to a duel.”
Merin paused. “But you told me not to duel.”
“Last week you couldn’t wait to embarrass yourself, now you’re arguing
with me? Get!”
Merin jumped, rushing over to ask one of the younger monks to invite
the other Shardbearer to duel. Then Merin quickly went to the dressing
square, where several other young monks helped him don the Shardplate.
Merin knew the man he was about to spar. His name was Khalvan, a distant
cousin to the Kholin. The man had done moderately well in the dueling
competition, finishing near the middle of the pack of contestants.
Several groups of onlookers gestured and nudged one another as Merin
approached the dueling ring. Some smirked in amusement; others were
simply curious. Though the rumors rightly claimed that Aredor had really
been the one to save the king, Merin had taken part in the battle. If people had been curious about him before, they were doubly so now.
So, what will it meant to them if I lose this duel? Merin thought with sudden apprehension, realizing that most of the courtyard had stopped its sparring to gather around his ring.
What will it mean if I win?
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Merin raised his Blade to indicate that he was ready, and Khalvan stepped
forward. The man’s stance was different from Merin’s—he kept the Blade
closer to his body, its tip raised higher in the air.
Merin struck first. Propelled by the speed of Shardplate, he danced
across the sand, swinging his Blade in the sweeps Vasher had taught him.
His opponent parried each blow with ease, then delivered a strike directly against Merin’s helm.
Merin pulled to a stop in the sand, gritting his teeth as the scorekeeper
awarded a point to Khalvan. Focus, Merin told himself, repeating Vasher’s oft-voiced counsel. Feel the form, and let it do the work.
Merin approached the second bout more carefully, letting his opponent
make the first move. When the man struck, Merin was able to block the
first blow and try a counterstrike. His opponent easily turned Merin’s Blade away, but Merin let the form pull him back, just out of reach. Merin was
actually surprised when his follow-up attack connected with Khalvan’s
shoulder.
Several members of the crowd nodded appreciatively at this, but the third
point made them more skeptical, as Merin didn’t last to a count of three
before taking a blow to the side.
Merin grunted slightly at the impact. Even a dul ed Blade had a powerful
force behind it. Khalvan had three points—though he couldn’t win until
he struck Merin twice in the same place. Merin still had a chance. He
advanced, wary and careful, just as he had been trained. He did everything right—he followed the form properly, he let reflex direct his movements,
and he swung his Blade with precision. Yet the exchange still ended with
a second blow to Merin’s helm, officially ending the contest.
There was a general air of snickering as Merin pulled off his helm,
nodding in respect to his opponent. On the battlefield, Merin would have
been dead. Here, in the monastery courtyard, he was just shamed. He’d
barely put up a fight. The crowd disbursed as the monks helped Merin
out of his armor, then he slunk back toward Vasher and the others—no
matter how crowded the courtyard got, Vasher’s corner somehow remained
comfortably free of interlopers.
Merin took a drink with bowed head and flexed his lightly-aching
shoulder. Whatever it was the others had been encouraging Vasher to teach
him, Merin would not learn it this day.
“Well?” Vasher asked.
“You saw,” Merin said. “I didn’t do so well.”
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“Why?” Vasher asked.
Merin shrugged. “I can’t tell,” he said honestly. “I thought I was doing
everything right. The form . . . it just wasn’t enough. My attacks were too easy to block, and my swings were too wide—they left too many openings.
Not enough practice, I guess.”
Vasher grunted, eyeing him. “Oh, stop sulking. There was no way you
were going to win that bout. Khalvan Nadadin is an accomplished and
experienced duelist, and you’ve never fought a bout in Plate before.”
“Then why did you make me fight him?” Merin protested.
“The fight wasn’t the test, kid,” Chadrin said, seated in the wall’s shade a short distance away. “The question afterward was.”
Merin paused. The question afterward . . . ?
“The form I’m teaching you isn’t really one of the twenty dueling styles,
Merin,” Vasher explained. “It’s something . . . else. Something we came
up with ourselves.”
“By ‘we,’” Chadrin added, “he means ‘I, Vasher, developed this all by
myself.’”
Vasher shot the man a glare, then turned back to Merin. “The style has
its weaknesses,” he said. “It depends on knowing where your opponent is
going to strike before he moves—something you can only do by fighting
many men and understanding instinctively how your opponents think. It
is a form that allows flexibility and ease of motion, letting you anticipate and adapt. It’s a difficult style of fighting, little spearman. You probably won’t win many duels until you master it. Once you do, you’ll win them all.”
Merin frowned. “Then, what is this ‘skepping’ that the others mentioned?”
“Something you don’t need to know at the moment,” Vasher said. Then,
however, he raised a hand to cut off Merin’s objection. “However, it might be a good idea to start training you, just in case. Here, sit down.”
