“Um, yes, ma’am.”
The conversation broke off and surrendered to a brittle silence.
The two teachers stole glances back and forth, trying to read each other’s faces, then both of them opened their mouths to say something—or so it seemed. But just then, the warning bell for classes rang. They closed their mouths, as if the opportunity had passed—or so it seemed.
“Well, then, shall we?” Mr. Kubodera picked up his attendance sheet and stood. “Morning homeroom starts at 8:30. Let’s introduce you to everyone.”
4
When they had led me to the door of the classroom for third-year Class 3, the two teachers shot each other another look and opened their mouths once more to say something—or so it seemed, but this time it was the actual bell that rang. Giving a single, deliberate-sounding cough, Mr. Kubodera opened the door to the classroom.
The buzz of all the students talking was like static on the radio. Footsteps, footsteps, the sound of chairs dragging and being sat upon, the sound of bags opening, the sound of bags being closed…
Mr. Kubodera went in ahead of me, then ushered me in with a glance, and I stepped into the classroom. Ms. Mikami came in last and stood beside me.
“Good morning, everyone.”
Mr. Kubodera spread the attendance sheet open on a lectern and then slowly passed his gaze over the room to take attendance.
“I see that Akazawa and Takabayashi are out today.”
Apparently they didn’t do the customary “stand, greet, sit” here. Was this another difference between public and private school? Or a local thing?
“Has everyone recovered from Golden Week yet? Today, we’ll begin by introducing a transfer student.”
The noise gradually died down, and the classroom fell silent. Mr. Kubodera gestured at me from the lectern. “Go on,” Ms. Mikami ordered in a low voice.
I could feel the eyes of the class focusing on me; it was almost painful. I took a quick look out across the room and saw there were about thirty of them…But there was no time to take in more than that as I headed over to the podium. Argh, this tension is making my chest tight. It’s getting harder to breathe, too. I had been prepared for something of the kind, but a situation like this was vicious on the delicate nerves of a boy who had been suffering from a lung condition up until just the previous week.
“Um…hello.”
Then I declared my name to my new classmates, who wore black standing collars or navy blazers. Mr. Kubodera wrote it out for them on the blackboard.
Koichi Sakakibara.
I steadied myself forcibly. I was trembling pathetically (and I’m saying that about myself), searching the mood in the room. But I couldn’t detect any worrisome reactions.
“I came to Yomiyama from Tokyo last month. My dad’s working, so I’ll be living here for a while with my grandparents…”
Mentally, I was rubbing my chest to relax it as I continued my self-introduction.
“I was supposed to start school here on the twentieth last month, but I got kind of sick and was in the hospital…But I was finally able to come today. Um, nice to meet you.”
Maybe I was supposed to talk about my hobbies, or something I was good at, or my favorite actor or something like that. No, that was definitely the point where I should have thanked them for the flowers while I was in the hospital. But while I was stewing these options over—
“All right then. Class—”
Mr. Kubodera picked up where I’d dropped off.
“Starting today, I want you to be nice to Sakakibara and treat him as a new member of Class 3. I’m sure there are a lot of things he’s not used to yet, so I want all of you to help him learn. We’ll all pitch in to help each other and make this last year of middle school a good one. All of us are going to do our parts. So that next year in March every person in this class will graduate in good health…”
Thus went Mr. Kubodera’s speech, which sounded as if we were supposed to recite an “Amen” at the conclusion. As I listened, a nagging itch started up on my back, but every person in the room was listening pretty intently to what he was saying.
Just then, I saw a face I recognized in the very first row of seats. It was one of the class representatives who’d come to visit me, Tomohiko Kazami.
When our eyes met, there was something awkward about the smile Kazami gave me. The memory of the dampness I’d felt when we shook hands in the hospital room came back to me, and unconsciously I buried my right hand in my pocket.
Where was the other one, Yukari Sakuragi? Just as the question occurred to me, Mr. Kubodera said, “Okay, Sakakibara, let’s have you sit over there,” and he pointed at a desk.
It was on the left-hand side from the lectern—the third desk from the back in the row farthest to the edge near the hallway was empty.
“Yes, sir,” I replied with a quick bow, then headed to my designated seat. I dropped my bag next to my desk. As I was sitting down, I surveyed the room again from my new vantage point.
It was then that I was finally able to isolate her. The student at the desk all the way at the back of the row to the right of the lectern—next to the windows facing the schoolyard.
Looking out from the front of the classroom, the sunlight from the windows had created a strange backlighting right in that spot. That was another reason. So that’s why I didn’t see her, I thought. Though I’d moved to my new desk, there was no significant change in the backlighting, but even so, I could see that there was a desk there and someone was sitting at it.
Betraying the image the words imply, the “bright light” seemed somehow menacing to me; I’m not sure why or how. It swallowed up half the student’s body, so I could only make out the figure of the person sitting there as a shadow with an ill-defined outline. Darkness, lurking right in the middle of the light…that thought crossed my mind, too.
