“No,” Lucy said calmly. “I think we’re going to go over there, and he’s going to stick to his story, and we’re going to leave. And then he’s not going to be able to sleep tonight, because he’s going to be thinking about his words sending an innocent man to prison.”
Blue laughed. “Get real, Pollyanna,” he said. “He’s gonna spend the evening counting his blood money and drinking himself into a stupor. The fate of my sorry ass won’t even drift across his soggy mind.”
“He may not even let us in the door,” Lucy admitted. “But we have to try.” She pulled her truck to a stop outside the Parkers’ little bungalow. “After lunch, I want to go up to Gate’s Hill Road and start canvassing the neighborhood. Somebody had to see or hear something unusual that night.”
“And if nobody did?”
She met his gaze evenly. “Then we’re going to check motor-vehicle registration records, find a list of all the owners of trucks with oversize tires. We’ll go check ’em all out, find out whose tires still have new treads. And if that doesn’t give us a lead, we’ll get a copy of the guest list for that country-club party and go and talk to every single person on it. I still want to find out if Gerry was only pretending to be drunk at the party. Someone somewhere knows something.”
Blue’s face softened as he smiled at her. “You’re not going to give up on this, are you, Yankee?”
Lucy shook her head. “No.” He should know that she wasn’t going to give up on this case—or on him. If she could endure that visit with Jenny Lee Beaumont, she could handle just about anything. Shoot, watching Blue put his arms around Jenny in a comforting embrace had been deadly. And sitting there like that in Jenny Lee’s picture-perfect living room had been awkward—Blue together with both his high-school sweetheart and his lover from last night. Of course, Jenny probably hadn’t known that Lucy and Blue were lovers. But Lucy had, and it was weird.
Lucy had expended a great deal of energy trying not to watch for signs of Blue’s old chemistry with Jenny. Still, she couldn’t help but wonder if Blue had closed his eyes and pictured himself making love to Jenny Lee last night. Lucy had had temporary possession of Blue’s body, but Jenny probably still owned Blue’s heart.
Lucy would have given just about anything to have even a short-term lease on Blue’s heart. But that wasn’t going to happen. He’d made that more than clear this morning.
The silence in the truck dragged on much longer than it should have as Lucy lost herself in the hot depths of Blue’s eyes. He still wanted her. She could see desire swirling in among the blue. She could see it in the set of his jaw, in the tension in his lips. What had transpired between them last night hadn’t been enough. He wanted more.
But he turned away, clearly intent on denying himself even the warm pleasure of the memory of their lovemaking. Was it seeing Jenny Lee again? Lucy wondered. Could Blue’s former girlfriend still have that much power over him? Lucy’s stomach hurt. She’d told Blue just this morning that she was his friend. But she was his lover now, too. She knew that if he came to her room again tonight, she wouldn’t be able to refuse him anything he wanted or needed. She loved him that much.
But what about what Lucy needed?
Blue looked out the windshield at Matt Parker’s house and took a deep breath. “Let’s get this over with.”
CHAPTER TWELVE
THEY WERE IN luck. Little Tommy Parker answered the door and let them in the house.
Lucy knew from the look in Matt Parker’s eyes that he wouldn’t even have opened the screen door to talk to them. But now they were here, in his tiny living room.
She looked around. The furniture was shabby, but clean. In fact, the entire house looked well kept. The ancient orange shag carpeting had been recently vacuumed and the surfaces of the end tables were clear and free from dust and clutter.
She could hear the sounds of Sunday dinner being cooked down the short hallway that led to the kitchen. Utensils banged against pots, and dishes clattered as a table was set. The fragrant smell of onions frying drifted out into the living room.
Blue went farther into the room and turned off the TV that was on.
“Travis told me he was handling this case now.” Parker’s eyes shifted from Lucy to Blue and then back. He was clearly remembering the fight outside the gas station. His nose was still swollen, and he touched it gingerly. “McCoy is not welcome in my house.”
“We just want to ask you some questions,” Lucy said soothingly. “You don’t have a reason to want to hide the truth from us, do you, Matt?”