Merin did so eagerly, settling himself on the sand. Vasher seated himself
directly in front of Merin, adopting an almost meditative pose. “Hold out
your hand in front of yourself, pointing at me, then hold up one finger and point it at the sky.”
Merin did as commanded.
“What do you see?” Vasher asked.
“Um, my finger?” Merin replied.
“Now focus on me,” Vasher commanded. “Leave your hand where it is.
What do you see?”
Merin frowned in confusion. “The same thing.”
“The same?” Vasher asked. “Or two copies of the same?”
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“Well, yes,” Merin said. “If I focus on you, I see two versions of my
finger. One from each eye.”
“Exactly,” Vasher said. “Now, I want you to focus your attention away from the two fingers. Keep looking at me, but try and see through your fingers.
First one, then the other. If you concentrate hard enough, you should be
able to see what is beyond, even though your finger is in the way.”
“All right . . .” Merin said.
Vasher stood. “When you can make both fingers disappear at once, you’ll
be ready to learn skepping.”
“That’s it?” Merin protested, lowering his finger.
Chadrin laughed. “Be glad, kid. At least he didn’t make you do anything
completely pointless. I remember him once forcing a student to try and
snatch raindops from the sky during a highstorm!”
Vasher grunted. “This isn’t a ‘pointless’ exercise, Chadrin,” he snapped.
“It will teach the boy to focus and to control his perceptions. It will train his mind for what is to come—if you can come up wit
h a better meditative
exercise, then you can go find your own student.”
Merin smiled at the repartee, holding his finger up again and trying to
make the separate images disappear, as Vasher had taught. Unfortunately, now that his master had moved, the view in front of Merin was that of the other noblemen. They continued their sparring, their laughter, and their camaraderie—all without even passing a glance by Vasher’s corner of the courtyard.
“They still don’t accept me,” Merin said. “I thought, maybe, helping
Aredor save the king would change things. But it didn’t. They’re polite,
some are even respectful, but they don’t like me. I don’t think I’ll ever be one of them.”
“Good,” Vasher said.
“Oh, leave the boy alone, Vasher,” Chadrin said. “Just because we left
that world behind doesn’t mean it’s bad for everyone.”
“The boy needs to know the truth,” Vasher said firmly. “They’ll never
accept you, Merin. Never. You remind them too much of what they are
not, and that makes them uncomfortable. They’re jealous of you because of
what you’ve done in saving the king.”
“But everyone knows that was Aredor,” Merin said.
“Doesn’t matter,” Vasher said. “They’re jealous. And, more importantly,
they’re angry that you aren’t beneath them any more—you’re even above
most of them in rank. They’re angry that Lord Dalenar gave you a place
in his house, and they’re never, never going to accept you as one of their own. Get used to it.”
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Merin lowered his eyes, staring down at the uncountable grains of sand
before him. “Lord Dalenar said something similar. Back when I first got
my Blade. He said I wouldn’t be able to make them like me, but I might
be able to make them respect me.”
“Lord Dalenar is a wise man,” Vasher repeated.
“A wise man,” Chadrin said quietly. “A liar, but still wise.”
Vasher shot Chadrin a laconic glare, and for the first time Chadrin
looked as if he regretted one of his quips. Chadrin glanced away, blushing slightly. Before Merin could voice a question, Vasher turned the stare
toward him, forcing him to choke down the inquiry. The topic of Lord
Dalenar’s supposed ‘lies’ was not to be discussed.
As soon as Merin returned from the monastery, he went looking for
Aredor. His friend had been notably absent from sparring recently. Part of this was due, of course, to Aredor’s wound—the cut on his side had been
deep, and had nearly cost him the use of his arm. He would not soon swing
a sword with that hand again.
There was more to it, though. Of all the members of Lord Dalenar’s
house, inactivity seemed to aggravate Aredor the most. Merin saw the
look in his friend’s eyes the last few times Aredor had visited the monas-
tery—the young nobleman didn’t seem to find solace or relief in exercise,
but rather saw the sparring as a reminder of the war he thought he should
be fighting.
Indeed, Aredor had been uncharacteristically pensive these last few
weeks. Merin never knew where to locate his friend anymore—Aredor
could no longer be found sparring at the monastery, lounging near the ladies’
gardens, or drinking with friends in the local taverns. Instead, Dalenar’s heir tended to sulk in the quiet palace sitting rooms—where he would sit
with dissatisfied eyes and a snappish attitude—or sometimes he would
wander the palace, pacing and brooding like a vengeful stormshade.
The worst sign of all was Aredor’s refusal to accompany his father when
visiting local noblemen. Lord Dalenar was gone at the moment, in fact, on
a three-day trip. Merin would have thought that Aredor would welcome
the chance to leave Kholinar, but the heir had complained fatigue from
his injury and remained behind. Merin shook his head—not like Aredor
at all.
