Ian never responded or looked around at her. He kept propelling her onward, and Hart stepped out of the shadow of the boathouse.
Eleanor dropped Ian’s hand. She froze, a slender upright against what light drifted down to the river, then she was running toward him, skirts swirling. Hart knew he should stay hidden, but he couldn’t stop himself going to meet her—four steps, five, six, seven.
Then she was in front of him. Hart caught and lifted her, spinning her around with him. He buried his face in her neck, inhaling her goodness, feeling her warm against him. Safe. I’m safe. Hart’s body shuddered once with a great, wrenching sob.
Eleanor was crying, her hands coming up to cup his face. She stroked his beard, staring at him in wonder.
“What happened, Hart? What happened to you? My goodness, but you look awful.”
Eleanor’s heart flooded with happiness. He was here, whole, with her. The flower had told her he was all right, but she needed to touch him to believe it.
She caressed his face and the strange beard, Hart looking so different and yet the same. His eyes still blazed like golden fire, even though his clothes were rough, and he smelled of the river. She put her arms around him and held on, so happy she couldn’t speak.
“El,” he whispered. “My El.”
He turned her face up to his and kissed her. The taste of him, so familiar, so much a part of her, broke her heart.
She squirmed out of his arms and thumped her fists to his chest. “Why the devil didn’t you send word? I was sick with worry, waiting and waiting…”
He had the gall to look surprised—so like him. “I sent the signal. I know you saw it.”
“Oh, do you? You were watching me?”
“Had someone watching you,” he said.
“Of course you did. Then why did you not let me send a message back? I scoured the square for any sign of who had left the flower, but no one noticed anything. Useless of them.”
“I heard that too. I did not want you to find him, or me, because it was dangerous.”
“Well, yes, I understand why you wanted no one to follow him to your hiding place. But you might have trusted me to be covert.”
“I mean, it was dangerous for you!” Hart’s usual shouting growl broke free. “What would have happened if an enemy knew I was still alive and you were communicating with me? He might have tried to use you to bring me out of hiding, might have tried to hurt you until you told him where I was.”
“I never would have,” Eleanor said. “Not even under torture.”
“Damn it, I didn’t want you to be tortured!”
Eleanor cupped his cheek. “Oh. That’s sweet.”
Ian came tramping toward them, boots grating on the gravel. “You are making too much noise.”
Hart caught Eleanor’s hand in his hard grip. “You are right, Ian. As usual. Come with me, El. I want to show you something.”
“Can you show me at home? It’s so very cold out here. It is all right now, you know. Inspector Fellows found all the assassins. At last. Do you know, I believe he is sweet on Isabella’s sister. We will have to make sure they are both at Kilmorgan for the summer—”
She found his blunt fingers on her lips, his hands now rough and calloused. “Eleanor, please stop talking for a fleeting instant, and come with me. It will be warm; I promise.”
Eleanor kissed his fingers. “What are you going to show me?”
He gave her a familiar, exasperated look. “Can you come along without asking questions?”
“Hmm, I can see that living rough hasn’t dampened your arrogance. All right, then. Show me. And then, we go home.”
Hart’s expression changed to the triumphant one. Oh, dear.
Hart started walking up the shingle, his arm around Eleanor. She liked being so warm against him, in the protective circle of his strong arm. She babbled because the release from her sickening fear wouldn’t let her do otherwise, but her heart sang.
“Ian,” Hart said as they walked. “Stop at the boat there, and tell Reeve he’ll get his money tomorrow morning. The publican by the bridge lets rooms—El and I will spend the night there. Then send word to Kilmorgan—discreetly—that I will be there soon.”
Ian nodded. He sank his fingers into Hart’s shoulder, then jogged away toward Reeve’s boat, disappearing into the darkness. Ian would do it, and not betray them.
The publican and his wife had already gone to bed, but Eleanor put several crowns into the publican’s hand. The man and his wife opened a room and started a fire in its stove, then shook out sheets for the bed while Eleanor stood by the shuttered window, out of the way.
Hart asked for a bath. The publican’s wife gave him a dark look, but another crown later, they brought a hip bath and some towels and filled the bath with cans of steaming water.
The publican asked no questions, but both he and his wife gave Hart and Eleanor curious stares before they left them alone.
“They believe I am a courtesan,” Eleanor said. “How amusing.”
Hart stripped off his soiled clothing. “Do you care what they think?”
“Not really,” Eleanor said. “But as happy as I am to be out of the wind, I will point out that your London house is warmer, and your bathtub larger. And you have running water.”
Hart fished a folded newspaper out of his coat pocket and tossed it on the bed. “That is why.”
Eleanor didn’t glance at the paper. Instead, she watched Hart peel off his trousers and the flannels he wore underneath, and then step, naked, into the bath.