His eyes flicked back to Blue. “Of course not.” He shifted slightly in his seat in a well-worn reclining chair. “But I answered all these questions already. My statement is down at the police station. Why don’t you just get a copy of that, instead of bugging me again?”
“Well, we do have a copy of your statement,” Lucy said, carefully keeping her voice reasonable and calm. “However, it raised an additional question or two, because Blue wasn’t anywhere near Gate’s Hill Road at the time you allegedly saw him there with Gerry.”
Parker stood up. “Are you saying I’m a liar?”
“No, sir.” Lucy gazed steadily at him. “You’re too smart to get yourself into a situation where you’d have to perjure yourself in a court of law. You know the punishment for that can be a hefty fine along with jail time.” She shook her head. “No, you’re just mistaken about exactly what you saw. You must’ve seen someone else—not Blue. I’d like you to spend some time tonight thinking about it, because it would sure be a shame if your testimony sent an innocent man to prison, wouldn’t it?”
She turned, heading back toward the door, and from the corner of her eyes she saw a shadow in the hallway, near the kitchen. It was Matt’s wife, Darlene, but she disappeared before Lucy could even say hello.
“Let me know if you think of anything new,” Lucy told Parker. She opened the front door and Blue followed her outside.
She could feel Parker—or maybe it was Darlene—watching them as they walked down the path to the street and her truck.
“You did okay,” Blue told her as they got into her truck. “You said just enough to make the guilt stick—provided Parker has a conscience.”
“Thanks.” Lucy put the truck in gear and headed back toward the main road. “You did okay, too.”
“I just stood there.”
“Exactly.” She glanced at him, unable to hide a smile. “You didn’t slam him against the wall and threaten to tear his throat out. I know that’s what you wanted to do.”
His lips twitched upward into an answering smile. “I’m hurt and offended you could think such a thing, Yankee.”
“Am I wrong?”
His smile became a grin. It transformed his face, making him look younger—and nearly paralyzingly handsome. “No, ma’am.”
Lucy had to laugh. But when their eyes met, something sparked, something molten, something hot and liquid and filled with the trembling echoes of last night. As he’d done before, Blue was the first to look away.
Lucy turned her attention back to the road, trying not to care. Yet she couldn’t help but feel disappointed. And she knew with a dreadful certainty exactly what she wanted, precisely what she needed.
She needed Blue McCoy by her side for the rest of her life.
Fat chance of that happening. But maybe if she played it right, she’d have Blue by her side again tonight. It was a pathetic substitute for what she really wanted, but it was all she could hope for.
Except Blue was still clearly uncomfortable with the hazy definition of their relationship. Were they friends, or were they lovers? He didn’t seem to understand that they could be both. He didn’t seem to realize that the best of lovers always were the best of friends, too.
If only she had enough time, she could set him straight. But time was not on her side.
Lucy glanced back at Blue, forcing a smile. “Come on, McCoy. Let’s go knock on some doors up near Gate’s Hill Road before lunch. Le
t’s shake this town up. Maybe something of interest will fall out.”
* * *
Dinner was over. The dishes had been cleaned up.
Lucy had gone out onto the porch to look up at the night sky and get a breath of fresh air.
Blue knew he shouldn’t follow her out there. He’d told himself at least a hundred times during dinner and probably a thousand times during the course of the day that sex could not be a regular part of his relationship with Lucy. He respected her too much to use her that way. Unfortunately, that didn’t stop him from wanting her. And he did. He wanted her so badly it hurt. But he’d lived through pain before. He could do it again.
They’d talked about the investigation over dinner, going over and over the same facts again and again, trying to find whatever it was that they were missing, searching for some kind of lead.
They’d learned nothing from their endless knocking on doors and questioning the folks who lived near the spot where Gerry had died. They’d learned nothing from Jenny Lee, nothing from Matt Parker.
It was frustrating as hell.
Blue picked up the phone and tried calling the naval base in California again. But Alpha Squad was still off base and the officer from Internal Affairs was still taking all calls. Blue tried to squash the frustration that rose inside him. He needed some serious help, yet here he was, on his own.
