Meg stared. She couldn’t be hearing this. This sounded exactly like something her mother had said back when Meg was in high school.
The intense look in Lindsey’s eyes softened and she gestured weakly. “The time will come when you’ll thank me for this.”
“Really?” Meg couldn’t resist raising her eyebrows.
“There’ll be a boy in my life that you’ll disapprove of and I won’t understand why,” Lindsey went on. “When that happens, I want you to remind me of now.”
Meg shook her head—in bafflement and disbelief. “Are you telling me you’d break up with a boy simply because I didn’t like him?”
“No,” Lindsey said carefully. “But I’d consider it because I know how I feel about you seeing Steve, and I’d understand how you might feel about someone I was dating. Don’t get me wrong,” she hurried to add, “I don’t dislike Steve…. He’s kind of cute. It’s just that I feel you could do a whole lot better.”
“I’ll think about it,” Meg promised.
Lindsey nodded. “I can’t ask for more than that.”
Her daughter had behaved just as Meg had predicted. This had gone precisely according to plan. But Meg didn’t feel good about it. If anything, she felt more depressed following their conversation than before.
She didn’t have any talent when it came to relationships, Meg decided, as she finished putting away the dinner dishes later that evening. Steve had come right out and told her he’d had a change of heart, and she’d bungled everything. Instead of admitting that she felt the same way he did, she’d trampled all over his ego.
Meg turned to the kitchen phone, tempted to call him. It couldn’t end like this, with such confusion, such uncertainty about what she really wanted. What they wanted.
Never had an evening passed more slowly. It seemed to take Lindsey hours to go to bed, and by then Meg was yawning herself.
As soon as Meg could be reasonably sure that her daughter was asleep, she tiptoed toward the kitchen phone and dialed Steve’s number, her heart pounding. Finally she heard his groggy voice.
“Steve?” she whispered. “Thank goodness it’s you. I didn’t know what I was going to do if Nancy answered.”
“Meg? Is that you?” He sounded surprised to hear from her, and none too pleased.
She bristled. “How many other women do you have phoning you at eleven o’clock at night?”
He didn’t respond right away, and when he spoke his voice definitely lacked welcome. “I thought you said it wasn’t a good idea for us to see each other.”
“I…I don’t know what I want.”
“Do you expect me to make your decisions for you?”
“Of course not.” This wasn’t going well. In fact, it was going very badly. She probably should’ve waited until she’d had time to figure this out a little more clearly.
“Is there a reason you called?” he asked gruffly.
“Yes,” she said, sorry now that she’d phoned him. “I wanted to apologize for being abrupt earlier. I…can see now that I shouldn’t have called.”
Having said that, she carefully replaced the receiver. For a long moment she stared at the phone, feeling like an idiot.
She’d turned away to head up the stairs when the phone rang, jolting her. Quickly she grabbed it before the noise could wake Lindsey.
“Hello,” she whispered.
“Meet me.” It was Steve.
“I can’t leave Lindsey.”
“Why not? She’s in bed, isn’t she?”
“Yes, but…”
“Write her a note. Tell her you’re going to the grocery store.”
How reasonable he made it sound—as if she usually did her shopping in the middle of the night.
“She won’t even know you’re gone,” Steve said.
Meg closed her eyes. They’d been together only a few hours earlier, and yet it felt as if they’d been apart for weeks.
Her stomach twisted. Then—before she could change her mind—she blurted out, “All right, but I can’t stay long.”
“Fair enough.”
They agreed to meet in the Albertson’s parking lot. The huge store was open twenty-four hours a day. Meg had been shopping there for years. The note she left Lindsey said she’d gone to pick up some milk—that classic excuse—but it was exactly what she intended to do.
She sat in her car until she saw Steve pull into the nearly empty lot. Uncertain she was doing the right thing, she got out and waited for him.
Steve parked in the spot next to hers. They stood facing each other for a moment, neither speaking.
“I can’t believe we’re doing this,” she said.
It appeared she wasn’t the only one with doubts. Steve’s face was blank, emotionless. “Me neither.”
They walked into the store together and reached for grocery carts. Meg’s had a squeaky wheel. The sound echoed through the cavernous store.
The deli was closed, but Steve was able to get them each a cup of coffee from the friendly night manager. They parked their empty carts and sat at a small white table in the deli section. Neither seemed inclined to speak.
She felt encouraged that Steve had phoned her back, but she suspected he regretted it now.
“You know what you said earlier?” she began.
“I said lots of things earlier. Which particular thing are you referring to?”
Meg guessed his sarcasm was warranted. After all, she’d wounded his ego, and he wasn’t giving her the chance to do it again. “About the two of us, you know, dating.”
“You said Lindsey wouldn’t like it.”
“She doesn’t,” Meg said. “She asked me not to see you again.”
His gaze pinned hers. “Did you agree?”
“Not…entirely.”
His eyes narrowed with a frown. “You’d better explain.”
“Well, as you’ve already surmised, Lindsey isn’t keen on me seeing you. Which is exactly the reason you stopped by the house and did your biker routine, right? Well, it worked. She’s worried that you’re the wrong man for me.” It would’ve helped if he hadn’t bragged about his prison record and mentioned his parole officer’s name. But now didn’t seem to be the time to bring that up.
