by Diana Wagman
THE CARE
AND
FEEDING
OF
EXOTIC PETS
THE CARE
AND
FEEDING
OF
EXOTIC PETS
DIANA WAGMAN
BROOKLYN, NEW YORK
Copyright © 2012 by Diana Wagman
All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner without
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Wagman, Diana.
The care & feeding of exotic pets / Diana Wagman.
p. cm.
ISBN 978-1-935439-71-4
1. Divorced women--Fiction. 2. Mothers and daughters--Fiction.
3. Abduction--Fiction. 4. Iguanas as pets--Fiction. 5. Victims of
violent crimes--Fiction. 6. Los Angeles (Calif.)--Fiction. 7. Psychological
fiction. I. Title. II. Title: Care and feeding of exotic pets.
PS3573.A359C37 2012
813'.54--dc22
2012025277
For Tod,
always
“We strongly oppose keeping wild animals as pets. This principle applies to both native and nonnative species, whether caught in the wild or bred in captivity.”
—The Humane Society of the United States
Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Acknowledgments
1.
The same old sun was shining. The same old sky was blue and cloudless, vacant as a starlet’s smile. Los Angeles in November was the same as Los Angeles in April or August, was the same as Los Angeles whenever Winnie Parker happened to look out her window. The palm trees were always green. The temperature was always moderate. The cars were always driving by.
Same old dog scratching to go out. Winnie stood in front of her washer and dryer and contemplated the laundry. Dirty clothes were so elemental, so primal. A red stain on that T-shirt; something crusty on the front of those jeans. Simple scientific testing could reveal sexual partners, dinner choices, lapses in personal hygiene. If you really wanted to know a person, Winnie thought, just look at his or her laundry. If she ever had a date again, if she ever went home with a man, she would sneak a look in his laundry basket. She sighed at her own undone heap. She could throw in a load right now and then come home after her tennis lesson and put it in the dryer, but her arms felt heavy, her bare feet fused with the floor. In the kitchen, NPR reported the latest disaster. She wanted another cup of coffee. She had to wake Lacy. Dress for tennis. Make Lacy’s lunch and take her to school. Drop the car off at the shop, get the rental car, go to her tennis lesson, then the grocery store and the drug store and the dry cleaners and stop by work to get that folder she forgot. Pick up Lacy at five-thirty after orchestra.
The dog whined. Winnie let him out the back door and watched as he went immediately to the wicker chair on the patio and lifted his leg.
“Stop it!”
He finished his business before trotting away.
“Stupid dog.”
She knew she shouldn’t complain. She was a reasonably attractive thirty-eight-year-old divorced woman. She had a job and she paid her mortgage and she loved her pain in the ass sixteen-year-old daughter. She had a couple of good friends. She read and went to the movies and flossed most nights before bed. There was just no air in her lungs anymore. She was deflated, like an old balloon caught on a fencepost.
She left the laundry undone and went upstairs to wake Lacy. Her room smelled as always of vanilla oil, fruity hair products, and the pungent gunk of teenaged girl. Her favorite stuffed bunny slumped against the wall underneath a taped-up scrap of paper, “Just Say Fuck Off!”
“Time to get up, Sweetpea.”
Lacy slept on her stomach on top of the sheet in boxers and T-shirt, legs splayed, one hand flung over the edge of the bed. As if she had been thrown there and abandoned. The multiple piercings in her left ear made Winnie wince. She bent down to smooth a blond curl off her daughter’s cheek. Instead she smacked her butt.
“You smell like smoke.”
Lacy groaned.
“Have you been smoking again? Cancer. Emphysema. A hole in your throat. Do those words mean anything to you?”
“Mom, for Christ’s sake.”
“Nobody wants to kiss an ashtray.”
“I don’t kiss anybody. And I don’t smoke. I told you that. Everybody else smokes.”
“Secondhand smoke kills too. Tell them that.”
Lacy rolled over. “Five more minutes.”
“Now!”
“M-o-m.”
The teenage whine was worse than the toddler’s.
They fought on the way to school. As usual. About nothing; about everything; the same old everything. Lacy wanted to move in with her father. This morning she shouted that she wanted to be as far from her mother as possible. Winnie felt her heart contract as if Lacy had squeezed it until it couldn’t beat anymore. Lacy slammed the car door shut. She sashayed into her whitewashed cinderblock public school, her button-covered backpack bouncing against her back.
Wait, Winnie wanted to call out. Wait! That was the chant going through her head these days: Wait. Not yet. Wait. But it was impossible to tell a child not to grow.
She looked through her windshield. There was new graffiti on the wooden fence, the initials of the local gang. Trash lined the gutter. Winnie watched a gust of wind animate a red foil chip bag. It swelled and collapsed, swelled and collapsed, taking two deep breaths before it spun away and died.
