Her lips twitch before she gives in to a hesitant smile. “Well, you know where I stand—in terms of sexual partners. You had to clear the cobwebs away that first night.”
“Good thing I find cobwebs sexy.”
She laughs quick and loud, caught off guard, and then her shoulders relax against the headboard. “So, why were you standing there staring at me when I woke up? Contemplating the most efficient way to arrange my body parts in the freezer?”
“I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to be weird. I was actually thinking,” I glance around the room, “how much it bothers me, you living here.”
“Because she was here?”
“Her, him. You’ve felt unsafe here. You’ve had your heart broken here.” I point at the ground I’m standing on. “We need to get you the hell out of this apartment.”
She pulls back a little, raising her shoulders around her neck. “What?”
“I know you’ve been fighting for it, but why? Why would you want to live here, where they’ve been? Where he made you feel like nothing?”
She looks away, her brows furrowed. “Honestly, I don’t. I thought maybe I’d sell it once I won it—that would really piss him off. But I can’t just let him walk away from this unscathed.”
“Believe me, he’s scathed. He lost you.”
She looks back at me, her expression softer. “It’s not enough. Don’t you understand—it’s about principle. I want to put him through the wringer.”
“But you’re putting yourself through the wringer. Don’t you understand? The best way to hurt him is to move on with your life. You’ll never be able to do that while you’re here.”
She raises her eyebrows at me. “What makes you so sure? Reggie hurts from his wallet, not his heart.”
I shake my head. All the money in the world can’t buy back a man’s pride. Seeing Amelia with me, knowing she’s strong enough to leave him behind—that’ll do more damage than an apartment. And it’s what’s best for Amelia. “I’m a man. I tend to know how they think.”
She sighs. “My therapist doesn’t think it’s healthy either, but I can’t just up and leave. This is my home.”
“Amelia, you’re one of the strongest women I know. You can up and do anything.” I check her bedside clock. “I have a few hours before I need to go get Bell for her gymnastics class. Let’s get breakfast and go look at some places. Just to get you moving in the right direction.”
“But—” She stammers. “I can’t just move. We’re in the middle of planning a huge fashion show at work while simultaneously building out an influencer marketing division. Do you have any idea how grueling it is to try to keep up with the teen market? I’m creating a whole team just for that. Not to mention the fact that before I can even think of moving, I have to worry about selling this place—”
“You told me he owns it.”
“He does.”
“So fuck it. Leave it behind. You don’t owe him anything.”
She sits forward to set the mug on her nightstand, clutching the sheet to her chest. “You can’t be serious.”
I can’t be, but I am. Amelia was right that first night—sleepovers are dangerous. It was just great sex until she opened up to me, let me in, showed me her fear. And then slept in my arms. Now it’s real. And I’m more than a little uncomfortable with her living in her ex’s apartment, especially now that I know the extent of his scumbag ways. As long as she’s here, she’s still under his thumb. “Does he have a key?”
“Yes, but the doormen know—”
“Amelia, listen to me. The more I think about it, the more my skin crawls. You shouldn’t be accessible to him at all.”
“I’m not, really,” she says. “We’re only supposed to communicate through our lawyers.”
“But he showed up here recently. How’d he get past the doorman?”
She opens her mouth to respond but pauses. “I’m not sure, actually. I didn’t think about it, but Frank’s not really a fan of mine. He’d probably hand Reggie the keys.”
“Great. So your disgruntled doorman is in cahoots with your crooked ex.” I half-roll my eyes. “Look, I get it. You want to repay him for the pain he’s caused. I’m telling you—the quickest way to do that is to sever all ties, give him what he wants, and find happiness somewhere else. If he feels an ounce of love for you still, it’ll kill him. If he doesn’t, you’re better off getting out before he does even more damage.”
“It’s not that simple.”
“Call your lawyer,” I say. “Tell him you’ll give up the apartment and anything else Reggie wants in exchange for regaining complete control of avec.”
“Everything?”
