The pain in her back was almost unbearable as the scars were snagged and pummelled, but she closed her eyes and pushed it from her mind. There was no time for pain – no time to think – this was all instinct: instinct for earth and forest.
She felt the ground beneath her and the trees above, the folds of soil and root, the barest beginnings of bank and slope and drop. They were part of her now.
Her father’s words echoed in her mind: “I see the hearts of men, but you see so much more! You see Nature herself!”
And so she did. It had always been this way, since she could remember. When her thoughts and feelings reached into the world around her, they found their true home. They became lost in the currents of streams, the pulse of animals and the fibre of living things. And yet she did not feel lost. In fact, it was like opening her eyes wide – like seeing the world true and clear, with its thriving mesh of connections: mighty trunk to tiny leaf; raindrop to raging sea.
And she did not just see these connections, she felt them.
The forest wrapped itself around her thoughts and bowed before her feelings. She flew across moss and leaves as though they lay down before her, shaping themselves to her will. The stream carried her at impossible speeds, banking left, then right, then heaving her into the air before catching her on a mossy bank and sending her on, down the hill. Ahead, a constant flux of trees, bracken and bush warped as though seen through a lens: shifting and arching, turning and stretching, drawing her on and on and on.
It was like no Groundrush that Ash had ever seen. Not that he saw much of it, because he spent most of his time on his face, or peering between his knees, or with his eyes pressed closed, pleading for it to end. It was slicker, faster, more savage than anything he and his friends had conjured in their youth. This was no childish toy. This was the unbridled force of nature.
And that was not all. Somehow, by some new trick, Naeo was forging the Groundrush even as they careered down the hillside, feeling out the route in an instant and clearing the path ahead in what seemed the blink of an eye. But there was something else that Ash had never seen before: the Groundrush did not take the quickest path down the slope but traversed it, following not the simplest route but the one that travelled the greatest distance, threading between obstacles, keeping them high, allowing them to whisk along the shoulder of one hill until they joined up with another, avoiding the valleys, hollows and dells.
He was lost in an endless tumult of water, leaves and undergrowth, his limbs flapped about him and his mass of curls were plastered across his face, but Ash knew that everything was as Naeo wished it to be. Somehow, by some miracle of Essenfayle, she was taking them all the way to the Barrens.
Icy waves scythed like teeth, thrashing the side of Sylas’s canoe, sending the bow leaping into the air. Then it turned and twisted, plummeting downwards into a deep grey hole, almost pitching him overboard. As the hull ploughed into the depths, he dropped the paddle and clung to the sides. The river spat him back out, but only sent him lurching backwards into a whirlpool, spinning him round once, twice, and then slamming the boat against a wall of water. He heard Triste somewhere behind him.
“The paddle!” he screamed. “Use the paddle!”
Sylas reached down and grabbed it from the bottom of the boat, but when he jabbed it over the side, it flailed in nothingness – he had been launched high into the air and the paddle simply wafted through the spray. When he looked down the length of the hull, he saw to his horror a gigantic wall of foam. It was the surface of the river, far below him. He felt a sickening sensation of weightlessness, his stomach rising into his chest.
Then a crack on the side of the head.
The last thing he saw was his rucksack flying over his shoulder.
She could see them now – just there, ahead – unfolding in endless waves of grey. The Barrens beckoned like an open grave, calling them on past the last few skeletons of trees. And yet to Naeo, they seemed far away, as though they were behind a sheet of glass, because something was happening to her – something deep inside her. It sucked the air from her lungs and whipped her thoughts into a frenzy. It was a gathering, terrifying, all-consuming panic.
The moment it gripped her, she lost control. The path ahead fogged as quickly as her thoughts, the little stream spilled haphazardly down the hillside, the curtain of shrubs twisted back into shape, the ground once again became rutted and treacherous. And although she saw this, she could do nothing. She was still behind the sheet of glass, her mind and body fighting some unseen horror. She opened her mouth to scream but in that instant her feet caught a rock and she was thrown high into the air, somersaulting over a line of blackened bushes and sent sprawling into the grey mud beyond.