“Did you or did you not promise her you wouldn’t see me again?”
“Neither.” Meg sipped from the disposable cup and grimaced at the taste of burned coffee.
“Then what did you say to her?”
Meg lifted one shoulder in a shrug. “That I’d think about it.”
“Have you?”
Propping her elbows on the table’s edge, Meg swirled the black liquid around the cup and avoided looking at Steve. “I called you, didn’t I?”
“I still haven’t figured out why.”
That was the problem: she hadn’t, either. Not really. “I guess it’s because you have a point about seeing each other again.”
“Oh, yeah?” He gave her a cocky grin.
Her anger flared. “Would you stop it?”
“Stop what?” he asked innocently.
“The next thing I know, you’re going to ask me how much I enjoyed kissing you.”
Steve smiled for the first time. “It wouldn’t hurt to know.”
“All right, since it means so much to you, I’ll admit it. No man’s ever kissed me the way you do. It scares me—but at the same time I wish it could go on forever.” Having admitted this much, she supposed she might as well say it all. “My marriage left me wondering if I was…if I was capable of those kinds of feelings….” She paused and lowered her eyes. “I was afraid I was, you know, frigid,” she said in a choked whisper.
She stared down at her coffee, then took a sip, followed by several more, as if the vile stuff were the antidote to some dreaded illness.
The last thing she expected her small confession to provoke in Steve was a laugh. “You’re joking!”
She shook her head forcefully. “Don’t laugh. Please.”
His hand reached for he
rs and their fingers entwined. “I wasn’t laughing at you, Meg,” he said gently. “You’re one of the most sensual women I’ve ever met. Trust me, if you’re frigid—and there’s a word I haven’t heard in years—then I’m a monk.”
Meg looked up and offered him a fragile smile. It astonished her that this man who’d known her for only a few days could chase away the doubts that had hounded her through the years after her divorce.
He cleared his throat. “I, uh, don’t think you should look at me like that.”
“Like what?”
“Like you want me to kiss you.”
Her eyes drifted shut. “Maybe I do…. That’s what makes everything so complicated. I’m really attracted to you. I haven’t felt like this before—not ever, not even with my ex-husband, and like I said, that scares me.”
He stood up, still holding Meg’s hand, and tugged her to her feet.
“Where are we going?” she asked.
“Someplace private,” he said, scanning the store. He led her through the frozen food section, past the bakery and into a small alcove where the wine was kept. With her back to the domestic beer, he brought her into his arms and covered her mouth with his.
Their kiss was rough with need, but she wasn’t sure whose need was greater. Meg could feel Steve’s heart racing as hard as her own. She supposed she should’ve pulled away, ended the kiss, stepped out of his arms. But Meg didn’t want that.
Steve yawned. He was so tired. With good reason. It’d been almost three before he’d gone to bed and four before he’d been able to fall asleep. His alarm had gone off at six.
He arrived at the shop and made a pot of coffee. He mumbled a greeting when Gary got in.
“I hope you’re in a better mood than you were yesterday,” his foreman told him. “What’s wrong with you, anyway?”
Steve checked over the job orders for the day. “Women,” he muttered in explanation and apology.
“I should’ve guessed. What’s going on?”
“You don’t want to hear this,” he said and headed for the garage.
“Sure I do,” Gary said, following him. “I don’t suppose this has anything to do with Nancy, does it?”
Steve glared at him. “What do you know about my sister?”
“Not much,” Gary said and held up both hands. “Just what you said about her fixing you up with some woman. It’s none of my business, but you and this woman seem to be hitting it off just fine.”
Steve continued to glare at him. “What makes you say that?”
Gary laughed. “I haven’t seen you this miserable in years. Which probably means you’ve fallen for her. Why don’t you put yourself out of your misery? Shoot yourself and be done with it.”
Frowning, Steve turned away. The kid was a smartass, although now that Steve thought about it, Gary might have come up with the perfect solution.
It was noon before Steve had a chance to go into his office. He made sure no one was looking, then closed the door and reached for the phone.
“Book Ends, Laura speaking,” a woman said in a friendly voice.
“Is Meg available?” he asked, sounding as businesslike as possible.
“May I ask who’s calling?”
Steve hesitated. “Steve Conlan.”
“One minute, please.”
It took longer than that for Meg to get on the line. “Steve, hi.” She seemed tired but happy to hear from him. That helped.
“How are you?” he asked, struggling to hold back a yawn.
“Dead on my feet. I’m not as young as I used to be.”
“Does Lindsey know you slipped out of the house last night?”
“No, but I should never have stayed out that late.”
Steve didn’t have any argument there. They’d left the Albertson’s store when a stock boy stumbled upon them in the wine section, embarrassing Meg no end—although Steve had rather enjoyed the way her blush had brightened her cheeks.
With no other idea of where to take her at that hour, Steve had driven down to Alki Point in west Seattle, where they sat on the beach and talked.
