“And neither do you,” Elena said. “What about—well, crosses and things?”
“No effect,” said Stefan. “Except that if the person holding one believes it’s a protection, it can strengthen their will to resist tremendously.”
“Uh… silver bullets?”
Stefan laughed again shortly. “That’s for werewolves. From what I’ve heard they don’t like silver in any form. A wooden stake through the heart is still the approved method for my kind. There are other ways that are more or less effective, though: burning, beheading, driving nails through the temples. Or, best of all—”
“Stefan!” The lonely, bitter smile on his face dismayed her. “What about changing into animals?” she said. “Before, you said that with enough Power you could do that. If Damon can be any animal he likes, how will we ever recognize him?”
“Not any animal he likes. He’s limited to one animal, or at the most two. Even with his Powers I don’t think he could sustain any more than that.”
“So we keep looking out for a crow.”
“Right. You may be able to tell if he’s around, too, by looking at regular animals. They usually don’t react very well to us; they sense that we’re hunters.”
“Yangtze kept barking at that crow. It was as if he knew there was something wrong about it,” Elena remembered. “Ah… Stefan,” she added in a changed tone as a new thought struck her, “what about mirrors? I don’t remember ever seeing you in one.”
For a moment, he didn’t answer. Then he said, “Legend has it that mirrors reflect the soul of the person who looks into them. That’s why primitive people are afraid of mirrors; they’re afraid that their souls will be trapped and stolen. My kind is supposed to have no reflection—because we have no souls.” Slowly, he reached up to the rearview mirror and tilted it downward, adjusting it so that Elena could look into it. In the silvered glass, she saw his eyes, lost, haunted, and infinitely sad.
There was nothing to do but hold on to him, and Elena did. “I love you,” she whispered. It was the only comfort she could give him. It was all they had.
His arms tightened around her; his face was buried in her hair. “You’re the mirror,” he whispered back.
It was good to feel him relax, tension flowing out of his body as warmth and comfort flowed in. She was comforted, too, a sense of peace infusing her, surrounding her. It was so good that she forgot to ask him what he meant until they were at her front door, saying good-bye.
“I’m the mirror?” she said then, looking up at him.
“You’ve stolen my soul,” he said. “Lock the door behind you, and don’t open it again tonight.” Then he was gone.
“Elena, thank heavens,” said Aunt Judith. When Elena stared at her, she added, “Bonnie called from the party. She said you’d left unexpectedly, and when you didn’t come home I was worried.”
“Stefan and I went for a ride.” Elena didn’t like the expression on her aunt’s face when she said that. “Is there a problem?”
“No, no. It’s just…” Aunt Judith didn’t seem to know how to finish her sentence. “Elena, I wonder if it might be a good idea to… not see quite so much of Stefan.”
Elena went still. “You, too?”
“It isn’t that I believe the gossip,” Aunt Judith assured her. “But, for your own sake, it might be best to get a little distance from him, to—”
“To dump him? To abandon him because people are spreading rumors about him? To keep myself away from the mudslinging in case any of it sticks on me?” Anger was a welcome release, and the words crowded in Elena’s throat, all trying to get out at once. “No, I don’t think that’s a good idea, Aunt Judith. And if it were Robert we were talking about, you wouldn’t either. Or maybe you would!”
“Elena, I will not have you speaking to me in that tone—”
“I’m finished anyway!” Elena cried, and whirled blindly for the stairs. She managed to keep the tears back until she was in her own room with the door locked. Then she threw herself on the bed and sobbed.
She dragged herself up a while later to call Bonnie. Bonnie was excited and voluble. What on earth did Elena mean, had anything unusual happened after she and Stefan left? The unusual thing was their leaving! No, that new guy Damon hadn’t said anything about Stefan afterward; he’d just hung around for a while and then disappeared. No, Bonnie hadn’t seen if he left with anybody. Why? Was Elena jealous? Yes, that was meant to be a joke. But, really, he was gorgeous, wasn’t he? Almost more gorgeous than Stefan, that is assuming you liked dark hair and eyes. Of course, if you liked lighter hair and hazel eyes…
Elena immediately deduced that Alaric Saltzman’s eyes were hazel.