I kick the foot of the bed like I’m testing the air in a tire. “They’re just things, and they’re weighing you down.”
“What about alimony?”
“Do you really want his money?” I ask. “You’ve come this far. You run a successful business.”
“I want the money because he does.”
“Is it about that or about hurting him?” I ask. “If it’s the money, that’s fine, but you need to figure that out before you go any further in the process.”
She readjusts the sheet under her arms and then shakes her head. “No, it’s not about the money.”
I blow out an exhale. I can offer Amelia stability, but I’ll never hit Park-Avenue-apartment status, nor do I want to. “So,” I continue, “imagine his face when his lawyer tells him you’re willing to give up everything—including his money—just to get away from him once and for all.”
“Oh, God.” She curls her fingers into the edge of the sheet. “He’d have a coronary right there. In his world, there isn’t a person who can’t be bought. It’s just about finding the right number.”
I nod slowly. I shouldn’t be surprised she gets it—she’s a smart woman. But I’ve seen other smart women blinded by whatever it is she feels—or felt—toward Reggie. “You can’t be bought, Amelia. Teach him a lesson.”
She straightens a little, as if she needed to hear that, but why? I shouldn’t have to remind someone of her caliber of that. It lights a fire in me that after everything I’ve been trying to teach Bell, one misogynistic, entitled asshole could potentially destroy her with enough time and skill.
“I—where would I even start?” she asks.
“It’s New York City. You could have a new apartment squared away by the end of the weekend if you wanted. Pick out some new furniture. I’ll get the guys to move it in. Done.”
“I can’t,” she says as she shakes her head in disbelief. “You’re making it sound too easy. There’s more to it than just picking up and moving.”
I hold up my hand and count off the steps on my fingers. “One—choose a neighborhood. Two—see some places in the neighborhood. Three—pay first and last month’s rent, security, whatever. Four—I move you in.”
She opens and closes her mouth. “What would I tell Reggie?”
My jaw tenses just hearing his name. It isn’t like me to react this strongly to someone unless it involves Bell, but as we go, I’m disliking Reggie more and more. Whether or not Amelia and I move forward, I’m ready for her to be done with him. “Why do you have to tell him anything?”
“I guess I . . . don’t?” she says. “I guess I can just . . . tell my lawyer?”
“Good.” I look her over. I’m surprised it took me this long to react to the red tint of her cheeks, her hair tangled from my hands, the thin white sheet hugging her breasts. Sex. I can’t not think of it seeing her this way. I adjust myself in my underwear. “So, uh, let’s get going,” I suggest. “Because I have to pick up—”
She smiles coyly at me, beckoning me with one finger. “Come here.”
I raise an eyebrow. Even though I know I could be hard and between her legs in moments, I tease her. “Real estate talk does it for you?” I ask. “Good to know.”
“You. You do it for me.”
“If I get on this bed,” I say, “we’ll never get o
ut of here.” I hold out my hand, and she sticks out her bottom lip. I’m more than eager to snatch that bottom lip between my teeth. We fell asleep quickly last night. I feel a little like I should’ve made love to her after our bath, showed her I can be more than hard and demanding in bed, but we were exhausted. “Come on. I promise to do you good next chance we get.”
“Fine.” She gets up and stretches. Immediately, I regret my decision, her long, white arms reaching for the sky, her tits high and full. I shake it all out of my head. I want it. But with someone like her, it’s a long-term game. It always was, I just didn’t know I wanted to play. Helping her detangle from Reggie is the way to prove to Amelia I meant what I said last night. That despite all my efforts not to—I care about her.
TWENTY-TWO
“It had a fireplace,” Amelia says, waving the open-house flyer at me. “A real, working, wood-burning fireplace.”
“I heard you the first ten times,” I say and put my arm around her shoulders so she knows I’m teasing.
“Why are you not more excited about a fireplace? DeBlasio banned them in new construction, so they’re a dying breed.”
