by Rick Shelley
"Highness?" I hadn't heard Timon come up. I was staring toward the Titans, lost in my moody reflections.
"Yes, Timon. Did you get your fill?"
"Aye, lord, enough to last a week."
I doubted that. "What's going on downstairs?"
"Very little. Nearly everyone has gone to bed."
"You must be tired too."
"Not really, lord," he lied. I had seen him smothering yawns at breakfast and before. "Perhaps you should retire for a few hours."
"I couldn't sleep if I had to." I guess I was lying too.
"What will you do?" Timon asked.
"I don't know. Stand here until I get bored, I suppose. Maybe find a full barrel of beer and empty it."
"I mean, about…" He didn't have to finish.
"I don't know yet," I said slowly. My voice sounded tired even to me. I had another answer for Timon, but I censored it before it could get out. What would I do? Kill the Etevar and his wizard. Maybe it would have to come down to that kind of an-eye-for-an-eye revenge, but I couldn't fill the emptiness with a mad thirst for revenge at any cost. The Etevar has killed my father because my father killed his father. So I go off, kill this Etevar, and wait for his son to kill me? Madness, even though there were no police or law courts to run to for justice. This was so far removed from the society that I knew that I still couldn't make the mental leap-not standing on the castle's battlements, in a chilly breeze, not even just hours after we had buried my father. It all seemed so clear when I entered that dark cottage near Castle Thyme. No more.
"Everyone's sleeping, you say?"
"Aye, lord. There won't be much happening afore late afternoon, not even in the town."
"Did they stand the vigil with us?"
"Many did, I hear. He was everyone's Hero."
"Maybe I should try to sleep," I mumbled.
"Your chamber is prepared, lord." As a member of the royal family, I rated a private room, more than the overwhelming majority of the people in the castle could say. For the soldiers and servants, bed was often whatever piece of rush-strewn floor they could claim and hold.
The bedroom was the one my father had used in Basil. I recognized it because I had seen it through the doorway in my parents' bedroom in Louisville. Now it was mine. Mother had taken a different room somewhere else in the keep. I wasn't sure where. Lesh was sitting across the doorway to my room, leaning against the jamb, snoring freely. Timon woke him so I wouldn't trip or wake Lesh myself. Lesh came to his feet, forcing himself alert.
"Sorry, lord," he said.
"Never mind. A little sleep is what we all need. But you might as well come inside, out of the hallway."
"My place is at your door, lord." I wanted to argue, but I didn't think I could shake his sense of propriety without a long discussion, so I let it be.
"Come on, Timon." I propelled the boy inside. "Find a comfortable spot and get some sleep yourself." There was a bench piled high with cushions. I shoved him toward that and then I stripped off my weapons and collapsed across my bed. I guess I fell asleep almost immediately.
I found myself holding Yorick's skull, standing in his grave and declaiming how well I knew him while the skull told me to wake up. I tried to tell Yorick to shut up, that I had immortal words to say, but someone was snaking me. I opened my eyes and saw Parthet standing over me, his face nearly invisible in the shadows. I had slept through the day. The only light was coming through the open door from torches in the hall. While I pried myself up to a sitting position, Lesh brought in a lit torch and wedged it into a wall bracket opposite the foot of my bed.
"What time is it?" I asked around a heroic yawn.
"Two hours past sunset," Parthet said. "Quickly, lad, His Majesty waits."
That shortened my next yawn. "What's up? He said it would be three days before we got back to business as usual."
"This isn't business as usual. The Etevar has stolen those days from us," Parthet said. "Come on, lad. You'll hear it soon enough." He started to pull me to my feet with more strength than I would have given him credit for.
"Okay, I'm up." On my feet even. I flexed my shoulders and stretched. By the time I brought my arms down, Parthet and Timon were wrapping my sword belt around me. Protocol. The Hero of Varay must be armed.