She got off the phone at last and only then remembered the note she’d found in her purse. She should have asked Bonnie if anyone had gone near her purse while she was in the dining room. But then, Bonnie and Meredith had been in the dining room part of the time themselves. Someone might have done it then.
The very sight of the violet paper made her taste tin at the back of her mouth. She could hardly bear to look at it. But now that she was alone she had to unfold it and read it again, all the time hoping that somehow this time the words might be different, that she might have been mistaken before.
But they weren’t different. The sharp, clean block letters stood out against the pale background as if they were ten feet high.
I want to touch him. More than any boy I’ve ever known. And I know he wants it, too, but he’s holding back on me.
Her words. From her diary. The one that had been stolen.
The next day Meredith and Bonnie rang her doorbell.
“Stefan called me last night,” said Meredith. “He said he wanted to make sure you weren’t walking to school alone. He’s not going to be at school today, so he asked if Bonnie and I could come over and walk with you.
“Escort you,” said Bonnie, who was clearly in a good mood. “Chaperone you. I think it’s terribly sweet of him to be so protective.”
“He’s probably an Aquarius, too,” said Meredith. “Come on, Elena, before I kill her to shut her up about Alaric.”
Elena walked in silence, wondering what Stefan was doing that kept him from school. She felt vulnerable and exposed today, as if her skin were on inside out. One of those days when she was ready to cry at the drop of a hat.
On the office bulletin board was tacked a piece of violet paper.
She should have known. She had known somewhere deep inside. The thief wasn’t satisfied with letting her know her private words had been read. He was showing her they could be made public.
She ripped the note off the board and crumpled it, but not before she glimpsed the words. In one glance they were seared onto her brain.
I feel as if someone has hurt him terribly in the past and he’s never gotten over it. But I also think there’s something he’s afraid of, some secret he’s afraid I’ll find out.
“Elena, what is that? What’s the matter? Elena, come back here!”
Bonnie and Meredith followed her to the nearest girls’ bathroom, where she stood over the wastebasket shredding the note into microscopic pieces, breathing as if she’d just run a race. They looked at each other and then turned to survey the bathroom stalls.
“Okay,” said Meredith loudly, “senior privilege. You!” She rapped on the only closed door. “Come out.”
Some rustling, then a bewildered freshman emerged. “But I didn’t even—”
“Out. Outside,” Bonnie ordered. “And you,” she said to the girl washing her hands, “stand out there and make sure nobody comes in.”
“But why? What are you—”
“Move, chick. If anybody comes through that door we’re holding you responsible.”
When the door was closed again, they rounded on Elena.
“Okay, this is a stickup,” said Meredith. “Come on, Elena, give.”
Elena ripped the last tiny shred of paper, caught between laughter and tears. She wanted to tel
l them everything, but she couldn’t. She settled for telling them about the diary.
They were as angry, as indignant, as she was.
“It had to be someone at the party,” Meredith said at last, once they had each expressed their opinion of the thief’s character, morals, and probable destination in the afterlife. “But anybody there could have done it. I don’t remember anyone in particular going near your purse, but that room was wall-to-wall people, and it could have happened without my noticing.”
“But why would anyone want to do this?” Bonnie put in. “Unless… Elena, the night we found Stefan you were hinting around at some things. You said you thought you knew who the killer was.”
“I don’t think I know; I know. But if you’re wondering if this might be connected, I’m not sure. I suppose it could be. The same person might have done it.”
Bonnie was horrified. “But that means the killer is a student at this school!” When Elena shook her head, she went on. “The only people at that party who weren’t students were that new guy and Alaric.” Her expression changed. “Alaric didn’t kill Mr. Tanner! He wasn’t even in Fell’s Church then.”
“I know. Alaric didn’t do it.” She’d gone too far to stop now; Bonnie and Meredith already knew too much. “Damon did.”