I shrug a little, glancing sidelong at her. “I guess because I have one at my house.”
“You do?”
“Well, I don’t live in a—” I lean in to read the spec sheet of the apartment we just looked at, “six-hundred square foot box. Jesus Christ, that’s small.”
“I don’t mind the size. It’s just me. Do you actually use the fireplace?”
I nod. “During winter.”
“Where do you get the firewood?”
“I chop it myself.”
She gapes at me. “Seriously?”
“No.” I chuckle. “I get it from the supermarket.”
She shakes her head in disbelief. “I haven’t lived in a real house since I left home at eighteen. Reggie and I gave up a place with a fireplace for a bigger bathroom. What’s your house like?”
I squint ahead of us. The sun is high today but with the mild temperature and slight spring breeze, it feels just right. “I bought it a couple years ago. The one-bedroom place Shana and I rented was getting too small for me and Bell. My place is three beds, two baths. Huge master bath,” I add, “but unfortunately, no tub.”
“Hence the extreme fascination with mine.”
“I wouldn’t call it extreme—”
“What else?” she asks.
“Hmm. Most important parts: a high-end kitchen and a decent-sized backyard.”
“A backyard,” she muses. “Wait, why’s the kitchen important? Do you cook?”
“Babe, like you wouldn’t believe.”
“Liar.”
“How do you think Bell gets fed—Flora, Fauna, and Merryweather?”
“Sleeping Beauty?” she guesses.
“You weren’t lying about liking Disney classics.” I wink. “Anyway, Sadie taught me to cook and I ended up being all right at it. Now, to put it modestly, my culinary skills put all the women in my life to shame, Sadie included.”
Amelia grins. “You’re like a real grownup.”
“Yep.” I look down at her. She’s different today. Looser. Not as careful. I love how worked up she gets, how blunt she can be. But this side of her? I earned this. It makes me appreciate it all the more. “You should come see it—the house,” I say and pause to assess how I feel about the invitation. I can’t just have a woman over the way most guys can. Thing is, I haven’t ever wanted to, not since we moved in. It’s new territory for me, but my gut says having Amelia over would be the right thing. “Bell—it’s . . .” I pull Amelia into my chest to push through a group of tourists. “It’s her birthday next weekend,” I say when we’re past the crowd.
“Oh.” She keeps her eyes forward.
“You should come.” It’s a big step. I know it is. I don’t even know exactly how Amelia feels about bringing Bell into her life, and I realize it’s something I should ask her because I plan on seeing more of her going forward. I kiss the top of her head. “If you want,” I say. “If not, I’ll bring you by another time.”
She glances up at me shyly, I think because she’s going to accept my invitation. Instead she asks, “Where do you go when you want a bath?”
“Uh . . . nowhere. It wasn’t on my list of requirements when I was house hunting.”
“It’s okay.” She crumples up the spec sheet. “You can just use mine.”
“What are you doing?” I ask.
“That place doesn’t have a tub.”
“But it has a fireplace.”
“I’ve decided I’d rather have a tub.” She holds up the brochure to the first place we saw. “This place has one.”
It’s a small gesture, but it says everything. Maybe Amelia isn’t quite ready for Bell’s birthday party, but she isn’t looking for a place just for herself. She sees me in her future. She’d give up the fireplace to make me happy. I lean down and assault her cheek with a series of short kisses, and she breaks into an uncharacteristic fit of giggles.
“Oh my God,” she says breathlessly. “Stop. It tickles.”
“That only makes it more tempting.” I nibble on her earlobe. “I made the biggest mistake of my life this morning.”
“Oh yeah?” she asks, unconcerned. “What was that?”
“Passing up an opportunity to ravage you. Just spending time with you is like foreplay.”
She wiggles her shoulders in my grip. “I agree. That was a mistake. Ravage me here.”
“In the middle of the street, for everyone to see?” I mock-gasp against her cheek. “Nah. I want you all to myself. When I fuck you, I want only my eyes on your body.”
“What about your hands?”
