by Meg Cabot
Tuesday, October 28, 11 p.m.
Another e-mail from Jo-C-rox!
This one said:
JOCROX: Dear Mia,
Just a note to tell you I saw you last night on TV. You looked beautiful, as always. I know some people at school have been giving you a hard time. Don’t let them get you down. The majority of us think you rock the world.
Your Friend
Isn’t that the sweetest? I wrote back right away:
FTLOUIE: Dear Friend,
Thank you so much. PLEASE won’t you tell me who you are? I swear I won’t tell a soul!!!!!!!!!!!
Mia
He hasn’t written back yet, but I think my sincerity really shows, considering all the exclamation points.
I am slowly wearing him down, I just know it.
ENGLISH JOURNAL
My most profound moment was
ENGLISH JOURNAL
Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson
I believe that Mr. Emerson was talking about the fact that you are only given one life to live, and so you had better make the best of it. This idea is best illustrated by a movie I saw on the Lifetime Channel while I was sick. The movie was called Who Is Julia? In this movie, Mare Winningham portrays Julia, a woman who wakes up one day after an accident to discover that her body has been completely destroyed and her brain transplanted into someone whose body was okay but whose brain had ceased functioning. Since Julia formerly was a fashion model and now her brain is in a housewife’s body (Mare Winningham’s), she is understandably upset. She goes around banging her head against things because she is no longer blond, five foot ten, and a hundred and ten pounds.
But finally, through Julia’s husband’s undying devotion to her—despite her iffy new looks and a brief kidnapping by the housewife’s psychotic husband, who wants her to come back home to do his laundry—Julia realizes that looking like a model isn’t as important as not being dead.
This movie raises the inevitable question, If your body was destroyed in an accident, and they had to transplant your brain into someone else’s body, whose body would you want it to be? After considerable thought, I have decided that I would most want to be in the body of Michelle Kwan, the Olympic ice skater, since she is very pretty and has a marketable skill. And as everyone knows, it is quite stylish these days to be Asian.
Either Michelle or Britney Spears, so I could finally have bigger breasts.
Wednesday, October 29, English
Well, one thing is for sure:
Having a guy like my cousin Hank follow you around from class to class certainly keeps people’s minds off the idiot you made of yourself on TV the other night.
Seriously. Not that the cheerleaders have forgotten all about the whole TwentyFour/Seven thing—I’m still getting the evil eye in the hallway every once in a while. But as soon as their gazes flicked over me and settled on Hank, something seemed to happen to them.
I couldn’t figure out what it was, at first. I thought it was just that they were so stunned to see a guy in a flannel shirt and overalls in the middle of Manhattan.
Then I slowly started realizing it was something else. I guess Hank is sort of buff, and he does have sort of nice blond hair that kind of hangs in his pretty-boy-blue eyes.
But I think it’s something even more than that. It’s like Hank is giving off those pheromones we studied in Bio, or something.
Only I can’t sense them, because I am related to him.
As soon as girls notice Hank, they sidle up to me and whisper “Who is that?” while gazing longingly at Hank’s biceps, which are actually quite pronounced beneath all that plaid.
Take Lana Weinberger, for instance. There she was, hanging around my locker, waiting for Josh to show up so the two of them could take part in their morning face-suckage ritual, when Hank and I appeared. Lana’s eyes—heavily circled in Bobbi Brown—widened, and she went, “Who’s your friend?” in this voice I had never heard her use before. And I’ve known her a while.
I said, “He’s not my friend, he’s my cousin.”
Lana said to Hank, in the same strange voice, “You can be my friend.”
To which Hank replied, with a big smile, “Gee, thanks, ma’am.”
And don’t think in Algebra Lana wasn’t doing everything she could to get Hank to notice her. She swished her long blond hair all over my desk. She dropped her pencil like four times. She kept crossing and recrossing her legs. Finally Mr. Gianini was like, “Miss Weinberger, do you need a bathroom pass?” That calmed her down, but only for like five minutes.
