“Good God, no,” Elliott joked. “I want to be able to ogle the chorus girls without her smacking me with her program.”
“I don’t think it’s that kind of play,” I said.
“Cath, what’s this play about?” Elliott said.
She leaned across Sara. “Hayley Mills is in it,” she told him.
“Hayley Mills,” he said reminiscently, leaning back, his hands behind his head. “I thought she was truly sexy when I was ten years old. Especially that dance number in Bye Bye Birdie.”
“You’re thinking of Ann-Margret, you fool,” Sara said, reaching across me to smack him with her program. “Hayley Mills was in that one where she’s the little girl who always saw the positive side of things—what was it called?”
I looked across at Cath, surprised she hadn’t chimed in with the answer—she was the Hayley Mills fan. She was sitting with her coat pulled around her shoulders. Her face looked pinched with cold.
“You know Hayley Mills,” Sara said to Elliott. “We watched her in The Flame Trees of Thika.”
Elliott nodded. “I always admired her chest. Or am I thinking of Annette?”
“I don’t think this is that kind of play,” Sara said.
It wasn’t that kind of play. Everyone wore high-necked costumes, including Hayley Mills, who swept in swathed in a bulky coat. “I’m so sorry I’m late, dear,” she said, taking off her coat to reveal a turtleneck sweater and going over to stand in front of a stage fire. “It’s so cold out. And the air’s so strange.”
Whoever was playing her husband said, “‘Into my heart an air that kills from yon far country blows,’” and Elliott leaned over and whispered, “Oh, God, a literary play.”
I’d missed the rest of the husband’s line, but he must have asked Hayley why she was late, because she said, “My assistant cut her hand, and I had to take her to hospital. It took forever for her to get stitched up.”
A hospital. I hadn’t considered that. Their morgues would have been full during the Blitz. Was there a hospital close to Holborn? I would have to ask Elliott at intermission.
A sudden rattle of applause brought me out of my reverie.
The stage was dark. I’d missed Scene One. When the lights went back up, I tried to focus on the play, so I could discuss it at least halfway intelligibly at the intermission.
“The wind is rising,” Hayley Mills said, looking out an imaginary window.
“Storm brewing,” a man, not her husband, said.
“That’s what I fear,” she said, rubbing her hands along her arms to warm them. “Oh, Derek, what if he finds out about us?”
I glanced sideways across Sara at Cath, but couldn’t see her face in the darkened theater. She obviously hadn’t known what this play was about, or she’d never have chosen it.
But Hayley wasn’t acting anything like Sara. She chain-smoked, she paced, she hung up the phone hastily when her husband came into the room and was so obviously guilty no one, least of all her husband, could have failed to miss it.
Elliott certainly didn’t. “The husband’s got to be a complete moron,” he said as soon as the curtain went down for the intermission. “Even the dog could deduce that she’s having an affair. Why is it characters in plays never act any way remotely resembling real life?”
“Maybe because people in real life don’t look like Hayley Mills,” Cath said. “She does look wonderful, doesn’t she, Sara? She hasn’t aged a day.”
“You’re joking, right?” Elliott said. “All right, I know people kid themselves about their spouses having affairs, but—”
“I have to go to the bathroom,” Cath said. “I suppose there’ll be a horrible line. Come with me, Sara, and I’ll tell you the saga of my china.” They edged past us.
“Get us a glass of white wine,” Sara called back from the aisle, and Elliott and I shouldered our way to the bar, which took ten minutes, and another five to get served. Sara and Cath still weren’t back.
“So where were you all day?” Elliott asked me, sipping Sara’s wine. “I looked for you at lunch.”
“I was researching something,” I said. “Holborn tube station is in Bloomsbury, isn’t it?”
“I think so,” he said. “I rarely take the Tube.”
“Are there any hospitals near the tube station?”
“Hospitals?” he said bewilderedly. “I don’t know. I don’t think so.”
“Or churches?”
“I don’t know. What’s this all about?”