“You know what I mean,” I say, pinching her side so she squeals. “Now that I know how ticklish you are, you’re in a world of trouble.”
Just ahead is a blocked-off street lined with umbrellas, tents and carts separated by tables of tchotchkes or rolling racks of clothing or furniture. “Well, if that isn’t serendipitous,” I say, nodding toward the Hell’s Kitchen flea market. “First, we manage to find three apartment open houses, and we’re already onto furniture.”
She squeezes her arm around my middle. “I’ve always wanted a big, vintage wooden armoire,” she says. “Reggie said they were too old and heavy, though.”
I steer her across the street toward the crowded stalls. “Well, good thing I’m stronger.”
Her gloriously-naked-for-once lips spread into a wide smile. “You’ve never even met him.”
“I don’t need to. I already know.”
We slow together and make our way down the first row of mismatched, homeless items. She ducks out from under me to look at some jewelry and picks up a silver locket. “My dad gave me one of these as a girl. I wore it every day until I started high school and thought it wasn’t cool anymore. I think I still have it somewhere.” She frowns. “You should get something like that for Bell for her birthday.”
I look at the necklace. It wouldn’t have occurred to me. Bell loves dress up as much as the next girl. Since I have nothing of worth to offer her—Shana took her jewelry with her, and my mom gambled away her things long ago—Bell’s toy chest is littered with plastic costume jewelry. “She’s too young,” I say. Jewelry, makeup, hair, and all the other shit women do, all the things Amelia and her firm shill—I want them nowhere near my daughter.
Amelia glances over her shoulder and studies me a moment, as if she senses the shift in my mood. “Maybe,” she says, replacing it gently on the velvet pad.
She walks a few feet ahead, and I stop at a booth where some other men have gathered. I push a few old license plates aside to inspect a pile of car parts.
The woman manning the table nods at me. “I know you.”
“Yeah?”
“Beckwith Motors in Elizabeth, right?” she asks. “My husband and I have been there for work on our ’66 Mustang.”
“Right. I remember. Orange with stripes?�
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She nods. “That’s it.”
“We did a coupe-to-fastback conversion for you.”
“Good memory. You guys are the best in the tri-state area for classic restoration. That Camaro I always see there—it yours?”
I nod. “Been working on it for years. Every time I get started, we get swamped.”
“’68?” she asks. “I think I got something for that.” She pulls out a bin from under the table, drops it in front of me with a thud, and picks out a thin, chrome triangle about the size of my forearm.
“Vent window frame?” I ask.
She nods. “Right side.”
I glance over at Amelia, who’s testing the drawers of a massive armoire. Fuck. I didn’t know she’d take me seriously about that. If she picks something out today, I’m not actually sure how I’d get it to her apartment. And then we’d have to move it again when she finds a new place. I shake my head at myself. Good call, dipshit.
I turn back to the woman. The other men have dispersed, and we’re alone. “How much?”
She shrugs. “I’ll give it to you for ten.”
It’s worth more, but I think she knows that. The piece I have now is a replica, which means I’m eager to swap it for an original. I slide my wallet out of my back pocket and pass her a ten.
“How’s that little girl of yours?” she asks, bagging it up.
“Perfect,” I say, my standard response, and I feel a pang in my chest. I miss her, and though I’m having fun with Amelia, I look forward to picking Bell up soon. I look over my shoulder again as I stuff my wallet back in my pants, but Amelia’s no longer at the armoire. “She’s turning seven soon.”
“Wow. Guess it’s been a while since we were there.”
I scan the market, furrowing my brows when I don’t see her. Even in jeans and a blouse, Amelia wouldn’t blend in. Not to me, anyway. When I spot the back of her head through the crowd, muscles I hadn’t realized I’d been clenching loosen. Until I notice she isn’t alone. At first, I think she’s haggling with the man in a baby blue polo in front of her, but then he puts a hand on her upper arm. She shrugs him off immediately, and I’m speed walking in her direction.
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