It was a long walk, down from the mezzanine where my room was, through the great hall, up the main stairway on the other side, then back across to the king's private dining hall. A huge parchment map was spread across the table, the edges of the scroll held down with weights. The map was four feet by seven and appeared to show just Varay and Dorthin, in much more detail than the map I had been given before. Mother and Kardeen were already studying the map with the king when Parthet and I arrived. Lesh and Timon waited in the hall.
"Sorry we had to disturb you, son, but this is urgent," Pregel said.
I nodded and took the seat the king indicated, next to him.
"Our relations with the Etevars have never been good," Pregel said. "The ambush the current one set for your father was just the latest in a long series of provocations. Now it appears that the attack on your father was merely a prelude to something more ambitious. Parthet, tell him what you've learned."
Parthet stood to achieve his meager height advantage. "I was too restless to sleep this morning. I knew, of course, that the Etevar bore a bitter grudge against Carl, but I worried that there might be more to the scheme he used to draw Carl to Thyme. It had been troubling me for some time, but I couldn't put my suspicions together until this morning. So I decided to do a little spying." He paused to look around. Nobody questioned him. Obviously, the king had already heard the news; maybe the others had as well.
"I started by questioning Harkane at length with hypnosis and magic, probing for any clue he might have picked up at Castle Thyme, even subconsciously." Parthet shrugged. "There was an aura of strong magic around his perceptions, but we already knew that the Etevar's wizard was involved in the setting the ambush."
"What's the importance of that?" I asked. "Why did it take a wizard to set the ambush? I'd think any competent military commander could do it."
"Part of the magic of the Hero of Varay is a considerably heightened perception of personal danger," Parthet said. "Without a more powerful magic to conceal the ambush, your father would certainly have seen that there was more to the situation than it appeared, and been able to take his own measures." He waited for my nod before he continued.
"I do make a good spy. I'm old and crippled-looking. No one would guess that I'm more than that without the talent to spot my magics, so I visited Carsol, the Etevar's capital, and nosed around."
"In one day? How did you get there?" I asked.
Parthet looked to the king for permission before he answered. "There is a passage from Basil Town to Carsol, one your father and I opened years ago, after your father defeated the previous Etevar."
"You have a door into the enemy's capital but you thought it was too dangerous to have one into Castle Thyme?" I suppose I was as surprised as anyone at the anger in my voice. It just flared. A doorway into Castle Thyme could have put Dad beyond the ambush, kept him alive.
"The secret way into Carsol was a risk we felt justified," Pregel said. "Now, it's easy to see how things might have been different."
"The Etevar's wizard would have looked for passages in Thyme," Parthet said. "Even a poor wizard could spot a doorway, though it would take an extraordinary one to use it. The Etevar's new wizard might be that good."
"He could find one in his own capital just as easily," I said.
"If he thought to search for it," Parthet said. "That magic is much too passive to give itself away by chance. And this is the first time that passage has been used in years."
Baron Kardeen cleared his throat. "The doorway on this end is in a cellar that is kept flooded except when someone who is authorized uses the passage. The other end is in a much smaller cellar. Anyone who managed to open the doorway from the other end-anyone not aut
horized to-would likely drown."
I held up both hands. "Okay, okay. A justifiable risk." I turned to Parthet. "So, you went to Carsol. What then?"
"There was an incredible amount of activity, people all over town. Part of it was celebration at the destruction of the king's greatest enemy." Parthet paused but wouldn't meet my eyes. He was talking about people celebrating Dad's death. "But part of it was anticipation. The Etevar has called for a general levy of his warlords and all Dorthinis who owe military service. He plans an all-out invasion of Varay. With our Hero dead, he feels that he can't lose this time, especially not with his new wizard."
"So what's so special about this new wizard?"
"No one speaks his name. To the Dorthinis, he is just 'The Wizard.' " Parthet sounded miffed. "They talk about him as a new arrival out of Fairy, perhaps a rebel there, but they claim that he is the most powerful wizard the seven kingdoms have ever known. They describe him as standing head and shoulders over the tallest Dorthini, which would put him well over seven feet-and makes him sound like an elf." That last was an aside to me. "All sorts of impossible powers are ascribed to him. Magic is one thing, but some of the stories are clearly beyond any magic that could possibly work in the seven kingdoms."