“Have you ever heard of a thing called an inversion layer?” I said. “It’s when air is trapped—”
“They simply must do something about the women’s bathroom situation,” Sara said, grabbing her wine and taking a sip. “I thought we were going to be in there the entire third act.”
“Sounds like an excellent idea,” Elliott said. “I don’t mean to sound like the Old Man, but if this is any indication, plays truly have gone to hell! I mean, we’re expected to believe that Hayley Mills’s husband is so blind that he can’t see his wife’s in love with—the other one—what’s his name—?”
“Pollyanna,” Cath said. “I’ve been trying to remember it all through the first two acts. The name of the little girl who always saw the positive side of things.”
“Sara,” I said, “are there any hospitals near Holborn?”
“The Great Ormond Street Hospital for Sick Children. That’s the one James Barrie left all the money to,” she said. “Why?”
The Great Ormond Street Hospital. That had to be it. They had used it as a temporary morgue, and the air—
“It’s so obvious,” Elliott said, still on the subject of infidelity. “The excuses Hayley Mills’s character makes for where she’s been—”
“She looks wonderful, doesn’t she?” Cath said. “How old do you suppose she is? She looks so young!”
The end-of-intermission bell chimed.
“Let’s go,” Cath said, setting her wine down. “I don’t want to have to crawl over all those people again.”
Sara swallowed her wine at one gulp, and we went back down the aisle. We were too late. The people on the end had to stand up and let us past.
“But don’t you agree,” Elliott said, sitting down, “that any normal person—”
“Shh,” Cath said, leaning all the way across Sara and me to shut him up. “The lights are going down.”
They did, and I felt an odd sense of relief, as if we’d just avoided something terrible. The curtain began to go up.
“I still say,” Elliott said in a stage whisper, “that nobody could have that many clues thrown at him and not realize his wife’s having an affair.”
“Why not?” Sara said, “You didn’t,” and Hayley Mills came onstage.
Beside me, in the dark, Elliott was applauding like everyone else, and I thought, It’s as if nothing happened. Elliott will think he didn’t really hear it, like the wind in the Tube, over so fast you wonder if it was really real, and he’ll decide it wasn’t, he’ll lean across me and say, “What do you mean? You’re not having an affair, are you?” and Sara will whisper, “Of course not, you idiot. I just meant you never notice anything,” and it won’t all have blown up, it won’t all—
“Who is it?” Elliott said.
His voice echoed in the space between two of Hayley Mills and her husband’s lines, and a man in front of us turned around and glared.
“Who is it?” Elliott said again, louder. “Who are you having an affair with?”
Cath said, in a strangled voice, “Don’t—”
“No, you’re right,” Elliott said, standing up. “What the hell difference does it make?” and pushed his way out over the people on the aisle.
Sara sat an endless minute, and then she plunged past us, too, tripping over my foot and nearly falling as she did.
I looked over at Cath, wondering if I should go after Sara. I had the ticket for her coat and scarf in my pocket. Cath was staring stiffly up at the stage, her coat clutched ti
ghtly around her.
“This can’t go on,” Hayley Mills said, looking now fully as old as she was, but still going gamely on with her lines, “I want a divorce,” and Cath stood up and pushed past me, me following clumsily after her, muttering, “Sorry, sorry,” over and over to the people on the aisle.
“It’s over,” Hayley said from the stage. “Can’t you see that?”
I didn’t catch up to Cath till she was halfway through the lobby.
“Wait,” I said, reaching for her arm. “Cath.”
Her face was white and set. She pushed unseeingly through the glass doors and out onto the pavement, and then stood there, looking bewildered.
“I’ll get a taxi,” I said, thinking, At least we won’t have to compete with the end-of-the-play crowd.
Wrong. People were streaming out of the Apollo, and farther down the street, Miss Saigon, and God knew what else. There were swarms of people on the curb and at the corner, shouting and whistling for taxis.
“Wait here,” I said, pushing Cath back under the Lyric’s marquee, and plunged out into the melee, my arm thrust out. A taxi pulled toward the curb, but it was only avoiding a clot of people, newspapers over their heads, ducking across the street.
