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by Sally Goldenbaum




  Banjo Man is a work of fiction. Names, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

  2013 Loveswept eBook Edition

  Copyright © 1985 by Adrienne Staff and Sally Goldenbaum.

  All rights reserved.

  Published in the United States of America by Loveswept, an imprint of Random House, a division of Random House LLC, a Penguin Random House Company, New York.

  LOVESWEPT is a registered trademark and the LOVESWEPT colophon is a trademark of Random House LLC.

  eBook ISBN 978-0-307-82202-4

  Originally published in the United States by Loveswept, an imprint of Random House, a division of Random House LLC, in 1986.

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  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  The Editor’s Corner

  “Rick,” Laurie gasped, “what if this isn’t love? What if it’s a mistake?”

  Rick threw back his head and laughed. “Here,” he said, taking her hand and pressing it to his cheek. “See this face? There’s no mistaking what I feel. And here,” he added, pressing her hand against his chest, “feel this heart? I promise you, it’s no mistake. This is real, Laurie, this is life, and love.”

  “But maybe it’s lust!”

  “Oh, Lord, you’re wonderful!” His laughter rumbled into a growl in his throat. “This is lust!”

  He lifted her in his arms, and tossed her onto the bed. In the same swift movement he was straddling her body, his lips nibbling at the hollow of her throat. He kissed her neck, and face and ears, quickly, playfully, his teasing mouth and words coaxing giggles from her as she wiggled away.

  “That. Laurie O’Neill, is lust,” he said, rocking back on his heels at the foot of the bed. “But darlin’, what happens later … when you’re ready … that’s love.…”

  Prologue

  The lengths of wooden flooring were lined up in stripes, a slice of dark oak, then a light one, in perfect parallel patterns.

  Polished to an impeccable sheen, the floor’s surface brightly reflected the steady swing of the black skirt moving slowly down the long hall toward the Mother Superior’s office. The rhythmic click of a single pair of black shoes and the steady ticktock of the huge grandfather clock in the convent’s parlor were the only sounds breaking the morning stillness.

  Laurie O’Neill coughed softly. There, she thought, at least I know I’m still alive. Tiny flecks of dust danced in the slanted panels of light that fell out of the parlor doorways, and Laurie found herself strangely hypnotized by their movement. She shivered.

  Everything was so quiet. An unearthly quiet. She took a deep breath and rested one hand over her heart to press it into calmness. But she couldn’t—and hadn’t been able to for a long time now. Her whole being resisted the peace here at the convent. It lay in heavy folds all around her, and yet she couldn’t touch it or become part of it. Why? Was there something the matter with her? She had tried so hard, had done everything right. And yet she was still filled with an emptiness that defied explanation or reason. It was just there, right in the center of her, a cold, hollow void that ached to be filled.

  Reaching the end of the hallway, Laurie paused and listened. In the distance she could just barely hear the beginnings of a chant. Matins. The sisters were all gathered in the high-ceilinged chapel for meditation and morning prayer. Listening intently to the lovely, pure sounds, Laurie gazed at the wide front hallway, lingering on the ornately carved front door.

  In that instant she was swept back five years, to the crisp September morning when she and her best high-school friend, Ellen Farrell, had come through the same huge double doors, hearts thumping, hands shaking, their last cigarettes stubbed out with dramatic sighs and tossed into the bushes just outside the door. It had been five years since they’d thrown their heads back, their eyes bright with the naive dreams of youth, and begun the postulancy of the Sisters of Divine Mercy.

  Ellen had lasted exactly six weeks. She’d been the class clown, the one who got them to laugh through those early, tense days when rules were carefully laid out as neatly as the boards in the floor and silence was wrapped around them in suffocating folds. Ellen had teased them all through it in her lighthearted, irreverent way, until the rules and regime seemed bearable, acceptable—a part of life. And then she left. It was early one morning, just like today.