Her cell phone rang. Her ex-husband.
She answered it, “Jonathan.”
“Winifred.”
Winnie heard Jonathan’s young wife, Jessica, in the background. She said something unintelligible, but high pitched and feminine. Winnie could picture the long legs and tiny silk nightie. Lacy said Jessica’s boobs were fake, but Winnie thought they were just fresh and unused.
“So, have you decided?” Jonathan said.
“I don’t know.”
“I have to tell them soon. She can start second semester, after the holidays, but I have to let them know.” When Winnie didn’t answer, he continued, “Any new piercings?”
“Not that I’ve noticed. Of course she could have done her labia.”
He grunted. “Don’t even joke about it.”
Maybe it would be better for Lacy to live with Jonathan. Probably it would be. A large, well-appointed house with two adults in residence and a TV in every room. An expensive private school with a lacrosse field and a ceramics studio and no graffiti or broken toilets or missing textbooks. Next
year Lacy would start looking at colleges. She needed to do better, concentrate on her schoolwork. Lately she seemed to be giving up. Winnie had tried so hard to be a good mom, to listen, to pay attention, to be everything her own mother was not, but still Lacy couldn’t wait to leave her.
“He’s really a great therapist. All the kids see him.”
Jonathan was still talking. “Who? Listen, I’m on my way to the car place.”
“I said I’d get you a new car.”
“I like this one.” It was an old battle. It was Jonathan’s guilt about leaving her versus her need for him to feel as guilty as possible. They’d bought the Peugeot station wagon when they were still married. He had loved it. Now she loved the wistful expression on his face when she drove it over to his house to drop off Lacy. “You know how I feel about this car.”
“Can we do lunch today?” he asked. “Early, 11:30?”
She looked at herself in the rear view mirror. “Not today,” she said. “I can’t.” Not sweaty from tennis, without makeup or a better bra.
“Someplace near you would be fine.”
He wasn’t listening. She said again, “I’m busy. I can’t have lunch today.”
Jonathan had also offered to buy her a new house closer to his. Two years ago he found her a condo, Beverly Hills adjacent and much more appropriate for the ex-wife of the host of television’s most popular game show. She had said no. She loved her two-bedroom, one bath bungalow in the low-rent part of town. They had lived there together; Lacy had always lived there. None of the windows closed tightly, the living room floor sloped to one corner, but she could afford it all by herself. It was home.
“You’ll love this guy—this psychologist. Very hip. Very chill.”
“Hey,” Winnie said. “I’m losing you.” And sighed. Lost so long ago.
“Call me at eleven.”
“Okay.” She hung up. Same old Jonathan. Same old very chill Jonathan.
The station wagon barely made it into the mechanic’s driveway. Thick gray smoke poured from the exhaust. The car shuddered, gave a final kick, and died. She tried, but it would not start again.
“I’m surprised you got here,” her mechanic said. “It’s my lucky day.”
Moments later she was standing on the sidewalk with her tennis racket, waiting for the van from the car rental agency. A breeze had come up, but in Southern California her thin nylon jacket kept her warm enough. She remembered Novembers growing up in New York City, her wet breath turning to ice in her wool scarf and her toes so cold it made her stomach hurt. A gust lifted her pleated tennis skirt; she got a whiff of old sweat. She had not washed her outfit after last week’s lesson. Her legs needed shaving. She pictured stretching out to return a ground-stroke and jumping up for an overhead, all with her skirt fluttering. She flexed one foot, then the other and shook her head, feeling her ponytail swish against her neck. She had sworn she would never play tennis again after Jonathan left her, but four years had passed and there was nothing he wouldn’t do without her. At least her same old outfit still fit.
She looked down the street hoping to see the van. A black Toyota sedan turned the corner, headed her way. It slowed, went past her, stopped, and reversed to right in front of her. The car was so clean and shiny the passenger door was like a curved funhouse mirror. In its reflection Winnie’s legs looked short and wide and her forehead like a billboard. She bent down as the window sunk into the door. The driver had to be Irish, young and skinny with bright red hair and pale eyes, wearing blue jeans and a black leather jacket, a white button down shirt and a tie.
“Are you from Enterprise?” Winnie asked.
“Have you been waiting long?”
“I expected the van.”
“It’s a very busy day.”
He leaned across the seat and opened the door. Winnie saw a penny in the street, almost under the car. It was heads up, a wishing penny. Jonathan had always hated her wishing. She wished on pennies and dandelions, the first star at night, white horses, and the turned up hem of her pants or shirt.
“They never come true,” he had said.
“How do you know?” she had joked so long ago. “Maybe I wished for you to be an asshole.”
“Get in.” The Enterprise driver sounded anxious.
It bothered her, but she left the penny on the road, got in the car and adjusted her tennis bag between her legs.
“Tennis game?”
“Just a lesson. I’m not ready for a game yet.”