The driver put his arm out and gestured toward the “in use” light on top of the taxi.
I stepped off the curb, scanning the mess for a taxi that didn’t have its light on, jerking back again as a motorbike splashed by.
Cath tugged on the back of my jacket. “It’s no use,” she said. “Phantom just let out. We’ll never get a taxi.”
“I’ll go to one of the hotels,” I said, gesturing up the street, “and have the doorman get one. You stay here.”
“No, it’s all right,” she said. “We can take the Tube. Piccadilly Circus is close, isn’t it?”
“Right down there,” I said, pointing.
She nodded and put her purse uselessly over her head against the rain, and we darted out onto the sidewalk, through the crowd, and down the steps into Piccadilly Circus.
“At least it’s dry in here,” I said, fishing for change for a ticket for her.
She nodded again, shaking the skirt of her coat out.
There was a huge crush at the machines and an even bigger one at the turnstiles. I handed her her ticket, and she put it gingerly in the slot and yanked her hand back before the machine could suck it away.
None of the down escalators was working. People clomped awkwardly down the steps. Two punkers with shaved heads and bad skin shoved their way past, muttering obscenities.
At the bottom there was a nasty-looking puddle under the tube map. “We need the Piccadilly Line,” I said, taking her arm and leading her down the tunnel and out onto the jammed platform.
The LED sign overhead said next train 2 min. A train rumbled through on the other side and people poured onto the platform behind us, pushing us forward. Cath stiffened, staring down at the mind the gap sign, and I thought, All we need now is a rat. Or a knifing.
A train pulled in and we pushed onto it, crammed together like sardines. “It’ll thin out in a couple of stops,” I said, and she nodded. She looked dazed, shell-shocked.
Like Elliott, staring blindly at the stage, saying in a flat voice, “Who are you having an affair with?” and stumbling blindly over people’s feet, people’s knees, trying to get out of the row, looking like he’d been hit by a blast of sulfurous, deadly wind. Everything fine one minute, sipping wine and discussing Hayley Mills, and the next, a bomb ripping the world apart and everything in ruins.
“Green Park,” the loudspeaker said, and the door opened and more people pushed on. “You better watch out!” a woman with matted hair said, shaking a finger in Cath’s face. Her fingertip was stained blue-black. “You better! I mean it!”
“That’s it,” I said, pushing Cath behind me. “We’re getting off at the next stop.” I put my hand on her back and began propelling her through the mass of people toward the door.
“Hyde Park Corner,” the loudspeaker said.
We got off, the door whooshed shut, and the train began to pull out.
“We’ll go up top and get a taxi,” I said tightly. “You were right. The Tube’s gone to hell.”
It’s all gone to hell, I thought bitterly, starting down the empty tunnel, Cath behind me. Sara and Elliott and London and Hayley Mills. All of it. The Old Man and Regent Street and us.
The wind caught me full in the face. Not from the train we had just gotten off of—from ahead of us somewhere, farther down the tunnel. And worse, worse, worse than before. I staggered back against the wall, doubling up like I’d been punched in the stomach. Disaster and death and devastation.
I straightened up, clutching my stomach, unable to catch my breath, and looked across the tunnel. Cath was standing with her back against the opposite wall, her hands flattened against the tiles, her face pinched and pale.
“You felt it,” I said, and felt a vast relief.
“Yes.”
Of course she felt it. This was Cath, who sensed things nobody else noticed, who had known Sara was having an affair, that the Old Man had turned into an old man. I should have gone and gotten her the first time it happened, dragged her down here, made her stand in the tunnels with me.
“Nobody else felt them,” I said. “I thought I was crazy.”
“No,” she said, and there was something in her voice, in the way she stood huddled against the green-tiled wall, that told me what should have been obvious all along.
“You felt them the first time we were here,” I said, amazed. “That’s why you hate the Tube. Because of the winds.”
She nodded.
“That’s why you wanted to take a taxi to Harrods,” I said. “Why didn’t you say something that first time?”