Even Miss Molina, the school secretary, was strangely giggly when she was making out a guest pass for Hank.
But that’s nothing compared to Lilly’s reaction as she climbed into the limo this morning, when we swung by to pick up her and Michael. She looked across the seat and her jaw dropped open and this piece of Pop Tart she’d been chewing fell right out onto the floor. I’d never seen her do anything like that before in my life. Lilly is generally very good at keeping things in her mouth.
Hormones are very powerful things. We are helpless in their wake.
Which would certainly explain the whole Michael thing.
I mean, about my being so deeply besotted by him and all.
T. Hardy—buried his heart in Wessex, body in Westminster
Um, excuse me, but gross.
Wednesday, October 29, G & T
I don’t believe this. I really don’t.
Lilly and Hank are missing.
That’s right. Missing.
Nobody knows where they are. Boris is beside himself. He won’t stop playing Mahler. Even Mrs. Hill now agrees that shutting him into the supply closet is the best way to maintain our sanity. She let us sneak into the gymnasium and steal some exercise mats and lean them up against the supply closet door to muffle the sound.
It isn’t working, though.
I guess I can understand Boris’s despair. I mean, when you’re a musical genius and the girl you’ve been French-kissing on a fairly regular basis suddenly disappears with a guy like Hank, it has to be demoralizing.
I should have seen it coming. Lilly was excessively flirty at lunch. She kept asking Hank all these questions about life back in Indiana. Like if he was the most popular boy in his school, and all. Which of course he said he was—though I personally don’t believe being the most popular boy at Versailles (which in Indiana-speak is pronounced Ver-Sales, by the way) High School is such a big accomplishment.
Then she was all, “Do you have a girlfriend?”
Hank got bashful and said that he used to, only “Amber” had ditched him a couple weeks ago for a guy whose father owns the local Outback Steakhouse. Lilly acted all shocked, and said Amber must be suffering from a borderline personality disorder if she couldn’t see what a fully self-actualized individual Hank was.
I was so revolted by this display, I could hardly keep my veggie burger down.
Then Lilly started talking about all the fabulous things there are to do in the city, and how Hank really ought to take advantage of them, rather than hanging around here at school with me. She said, “For instance, there’s the Transit Museum, which is fascinating.”
Seriously. She actually said the Transit Museum was fascinating. Lilly Moscovitz.
I swear, hormones are way dangerous.
Then she went, “And on Halloween, there’s a parade in the Village, and then we are all going to The Rocky Horror Picture Show. Have you ever been to that before?”
Hank said that no, he hadn’t.
I should have known right then that something was up, but I didn’t. The bell rang, and Lilly said she wanted to take Hank to the auditorium to show him the part of the My Fair Lady set that she had painted herself (a street lamp). Feeling that even a momentary alleviation from Hank’s constant stream of reminders of our last visit together—“Remember that time we left our bikes in the front yard and you were all worried so
mebody might come in the night and steal them?”—would be a relief, I said, “Okay.”
And that was the last any of us saw of them.
I blame myself. Hank is apparently simply too attractive to be released amongst the general population. I ought to have recognized that. I ought to have recognized that the pull of an uneducated but completely gorgeous farm boy from Indiana would be stronger than the pull of a not-so-attractive musical genius from Russia.
Now I have turned my best friend into a two-timer AND a class ditcher. Lilly has never skipped a class in her life. If she gets caught, she will get detention. I wonder if she’ll think sitting in the cafeteria for an hour after school with the other juvenile delinquents will be worth the fleeting moments of teenage lust she and Hank are sharing.
Michael is no help. He isn’t worried about his sister at all. In fact, he seems to find the situation highly amusing. I have pointed out to him that for all we know, Lilly and Hank could have been kidnapped by Libyan terrorists, but he says he finds that unlikely. He thinks it more reasonable to assume that they are enjoying an afternoon showing at the Sony Imax.