"How much time do we have?" I asked.
"The levy is to assemble two weeks from today at Carsol. The army will need ten, more likely twelve, days to get from Carsol to the border. An army travels more slowly than a small party. Most of them will be on foot."
"So we have a little more than three weeks to get an army to the border to meet them. Where will they attack?"
"They'll come by way of Castle Thyme, aiming straight for Basil across the middle of the kingdom. No other route would work."
"That way will be slow," I said, more to myself than the others.
"Slow, but not impossible," Parthet said.
"It does give us time to get an army in front of them."
"We have no army to put in front of them," Kardeen said. "If we pull our men from the north, we'll be overrun by the Elflord of Xayber. He's a mad rebel against his own kind, but as long as he threatens the buffer zone and not other elflords, his people let him be."
"Are you saying that it comes down to deciding who we want to lose Varay to?" I asked.
"If it ever does come to that, there can be no question," Pregel said. "Letting Fairy cut the buffer zone in half might destroy the fabric of our existence. Our only purpose is to separate the realms, Fairy and Mortal."
"What options do we have, then?"
"I don't know. I only know that we have to find a way," Pregel said.
Picture a light bulb going on above my head. "You mean that you hope I can find a way."
"You are Hero of Varay," Kardeen said. "We have always relied on our Heroes in our greatest need, all the way back to Vara himself."
"Hey, I'm the rookie here, remember? I don't have any miracles to pull out of a hat. How the hell can I take on an entire army single-handed?"
Nobody answered for a long time. But I kept my mouth shut, and eventually somebody had to speak. It was the king.
"Varay cannot fall while it is defended by a proper Hero."
"Then I must not be a proper Hero," I replied.
"You are," Parthet said. "The magic is in you. You know that."
I remembered the electricity when the king linked our rings, the sensation of power entering and surging through me, all of that. "I don't know what the magic is, how to use it."
"You mother and I can help with that, some," Parthet said. "But more of the magic can only be known by a Hero. Your father would have explained it, but he didn't get the chance."
"Because he was too busy getting himself killed trying to live up to your idea of the proper Hero?" I asked. That caused another long silence. Mother broke this one.
"Your father did what he did because he felt it was right. He knew the risks. As you know them. He made his choice."
"And don't I have the same right? Nobody ever asked me if I wanted any of this. Nobody told me what to expect, what I was going to face. You and Dad kept me in the dark for twenty-one years. I'm the son of the Hero. Does that rob me of the choice my father had?" The grief I hadn't been able to express before was finally out in the open, but it came out more as anger than grief. I was boiling. All the little snits united at once. I got up and walked across the room while I tried to get myself under control. No matter how justified the anger, this was the wrong time and place for a show of temper. Except for Kardeen, we were all blood kin. The others grieved over my father's death as much as I did. But I had been lied to all my life, had had so much hidden from me, had been trained blindly for a role I was never told about. Everyone took it for granted that I would follow in my father's footsteps. And now they all blithely assumed that I would step right up and pull a rabbit the size of Alaska out of my Cubs cap. I fought with the fire inside, trying to contain it, without much success. A lot of it was pain, emptiness, but there was more, much more. My resentment was genuine and justified. It just picked a poor moment to all come out.
"Gil?" It was Mother, standing just behind me. I turned. We were alone in the room. The others had left, too quietly for me to notice.
"No one wants to rob you of free choice," she said. "If this hadn't come up when it did, we'd have told you all about Varay. We planned to bring you here to show you. Your twenty-first birthday. We thought you'd have all the time you needed to learn about Varay and make up your mind."
This time, she waited for me to break the silence.