  She’d been asked not to tell anyone, and Laurie still remembered acutely the stabbing fear she’d felt that day in chapel when Ellen’s place was empty. And then it was empty again at vespers. And Laurie knew her best friend in all the world had left. She’d cried into her pillow for many nights afterward, but finally was able to move ahead. After all, the postulancy mistress had pointed out, she hadn’t joined the convent for Ellen. She’d be just fine. Ellen simply wasn’t cut out for this kind of life; but she, Laurie O’Neill, had the true calling.

  Laurie’s gray eyes darkened with pain. But no … she did not have it. And now the silent hours and moments of her life here were drawing swiftly to a close.

  It was time to go.

  Squaring her shoulders, Laurie rounded the corner and entered the Mother Superior’s office to sign the papers that would release her from her temporary vows.

  Mother Joan Mary hugged her kindly and wished her well. But it was a shame, the Mother Superior added softly as she moved toward the door. Laurie had seemed happy as a sister, had seemed to be such a beautiful bride of the Church. “Yes, it is a real shame, Sister Loretta Ann,” she whispered again as she slipped out the door and left Laurie alone to wipe away the tears and change into her clothes for whatever waited outside.

  Well, Laurie thought stubbornly as she stepped out of the heavy black skirt and slid the veil off her head, perhaps it was a shame. But it was right. No matter what her family thought, when she’d explained it all on visiting day, no matter what the other sisters said, no matter how scared she was … deep down inside herself she had the solid comfort of knowing she, Laurie O’Neill, was right.

  At the moment, that was little comfort indeed. Panic fluttered in her throat, the same panic that had kept her awake at night for weeks now, worrying and wondering about what lay ahead. How would she face the world she had left behind when she was eighteen? How would she handle it all? The prospect of even the simplest things, like eating alone in a restaurant, buying her own clothes, meeting people—meeting men!—froze her blood and made her heart thud painfully in her chest.

  Her fingers fumbled at the snaps of her blouse. For just a second she wanted to cry, I can’t do it! I’m not brave enough!, and give in to defeat. She’d stay, hiding her head beneath the crisp white convent sheets, and never come out. It was the thought of men that did it.

  Would they be attracted to her? How would she react to them? Certainly not the way she had at eighteen, when she was shy and obedient to her parents’ commands. And yet… and yet there was a yawning gulf created by five years in the convent that seemed suddenly impossible to cross. She had grown older, but certainly no wiser in relation to the opposite sex! What did she know about dating? Kissing? Touching? Loving!

  Quickly she rubbed her eyes with her fingers, swallowed hard, and tipped up her chin. It was a delicate chin, b
ut stubborn, part of the ingrained, time-honed Irish stubbornness that made her square her narrow shoulders, stiffen her spine, and fasten her even white teeth over her full, trembling lower lip. She’d come this far. She was not going to be beaten now.

  She tore at the wrappings on the parcel-post package Ellen had sent, and only then did the ripples of fear begin to ease and make room for growing excitement about what lay ahead. In less than a day she’d be with Ellen—and beginning her new life!

  Ellen had written not to worry, that she’d take care of everything; and she had, from the brown cotton dress to the handbag to the beat-up Mercury she’d arranged for Laurie to drive to D.C. Laurie grinned. Ellen might be a bit crazy, but she was certainly the best friend a girl could have.

  “You must come home first,” her father had insisted when she’d told him of her plans. But that was the one thing Laurie O’Neill knew with all her heart she couldn’t do. Not yet. If she fell back into the protective embrace of her family now, before she had her feet firmly planted on the ground, she might never be able to stand alone.

  With renewed determination Laurie pulled the dress over her head and glanced hastily into a glass-fronted cabinet. A long, needle-sharp shiver raced through her whole body, from head to toe. So much of her showed! A goodly portion of leg, all of each arm, and, above the gently scalloped neckline, the pale, translucent skin of her chest and neck. She felt naked! Grabbing a long-sleeved sweater Ellen had mercifully thrown in, she dared a second glance into the cabinet.

