his eyes, letting the peace of the day flow over him and take complete possession of his inner self.
Of course, if he was wrong, he might end up a mass of broken bone and meat. He would not have tried it if Pip had not been racing to his aid. He was gambling that if his efforts failed, she would arrive in time to stop the breagar. She might not kill it, but a well-placed glob of her highly corrosive venom should be more than sufficient to distract it.
For such a bulky, clumsy-looking creature, the breagar was surprisingly fast. It was almost on top of him when it abruptly slowed, then halted. Shoulder deep in the lake, Clarity stopped yelling and looked on in bewilderment. She shouldn’t be bewildered, she knew. This was Philip Lynx. She had seen what he could do. Whatever he had done and might still be doing to the breagar was neither visible nor perceptible.
Slowly, Flinx stood up. The four opposing jaws of the breagar swayed back and forth less than a meter in front of him. The creature was breathing hard from its short, powerful sprint, the immense head turned slightly to allow one red eye to focus on its intended prey. Pip and Scrap hovered anxiously overhead, the loud humming of their wings the only sound.
Reaching out with one hand, Flinx gently and without fear began to stroke the tip of the breagar’s long snout.
Arms moving slowly back and forth in the water, hardly daring to breathe for fear of doing something to upset the delicate, unnatural tableau, Clarity stared openmouthed at the scene on shore. Only when the breagar folded its legs beneath its massive torso, lay down, closed its eyes, and went to sleep did she dare emerge slowly from the lake.
Keeping Flinx between her and the snoring omnivore, she picked up a towel and began to dry herself. Lost in contemplation of the breagar, it finally occurred to him that she might have reasons for not speaking, other than inherent non-volubility.
“It’s all right,” he told her. “It won’t bother us now.”
“I saw a breagar in a zoo, once. I never expected to get any closer to one than that.” Reaching out with a tentative hand, she touched the long snout. The skin felt like warm leather. When the creature let out a contented snort, eyes still shut, she nearly jumped off the blanket.
Flinx had to smile. “I told you it was all right.” Tilting his head back slightly, he pointed. “See? Pip and Scrap know we’re in no danger.” She saw the two minidrags had perched on a sun-warmed rock sticking out of the water.
“You are one very strange man, Philip Lynx.”
His smile softened. “That’s why I went away, and it’s why I came back. If I were normal, I would never have left you in the first place.”
“What did you do to the breagar? I thought you could only detect the emotions of others.”
He nodded. “Originally, that was the case. Over the last few years, I’ve discovered that I can project them as well. Not always, and the degree of success varies, but I’m getting better at it. When it charged us, I sensed naked hostility mixed with hunger. Animal emotions are far less complex than those of sentients and can often be countered by equal simplicity and directness.” One hand caressed a tooth-lined jaw. The breagar snuffled like a giant pig.
“I tried to convince it that we represented no threat and that all was right with the world. Simple emotions. I certainly didn’t expect to put it to sleep. No, that’s not right. I didn’t put it to sleep. I relaxed it to the point where it decided that now might be a good time for a nap.”
She shook her head, unable to take her eyes from the dozing monster. “I think you and Nur must be a good match. What happens when it wakes up?”
“Easy to find out,” he replied, with a twinkle in his eye. Turning on his knees to face the animal, he smiled at it. He did not shut his eyes, wrinkle his face, or wave his arms. After a couple of moments, the breagar woke up. Clarity started to back away, but Flinx reached out to gently restrain her. Rising onto all fours, the breagar yawned mightily. It was an impressive display, with all four jaws expanding outward in opposite directions before shutting with an authoritative snap. Heedless of the presence of the humans, it turned, shook its head from side to side, and trotted off toward the flowering forest.
Clarity relaxed. “I remember you doing some amazing things, Flinx, but nothing quite so—so bucolic. Can you project like that to any creature?”
“I don’t know,” he told her honestly. “I haven’t had the opportunity to try projecting like this on any creature. But as long as my talents are under my control, I seem to have the ability to do it, yes.”
“So,” she continued on an utterly unexpected tack, “if you wanted to, you could project ardor on me, and make me love you.”
Surprised, he remembered the security guard on Earth to whom he had done precisely that, in order to aid him in his quest to access restricted records within the greater Terran box. He could have lied about it, but chose not to. If he was going to ask for Clarity’s help and understanding—and perhaps more—it wouldn’t do to try to resurrect a relationship on the back of fresh lies.
“I possibly could, yes. But I wouldn’t.”
“How would I know that?” Her expression was solemn.