Hart lowered himself into the heat, letting out a sigh of satisfaction. Eleanor’s gaze riveted to him, her large, handsome husband, now soaking wet, skin gleaming with water.
“Read the newspaper, El,” Hart said. He picked up the cake of soap and lavished it over himself.
Eleanor glanced at the bed. “I’ve read that one. The news about the elections is in it.”
“I know.” He let out a breath, collapsing against the end of the small tub. He had to raise his knees to fit. “That is what I want to show you, El. The coalition, the elections, the government… the world. They have moved on.” He spread his arms, letting water drip to the floor. “And I am still here.”
“True,” Eleanor said, her gaze back on Hart. “Some of your colleagues have scarcely stopped to mourn you. It’s rather disgusting.”
“Not what I mean. While I’ve been living on that boat, El, the world has passed me by. I always thought that, without me, it wouldn’t. Everything would crumble and fall, unable to get on without me managing it. But I was wrong.”
She watched him with a worried look. “And this pleases you?”
“Yes.” Hart vigorously rubbed his hair, droplets flying. “Because, love, watching the world from afar brought it home to me. I don’t have to run it. I have set things in motion and given Fleming his push. And now—I can stop.”
He heaved a sigh and slid down into the water, the suds closing over him like a blanket.
Eleanor had never seen him like this. He was relaxed in the ridiculously small tub, uncaring, his grin full of true mirth. Laughing at himself. Though Hart had teased and laughed when he’d courted her long ago, he’d been, in truth, propelling himself toward a goal. Always, Hart Mackenzie had an underlying drive that made anything on the surface just that—on the surface. Right now, he was… himself.
“Are you certain you are feeling quite well?” Eleanor asked. “Ian told me you’d taken a blow on the head from the explosion.”
Hart laughed out loud. He was delectable all wet, his hair slicked with water, his big limbs hanging out of the tub. And the beard. It had startled Eleanor when he’d first stepped into the light, but the softness of it against her lips hadn’t been unpleasant at all.
“I’ve been mad my entire life,” Hart said. “Driven. To take care of my brothers, to make sure we survived, then to take care of the nation, the world if I could. I’ve been terrified that if I stopped, if something happened to me, e
verything would go to hell. But it hasn’t, has it? It’s wonderful. And I am so bloody tired.”
“But what about the elections? Your party will win. Everyone thinks so.”
“Fleming can lead them. He’ll be good at it, and he’s not a trumped-up aristocrat no one will listen to. He will give Gladstone a run for his money.”
“But if you come back, you can win. I know this.”
“No. I am finished.”
His laughter died into a relieved sigh. The mad light perpetually in Hart’s eyes was absent. At the moment, he was an ordinary man enjoying the simple pleasure of a bath.
“But what about Scotland?” Eleanor asked. “Returning the Stone of Destiny?”
“A stupid dream. The queen adores Scotland, and she’ll never let it go. The days of Highland might and Bonnie Prince Charlie are over, thank God. The strength of Scotland will return one day, but it will take time. I wanted to force it, but I might have made it worse. Look at the mess in Ireland.” Hart splashed more water over his body and rocked up out of the tub, water crashing back into it. “The Stone of Destiny will return to Scotland—someday. I feel it in my bones.” He grinned. “But not today.”
Chapter 22
Eleanor cared nothing at the moment about the elections, the Stone of Destiny, and Scottish pride. She saw only Hart, tall and wet and naked, rising from his bath.
Water darkened the hair on his head and his legs, and on that between his thighs. He was hard with wanting, his smile telling her he knew she liked what she saw. Hart might have said the world would go on without him, but his conceit certainly hadn’t diminished.
The days of worry, fear, hope, and dread washed over Eleanor in a great wave, and her bravado deserted her. She pressed her hand to her mouth as she ran at Hart and flung her arms around him.
Hart swept her up and into his wet embrace. Her dress got soaked, and she didn’t care.
“I thought you were dead,” she sobbed. “I didn’t want you to be dead.”
“I hurt every minute I was away from you, El. Every bloody minute.”
Hart carried her to the bed, coming down on it with her. He got her out of her clothes, tearing buttons from holes, hooks from fabric. Eleanor helped him, throwing off the last of her clothes, needing to be bare against him.
Hart entered her with a gasp of desperation, and then he stilled. They lay together, face-to-face on the high bed, Eleanor’s sobs quieting.
“Eleanor,” he whispered. “I love you so much.”
“I love you too.” Eleanor touched his hair. “I’m going to have a baby.”
Hart stared. “What?”
“A child. A boy, I’m fairly sure. Your son.”
“A baby?”
Eleanor nodded. “I hope you don’t mind.”
“Mind?” He shouted the word, and at the same time, the golden eyes of Hart Mackenzie flooded with tears. “Why the devil should I mind? I love you, El, love you.”