Entranced by simultaneous foreboding and hope, which were accompanied by a flash of slight pain, I blinked several times.
Each time, the shadow’s outline came more into focus and deepened. The amount of sunlight was fading slightly at last, and that helped, too, until finally the figure came into stark resolution.
It was her.
The girl with the eye patch whom I’d seen in the elevator at the hospital. The girl who had walked down the dimly lit hallway on the second basement level, her footsteps making no sound at all…
“…Mei.”
I whispered it so that no one could hear me.
“Mei Misaki.”
5
After a short homeroom period that lasted only ten minutes, Mr. Kubodera kept his place at the lectern and his assistant, Ms. Mikami, left the room. Mr. Kubodera stayed with us because the first-period class was the subject he taught.
Language arts with Mr. Kubodera was a dull class, as I had somehow imagined it would be. He was still using his polite manner of speaking, and he lectured in a way that was easy to process, but there wasn’t much punch in it, I guess, or he hardly modulated his voice at all…Whatever, it was dull.
But of course, I couldn’t be honest and display my boredom. That would make a terrible impression, obviously. On the teacher and probably on the students, too.
Struggling against the drowsiness that had me in its grip, I fixed my eyes on my brand-new textbook.
A short story by a nineteenth-century literary genius, in a somehow lackluster excerpt. As my eyes ran over the text, my mind was half on the Stephen King novel I’d started reading, wondering how everything would turn out, though that was impossible to predict. Man, what was going to happen to Paul Sheldon, the popular author who’d been imprisoned by his loony Number One Fan?
That was Mr. Kubodera’s class. But the classroom was oddly quiet, which wasn’t like the vague image I had drawn in my mind of a “public middle school.” Maybe it had been an unwarranted preconceived bias, but—how should I put it? I imagined the atmosphere would be rowdier.
But it wasn’t as if everyone was being serious
and concentrating, either. No one was whispering during the class, but looking around I saw people zoning out and some people whose heads were bobbing and bobbing and maybe falling. There were even people who were surreptitiously reading a magazine or intent on doodling. I didn’t think Mr. Kubodera was the kind of teacher who would scold for every little thing…and yet.
I wonder what it was.
The room’s air held a silence deeper than it needed to be, somehow…No, not silence. Formality, maybe? Formality, and a strange tension…yeah, it felt sort of like that.
What was this?
Could it be? I wondered.
Could the presence of an alien element mixed in today (in other words, a transfer student from Tokyo) be the cause? And that slight tension filling the room…Nah, that kind of thinking is just hyperactive self-consciousness.
…What about that girl?
Mei Misaki.
The thought nagged at me suddenly, and I looked over at her desk.
I saw her there, cheek pressed into her hand as she stared dully out the window. I took the quickest of glances, so I couldn’t tell anything more than that. With the amount of backlighting from the sun, my glimpse of her was, in the end, of a shadow that hardly seemed real.
6
The impression was more or less the same in my other classes from second period on, too. There were slight differences with the subject or the teacher, but—how should I put it?—the thing flowing underneath it all was the same.
A strange silence permeating the entire classroom, a formality, a tension…Yes, it was something like that.
I couldn’t tell anything concrete, couldn’t point to someone acting a certain way. But I definitely felt something like that.
As if someone (or maybe everyone?) was preoccupied by something, for instance. Maybe without even realizing it? That person (those people?) could be thinking about something and not even be aware of it…But no. The possibility that I was just imagining things, imagining all of it, was undeniable. I mean, maybe I would get used to it soon and stop noticing anything.
During a break between classes, a couple of students exchanged a few words with me. Every time they called my name—“Sakakibara!”—even as I privately cringed and prepared myself, I managed to handle it either placidly, amicably, or innocuously, at a basic level. So I thought.
“Are you over whatever it is that put you in the hospital?”
Yeah. Completely over it.
“Which is better, Tokyo or here?”
I dunno. They’re not that different, really.
“Tokyo sure is nice, though. A backwater town like Yomiyama just doesn’t cut it lately, y’know?”
Tokyo is Tokyo. There’s a lot about it that’s not so great. Wherever you go, it’s nothing but people, and the wards are always swarmed. It never settles down…
“I guess you feel like that when you live there.”
I almost think it’s better here because it’s so much quieter. And there’s so much nature here.
When I told them that Yomiyama is better than Tokyo, half of me really felt that way and the other half was trying to convince myself of it.
“So your dad’s a college professor? And he’s in some foreign country for research?”
How did you know that?
“Mr. Kubodera told us. So everyone knows.”
Oh. Did he tell you about the school I used to go to, too?
“We know all about that. It was Ms. Mikami’s idea to send you flowers while you were in the hospital.”
Really?
“Man, I wish Ms. Mikami was in charge of this class instead. She’s gorgeous, and she dresses great, and plus…c’mon, don’t you think so?”
Uh-h-m, I don’t really know.
“C’mon, you’re not…”
You know, my dad’s gonna be in India for a year. Starting this spring.