“That guy was the killer? The guy that kissed me?”
“Bonnie, calm down.” As always, other people’s hysteria made Elena feel more in control. “Yes, he’s the killer, and we all three have to be on guard against him. That’s why I’m telling you. Never, never ask him into your house.”
Elena stopped, regarding the faces of her friends. They were staring at her, and for a moment she had the sickening feeling that they didn’t believe her. That they were going to question her sanity.
But all Meredith asked, in an even, detached voice, was: “Are you sure about this?”
“Yes. I’m sure. He’s the murderer and the one who put Stefan in the well, and he might be after one of us next. And I don’t know if there’s any way to stop him.”
“Well, then,” said Meredith, lifting her eyebrows. “No wonder you and Stefan were in such a hurry to leave the party.”
Caroline gave Elena a vicious smirk as Elena walked into the cafeteria. But Elena was almost beyond noticing.
One thing she noticed right away, though. Vickie Bennett was there.
Vickie hadn’t been to school since the night Matt and Bonnie and Meredith had found her wandering on the road, raving about mist and eyes and something terrible in the graveyard. The doctors who checked her afterward said there was nothing much wrong with her physically, but she still hadn’t returned to Robert E. Lee. People whispered about psychologists and the drug treatments they were trying.
She didn’t look crazy, though, Elena thought. She looked pale and subdued and sort of crumpled into her clothing. And when Elena passed her and she looked up, her eyes were like a startled fawn’s.
It was strange to sit at a half-empty table with only Bonnie and Meredith for company. Usually people were crowding to get seats around the three of them.
“We didn’t finish talking this morning,” Meredith said. “Get something to eat, and then we’ll figure out what to do about those notes.”
“I’m not hungry,” said Elena flatly. “And what can we do? If it’s Damon, there’s no way we can stop him. Trust me, it’s not a matter for the police. That’s why I haven’t told them he’s the killer. There isn’t any proof, and besides, they would never… Bonnie, you’re not listening.”
“Sorry,” said Bonnie, who was staring past Elena’s left ear. “But something weird is going on up there.”
Elena turned. Vickie Bennett was standing at the front of the cafeteria, but she no longer seemed crumpled and subdued. She was looking around the room in a sly and assessing manner, smiling.
“Well, she doesn’t look normal, but I wouldn’t say she was being weird, exactly,” Meredith said. Then she added, “Wait a minute.”
Vickie was unbuttoning her cardigan. But it was the way she was doing it—with deliberate little flicks of her fingers, all the while looking around with that secretive smile— that was odd. When the last button was undone, she took the sweater daintily between forefinger and thumb and slid it down over first one arm and then the other. She dropped the sweater on the floor.
“Weird is the word,” confirmed Meredith.
Students crossing in front of Vickie with laden trays glanced at her curiously and then looked back over their shoulders when they had passed. They didn’t actually stop walking, though, until she took off her shoes.
She did it gracefully, catching the heel of one pump on the toe of the other and pushing it off. Then she kicked off the second pump.
“She can’t keep going,” murmured Bonnie, as Vickie’s fingers moved to the simulated pearl buttons on her white silk blouse.
Heads were turning; people were poking one another and gesturing. Around Vickie a small group had gathered, standing far enough back that they didn’t interfere with everyone else’s view.
The white silk blouse rippled off, fluttering like a wounded ghost to the floor. Vickie was wearing a lacy off-white slip underneath.
There was no longer any sound in the cafeteria except the sibilance of whispers. No one was eating. The group around Vickie had gotten larger.
Vickie smiled demurely and began to unfasten clasps at her waist. Her pleated skirt fell to the floor. She stepped out of it and pushed it to one side with her foot.
Somebody stood up at the back of the cafeteria and chanted, “Take it off! Take it off!” Other voices joined in.
“Isn’t anybody going to stop her?” fumed Bonnie.