Not entirely on his own—he had Lucy Tait on his side.
Wanting desperately to see her warm, familiar smile, Blue pushed open the door and stepped outside onto the porch. He was coming out here to say good-night to her. Only to say good-night.
She was sitting on the steps, looking at the stars. She glanced up when she heard the door and smiled. Blue felt simultaneously better and worse. Mercy, he wanted to make love to her again tonight.
But he couldn’t let himself. It wouldn’t be right.
He sat down dangerously close to her—on the steps instead of across the porch on the swing—even though he knew sparks were going to fly. But he was a demolitions expert. He was used to handling volatile substances. He could sit here, close enough to breathe in Lucy’s clean, fresh scent, and he could still find the strength to stand up and walk away from her. He knew he could.
“Pleiades,” she said, pointing up to the stars. “It’s my favorite constellation. It’s the—”
“That little tiny cluster of stars,” Blue said. “I know the constellations.”
Lucy looked at him. “Don’t tell me SEALs are trained in astronomy.”
“Intergalactic space navigation,” he corrected her. “In case we need to run a rescue mission on some planet in the Andromeda galaxy.”
She looked at him and laughed. He loved the sound of her laughter. He had to fight to keep from reaching out and pushing a strand of her hair back behind her ear.
“You know you say things like that so seriously I almost believe you,” she told him.
“Alpha Squad has trained to fly the space shuttle,” he said. “We haven’t had the opportunity yet, but if the need arose, we’d be ready.”
“You sound so casual about it,” Lucy said, turning slightly on the stairs so that she was facing him. “As if hundreds, probably thousands, of hours of training are insignificant.”
She’d changed from her jeans to a pair of cutoff shorts when they’d arrived home and Blue couldn’t keep his eyes from traveling the long, smooth lengths of her legs. Just last night he’d run his hands and his mouth over every inch of those beautiful, sexy legs….
He forced himself to shrug, bringing his gaze back up to her face. “That particular training op was fun. Some of them aren’t.”
“Like what?”
He shrugged again. “Some of the guys really hate the submarine work. It’s pretty claustrophobic stuff. Others turn green at the high-altitude parachute jumps. And most SEALs didn’t have fun during the Arctic survival training.”
“But those things didn’t bother you.”
“No.” He smiled. “I could handle the physical training. My personal hell was trying to learn a different language. I busted my ass for that one.”
Blue could see amusement shining in Lucy’s eyes. “Are you serious?”
“I am now fluent in German,” he continued. “And I can parlez-vous enough to get by in French and Arabic, but let me tell you it was a real uphill battle. I would’ve gladly taken a repeat session on Arctic survival, instead.”
“Why did you have to learn a language, too?” Lucy asked. “I thought you said Joe Cat was the language specialist in your unit.”
Blue shifted down several steps, leaning back on the porch with his elbows and stretching his legs out in front of him. He’d hoped his movement would get him away from the magnetic pull of Lucy’s eyes, but now he was inches from the satiny skin of her thighs. He felt sweat trickle down the middle of his back.
“He is,” he answered her. “But we all need to have at least one language besides English that we can speak fluently. It’s important on an overseas mission not to look and sound like an American. That can be a real kiss of death. Part of SEAL Team Ten’s counterterrorist training is learning how to insert into a country and blend in. Hide in plain sight.” He sighed, shaking his head. “But I tell you, it was frustrating as hell watching Cat plow through language after language, sounding like a native after only a day or two of listening to the tapes. He was learning two different dialects of Russian while I was still stumbling over ‘Guten Tag, wie geht es dir? Meine Nahme ist Fritz.’”
“Your name is Fritz?” Lucy repeated, covering her mouth with her hand as she tried not to laugh.
“Fritz or Hans or Johann,” Blue said, smiling back at her. “When I go on an overseas mission to someplace like Cairo or Kathmandu, I play a German because of my hair. I’ve even learned to speak English with a heavy Deutsch accent.”