All was silence, blackness and cold. Bone-shattering, skin-pinching cold.
Sylas tumbled in the dark, a massive force pushing him ever downwards. Currents clawed at his clothes and forced water into his mouth and nose. He felt his body flip over and over until something hard and solid smashed against his shoulder. He cried out in a gush of bubbles and then, to his horror, he realised that he had no air in his lungs. He thrashed the water, but it was futile – he had no idea which way was up.
Then, suddenly, a shimmering glow. Not so much light as the promise of it – a lessening of the blackness. And in the midst of the shade and shadow, something sharp and distinct: a hard, black edge.
A shape. A hand.
It grabbed him by the chest – or was it his throat? – he could not tell. All that mattered was that in the midst of the tumult and the horror, something – somebody – had hold of him. He could feel their strength heaving him up, fighting all that would drag him down.
As his lungs were about to burst and his eyes bulged, his world erupted with a blinding light, a rage of noise. But these things he hardly noticed, because at the same moment he heaved air into his lungs – wonderful, beautiful, life-giving air that flooded his floundering body with energy and purpose. He threw his hands up, dug his fingers into something soft, and clung on. As the intensity of the light faded he saw a new shape, a face, peering down at him, shouting something.
“I’ve got you!” said the voice. “I’ve got you!”
Naeo hit the ground hard, slamming her shoulder into the hard-packed earth. She tumbled over and over in mud and twigs and dirt, twisting awkwardly and catching her knee on a stone as she went. She yelped with pain and threw out her hands, clawing at all that flew past, trying desperately to stop.
Finally she slid to a halt, spluttering into the mud, gasping for breath. She lifted her head and heaved air into her lungs.
And then she heard heavy steps pounding the earth behind her. Strong hands turned her over and a face peered down. It was plastered in mud and pale with fright.
“I’ve got you!” Ash panted. “I’ve got you!”
“The Suhl are a people of two parts: of dark and light, of loss and hope. They suffer the Undoing, but they are the last to be undone.”
THEY SAT SHIVERING AT the water’s edge, neither of them saying a word. Simia was hunched forward, her elbows resting on her knees and her wet hair a curtain around her face, hiding her features from view. Sylas simply stared out at the endless bubbling churn that had so nearly taken his life. He felt at once impossibly weary and intensely alive, as though these were the first few moments of a new life: precious and fragile. Even the throbbing pain in his temple was somehow welcome – it meant he was still here. He felt a trickle of blood rolling down his cheek and did not wipe it away. He savoured its warmth, its tickling touch.
He looked upstream and saw the splintered remains of his canoe laid over a boulder, and a little nearer, the wreckage of Simia’s, which barely looked like a boat at all. The only recognisable part was the tip of the bow, hanging from a low-lying branch like lifeless fruit.
He looked over at Simia and saw how she had folded into herself, alone and shivering and full of shame. He knew he should be angry with her but he wasn’t. He was just glad
she was there; broken and bruised, but there.
“You have to get warm!” said Triste, emerging suddenly from the bushes. He dumped a load of firewood by their feet and immediately set about making a fire. “Get your heavy clothes off – quickly! Lay them over the rocks by the fire.”
By some miracle, the Scryer’s flint and tinder were dry and within moments he had started the fire. When Sylas and Simia had laid their clothes out on the rocks, they joined him, warming themselves by the flames. Still no one spoke.
When their fingers had warmed a little, they busied themselves checking through their belongings. Sylas found his bag drenched but intact and with a sinking heart he opened the drawstring and reached for the Samarok. The cover felt strangely dry and as he leafed through its pages, he found them surprisingly untouched by the waters.
Finally they all sat back in silence, basking in the radiance of the flames as they grew into a blaze. Simia stared blankly into the flickering light.
