by Cara Carnes
Max’s voice echoed in the back of her head. So calm and patient.
This was their spot. The place their relationship had started. She used to sneak off to meet him here when they’d been home on vacations and holidays. Back before they ran away and got married.
“It should be, damn it. You fought for them. You made saving their miserable hides your life’s ambition. They owed you. They owed me.” One warm tear slid down her cheek, but she brushed the singular drop aside with an angry swipe of her hand.
Needing to explain to the universe why she would not accept her mate, she looked back up at the sky and spoke directly to the moon. “But they let him die because he was human.”
They could’ve saved him. If her pack had deemed him worthy, he could’ve been bonded to her. Her health and longevity would’ve cured the cancer eating away at him. But her Alpha at the time didn’t believe in human and Wolf bonding. Bonding a human to a Wolf carried a death sentence. None of her pack mates would help her. They wouldn’t take the risk. Not even for the man who had fought in court for them every day. Sure, the pack had a different Alpha. But what the hell good did that do her? Max was dead. That chapter of her life had come to an end.
She lay down on the grass and let the bitter tears flow unchecked. They weren’t going to change anything or make her mate disappear, but they might make her feel better. Feeling better would be enough.
When the tears were all gone and the ground lost its comfort, though, she had to admit crying had been a lost cause. She hadn’t felt good since Max had been diagnosed. A few tears shed in the middle of the woods wouldn’t change anything.
Rising, she dusted off what she could of the dirt and grass on her pencil skirt and blazer. If anyone saw her, they’d probably think she’d had a wild tryst under the moon. The thought made her laugh. Like being a lawyer, her days of wild trysts were way beyond her. They belonged to a much younger Wolf.
The woods fell behind her as she made her way back to civilization. She smiled at thinking of Los Lobos as civilized. She’d been here two weeks and she already considered the small town civilized. It amazed her how far she’d fallen since leaving the big city. This town couldn’t even be considered rustic let alone cultured.
Still, the peace and quiet had grown on her. Repairs were in progress. Even if the new Alpha couldn’t help Max, he did seem like an upstanding kind of guy. Maybe this wouldn’t be such a bad place to find a new life. But she wished she knew what she wanted to do next.
She came to her little bungalow and opened the door as silently as possible. Her pack mates kept telling her the town was safe, but she trusted her nose better than empty promises. One quick sniff told her no one hid in the small shelter.
Relieved, she stepped through the doorway and flipped on the light as she slipped her shoes off. She’d been correct. They were ruined. As was her designer outfit. But she didn’t care. The only things she cared about were a nice glass of wine, a hot bubble bath, and a good night’s sleep. Everything would look better in the morning.
She went into the kitchen, opened a bottle of red wine, and poured herself a large glass before making her way into the bathroom. After she took a drink, she sighed. Things had already started looking up. The alcohol in the wine made her blood warm. It was perfect for sipping while soaking in a tub of bubbles. After she’d run her bath and undressed, she set her MP3 player on random and slipped into the hot, sudsy water. Yes, things are improving.
So what if she’d met her mate? No one could tell her she had to fall in love with him.
Jackson made his way to the bar and slouched down onto a stool. It figured. He’d found his mate after a lifetime of searching and she already had a husband. Probably for the best, all things considered. She looked a little too highbrow for his tastes, with her pointy shoes and button-up suit. She would most likely scream at him to wash his hands every time he went to touch her.
“What can I get you?”
He looked up at the huge, weathered man behind the bar. He didn’t smell like Wolf. He carried a different scent on him. But Jackson hadn’t spent enough time around the other shifters to recognize which animal Gee smelled like. Still, the rest of the pack didn’t seem to have a problem with him, so Jackson didn’t have any complaints. “Whiskey. Neat.”
“Rough night, huh?”
“Yeah. Got blown off by little miss high and mighty.” He didn’t dare say she was his mate. He wasn’t ready to let that little tidbit become common knowledge.
“Don’t take the brush-off personally.” The bartender set the glass in front of him then poured Jackson a healthy amount of the amber alcohol. “Name’s Gee.”
