And if I let myself live in this fantasy it will only hurt worse in the long run. I can’t do that to myself. I don’t know if I could take it .
I pass the remains of my broken mirror. While I cleaned up the broken glass on the floor, I never bothered to take the frame off the wall. I decide in this moment I won’t ever take it down. It will serve as a reminder, just in case I ever try to convince myself his feelings are real .
After a shower, a good hearty cry, and more Chinese food then was really necessary, I curl up on the couch with my laptop. I’m not really paying attention, just scrolling through a few days’ worth of ignored emails .
But then I stop. One of the ones I missed from yesterday stands out. It doesn’t begin with the words, “Unfortunately”. When I open it, it makes me sit up so fast the computer almost falls off my lap .
“Dear Miss Sikes ,
After thoroughly reviewing your application it has been decided that your skills and experience would be an excellent fit for our curator position. Please contact our office at your convenience to arrange an interview to discuss salary requirements .”
The thrill that rises in me sizzles out like a doused campfire. I remember applying for this job, a full-time day job. A job that would require me to leave Maddison .
Before I can talk myself out of it, I email back my availability for the next week. Maddison starts school on Monday, she’s going to be okay .
And her Dad will too .
Rob
R ob
Apologizing to Aim wasn’t going to be easy. But I told myself I wasn’t going to leave for work until I was sure she understood that… well… that she understood that I understood why she didn’t’ want to be with me. And that I should have never assumed she would .
We both stand outside in the driveway and wave to Maddison as we watch her find a seat on the school bus. Both of us are nervous, for her and for ourselves. As the yellow monster roars and pulls away, I feel her hand on my arm .
“She’s gonna be okay. They actually had some great ideas for accommodating her during the IEP meeting last week. And her teacher is a sweetheart. I promise she’ll be all right .”
“Thanks, Aim .”
“Have a good day.” She turns and heads for the house a little too quickly, she’s uncomfortable being alone with me. And why shouldn’t she be? She was probably expecting another unwanted kiss .
“Aim, can I talk to you for a minute ?”
“Oh, sure .”
“Inside?”
“Oh… sure .”
To ease her mind, I don’t follow too closely, and stay standing in the living room to make my speech .
“I owe you an apology. I never bothered to check to see if you felt the same way about me as I do about you, and that was wrong. Please know that I totally understand why you don’t, and I don’t take it personally .”
“You do ?”
“Maddison is the best thing that ever happened to me, but it’s a lot for most people .”
“Wait, what? You think I don’t… You think it’s because of Maddison ?”
Totally thrown off, it’s my turn to stammer .
“Well, yeah I… I shouldn’t expect, I thought …”
“That really hurts, Rob .”
Shit. What’s happening? “I didn’t mean to…what do you mean ?”
“The reason I can’t be with you has nothing to do with Maddie. Well, it does, but not the way you think. You have to know what I mean .”
“I don’t .”
“Oh, Rob! You don’t want to be with me, not really. You’re excited I’m good with Maddie, but I know I’m not your type, the thrill is going to wear off at some point and then you’ll remember that I’m… I’m not your type .”
“What is my type ?”
She starts to clam up and wring her hands. “You know .”
“I thought I did, but apparently not.” I know exactly where she’s going with this, and it’s about to make me explode. If I could punch her insecurity in the face it would never get back up .
She makes a gesture to her frame, “Oh I’m just not - “
“You really have no idea how gorgeous you are, do you ?
“Oh, well …”
“No. Stop. You don’t have to be with me, Aim, but you have to stop this. I’ve watched you try to hide your sexy body. Watched you avert your eyes and try your damnedest for no one to notice you. But I fucking notice you, Aim. I always have .”
“But, you, you never -”
“Because I’m an idiot, okay? I didn’t want to take Marcy’s best friend, but I should have. I should have busted into her bedroom and picked you up in the middle of painting your nails or whatever the fuck you guys used to do, and taken you to mine and showed you how gorgeous you are .”
“Rob…”
“Unless your next words are ‘I’m the hottest woman alive.’ I don’t want to hear it, okay? It’s fine if I’m not the man you want to be with, but it won’t, it shouldn’t be because you think I don’t find you attractive. Do you understand ?”
“Y- yes .”
“I’m gonna kiss you right now. If you want it to be the last time, I will live with that. But I have to, just this once more.” Before she could protest, I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her to me. I look into her eyes and don’t break the gaze as I kiss her. And then I let her go – and I know I’m letting her go forever, if that’s what she wants, “Okay. I’ll see you later .”
There’s total silence as I leave the house, but that’s fine. It’s better than the sound of her doubting how perfect she is .
Amy
W hat just happened?
I sink onto the couch and try to collect myself. My palms are soaking and my knees haven’t stopped shaking since he kissed me. It wasn’t our first kiss, but it was the first one I believed in. The first one from a man I knew wanted me. Really wanted me. All of me .
And I decide right then I can’t live for another hour unless he has me. All of me .