“I’m so sorry,” she said, finally. Her voice was just a whisper. She lifted her face and looked at Sylas with tears in her eyes. “So … so sorry.”
Sylas reached across and took her hand. It was as cold as stone. He knew that she had tried to come back for him, that she had only fallen in because she was trying to reach him – Triste had mumbled that much – but he had no idea how long she had been in the water. By the feel of her, it had been far, far too long.
“It’s OK, Simsi,” he said. “We got out of it, didn’t we?”
“Barely,” grunted Triste.
Simia turned to the Scryer. “I’m really sorry,” she repeated. “I don’t know what we’d have done without you.”
“You’d have drowned!” growled Triste, fixing her with his piercing blue eyes. “And the hopes of the Suhl would have drowned with you!”
Simia dropped her head. She made no sound but tears rolled down her cheeks.
Sylas shifted uncomfortably. “She didn’t know how dangerous it was,” he said. “It was as much my fault for agreeing to go.”
“Yes, it was,” said Triste. He lifted an ember from the fire and pushed it into the bowl of his pipe, then puffed away, trying to light the damp tobacco.
Sylas stared at him reproachfully for a moment and then looked down. He knew the Scryer was right, but why couldn’t he give them a break? What was done was done.
He looked up to see Triste eyeing him closely, as though he knew exactly what he was thinking. He was a Scryer: of course he knew.
“You need to dress that wound before it gets infected,” said the Scryer, pointing to Sylas’s temple. “A little Salve should help.”
Sylas had almost forgotten the gash on his head. Instinctively he reached up and touched it, wincing as he felt a long seam of broken skin.
Triste reached into his pack, drew out a small bottle and threw it across. Sylas pulled out the cork and poured a little of the contents on to his fingers. He recognised the bright green fluid – it was the ointment Filimaya had used to heal his knee back at the Meander Mill; how long ago that seemed now. As he dabbed it on his forehead he felt the same miraculous cool, soothing sensation reaching deep into the wound. The rutted skin seemed to dissolve beneath his fingertips, and in moments the pain began to ebb away.
Triste cleared his throat. “I’m interested,” he said through a cloud of purple smoke, which smelt a little of raspberries, “how is it that you are so different from Naeo?”
Sylas looked up. “What do you mean?”
“I mean that from the little I know of her, I can’t imagine Naeo being persuaded to risk her life canoeing down rapids.”
“She wouldn’t need persuading,” mumbled Simia beneath her hair.
Triste thought about this for a moment. “Perhaps,” he said, “but whether she would refuse to go, or go of her own accord, she’s still different.”
Sylas didn’t like where this was going. He still found it difficult to talk about Naeo. She occupied a blind spot in his mind: a dark, confusing place he hadn’t allowed himself to go.
“I suppose you’re right. But I don’t really think about it.” He picked up a loose stick and tossed it on the fire.
Triste looked surprised. “Really? You’re not intrigued?”
Sylas shrugged. “Nope. And I doubt she thinks about it either. It’s strange … I mean, to me, it’s like she’s not quite … there.” He shook his head. “No, it’s not that. It’s more like she’s not … real.”
Triste clamped the pipe between his teeth and leaned into the fire to warm his hands. “And yet the connection between you is so strong. Even now.”
“You think so?”
“I know it. I see it. To a Scryer, it’s blindingly obvious.”
Sylas felt even more uncomfortable. “What do you see?”
Triste smiled. “Ah, well to understand that, you need to understand a bit about Scrying.” He stoked the fire, sending up a shower of sparks. “When I look at people, I see two things: first, their image, just as you see; and second, what we call their aura. Now the aura isn’t a visual thing at all – it’s something that we Scryers see in our mind’s eye. The best way to describe it is a gathering of colours, all clustered around the person we’re looking at. The colours have different shapes or forms, and it’s the combination of colour and form that tells us what someone is feeling – the connection they have to people around them.” He paused and looked at Sylas intently. “So, ask me what I see when I look at you.”