“You might not initially, but you would eventually. To make you, or anyone else, love me month after month, year after year, would require constant effort on my part. Sooner or later I’d forget to project the necessary emotions, and you would realize what had happened, that you were living a lie.” He looked apologetic. “After that, you’d never trust me again. Also, I still sometimes completely lose my ability to receive as well as project. There’s no predicting when or if that is going to happen. If I was persuading you of my suitability as a partner and my ability to do that suddenly went away, you’re smart enough to recognize the results.
“I didn’t come here to lie to you, with either words or abilities. I came because you’re one of the few people who knows about me and my abilities, who understands, and who I can talk to.” He looked at her. “You’re the one I wanted to talk to. Because you know about me, because you’re a gengineer yourself, and—for other reasons.”
“Well, I’m flattered.” She lay down next to him. The perfect sun of Nur bathed them in its balmy, golden glow. Harpettes fluttered past overhead, describing gossamer crescents between them and the slow-moving clouds. “I’ll help if I can, Flinx. What do you want me to do?”
“Just listen. There are things that I’ve experienced that I can’t explain. Or maybe it’s just that I don’t want to know any more about them than I already do.”
She was openly sympa
thetic—and he felt it gratefully. “This has to be about your talent.”
He nodded as well as he could considering his prone position. “That—and other things. Whether they have anything to do with my talent, I don’t know. I have suspicions but no more than that.” He sighed deeply. “Projecting is always more of a strain than listening. You didn’t bring me all the way out here to listen to my troubles. You could have done that in the city.” Reaching over, he took her left hand in his right.
She looked down at their entwined fingers, then back up at him. “Bill wouldn’t approve.” But she did not pull her hand away.
They fell asleep in the sun like that; close but—except for their interlocking hands—not making physical contact. So relaxed was Clarity that she was not even disturbed by the thought that the breagar might come back. If it did, she felt, the remarkable man beside her would somehow make it feel sorry for itself or too content to want to kill anything or something equally nonthreatening.
It was a perfect afternoon on a perfect day: perfectly ordinary for Nur. With the organic cushioning of the tiny-flowered ground cover beneath the blanket, the occasional gentle breeze off the lake, and the sun slipping away benignly westward, she was completely at ease. She deliberately chose not to wonder whether that was an honest reaction to the events of the day or an emotional emanation from her companion projected to make her feel as good as possible about her present circumstances. Flinx had said he would not do something like that. She decided to take him at his word.
After all, she mused before she fell asleep, there was nothing she could do about it. If he was lying, it would take time for her to find out.
If he wasn’t lying about that, too, she realized, and intended to continue to fool her forever about what she was actually feeling and what was the result of his projecting emotions onto her. Thinking that way, she decided, might very well lead to madness. Or at the least, a knotty succession of thoughts in constant conflict with one another. At least he couldn’t read those.
She knew how she felt about him, she told herself firmly. That was not the result of some ethereal emotional projection. What she didn’t know was what she was going to do about it.
If he could project a persuasive answer to that, she decided, then Philip Lynx was far more talented than even he suspected.
CHAPTER
7
It was dark within the deep, and deep within the darkness. She didn’t know where she was, but it was very, very cold. Wrapping her arms around her upper body did not help. Nothing helped. It was the kind of cold that, instead of penetrating, seems to emerge from the core of one’s being and work its way outward to the skin. Not the kind of cold that freezes—the kind that numbs.
Lowering her arms, she touched herself. Even corpses feel like something, but her fingers conveyed nothing to her brain. Though she could sense herself, there was no communication between the nerve endings at the tips of her fingers and whatever part of her body they happened to encounter. Pushing inward against her dull, shadowed flesh generated no sense of pressure. Scraping with fingernails resulted in no pain. Blinking, she found she could not detect the squeezing sensation produced by the small muscles around her eyes. It was too cold.
She was not alone in the blackness.
There was another presence. At once nowhere and simultaneously all around her, she knew it was the source of the cold. It had no outline, no shape, no form. Its existence was defined by the fact that it pulsed. It might have been a waveform, a frigid flush of particles, or a heartbeat. At one stroke she felt that she had always known of it, and an instant later it embodied everything she had never experienced.
Without knowing that it was anything more than the source of the numbing cold, she felt instinctively that she would best be served by not moving and, if possible, not breathing. Her human curiosity extended only so far. At some point, primal common sense kicked in and instructed her to keep silent—not that she was capable of making any sounds—be still—not that she could move anything more than her arms and legs—and watch—not that she could see anything. Be alert, but unobtrusive. Be aware, but invisible. Be conscious, but try not to think too much.
She succeeded at everything except the latter.
She became aware of something moving toward her. It was infinitely small and intolerably vast. Trying not to move, conscious that she must not move, she began to shiver uncontrollably. It came nearer. It made contact. A part of it passed through her. She began to scream frenziedly. That no one could hear her and that she made no sound made it only that much worse.