“India? I bet you it’s even hotter there.”
Yeah, it’s really hot, he said.
In the midst of such conversations, something would nag at me and I would search for Mei Misaki. As it turned out, as soon as a class ended, she would disappear from her seat. But I never spotted her anywhere else inside the classroom, either. Did she just always go outside during the break or something?
“You feeling nervous about something? You keep going all shifty-eyed.”
No…it’s nothing.
“Did those notes I brought you in the hospital help?”
Oh, yeah. They were great.
“You want a quick tour around the school during lunch? You’re gonna have a ton of problems if you don’t know where stuff is.”
The student who made this offer was a boy named Teshigawara. There was a rule that the students wear name tags during school, so I could tell people’s names at a glance without needing introductions. He seemed to be good friends with Tomohiko Kazami, and Teshigawara had come over with him to talk to me.
“Yeah, definitely. Thanks,” I replied, then glanced casually back over at Mei Misaki’s desk. The next class was going to be starting soon, but she still wasn’t there. Although…
It was at this point that I realized a bizarre fact.
Her desk, the farthest seat back in the row next to the windows facing the schoolyard, was the only one unlike all the other desks in the room. It was incredibly old.
7
I blunted my hunger in a quick blitz at lunchtime.
There were a lot of all-boy groups and all-girl groups who pushed their desks together for lunch, but I couldn’t quite work myself up to shoving my way in among them, so I bolted down the lunch my grandmother had given me with the speed of an eating contest.
When I stopped to think about it, I realized this was my first time ever eating a homemade lunch at school. I’d eaten school lunches at my old school, and even when there was some event like a field trip or field day, it had been a foregone conclusion that my lunch would be bought from a convenience store. It was like that all through elementary school, too. Never once had my dad gotten the genius idea that it would be nice to cook something for his motherless son every now and then.
And so it was that my grandmother’s homemade lunch truly touched me.
Thank you, Grandma. It tasted amazing. As always, I was mentally bowing my head over the emptied lunch box, infusing the gesture with my immense gratitude.
Wait a minute. I looked around the room.
Where was Mei Misaki?
How was she spending her lunch?
“Sakakibara!”
A voice called out from behind me without warning.
At the same moment, someone tapped me lightly on the shoulder and I tensed more defensively than I had all that day. For no concrete reason, I had convinced myself, So it’s finally happening? and I turned around ready for it, but…
Teshigawara was standing there. Kazami was beside him. And there was no discernible malice on their faces. Late though I was to realize it, I couldn’t help feeling exasperated at my oversensitivity.
“Like we promised,” Teshigawara said. “The tour of the school.”
“Oh, that’s right.”
My true feelings on the matter, kind of cynically, were that they didn’t need to go to all the trouble of giving me a tour. I could just ask where something was whenever I needed to get there. But, okay, I couldn’t insult the kindness of my new classmates. This is the time to keep a lid on it and not act like a martyr…
The three of us all stood up and left the room belonging to third-year Class 3.
8
Kazami and Teshigawara were, even at a glance, an odd combo.
In contrast to the dead-serious class representative-y Kazami, Teshigawara was a lighthearted character, though the last name he bore sounded very grand and historical. His hair was bleached brown and the top two or three buttons of his uniform were undone. But despite his outward appearance, surprisingly he didn’t have a delinquent slouch.
When I asked, they told me they had been in the same cl
ass since their third year in elementary school. Their families also lived really close to each other.
“When we were kids, we hung out and would get into all kinds of trouble. But then this punk had to go and turn all honor-roll-esque and never just wing it with something…”
Teshigawara was grinning all through this disparagement, but Kazami didn’t offer any particular protest. Teshigawara even said they’d be better off without each other, but seriously, doesn’t that sentiment usually go in the opposite direction? So the conversation went until I found myself starting to enjoy it, too.
I’ve never been very good at dealing with people like Teshigawara, who come at you as if you’ve been friends your whole life. Though it’s not as if I felt a driving affinity for “honor-roll-esque” guys like Kazami, either. But, well, I had decided not to reveal those preferences if I could help it.
When my dad came back to Japan next spring, I would go right back to Tokyo. Until then, I wanted to maintain good relations with everyone at this school if I could. That was my top priority for my life in Yomiyama.
“Hey, Sakakibara, d’you believe in ghosts or curses or whatever? Is that your thing?”
Out of the blue, he came at me with a question like that. I tipped my head to one side and replied, “Uh…?”
“Come on, like, you know…”
“You mean…ghosts? Curses?”
“What about so-called paranormal phenomena, generally?” Kazami cut in. “I don’t just mean spectral phenomena, either. It could be UFOs or superpowers or the predictions of Nostradamus, too. Do you think there are real, mysterious phenomena out there that can’t be explained by modern science?”
“I mean, when you hit me with a question like that, I…”
I looked over at Kazami, and his expression was uncomfortably serious.
“I guess, at a basic level, I try not to take stuff like that seriously.”
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