“What do you see?”
“Everything.”
“Everything?”
Triste nodded, his features unusually animated. “It’s like a cloud … no – more than that – an explosion. An explosion of colour! In you, I see every colour and every shape I have ever encountered.”
Sylas shifted again. He was getting that familiar feeling that someone else knew far more about him than he did. “Really?”
“Yes! Why do you think I asked to come along with you?”
“You asked to come?”
“Of course I did! Whether you know it or not, you and Naeo change the rules – Thoth’s rules – the ones that say all we can look forward to is suffering, that the best we can hope for is survival.” He blew out a long trail of smoke, a bright contrast to the grey riverbank. He looked at Sylas earnestly. “For the first time since the war, you’ve made me wonder if there might be something worth seeing in this dying world of ours: something new and hopeful. Something that makes me glad of my Scrying eyes, rather than wanting to scratch them out.”
Sylas stared at him. “So …” he blurted, “these colours and shapes – the ones you think are so important – do you know what they mean?”
Triste leaned forward on his elbows. “I don’t think they’re important, they are important. They mean that you aren’t just connected to Naeo by your feelings towards her, like you would be with most people. After all, you say you don’t feel anything towards her.” He took a deep draw on his pipe. “No, with you it’s different. I think you’re connected to her in every way, all of the time.”
Sylas shrugged. “Well if I am, I don’t know about it.”
“I suppose there’s no reason you should,” said Triste, lowering his pipe and heaving himself to his feet. “But you certainly should be something else.”
“What?”
Triste arched an eyebrow. “Intrigued. Very intrigued.”
“I don’t know for sure,” murmured Naeo as she dripped a few more drops of Salve on to her knee. Then she looked up. “I think it was Sylas. It was like … like I could feel what he was feeling. And it felt terrible … cold … frightening. Like I was trapped and couldn’t breathe.”
Ash squatted down next to her, searching her face. “Do you think he’s all right?”
Naeo thought for a moment. “Yes, I do,” she murmured. “He … must be.”
“Why?”
“Because I feel all right.”
“Oh,” said Ash, looking surprised. “You look terrible.�
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“Thank you.”
“No, seriously,” he said, looking her up and down. “Terrible.”
“Thanks, Ash, but I’ll be fine. My knee’s already stopped bleeding.”
“I wasn’t talking about your knee,” said Ash. “I was talking about your back. When you fell you looked like the pain was killing you.”
“I just winded myself,” she said, making a show of rolling her shoulders. A searing pain rattled up her spine and across her shoulder blades making her wince.
“See!” cried Ash.
“It’s just … an old pain,” said Naeo, lying. The pain was familiar, but there was something new about this: it was sharper and more intense, as though the Black had seeped that little bit deeper into her flesh.
Ash narrowed his eyes. “Just let me take a look. A little Salve might help that too.”
“Never helped before.”
“Well, you weren’t bruised and battered before. That was a heck of a fall. Come on, let me try.”
Naeo eyed him cautiously. “OK,” she said. And then for the briefest moment she looked a little vulnerable, even girlish. “It’s not pretty.”
“Take a look about you,” he said, picking up the bottle of Salve. “This isn’t the place for pretty.”
He sat down behind her and waited. Hesitantly, she undid the bottom buttons of her shirt, then lifted it above her waist.
Ash’s breath caught in his throat. He wasn’t sure what he had expected to see, but this was not it. There were no cuts, nor scabs, nor bruises, rather a thick, swollen scar picked out in deep, ebony black. It traced her spine, and just beneath her shoulder blades fanned out like the branches of a tree. Perhaps it was the depth of its colour, or its shape, or the fact that it was raised proud of her smooth white skin, but it looked almost … alive.
“Is this …” The word failed him, until he remembered to breathe. “Is this … the Black?”
She nodded without turning.
“Who did this to you?”
“He did. Thoth.”
“Why?”
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