Elena got up. The last time she’d gone near Vickie the other girl had screamed and struck out at her. But now, as she got close, Vickie gave her the smile of a conspirator. Her lips moved, but Elena couldn’t make out what she was saying over the chanting.
“Come on, Vickie. Let’s go,” she said.
Vickie’s light brown hair tossed and she plucked at the strap of her slip.
Elena stooped to pick up the cardigan and wrap it around the girl’s slender shoulders. As she did, as she touched Vickie, those half-closed eyes opened wide like a startled fawn’s again. Vickie stared about her wildly, as if she’d just been awakened from a dream. She looked down at herself and her expression turned to disbelief. Pulling the cardigan around her more tightly, she backed away, shivering.
The room was quiet again.
“It’s okay,” said Elena soothingly. “Come on.”
At the sound of her voice, Vickie jumped as if touched by a live wire. She stared at Elena, and then she exploded into action.
“You’re one of them! I saw you! You’re evil!”
She turned and ran barefoot out of the cafeteria, leaving Elena stunned.
Eight
“Do you know what’s strange about what Vickie did at school? I mean aside from all the obvious things,” Bonnie said, licking chocolate frosting off her fingers.
“What?” said Elena dully.
“Well, the way she ended up, in her slip. She looked just like she did when we found her on the road, only then she was all scratched up, too.”
“Cat scratches, we thought,” said Meredith, finishing the last bite of her cake. She seemed to be in one of her quiet, thoughtful moods; right now she was watching Elena closely. “But that doesn’t seem very likely.”
Elena looked straight back at her. “Maybe she fell in some brambles,” she said. “Now, if you guys are finished eating, do you want to see that first note?”
They left their dishes in the sink and climbed the stairs to Elena’s room. Elena felt herself flush as the other girls read the note. Bonnie and Meredith were her best friends, maybe her only friends now. She’d read them passages from her diary before. But this was different. It was the most humiliating feeling she’d ever had. “Well?” she said to Meredith.
“The person who wrote this is five fe
et eleven inches tall, walks with a slight limp, and wears a false mustache,” Meredith intoned. “Sorry,” she added, seeing Elena’s face. “Not funny. Actually, there’s not much to go on, is there? The writing looks like a guy’s, but the paper looks feminine.”
“And the whole thing has sort of a feminine touch,” put in Bonnie, bouncing slightly on Elena’s bed. “Well, it does,” she said defensively. “Quoting bits of your diary back at you is the kind of thing a woman would think of. Men don’t care about diaries.”
“You just don’t want it to be Damon,” said Meredith. “I would think you’d be more worried about him being a psycho killer than a diary thief.”
“I don’t know; killers are sort of romantic. Imagine your dying with his hands around your throat. He’d strangle the life out of you, and the last thing you’d see would be his face.” Putting her own hands to her throat, Bonnie gasped and expired tragically, ending up draped across the bed. “He can have me anytime,” she said, eyes still closed.
It was on Elena’s lips to say, “Don’t you understand, this is serious,” but instead she hissed in a breath. “Oh, God,” she said, and ran to the window. The day was humid and stifling, and the window had been opened. Outside on the skeletal branches of the quince tree was a crow.
Elena threw the sash down so hard that the glass rattled and tinkled. The crow gazed at her through the trembling panes with eyes like obsidian. Rainbows glimmered in its sleek black plumage.
“Why did you say that?” she said, turning to Bonnie.
“Hey, there’s nobody out there,” said Meredith gently. “Unless you count the birds.”
Elena turned away from them. The tree was empty now.
“I’m sorry,” said Bonnie in a small voice, after a moment. “It’s just that it all doesn’t seem real sometimes, even Mr. Tanner’s being dead doesn’t seem real. And Damon did look… well, exciting. But dangerous. I can believe he’s dangerous.”
“And besides, he wouldn’t squeeze your throat; he’d cut it,” Meredith said. “Or at least that was what he did to Tanner. But the old man under the bridge had his throat ripped open, as if some animal had done it.” Meredith looked to Elena for clarification. “Damon doesn’t have an animal, does he?”
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