She awoke and sat up sharply, gasping for air as if she had just crossed the finish line of a double marathon. Scrap was in her face, darting anxiously back and forth, his wings driving clean warm air into her nostrils, his tongue flicking out to caress her in a vain attempt to exorcise whatever it was that was tormenting her. She dragged one hand across her eyes, wiping away the residue of the tears she had sobbed in her sleep.
Because that was what she had been doing: dreaming something she desperately hoped never to dream again.
Hearing a moan as she brushed sweat-saturated hair from her forehead, she used both hands to comfort Scrap. Flinx lay where he had fallen asleep beside her, but he was not still. Pip was darting back and forth above him, occasionally making contact with wingtip or tongue, trying her best to comfort her clearly traumatized master.
He, too, was having a nightmare. Was it the same as hers? Wasn’t that impossible? People could share many things, but not nightmares. Years before, he had spoken to her about his dreams and his headaches. Surely they weren’t contagious?
There was one way to find out. Wake him up.
She started to turn toward him on hands and knees. Recognizing her as a friend, sensing the benevolence inherent in her feelings toward Flinx, Pip darted aside to give her room. That was when Clarity noticed their changed surroundings.
Around her arboreals ought to have been playing in the trees, fliers circling overhead, and small stingless arthropods should be hard at work pollinating the thousands of blossoms. That was the norm for Nur. That was as it should be.
But save for her companion’s moaning, all was silent. The inhabitants of the trees had gone. The sky was empty. The steady susurration of pollinating arthropods was absent. It was as if everything living except her, Flinx, and the two minidrags had fled. But from what?
Flinx moaned again, tossing his head from side to side, and the skies of paradise seemed to darken ever so slightly.
Life on the lakeshore had done more than gone away, she saw. Within a radius of half a dozen meters, not a flower remained attached to a branch. The ground was littered with petals, their tips curled, their bright colors already beginning to fade. A little closer, everything had died. Even the mosslike ground cover over which they had spread their blanket was black and shriveled. What she saw now worried her. It was one thing to project a nightmare and something else entirely to broadcast it strongly enough to kill living things in your vicinity.
Having previously experienced what Flinx could do—when he was awake or unconscious—she did not panic. But it was clear that whatever he was dreaming was far from benign. The likelihood that it could have had a serious effect on his surroundings seemed inescapable. She could think of only one way to put a stop to it.
Wake him up.
Moving closer, she reached for his shoulders. Then she hesitated. She had heard that it was dangerous to wake sleepwalkers or people in the throes of a nightmare. Abruptly awakened, they had been known to strike out and injure those attempting to revive them. Though she was not afraid of being struck by an open palm or fist, she wavered. This was Flinx she was dealing with. That he might strike out at her with something more lethal than clenched fingers was a possibility. She vacillated between grabbing and shaking him and waiting.
His moans were piteous like a little boy lost in an endless warren of menacing, unfriendly streets. Though no tears spilled from his eyes, she co
uld see he was suffering as much as she had, if not more. His head arched back and his lips parted to emit a wordless cry for help. It decided her. She gripped his shoulders, closed her eyes, and shook.
“Wake up, Flinx! Come on, wake up!” The two minidrags fanned the air with blurring wings and looked on uneasily.
His moan cut off. He blinked, caught sight of her as she let go, and let his head slump against the blanket. The sun continued to shine, the lake to lap against the shore; her brain did not explode. Somewhere in the forest, a scarlet midrigel peeped querulously.
Staring upward, not meeting her eyes, he murmured, “I was dreaming, wasn’t I?”
“You were doing more than that, Flinx.” Her tone was grave. “A lot more than that, I think.” She gestured with one hand. “Take a look around.”
Levering himself up on his elbows, he saw the dead ground cover, the fallen petals. “You think I did that?”
“Who else? It’s only you and me here. Your dreams can kill things, Flinx. Like you told me before, you can—project.”
“I can, I know that—emotions, feelings. But something like this . . . I’ve never done anything like this before.”
“You said that your headaches are getting worse. I’m going to assume that your nightmares are also getting worse. Maybe you’re starting to project the feelings you get from them now—or at least some fractional essence of them.” She glanced meaningfully skyward. “If you do that on your ship there’s no one to notice and nothing to be affected except Pip. The effect doesn’t seem to extend very far.”
“Yet,” he muttered miserably. “At least if it was me that caused this, I didn’t hurt you.” When she did not reply, he closed his eyes as if in pain. “Please don’t tell me I hurt you.”
“Not physically, no. Can you describe your dream to me, Flinx?” Before he could reply, she added quickly, “No, let me describe my dream to you.”
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