“Jackson.” He sniffed again in an attempt at placing the smell.
“That’s bear you’re smelling.”
His face heated at being caught. “Oh. Sorry. Bear shifter living in a pack of wolves? Must be interesting.”
“Yep. Every day is an adventure.” Gee studied him for a second longer then nodded. “You aren’t from around here.”
“Nope. But I’d hoped to make this my home. I opened the garage.”
“Nice to have some new blood. As to miss high and mighty, her rejection has nothing to do with you. Aimee lost her husband. Her wounds are still healing.”
He recognized the words, but he couldn’t process the sentence. “Lost her husband?”
“Yeah. He passed a couple of years ago.”
So she lied. She felt the mating and lied.
“You should drink the whiskey and take a deep breath,” the bartender said, interrupting Jackson’s thoughts. “You don’t look so good.”
“Yeah. I don’t feel so good.” He downed the drink in one gulp. “The universe has one fucked-up sense of humor.”
“Maybe.”
“Maybe?” He wanted to laugh. There was no maybe about it. The stuck-up bitch who’d made a fool of him in front of everybody happened to be his mate. The universe had created them for each other. The mechanic and the snob. The karmic joke had to be one of the best he’d heard in a long time. Or, at least, it would be if his chest didn’t ache every time he breathed in. “She told me she was married.”
“She had been. At one time. There’s no joke in that.” Gee’s glare turned Jackson’s blood to ice. “She loved him very much.”
He leaned away from the bar. Everything from Gee’s size to the air of menace he displayed told Jackson to tread carefully. It was clear the man felt protective of this pack. Aimee included.
“I don’t doubt she loved him. It’s….” He somehow managed to stop before the rest of the truth slipped out.
“What?” Gee’s expression softened, but there was no doubt in Jackson’s mind if he said the wrong thing, the man would throw him out before he could blink.
“Nothing.”
“Nothing is ever nothing. Stop sulking and spit it out. Why do you think our Aimee owes you the time of day?”
“She’s my mate.” Jackson murmured so no one but Gee could hear.
“Oh.”
He stared at the empty glass in his hands, unable to bring himself to look up at Gee as the truth spilled from his soul. “I’ve searched for so long. I never married or had kids. I always knew I’d find her. Then I did.” He motioned for a refill.
“Sounds like she put a couple wrinkles in your plans.”
“Yeah.” This time he sipped the drink. “In all the years of imagining what finding her would be like, I never once pictured someone like her.”
“She’s a good woman. Gave up her art for the pack.”
“She used to be an artist? ” For the first time since he saw her, he found himself interested for some reason other than being her mate. “What happened?”
“I may give counsel, but I don’t gossip. You should talk to her if you want to know more.”
“I’ll think about it.”
“The universe doesn’t give many gifts. To scorn one of the precious is a dangerous game.”
Maybe the man was
right. As soon as the thought popped into his head, he remembered the ease with which she’d lied to him while standing there in her designer clothes with her perfectly polished nails. “I’m not scorning anything. I did approach her. She took one look at me and hightailed it out of here.”
“She did.” Gee had the nerve to smile.
“Her running out of here like her house was on fire makes you happy?”
“You’re a Wolf. Chase her.”
He played with the glass for a few more seconds before finishing the drink. “Chase her.”
Why hadn’t he thought of it? Giving chase seemed so obvious when someone else said it. “Best idea I’ve heard all night.”
After he settled his tab, he made his way out into the night. There might not be many houses in the recovering town, but there were enough to make hunting her down a challenge. Finding her would take time. He could ask someone where she lived but he only knew her first name. He doubted any of the pack would give a stranger directions to her house. Not at this time of night. Plus, opening his senses to track her excited him. Knowing she was near, he couldn’t stop smelling for her anyway. Might as well put the instinct to good use.
He walked around for half an hour before he found a house that smelled of her—freshly roasted coffee and vanilla. Back at the bar, he liked her scent, but he hadn’t been able to identify it with all the other Wolves so close. But at that moment, enveloped by her smell, he could place the aromas. They were comforting and enticing at the same time.