"That still leaves a lot of years when you could have told me. My whole life's been based on a lie, and all I get is a note and 'we were were going to tell you soon.' It's not enough. It wouldn't have been enough if Dad hadn't got himself killed. All those years! Dammit, what the hell did you think you were doing with me? I've got plans of my own. I'm just six weeks short of a degree in computer science. I've got prospects of a good job as a software engineer, maybe a chance to strike it rich on my own with some innovative software. I'm good at it, damn good. Maybe live in Silicon Valley, find the perfect wife and beat the odds on divorce. I never made plans to be king of some hole-in-the-wall country no one ever heard of. How could I plan for that? Nobody told me that my great-grandfather is a king. Or that funny old Uncle Parker is a wizard, for God's sake. I'm nobody's damn puppet to jerk around." I ran out of steam. I was breathing hard, and I needed to slow it down. Mother just waited.
"I'm sorry about Dad getting killed," I said. "That hurts me just as it hurts you. But if I wanted to be a soldier, I'd have enlisted in the army back home." I walked past her, toward the door. Halfway there, I stopped and turned.
"Home. That's where I'm going. This isn't it. Unless I've completely lost track of time, I can still get back to Evanston before spring break ends." I waited for Mother to say something, but she just looked at me. Finally, I left.
I had spotted a number of doors with silver tracing in the keep, and I knew the door I wanted. I went back to my room and ditched Lesh and Timon. I told them to go down to the great hall, and I was still mad enough that they didn't argue. The doorway from the bedroom to the privy in the outer wall also led home. The castle didn't really have running water, but it did have sewer pipes. There was a wooden bucket to dump water down the toilet. I stopped just long enough to get my pistol from under the pillows on the bed, then I stepped through to home.
It was late Friday, early Saturday. I flipped on the TV to see what was on. Then I went upstairs and climbed in the shower for a long, hot soak, trying to wash out a week's dirt. I wished I could just wash out the week's events too-or a little more. I had the radio blaring in my bedroom, trying to exclude thought. It worked fairly well. When I came out of the shower I was relaxed and sleepy. I fell asleep almost at once.
But a person can sleep only so long, and I had slept most of Friday in Varay. It was four in the morning by the clock-radio when I woke, as alert as could be-no chance of getting back to sle
ep.
I got dressed, took Dad's Citroen, and found an all-night diner along the interstate east of town. I waded through two of their $2.99 breakfast specials, a half-dozen donuts, and four cups of coffee. I sat in the corner and watched other customers come and go. It was a long way from breakfast at Castle Basil, but I still had that insatiable appetite. I almost ordered a third breakfast, but the waitresses started giving me strange looks, so I paid my tab and left.
The night air was damp. Louisville had received a lot of rain in the past couple of days. I overheard that in the restaurant. The air felt wet and chilly. Dad's car had a half tank of gas. On the way to the restaurant I had stopped at the bank and used my card in the all-night teller to get out a hundred bucks. Money was no problem. I had a trust fund. I had controlled the interest since my eighteenth birthday. Now that I was twenty-one, the principal was mine too. I had signed the papers before I left school and mailed them to the bank. Twenty thousand a year in interest-or I could take everything out and live like a king for a few years.
"Live like a king." Poor choice of words, I told myself. You saw how the king lives, the kind of life you could live.
"I should live so long," I mumbled. I realized then that my trust fund had almost certainly come from Varay. The source was another of the things my parents had never told me about.
I leaned on the steering wheel in the restaurant parking lot. I had a notion to start driving back to school. Nobody would say anything if I took Dad's car. I could drop a note in the mail when I got to Northwestern to let Mom know. If she even bothered to come home. It occurred to me that she might choose to stay in Varay now that Dad was gone. I started driving. I was across the Ohio River, heading north on 1-65, before I changed my mind and turned around at the next interchange. The sun was up by then. I had no intention of returning to Varay, but I did figure to leave Mom a note at home, collect as much of my stuff as I could pack in the car, and stop the mail and newspapers. I'd make arrangements with one of the neighbors to look after the place. The orderly mind at work. School didn't resume until Monday, and I could make the drive in seven hours without pushing it. Even if I waited until Monday to go back, I wouldn't miss much at school, just three lectures. Nobody scheduled tests for the first day back from break-at least none of my professors did.