Lucy looked away from him and up at the stars again, trying to imagine the extent of the effort Blue had put in to become a SEAL. Clearly it wasn’t all physical training. He had worked hard to get where he was. He’d truly wanted it badly enough.
The sound of insects scratching and buzzing and humming and rattling filled the night air. “You never fail to amaze me,” Lucy finally said, so softly he had to lean forward to hear her.
“You’re pretty amazing yourself, Yankee.” Their gazes locked, and Blue felt himself drop into a wild free-fall of sexual energy that rivaled his most intense skydiving jumps. Except right now he wasn’t wearing any kind of parachute. God only knows how he was going to land without hurting himself. Or Lucy.
“I’m not amazing. I’m a coward,” she said, looking away from him. “You’ve gone so many different places and had so many adventures.” She sighed. “You were right about Hatboro Creek. There are places that I’d rather be, but look at me. I ended up back here.” She stood and gazed up at her big Victorian house, looming above them in the darkness. “Living here was my mother’s dream, not mine.”
“What’s keeping you from selling and moving on?” Blue asked quietly.
Lucy held out her hand for him, and he hesitated only a moment before taking it and letting her pull him to his feet. But she let go of him almost immediately. He followed her in the soft moonlight around to the side of the house.
“I know exactly what I’m getting in Hatboro Creek,” she said as they walked slowly into the backyard. “It’s safe and secure—no risk. Like I told you, I’m a coward.”
“Just because it’s hard for you to throw away your mother’s dreams,” Blue said softly, “doesn’t make you a coward.”
Lucy turned and looked at him, the moonlight reflecting the surprise in her eyes. “Don’t tell me. SEALs are trained in basic psychology.”
“The psychology we learn isn’t basic,” he said with a smile. But then his smile faded and he gazed at her steadily, his eyes serious. “No, I’m talking from experience, Lucy. I stayed in Hatboro Creek as long as I did because it was my mother’s dream.”
Lucy’s pace had
slowed. She was watching him as they walked, waiting for him to tell her more. But now that he’d started this conversation, he wasn’t sure that he could. He’d never talked to anyone about his mother, not even Joe Cat. But he wanted to make Lucy understand that she wasn’t alone. It was the least he could do for a friend.
“My mother married Arthur McCoy because he was an honest and decent man. He wasn’t necessarily a kind man, but she did the best she could in the time she had,” Blue said. “See, she knew she had cancer—she knew she was dying. She married Arthur for me—so that I wouldn’t be all alone in the world after she was gone.”
Lucy was silent, just listening.
Blue took a deep breath and went on. “It was her dream that there would be someone in Hatboro Creek who would take care of me, someone who would love me and keep me safe. She wanted to know that I’d grow up here, in this little town, in a good home. She made me promise I’d stay until I finished school.”
They’d walked all the way back to the end of the yard and up the trail through the woods to the back field where there was a small pond. The moon reflected almost perfectly on the glass-calm surface of the water. It was beautiful, but Lucy couldn’t look away from Blue’s face as he continued to talk.
“I made a promise, so I stayed.” Blue’s voice was softer now. “Even when it was clear that her dream wasn’t going to come true—that Arthur McCoy had nothing to spare for me outside of a bed to sleep in and food to eat.”
Lucy gazed at Blue in the moonlight. He was a man for whom talk did not come easily, and this was particularly difficult for him to talk about. As she looked in his eyes, she could see a distant reflection of the little boy he’d been, lost and alone. His basic needs had been taken care of, but he’d truly needed so much more. He still did.
Lucy knew at that moment that she loved Blue McCoy without any doubts, without any reservations. It had seemed so complicated last night and this morning, but it really wasn’t. It was as simple as it could possibly be.
Her heart ached, and she had to wonder if anyone, anyone, had ever told this man that he or she loved him. She knew if she spoke the words that he would back away. She knew that he no longer wanted love, that he saw it as a burden, an unlucky twist of fate, a weight to be carried. And she knew that even if he were to change his mind, he wouldn’t want her to be the one who loved him. He’d want someone perfect and feminine. Someone special and sweet…like Jenny Lee.
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