They hadn’t discussed anything of earth-shattering importance, but he discovered that they had a great deal in common. Mostly, he discovered that he liked Meg. He was already well aware of what Meg, the sensuous and beautiful woman, was capable of doing to him physically. Last night, he learned about Meg, the person.
They hadn’t kissed again. Steve was convinced they both knew how dangerous kissing had become. It wouldn’t take much for their kisses to lead to more…a lot more. And when that happened, he didn’t plan to have it take place on a public beach.
He didn’t know where the time had gone, but when he’d looked at his watch he’d been shocked. Meg, too. It was after three in the morning. They’d rushed their farewells without making arrangements to see each other again.
“When can we get together?” he asked.
“I don’t know….”
Was this how it was going to be? Would they have to start over each and every time they met? “Would you rather we didn’t meet again?” he asked.
“No,” she said immediately.
“We’ve got to make some decisions,” he said, angry with himself for not saying anything about it on that moonlit beach. They’d discussed so many different things, from politics to movies to lifelong dreams, yet hadn’t talked about their own relationship.
“I know.”
“Would tonight work?” he asked. “Same time?”
She hesitated and he gritted his teeth with impatience.
“Okay.” The longing in her voice reassured him.
“Fine,” he said, relieved. “I’ll pick you up at your house at eleven.”
“I have to go now.”
“Yeah. Me, too.”
Steve replaced the receiver and glanced up to find Nancy standing in his office doorway, her arms folded in disapproval.
“Was that Meg?” she demanded.
“That’s none of your business,” Steve said sharply.
“We need to talk about her and I’m tired of you putting me off.”
“I’m not discussing Meg Remington with you.”
“How could you date someone like her?” Nancy asked, her face wrinkled in disgust.
“Might I remind you that you were the one who introduced us?”
“Yes, but she deceived me. Steve, be serious! Can you honestly imagine introducing her to Mom and Dad?”
“Yes,” he answered calmly.
Nancy threw her arms in the air. “This is your problem. You’re thinking with your you-know-what.”
“Nancy!”
“It’s true!”
“Stay out of my business. Understand?”
“But…”
“I make my own decisions,” Steve said forcefully.
“And your own mistakes,” Nancy muttered, walking out of the room.
“We’re both crazy,” Meg said, sitting next to Steve in his car. She sipped from a can of cold soda, enjoying the sweet taste of it.
“Candidates for the loony bin,” he agreed.
“I wasn’t sure I’d be able to get away,” Meg confessed. “Brenda’s spending the night with Lindsey, and those two are going to be up half the night.”
“Did you tell them you were leaving the house?”
“No,” she said, “but I left them a note. Just in case…Although I’m hoping they won’t come downstairs. Oh, and this time I should remember to bring home some milk.”
“I was thinking Lindsey and I should have another meeting,” Steve began. “Only this time I want you to bring her to the shop. I’ll show her around and explain that the whole biker, ex-con routine was a joke.” He waited, then looked at Meg. “What do you think?”
“I’m afraid hell hath no fury like a teenager fooled.”
“That’s what I was afraid you were going to say.” Steve finished his drink and placed his arm around her shoulder. “One thing’s for sure. I’m through with sneaking aroun
d in the middle of the night.”
Meg covered her mouth as she yawned. “I’m too old for this.”
“You and me both.”
Meg finished her soda, too, and leaned back against Steve, his chest supporting her back. She didn’t dare close her eyes for fear she’d fall asleep.
“Nancy isn’t any too happy about me seeing you, either.”
“I’ll talk to her, explain everything.” Except that, like Lindsey, Steve’s sister probably wouldn’t be too pleased.
“It’s settled, then,” Steve said. “I’ll talk to Lindsey and you’ll talk to Nancy. Neither one of them is going to enjoy being the butt of a joke, but it wasn’t like we planned this. Besides, it serves them right for manipulating us like they did.”
“You’d think they’d be pleased,” Meg inserted. “Their plan worked—not the way they wanted, mind you, but we’re seeing each other and that’s the whole point. Right?”
Steve chuckled and stroked her hair. “Right.”
“I wish it wasn’t like this,” Meg whispered.
Steve kissed the top of her head. “So do I.”
Meg smiled, twisting in his arms so they faced each other.
Steve’s hands lingered on her face. His mouth was so close she could feel his breath against her cheek. A shiver of awareness skittered down her spine.
Meg closed her eyes and lifted her mouth to Steve’s. He hesitated for a fraction of a second, as if he had second thoughts about what might happen next.
His kiss was warm and gentle. But his gentleness didn’t last long. There was a hunger in Steve, a hunger in Meg that flared to life like a fire stoked.
“Meg…”
“I know…I know.”
“Tomorrow,” he said and drew in a deep, even breath.
“Tomorrow,” she repeated, but she had no idea what she was agreeing to. She opened her eyes and leaned back. “What about tomorrow?”
“We’ll talk to Lindsey and Nancy.”
“Okay.”
Fifteen minutes later, Steve dropped her off at the house.
It wasn’t until he drove away that she realized she’d left her purse in his car. Her purse with the key to her house…
“Damn,” she muttered, hurrying into the backyard, hoping Lindsey had forgotten to lock the sliding glass door. She hadn’t; it was locked tight.
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