Merin strode into the palace. He made a point of visiting his friend every day to try and lift the man’s spirits, and so he made his way to Aredor’s
rooms. The steward there, however, informed Merin that Lord Aredor was
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absent—and, like usual, Aredor had left no word of his destination. Merin
sighed, knocking on the door across the hallway instead. A familiar voice
called for him to enter—Renarin employed no steward.
Merin opened the door and stepped inside. There was something oddly
sanitary about Renarin’s quarters—they didn’t quite look like someone lived in them. The boy was tidy almost to a fault, and he shunned ornamentation.
Merin, by Aredor’s recommendation, had commissioned several works of
glyph art from local artists and hung them in his room. Renarin’s walls
were empty, and though his quarters were far larger than Merin’s, they held about half as much furniture, and no rugs.
The room’s only sign of personalization was the desk near the corner
of the room, a piece of furniture that held several stacks of glyph-covered papers. Merin walked across the empty room, picking up the topmost paper.
The glyphs were pressed on its page in haphazard, almost frustrated,
sequences. Merin recognized most of them—simple numbers, nothing
like the complex characters used in paintings or books of literature.
“I’m on the balcony,” Renarin’s voice called from a short distance away.
Merin replaced the paper and made his way out onto the balcony. Though
the Kholinar palace was only one story tall, it had been build on a slight cleft in the land, allowing all of the rooms on the backmost wall to overlook the city. Lord Dalenar’s balcony monopolized most of the space, but Renarin’s
rooms had a small section to the side of his father’s.
Renarin stood in simple whitish-grey clothing, not even wearing a cloak.
He leaned against the balcony’s stone railing, staring out—not at the city, but instead up into the sky toward a pattern of clouds that drifted toward the lait. Not dark highstorm clouds, but regular white ones, the kind that Aredor claimed were far more common near the coast.
“Have you seen your brother around today?” Merin asked, walking up
to stand beside Renarin.
Renarin’s shake of the head was almost imperceptibly slight. Merin
squinted up into the sky, trying unsuccessfully to delve just what it was
about the clouds that fascinated Renarin so.
“He didn’t come to sparring again today,” Merin said. “The healers said
he should try and work his good arm, so that he doesn’t get too weak.
But he hasn’t shown up all week.”
Renarin nodded.
Merin sighed, leaning against the railing. “It’s just a cloud, Renarin.
What’s so fascinating about it?”
“I don’t know,” Renarin answered after a pause. “I wish I did.”
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Merin shook his head. Sometimes talking with Renarin was about as
informative as a conversation with a rock.
Renarin frowned, still watching the cloud. “Do you ever think that you
might be . . . missing something?”
“Missing something?” Merin asked. “Like what? An appointment?”
“No,” Renarin said. “Something bigger. Like a piece of you that isn’t
there, and never has been. But you can feel the space where it should go,
and you wonder if everyone
feels that space and doesn’t recognize it, or if they all have the piece and you don’t.”
Merin frowned. “I don’t know, Renarin,” he said, trying his best to
answer the question. “I always dreamed about the ballads and the wars. I
wanted to be part of something like the stories I had heard. Then, suddenly, I was—and it turned out to be very different from what I had expected.
There isn’t much glory in watching your friends get cut down by arrows
and spears.”
“But you became a Shardbearer,” Renarin noted.
Merin grunted. “And sometimes I wonder if that was a blessing from
the Almighty, or just some kind of divine prank.”
Renarin smiled. “At least you got what you wanted, even if you later
realized it wasn’t what you had thought. Me . . . I don’t even know what it is I want. I’ll probably never be a Shardbearer again, and the king certainly isn’t going to appoint me to any important positions.”
“You’ll always have a place in Kholinar,” Merin said. “Aredor will see
to that.”
“Coddled by my elder brother,” Renarin said, shaking his head. “There
should be more . . .” he glanced back toward the room. Merin followed his
gaze toward the desk, with its papers. “Things have been confusing recently, Merin. I write at my equations and my numbers, like I did even as a child, but something’s wrong. I can’t find the answers anymore. It’s like . . . like I don’t have all the numbers. It’s like the universe can count to ten, but I can only reach five.”
“Renarin,” Merin said flatly, “I have absolutely no idea what that’s
supposed to mean.”
Renarin smiled. “Neither do I, I suppose. I guess that’s the problem.”
Merin shook his head, sighing. How could someone be so depressing if
you didn’t even understand what they were talking about? As Merin turned,
he noticed something from the palace grounds below. There was motion at
the stables. “Has your father returned early?” he asked.
“Not that I know of,” Renarin said, watching the cloud again.
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Merin frowned. There was certainly something going on down there.
“Come on,” he said, tugging at Renarin’s shoulder. It would do the boy
some good to get out of his rooms.
“Lord Aredor has decided to ride out and meet his father,” the stable-
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