I open the front door as Rob is about to hop into his Dodge Charger .
“Wait!”
He steps back and closes the door, then he makes his way up the walkway. I mistake the firm and quick way he’s moving for anger again, and it makes me move backwards .
He storms in and throws the door closed behind him with a loud BANG that makes me jump. In fact, I almost shriek, because he’s moving toward me at full speed. It isn’t until he grabs me and sinks his mouth into my neck that I understand he’s not angry – he’s just decided to take what I was trying to give .
Massive hands slide over my hips and around to my ass cheeks. They only stay there for a moment before moving down between my thighs. In one quick and strong movement, he has me lifted, pinned between him and the wall with my legs wrapped around his waist .
I hang on to the steel muscles of his wide shoulders. The feeling of his mouth against my neck is making electricity shoot straight to my breasts and between my thighs .
When he pulls his lips away I’m disappointed until he uses them to whisper in my ear, “I won my first fight for you. When I saw you out there, I knew I couldn’t lose .”
“I know you did. I’ve always known it, even when I didn’t .”
I weave my fingers through is thick bread and use it to pull him around to my mouth. He tastes like aftershave and mint and musk. All the things commercials tell you men should taste like. I barely notice when he starts walking down the hall, I don’t know how he could tell where he was going, but before I know it I’m falling backwards onto his bed still fully wrapped in his arms .
Rob
I moan and kiss her mouth again as I cup and hold her tits. They’re so heavy and soft, both my big hands easily bury into her flesh .
When she takes off her top I turned to marble, all I can do is absorb the sight of her ivory skin and heaving breasts inside her black bra .
“Goddamn, you’re perfect.” I run my hand over her stomach and ches
t as more flattery spews out of me. “Look at you. So beautiful .”
She looks down when I start tracing my fingers along the tracks of her stretch marks. Then I feel the muscles beneath them tense as she starts stammering, “Oh, um, those are …”
“Sexy as fuck.” I finish the thought for her. I know that wasn’t where she was going, but it should’ve been .
It makes her kiss me, and as she does I slip my hands around to undo her bra. When I was finished today she was never going to wonder if she was good enough again, she was going to know what she did to me .
Her nipples are the same rose color as her lips, and the cool air makes them go from puffy and soft, to tight and hard under my eyes. I grasp her there and she leans back fully onto the bed as I sink into exploring them. Shifting back and forth from one to the other, transitioning between massaging the warm flesh of her, and touching her gently. Softly kissing her taught nipples. All I do is caress her for a long time until I have to give into the need to pull one of her areolas into my mouth hard .
Her body convulses in response, and her grip around my shoulders tightens. I draw on her nipple deeply, over and over, until the throbs of my cock are almost painful. I can’t remember ever being this hard in my life .
I release my hold to maneuver her skirt and panties down past her feet. I need to taste her. Now .
Amy
W hen he returns his mouth to my body, it’s against the inside of my thigh. As he moves his lips upward, toward my most intimate spot, I almost start to panic from the sensations, but I can’t keep myself from spreading my legs wider as he works his way up. The moment his mouth connects with my womanhood I gasp .
“Rob!” He knows it’s a cry of pleasure and it drives him deeper into my flesh .
It feels like he’s trying to drink every drop of me. The moans I let out when he hits the little bud at the top lets him know to remain there. He wraps his lips around my clit and sucks gently. My intense reaction drives him further, he grabs my knees, presses them back and worships that spot .
It feels like he’s there for hours, dancing his tongue over that perfect place. All I can do is pant and writhe, my hands holding the back of his head in desperation. The pressure building under his caresses is almost scaring me. I didn’t know my body could do this .
When I come from a man’s touch for first time in my life, I cry out like someone stabbed me. Thankfully it doesn’t faze him, instead of pulling away, he dips his head lower to take in all the wetness that’s pouring from my body – almost as if he doesn’t want a single bit wasted .
Part of me would be content to let him stay between my legs that way all day, but there is so much more I need. I tug against his shoulders and try to sit up, making him kiss his way back to my neck, but not before he removes the rest of his clothes .
Now I can reach his manhood and I can’t resist the urge to take it into my hand. It’s… large. Very large. I can hardly wrap my fingers all the way around his head, so instead I run them up and down the incredible length of it. Then massage the drop of moisture sitting at the tip around the huge tip .
His breathing against my neck is distressed and he whispers my name before he kisses my mouth again. The taste of myself on his lips makes me dizzy .
I don’t want to be a virgin for one more second. Taking charge, I push his massive shoulders so he’s lying flat on his back. Now I mimic his dedications from before and kiss his muscular neck and chest .
He runs his fingers through my hair and across my back. When I grazed my teeth across his taught nipple, the hand in my hair squeezes into a fist for just a moment. The resulting tug makes me ache between my legs. I move my caresses lower over his rippling abs until they meet the weapon that lays against his stomach. When my lips finally touch it, he lets out a sound that’s a mix between a moan and a growl. I make out with his shaft passionately from tip to base, amazed at the pulsing throbs I’m creating under my mouth .