As if. Hank is totally prone to motion sickness. He told us all about it when we drove past the cable car to Roosevelt Island this morning on the way to school.
What are Mamaw and Papaw going to say when they find out I lost their grandson?
TOP FIVE PLACES LILLY AND HANK COULD BE
1. Transit Museum
2. Enjoying some corned beef at 2nd Avenue Deli
3. Looking up Dionysius Thermopolis’s name on the wall of immigrants at Ellis Island
4. Getting tattoos on St. Marks’ Place
5. Making wild passionate love back in his room at the SoHo Grand
OH, GOD!
Wednesday, October 29, World Civ
Still no sign of them.
Wednesday, October 29, Bio
Still nothing.
HOMEWORK
Algebra: solve problems #3, 9, 12 on pg. 147
English: Profound Moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
World Civ: read Chapter 10
G&T: please
French: 4 sentences: une blague, la montagne, la mer, il y a du soleil
Biology: ask Kenny
I am so sure—who can concentrate on homework when your best friend and cousin are missing in New York City????
Wednesday, October 29, Algebra Review
Lars says he thinks it would be precipitous at this point to call the police. Mr. Gianini agrees with him. He says Lilly is ultimately quite sensible, and it is unrealistic to believe that she might let Hank fall into the hands of Libyan terrorists. I was, of course, only using Libyan terrorists as an example of the type of peril that might befall the two of them. There is another scenario which is much more disturbing:
Supposing Lilly is in love with him.
Seriously. Supposing Lilly, against all reason, has fallen madly in love with my cousin Hank, and he has fallen in love with her. Stranger things have happened. I mean, maybe Lilly is starting to realize that, yeah, Boris is a genius, but he still dresses funny and is incapable of breathing through his nose. Maybe she’s willing to sacrifice those long intellectual conversations she and Boris used to have for a boy whose only asset is what is commonly referred to as booty.
And Hank, maybe he’s been dazzled by Lilly’s superior intellect. I mean, her IQ is easily a hundred points higher than his.
But can’t they see that in spite of their mutual attraction, this relationship can only lead to ruin? I mean, suppose they DO IT, or something? And suppose that in spite of all those public service announcements on MTV, they neglect to practice safe sex, like my mom and Mr. G? They’ll have to get married, and then Lilly will have to go live in Indiana in a trailer park, because that’s where all teen mothers live. And she’ll be wearing Wal-Mart housedresses and smoking Kools while Hank goes off to the rubber tire factory and makes five fifty an hour.
Am I the only one who can see where all of this is heading? What is wrong with everyone?
First—grouping (evaluate with grouping symbols beginning with the innermost one)
Second—evaluate all powers
Third—multiply and divide left to right
Fourth—add and subtract in order left to right
Wednesday, October 29, 7 p.m.
It’s all right. They’re safe.
Apparently, Hank got back to the hotel around five, and Lilly showed up at her apartment, according to Michael, a little before that.
I would seriously like to know where they were, but all either of them will say is, “Just walking around.”
Lilly adds, “God, could you be a little more possessive?”
I am so sure.
But I have bigger things to worry about. Right as I was about to step into Grandmère’s suite at the Plaza for my princess lesson today, Dad appeared, looking nervous.
Only two things make my dad nervous. One is my mother.
And the other is his mother.
He said in a low voice, “Listen, Mia, about the wedding situation . . .”
I said, “I hope you had a chance to talk to Grandmère.”
“Your grandmother has already sent out the invitations. To the wedding, I mean.”
“What?”
Oh, my God. Oh, my God. This is a disaster. A disaster!
My dad must have known what I was thinking from my expression, since he went, “Mia, don’t worry. I’ll take care of it. Just leave it to me, all right?”