“We didn’t have enough money for taxis,” she said, “and you didn’t seem to be aware of them.”
I wasn’t aware of anything, I thought, not Cath’s obvious reluctance to go down into the tube stations, nor her flinching back from the incoming trains. She was watching for the next wind, I thought, remembering her peering nervously into the tunnel. She was waiting for it to hit.
“You should have told me,” I said. “If you’d told me, I could have helped you figure out what they were so they wouldn’t frighten you anymore.”
She looked up. “What they were?” she repeated blankly.
“Yes. I’ve figured out what’s causing them. It’s because of the inversion layer. The air gets trapped down here, and there’s no way out. Like gas pockets in a mine. So it just stays here, year after year,” I said, unbelievably glad I could talk to her, tell her.
“People used these tube stations as shelters during the Blitz,” I said eagerly. “Balham was hit, and so was Charing Cross. That’s why you can smell smoke and cordite. Because of the high-explosive bombs. And people were killed by flying tiles at Marble Arch. That’s what we’re feeling—the winds from those events. They’re winds from the past. I don’t know what this one was caused by. A tunnel collapse, maybe, or a V-2—” I stopped.
She was looking the way she had sitting on the narrow bed in our hotel room, right before she told me Sara was having an affair.
I stared at her.
“You know what’s causing the winds,” I said finally. Of course she knew. This was Cath, who knew everything. Cath, who had had twenty years to think about this.
I said, “What’s causing them, Cath?”
“Don’t—” she said, and looked down the passageway, as if hoping somebody would come, a sudden rush of people, hurrying for the trains, pushing between us, cutting her off before she could answer, but the tunnel remained empty, still, no air moving at all.
“Cath,” I said.
She took a deep breath, and then said, “They’re what’s coming.”
“What’s coming?” I repeated stupidly.
“What’s waiting for us,” she said, and then, bitterly, “Divorce and death and decay. The ends of things.�
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“They can’t be,” I said. “Marble Arch took a direct hit. And Charing Cross—”
But this was Cath, who was always right. And what if the scent wasn’t of smoke but of fear, not of ashes but of despair?
What if the formaldehyde wasn’t the charnel house odor of a temporary morgue but of a permanent one, Death itself, the marble arch that waited for us all? No wonder it had reminded Cath of a cemetery.
What if the direct hits, shrapnel flying everywhere, slashing through youth and marriage and happiness, weren’t V-2s, but death and devastation and decline?
The winds all, all smelled of death, and the Blitz hardly had a monopoly on that. Look at Hari Srinivasau. And the pub with the great fish and chips.
“But all of the stations where there are winds were hit,” I said. “And in Charing Cross there was a smell of water and dirt. It has to be the Blitz.”
Cath shook her head. “I’ve felt them on BART, too.”
“But that’s in San Francisco. It might be the earthquake. Or the fire.”
“And on the Metro in D.C. And once, at home, in the middle of Main Street,” she said, staring at the floor. “I think you’re right about the inversion layer. It must concentrate them down here, make them stronger and more—”
She paused, and I thought she was going to say “lethal.”
“More noticeable,” she said.
But I hadn’t noticed. Nobody had noticed except Cath, who noticed everything.
And the old, I thought, remembering the white-haired woman in South Kensington Station, her coat collar clutched closed with a blueveined hand, the stooped old black man on the platform in Holborn. The old feel them all the time. They walked bent nearly double against a wind which blew all the time.
Or stayed out of the Tube. I thought of the Old Man saying, “I loathe the Tube.” The Old Man, who had run us merrily all over London on the Tube after adventure, on at Baker Street and off at Tower Hill, up escalators, down stairs, shouting stories over his shoulder the whole time. “Horrible place,” he had said, shuddering, yesterday. “Filthy, smelly, drafty.” Drafty.
He felt the winds, and so did Mrs. Hughes. “I never go down in the Tube anymore,” she had said at dinner. Not “I never take the Tube.” I never go down in the Tube. And it wasn’t just the stairs or the long distances she had to walk. It was the winds, reeking of separation and loss and sorrow.
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