“Put your racket in back.”
She did. He nodded. His thighs were long and thin. His jaw was well defined, his face covered with freckles. His ears were oddly small and paler than the rest of him, like tiny snails curled beneath his almost orange hair. Winnie wondered about the color of the hair on his chest and his legs and other places, then blushed and looked out her window.
“What else do you have to do today?” the driver asked.
“Errands. Nothing. It’s my day off.”
He turned right and got on the freeway. It was not the usual route.
“Do you have a cell phone?” he asked. “Can I borrow it?”
“Did you forget yours?”
He shrugged.
“Guess it has been a busy day for you.” She dug her phone out of her purse and handed it to him. “It’s on.”
He held it in his hand, playing with the smooth cover. They exited the freeway and headed into a residential neighborhood. The houses were small and unremarkable, the one story stucco boxes common to every Los Angeles suburb, with neat lawns, closed doors, empty driveways. The Halloween decorations had all been put away. One zealot had already put up his Christmas lights. A friend could live here.
She looked up at the flat, no color sky. A cold front was moving in. The palm trees bent in the wind and waved at her. “What is this neighborhood? Is there an Enterprise near here?”
He shook his head. He rolled down his window.
“How long have you been with Enterprise?”
“I’m not with Enterprise.”
“You just drive for them?”
There was a sparkle of sweat on his temple as he turned and looked at her. His eyes were the bleached green of dead grass.
“Do I look like I drive for Enterprise?”
He threw her cell phone out the window. The car bounced over a speed bump. Confusion rattled in Winnie’s head.
“I need a rental car.”
“That’s not my department.”
“Thank you. Thank you so much. I’ll just get out here.”
She pulled on the handle, but the door was locked. She tried to lift the button, but it was hiding inside the door, impossible to grip. She searched frantically for some other control.
“Child safety,” he said. “You can’t get out.”
“I have a child.”
“Okay, Mom.” From his lips it was a curse, as if he had called her bitch or whore or cunt. “Mommy.”
Winnie could not breathe. Her hands began to shake. She could not grasp the door handle. He turned right again onto another tree-lined street of small houses, but instead of friendly, these felt haunted by the ghosts of this man’s prey. She was only minutes from the mechanic, barely more than a half hour from home, but she could have been in another country.
“I have to go,” she said. “They’re waiting for me.”
“The other tennis moms?”
“My husband.”
He snorted. “Where’s your ring?”
“I don’t wear it for tennis.”
“Women like you always wear a ring.”
“I… I don’t…” She was a terrible liar.
He lifted a hand to the visor and Winnie waited for the knife, gun, rubber hose, but it was a remote control. He hit the button and a garage door opened. He turned into the driveway, coasted into the empty garage. The door dropped shut behind them.
“Mom, I’m home,” he said.
He released the door locks. She leapt from the car, ran t
o the garage door and banged on it with her fists. She screamed.
He got out of the car. “That’s enough,” he said. “Stop it now.”
She yelled, kicked, pummeled the door. Someone had to hear her. He grabbed one flailing arm and pulled her close. Winnie could smell coffee on his breath. She kept on screaming, right in his face.
“HELP!”
He slapped her hard. “I said stop it.”
“I want to go home.” She began to cry. “Please. Please.”
“Think of this as your home.” He paused. “For as long as it lasts.”
Her knees collapsed and she sank to the cement floor. He tugged her up by her arms, but she let her legs buckle. She wanted to be a dead weight in his hands. He stumbled forward, almost fell and caught himself.
“Stand up,” he commanded.
She did not move. He squeezed her upper arms, tighter, harder. She would have bruises, she realized, but would anyone ever see them? Stop it, she told herself. Find the remote for the door. Find it.
“Stand up.” He shook her as he spoke through his teeth. “I said, get the fuck up.”
“Let go of me and I will.”
He dropped her arms and she got up slowly. She pretended to sway as if dizzy and put out one hand to steady herself on the car. She took a step forward. Then suddenly she leapt for the driver’s door, opened it and reached somewhere, up toward the visor, anywhere for the remote. He pulled her back and tossed her against the wall.
“Forget it. Whatever you’re thinking, forget it.”
He grabbed one of her arms and dragged her to the door leading into the house. Winnie struggled. She began to scream again. Let him kill her now. Better than whatever he had in mind for inside. She refused to walk. He was slight; she was stronger than she seemed.
“Help me!”
He dropped her and she fell on her ass on the cement floor and her neck cracked. A hot needle of pain shot up her spine into her head. But she shook her head, rolled to her hands and knees and tried to crawl under the car. Anywhere, anything to get away from him. He grabbed her feet and tugged. She grasped for the tires, the axle, but it was slippery with grease. He pinched her bare calf and she yelped and he slid her out from under the car, rolled her over, and pulled her to sitting.