Then, I think I catch him off guard, because before he knows it I’m climbing onto him, straddling his hips. His eyes widen as he realizes what I’m planning to do. “Wait , “
I silence the protest with a kiss against his neck. I don’t want to go slow, I don’t want to go gentle. I want to GO .
As I lean forward, I reach down and place the tip of his shaft against me. Before he can stop it, I pushed myself down onto him. When he hits the barrier that has stayed intact for far too long, I force my hips lower. I slide down hard - and as my virginity gives away, he can’t help but buck his hips up to meet mine .
But then he grabs me around the waist and studies my face hard, trying to figure out if I’m hurting .
Rob
“O h, Rob.”
The way she moans and runs her hands over my chest lets me know all’s well. Better than well .
I give into the need to work myself in and out of her tightness. I run my hands over every inch of her skin. Skin that is not only thicker than I thought, but also softer, so much softer. She tries to match my rhythm, rocking her hips against mine. But I need to go faster, so I pull her down against my chest and grab her ass with both hands. If she wants to be on top, that’s fine, but I’m taking control. It feels so perfect inside her body, she’s so warm and slick and... perfect .
The speed of my pounding makes her eyes wide, and the sensations it sends through her body make her start to shake. I go faster and harder – fucking her the way I’ve always wanted to, trying to show her how hot she makes me. Finally, she muffles a scream into my chest as her body convulses. Only this time with my cock inside her, I can feel every spasm and pull. Feeling her come on my dick drives me over the edge with her .
I thrust my hips up hard while pushing hers down, trying to thrust myself as deep as I can. After the first few spasms send cum ribboning out inside her, I bring my arms back up to hold her against my chest. The pulses don’t ease up for what feels like an eternity. I’ve never come like that, so hard and for so long. I don’t know if it’s because I hadn’t had sex in a very long time, or if it’s because of her .
We stay just like that, her lying on top of me while I cling to her, until slowly our heavy breathing returns to a normal. I wish I could stay like this all day, running my fingers through her long hair and exploring the curves of her back. I honestly didn’t know skin could be so soft and I lose myself in the feel of it… but eventually I sigh and make the move to get up .
There’s a business that has to be run .
Amy
“I have to go to the club for a while, but I’ll come home early and we’ll all go out to celebrate Maddie’s first day. And us. Okay ?”
I still barely know who and where I am, but I manage to squeak out “okay” or “sure” or something along those lines with my face still half buried in the covers. I stay there, comfortable and content as he throws his clothes back on and kisses the side of my face .
I listen to the front door open and close, then the sound of the car pulling out of the drive. I sigh and decide this is where I was going to stay most of the day. Naked, spent and curled up in the bed of the man I had wanted all my life. The man who wanted me all my life .
At that moment, I remember what time it is. I shoot out of the bed, almost face planting from the tangle of sheets around my legs, and start pulling on my crumbled clothes. I don’t even bother looking in the mirror before I bolt for the door. I had forgotten to tell Rob I had a meeting about the curator job, but I knew it didn’t matter. With Maddie at school I could come and go during the day till the bus brought her home .
I do my best to compose myself in the car. I didn’t want to be a mess while meeting with my new employers. I manage to get there with a few minutes to spare so I touch up my makeup in the rearview mirror. I don’t recognize the number of the phone call that comes in right before I’m about to head inside .
Then suddenly I do. “Hello !?”
“Hello, is this Amy Sikes ?”
“Yes! Is everything okay ?!”<
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“There was an incident with Maddison, can you please come to the main office as soon as possible ?”
“Yes! I’m on my way !”
I hang up and throw the car into reverse, but before I take my foot off the break I remember where I’m supposed to be in five minutes. I stare at the Museum doors for only a second more before I back out of the parking space .
Screw it. My Maddie needs me .
It’s a miracle I don’t get a ticket on the way to the school, I didn’t know I had the guts to drive so fast. When I arrive, I park right in the front in a spot marked “faculty” – they can tow me if they want. I can’t spare the extra few minutes to park in the visitor lot at the back .
Out of air and in a panic, I ring the buzzer at the entrance and try to get someone’s attention inside. I assume they see me in a camera somewhere, because the door makes a loud click as the bolt is released. I practically fall inside and barrel towards the office. I only slow down when I catch sight of Maddie through the office window. She isn’t screaming or crying, she’s sitting in one of the waiting room chairs with her headphones on, staring at a picture book .
I decide to pull myself together before I open the door. Thank God she wasn’t upset, but she didn’t need to see me in a panic, that wouldn’t help anything .
I inhale deeply and casually open the door, “Hey princess, what’s goin on ?”
She looks up at me and shrugs as she gestures to the nurse’s office. Through the small glass window of the clinic door I can see movement and hear wailing .
Oh no .
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