  How would others see her? she wondered. Was she pretty? Would people on the outside like her? She tried a smile, and pushed her fingers nervously through her clipped coppery hair. Would she meet men? How? And if she did, what in heaven’s name would she have to talk about—the merits of wearing a serge habit in the dead of winter?

  “Laurie O’Neill,” she scolded aloud, “you’ve put the cart way before the horse! Cut the melodrama and get going!”

  Slipping her stockinged feet into a pair of beige flats, she smoothed the dress and snapped open the pocketbook. Ellen had thought of everything—lipstick, blusher, a wallet for the money her parents had sent, a little map directing her to Ellen’s apartment in Washington, a tiny, airplane-sized bottle of Irish whiskey, with a note—“for medicinal purposes”—taped on the side, and a small handkerchief. Ellen had folded a tiny piece of paper into the cloth, and Laurie read it slowly: Wrap up your tears in this, and leave them there in Pennsylvania. The sun’s in the sky, God’s in His heaven, and I’m here in Washington waiting for you. All’s right with the world, and it awaits you, Laurie O’Neill!

  The world awaits you … “And I’m ready for you,” Laurie breathed softly. “I hope …”

  With one long, sweeping glance she committed to memory the place that had been home for five years, then slipped silently out into the blustery February morning and began the long drive to Washington, D.C., to Ellen’s apartment, to a new job … and her brand-new life.

  One

  Laurie brushed the damp tendrils of hair off her forehead and tried to force some life back into her exhausted body. Dropping the drab brown suitcase to the floor outside Ellen’s apartment, she looked dimly at her wristwatch: 3:02 A.M.

  And she hadn’t even had the presence of mind to call Ellen. Not when her brakes failed, not when she took the wrong exit. Not when she pulled over to the side of the road to wipe the tears away. Ellen wouldn’t be expecting her anymore, would think she was coming in the next day. Ellen would suppose … but Laurie couldn’t think anymore.

  She knocked weakly on the door.

  The soft, dim light in the silent hallway cast eerie shadows around her, and she knocked again, shifting from one foot to the other. She had lived an eternity in one day, and she was ready for it to come to an end! Shattering the night stillness, she pounded more loudly on the door, and the sound bounced off the thinly papered walls.

  The shuffling behind the closed door had barely reached her ears when the lock clicked and the door was flung open.

  Laurie’s mouth dropped open, but no words came out. Facing her, with but inches between his bare chest and her trembling self, was an incredibly handsome, very sleepy-looking man, lazily tugging up the zipper on his faded jeans.

  If she were ever going to faint, now was the time to do it. How nice simply to pitch over onto her face and wake up to find Ellen standing there, instead of… instead of this unimaginably gorgeous half-naked man. Come on, knees, she prayed, do your thing.

  But nothing happened.

  Of course not, a tiny voice inside her mocked. How can you faint when you’re so busy staring at his chest? But there was nothing on it! And it was right there in front of her, such an amazingly virile chest, the skin dark and smooth, dusted with dark, curly hair. And there were so many muscles: the sculpted curve of muscle across his upper chest, the flat, hard band of muscle flowing down between his ribs to his navel, and then the lean muscular patch of belly visible inside the zipper’s open V. Oh, Lord … what in the world was she doing?

  Laurie’s eyes flew to his face and met a sleepy, amused grin. “Well, that was quite a once-over, ma’am,” he drawled. “Do I get my turn now?” He winked and tugged his zipper higher, buttoned his jeans, and settled them comfortably low on his lean hips. His eyes never left Laurie’s face.

  Every nerve in Laurie’s body seemed to flame. Her head began to spin, and black spots as big as whales swam before her eyes. Well, she thought resignedly, better late than never. And as her eyes clung to the fading image of the man in front of her, her knees gave way.

  The stranger caught her to him, and held her tightly there, pressed against his sleep-warmed body. “Hey, hold on. Are you okay? Hey—” He curved one arm around her back to hold her slender weight, then used his free hand to brush the damp, clinging strands of hair off her pale cheeks. “I was only teasing. My bark is definitely worse than my bite!”