He took a deep breath as he worked up the nerve to climb the porch steps. He wasn’t a coward, but he also didn’t like rushing headfirst into rejection. From what he’d gathered about her so far, he guessed she wouldn’t throw open the door and rush into his arms. He gritted his teeth at the thought. He couldn’t help it. Her cold shoulder irritated him. He may be a mechanic, but he was one of the best damn mechanics in the state. Still, he had a sinking feeling her late husband had held a white-collar kind of job.
Soft voices coming from her house made his decision to intrude on her evening easier for him. If she had it in her to entertain guests at this hour, he didn’t feel bad about knocking on her door. When she didn’t answer, however, his earlier irritation grew.
She might be used to the finer things in life, but he was a damn good catch. Okay, so maybe he had grease under his nails and calluses on his hands. He was a hard worker who didn’t shirk his duties. And maybe his clothes came from department-store racks. They looked good on him. He took care of himself.
When he knocked the second time, the door vibrated with the force he used. If she didn’t want him, fine. So be it. But he deserved to hear her say the words. Her flat out ignoring him pissed him off.
When a few more minutes passed, he growled. Who the hell does she think she is, anyway? He didn’t give a shit what she’d sacrificed for the pack. She acted like a stuck-up bitch, and someone should call her on it.
He raised his fist for the third time, but the door swung open. There, on the other side of the threshold, stood his mate wrapped in nothing more than a delectable towel. Her mouth moved as if she were saying something, but he couldn’t get past how beautiful she looked. And smelled. Damn, he wanted to leap into her house and lick her.
“Well? I’m waiting?” She tapped her foot in clear irritation.
Oh, right. She’s been talking. “I’m sorry. I didn’t hear you.”
She rolled her eyes. “What gives you the right to hunt me down in the dead of night?”
The voices he’d heard earlier reached him clearly, and he realized the sounds came from a stereo somewhere in the house. She hadn’t been ignoring him. She’d been taking a bath. But that didn’t excuse her earlier behavior. “You’re my mate, and you lied to me. You told me you were married.”
“I showed you my wedding ring. I didn’t tell you a damn thing.”
He snorted at the distinction. “You meant for me to think you were married so I’d leave you alone. Why? Didn’t like the universe pairing you with a commoner?” There. He’d told her the truth.
“It wouldn’t have made any difference to me if you were a homeless bum or the prince of a European country. I just want to be left alone.”
Yeah. Like she would’ve turned her cute little nose up at a prince. He didn’t believe her for one second. But he couldn’t come right out and call her a liar. That would kill any shot they had of getting together. He’d waited his entire life to find her. As much as she irritated him, he still hoped they would find a way to make some sort of relationship work. “Fine. But if you wanted me to leave you alone, you should’ve had the decency to tell me to my face. If your ring meant half as much as it should, you wouldn’t be hiding behind it. And you most certainly shouldn’t use the memory of your dead husband to lie to people.”
She glared at him, and her body trembled. “You have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Yeah. That’s what happens when you go around lying to people.”
“Okay. You want to know the truth?” Her eyes snapped with anger, but her scent held a sweet undertone of pleasure. She enjoyed arguing with him.
“Please.”
“My husband died two years ago from cancer. My pack did nothing to help him. They could’ve, but they chose not to. So no, I don’t give a shit if the heavens open up and the stars align to spell out, ‘he’s the one.’ My pack turned their back on me, so I’ve turned my back on their traditions.”
“You’re going to punish me for what they did. Or what they didn’t do as the case may be?”
Her eyes glittered with unshed tears. “Collateral damage.”
“But that’s not—”
“Life’s not fair.” She slammed the door in his face.
Most would consider their little spat a complete loss, lick their wounds, and be on their way. But he wasn’t like most people. If anything, their fight had convinced him the stars were right. She might not like the universe meddling in her life, but he was what she needed. And she was what he wanted.
Table of Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
~A LETTER FROM THE AUTHOR~
Table of Contents
Title Page
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
~A LETTER FROM THE AUTHOR~