But how can I not worry? My dad is a good guy and all. At least he tries to be, anyway. But we’re talking Grandmère here. GRANDMÈRE. Nobody goes up against Grandmère, not even the prince of Genovia.
And whatever he might have said to her so far, it certainly hasn’t worked. She and Vigo are more deeply absorbed than ever in their nuptial planning.
“We have had acceptances already,” Vigo informed me proudly when I walked in, “from the mayor, and Mr. Donald Trump, and Miss Diane Von Furstenberg, and the royal family of Sweden, and Mr. Oscar de la Renta, and Mr. John Tesh, and Miss Martha Stewart—”
I didn’t say anything. That’s because all I could think was what my mother was going to say if she walked down the aisle and there was John Tesh and Martha Stewart. She might actually run screaming from the room.
“Your dress arrived,” Vigo informed me, his eyebrows waggling suggestively.
“My what?” I said.
Unfortunately Grandmère overheard me and clapped her hands so loudly she sent Rommel scurrying for cover, apparently thinking a nuclear missile or something had gone off.
“Do not ever let me hear you say what again,” Grandmère fire-breathed at me. “Say, I beg your pardon.”
I looked at Vigo, who was trying not to smile. Really! Vigo actually thinks it’s funny when Grandmère gets mad.
If there is a Genovian medal for valor, he should totally get it.
“I beg your pardon, Mr. Vigo,” I said, politely.
“Please, please,” Vigo said, waving his hand. “Just Vigo, none of this mister business, Your Highness. Now tell me. What do you think of this?”
And suddenly, he pulled this dress from a box.
And the minute I saw it, I was lost.
Because it was the most beautiful dress I have ever seen. It looked just like Glinda the Good Witch’s dress from The Wizard of Oz—only not as sparkly. Still, it was pink, with this big poofy skirt, and it had little rosettes on the sleeves. I had never wanted a dress as much as I wanted that one the minute I laid eyes on it.
I had to try it on. I just had to.
Grandmère supervised the fitting, while Vigo hovered nearby, offering often to refresh her Sidecar. In addition to enjoying her favorite cocktail, Grandmère was smoking one of her long cigarettes, so she looked more officious than usual. She kept pointing with the cigarette and going, “No, not that way,” and “For God’s sake, stop slouching, Amelia.”
It was determined that the dr
ess was too big in the bust (what else is new?) and would have to be taken in. The alterations would take until Friday, but Vigo assured us he’d see that they were done in time.
And that’s when I remembered what this dress was actually for.
God, what kind of daughter am I? I am terrible. I don’t want this wedding to happen. My mother doesn’t want this wedding to happen. So what am I doing, trying on a dress I’m supposed to be wearing at this event nobody but Grandmère wants to see happen, and which, if my dad succeeds, isn’t going to happen anyway?
Still, I thought my heart might break as I took off the dress and put it back on its satin hanger. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, let alone worn. If only, I couldn’t help thinking, Michael could see me in this dress.
Or even Jo-C-rox. He might overcome his shyness and be able to tell me to my face what he’d been able to tell me before only in writing . . . and if it turns out he isn’t that chili guy, maybe we could actually go out.
But there was only one appropriate place to wear a dress like this, and that was in a wedding. And no matter how much I wanted to wear that dress, I certainly didn’t want there to be a wedding. My mother was barely holding on to her sanity as it was. A wedding at which John Tesh was in attendance—and who knows, maybe even singing—might push her over the edge.
Still, I’ve never in my life felt as much like a princess as I did in that dress.
Too bad I’ll never get to wear it.
Wednesday, October 29, 10 p.m.
Okay, so I was just casually flipping through the channels, you know, taking a little study break and all from thinking up a profound moment to write about in my English journal, when all of a sudden I hit Channel 67, one of the public access channels, and there is an episode of Lilly’s show, Lilly Tells It Like It Is, that I have never seen before. Which was weird, because Lilly Tells It Like It Is is usually on Friday nights.