  He stared down at the trembling girl in his arms, and a strange tightness closed his throat. She was lovely, with a beauty as fragile and haunting as the heroines in the old ballads he loved. Cursing himself silently, he tipped up her chin and drew a hand gently across her brow. When he spoke aloud, his voice held a husky gentleness. “Hey, there, I’m sorry, sweet thing; I didn’t mean to frighten you. I’m no dangerous sex fiend, just a half-awake banjo player with a rough sense of humor.”

  Laurie heard the words from far away, as if she were floating somewhere high overhead, or deep beneath the waves. She tried to answer, to assure him that she was absolutely fine and didn’t mean to be so silly, but she couldn’t quite find her voice. Her lashes fluttered open, revealing huge gray eyes filled with dismay and embarrassment, and her gaze brushed his face like a butterfly’s wing.

  Rick Westin felt the touch of that gaze, and reacted to it instantly. In one strong sweep he had Laurie up in his arms, cradled against his chest. He pushed the door open all the way with one hip, and strode into the room. For a moment he hesitated in front of the sofa, but shook his head and went right through the living room and into the only bedroom.

  The blankets were thrown back, the sheets wrinkled from his weight. The pillow still bore the imprint of his head. Without a word he bent, placed Laurie on the bed, and sat down on the edge next to her, his jean-clad thigh agonizingly close to Laurie’s bare arm.

  Squeezing her eyes closed, she crossed both arms over her breasts, her hands clenched into small, shaky fists.

  Rick laughed. “You look like you’re ready to give up the ghost, darlin’. Relax. You’re safe here, I promise.” But there was a husky sensuality in his voice that made him sound anything but safe. “Relax,” he ordered again, prying her hands loose and running his palms slowly down her arms in what was meant to be a comforting gesture.

  Little did he know the effect he was having on Laurie O’Neill.

  “I—I don’t think I can relax like this,” she said with a gasp, struggling toward the far end of the bed. “Maybe if you went away … or if
I got up and went away … or something.”

  “Then you’re feeling a little better?”

  “No, I don’t think so. I can’t breathe, and … and my heart’s pounding.”

  “I know. I can feel it.”

  “Ohhhh,” Laurie groaned, not wanting to be reminded of just how close their bodies were. “Let me go. I think I can stand up now.”

  “Sure?”

  “No! I’m not sure about anything, except that I’m tired and miserable, and I must be lost—”

  “Why?”

  “Because you couldn’t possibly be sleeping here if this is where I’m supposed to be staying. Ellen wouldn’t do that to me. She couldn’t! She’d have warned me—” Laurie wailed.

  “Whoa! So you’re Ellen’s long-lost friend! Listen, she figured you’d changed your mind, when you didn’t call. So she let me con her into staying overnight. You see”—he rambled on, seeking to soothe her with the steady, comforting timbre of his voice—“I found this great mutt of a dog on the road last Sunday and brought him home, and now I’m having my place bombed for fleas. The dog’s at the vet’s, being similarly treated, and I needed a place to stay tonight. Ellen had graveyard duty in the Emergency Room, and you weren’t here, so everything worked out fine. Or was supposed to, anyway. There.” He stopped talking and pushed her gently back against the pillow. “Now you know you’re not lost. What can I do about tired and miserable, hmmm?”

  When he smiled, Laurie felt shivers dance up her arms. Before she had only been aware of his body, that surprising, shocking seminakedness, the darkly tanned flesh. Now, as if for the first time, she saw his face. He had rather wild dark hair, a lot of it, and very dark eyes, a strong, sensual mouth, and a sharp cleft in his chin, half hidden by the heavy shadow of beard that darkened his jaw. But it was his eyes that hypnotized her; they were a brown so dark and warm it needed another name. Cocoa, she mused, or chocolate, or coffee.

  Nervous laughter bubbled in her throat. “I must be hungry.” She gasped, struggling to get hold of herself. That had to be the explanation: hunger and exhaustion, and shock! What else could explain these crazy thoughts and feelings that were tumbling around inside her?

 

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