He laughed as he said it, then he came into her. Eleanor wound her arms around him, laughing with him as he started to frantically love her.
When Eleanor woke, hours later, Hart was asleep facedown beside her, hugging a pillow, blissfully calm.
She loved this—the quiet of the room, the snap of the fire in the stove, she and her husband in a little nest shut away from the world. Only Ian Mackenzie knew where they were, and Ian would never tell.
Would this last? Eleanor wondered. When Hart went home to Kilmorgan, when the world realized he was still in it, would Hart remember his declaration tonight? Or would the world and his ambition swallow him again?
She wouldn’t let it. Ambition was all very well, but now Hart would have a family. She would make sure he never forgot that.
A warm touch on her abdomen made her jump. Eleanor looked down to see Hart’s hand on her belly, he watching her. His leg was twined with hers, a fine position.
“What are you thinking, El?”
Eleanor rearranged her expression. “I was wondering…”
“Yes, minx? What were you wondering?”
“What we did in Mrs. McGuire’s upstairs chamber. Do you remember?”
Hart’s growing smile told her he did. “It is burned on my brain. I could see you in the mirror. It was heaven.”
Eleanor’s face heated. “Is that the sort of thing you did at the High Holborn house?”
He lost his smile. “No.”
“Well, then, what did you do?”
Hart turned onto his back and scrubbed his hand over his face. “El, I do not want to talk about the house and what I did there. Especially not now.”
“Now is as good a time as any.”
“I was much younger then. The first time I lived there, I did not know you; the second time, I was consoling myself for loss. I was a different man.”
“You misunderstand me. I have no interest in what you did with other ladies. None at all. But I want to know what you did. What are these dark proclivities everyone, including you, hints at? I want to know, specifically.”
When he looked at her, she was surprised to see that what was in Hart’s eyes was fear. “I don’t want to tell you,” he said.
“But it is part of you. You are an unconventional man, and I am not exactly a conventional woman. Secluded, yes; conventional, no. I do not want to live with you knowing you suppress your desires or tame yourself for me, or whatever you are thinking you ought to do. Banish the idea, Hart. I am not afraid.”
“I don’t want you to be afraid. That is the point.”
“Then tell me. If you don’t, I will imagine all kinds of bizarre things, put together from whispers and sniggers and peeks into erotic books.”
“Eleanor.”
“Has it to do with riding crops? Or manacles? There is a lot of jesting about manacles. Though why people would want to shackle each other, I cannot imagine.”
“Eleanor, what are you talking about?”
“Am I wrong?” What joy it was to tease him again. “Then perhaps you ought to tell me precisely, and ease my worries in my innocence.”
“Eleanor Ramsay, whatever man thinks you innocent is a complete idiot.” Hart locked his hand around her wrist. His touch was gentle, but his fingers were strong.
“It’s nothing to do with pain, or shackles,” he said. “It’s about trust. Complete trust. Absolute surrender.”
She could not release herself from his grip. “Surrender?”
His eyes were dark. “To place yourself in my hands, to trust me to read your desires and lead you into experiencing them. To let me do as I please without question, to trust me to know what to do. The reward for your trust, exquisite pleasure.”
“Oh,” she said.
“Anything I ask.” Hart kissed the inside of her wrist. “You would give me your faith that I’d never hurt you, that my only goal is your pleasure.”
Eleanor’s heart beat faster. Exquisite pleasure. “That sounds… interesting.”
Hart rose on hands and knees over her, the movement so practiced she scarcely saw the effort of it. “Could you do it? Could you put yourself into my hands and not ask any confounded questions?”
“No questions at all? I am not certain…”
“I will have to go easy on you at first. You are Eleanor Ramsay. You cannot but help asking questions.”
“I could try.”
“Hmm. I don’t believe you, but never mind.”
Hart got up from the bed, again the movement effortless. He rummaged in the clothes he’d left on the floor and brought out his cravat. It was a makeshift cravat, a long, narrow piece of linen he’d wrapped around his neck to shield his throat from the wind of the Thames.
He wound the ends of the linen in his hands and came back to the bed. Eleanor knelt there, waiting for him, excited and worried at the same time.
Hart climbed up onto the big bed, his head almost touching the beams as he knelt behind her. “Give me your hands.”
Eleanor’s mouth formed the wh of why, and Hart
bit her cheek. “No questions. Give me your hands.”
Eleanor lifted them. Quickly Hart wound the linen strip around her torso, under her breasts, crossing it in a complicated twist and catching her wrists together at the end of it. He pulled her wrapped hands upward, his movements gentle but firm.
“We’ll start with this.” Hart nuzzled her ear. “I won’t hurt you. Do you believe me?”
“I…”
Another nip, this time to her shoulder. “I said, do you believe me?”
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