by Barb Shuler
I met Kristol first a little over a year ago when she wound up in my operating room. She'd been hurt and I knew what I was seeing was more than something she could have done to herself. That night wasn't the first, but one of many, I received a warning from the hospital about my boundaries when it came to a patient. We’d all slowly learned the truth of her situation but that wasn't until I'd helped her and her kids after their sperm donor beat her sons back raw in spots.
It was then I started to revert back to the “crazy bubble”. The past haunted me nightly. Breath heaving, covered in sweat and tears filling my eyes kinda of nightmares haunted me. Even now helping out between Papa’s office and Dani Lynn’s crisis center, my world has turned upside down as the life I want to forget keeps jumping out at me.
It's hard to keep it together when all I want to do is run away and hide. Or attack some dumbass man for slapping his girlfriend, wife or child around. Don't get me wrong, there are a few women around here that need a good ass whoopin’ too for the same shit.
Life is never easy, I know that but right now it's beginning to be too much. My nightmares are back in full force and…I'm seeing my father in places that he shouldn’t be. I'm slowly losing my ever loving mind.
If things end up how I suspect they will… I'm about to be up shit creek without a paddle or the will to keep fighting to the top.
I don't want to give up, I want to fight but I'm not sure I have it in me to do it… I just don't.
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About the Author
I’m a Carolina Girl by right and a Texan by birth... so I have a Texas sized temper. Living and working in both states I’ve learned a lot about hard work, adapting to your surroundings and making the best of the path that you have been led down. My grandma Dollie once told me I would know what I was meant to do when it happened. She was right, as always.
As with most book lovers, I am an avid reader. Reading has always been a hobby - a passion, really. Reading helps to expand the perimeters of one's mind. That is what got me to start writing as a kid. If I had paper...or a wall... I was writing. Words are a part of us all. Why not use them, right?
During the day I work as a ‘desk jockey’ and help the residents of my county navigate themselves around our little, but not too little country town. By night I am either blogging, doing PA work for some of my favorite authors or I am fighting with the voices in my head. (They can be stubborn at times.) It’s a way to cope and make the troubles of the day disappear, if only for a few hours. It’s a blessing and I am cherishing every moment. For that which is my creation, may become someone else's treasure.
Tomorrow is never guaranteed so I want to make sure I live the day as fully as possible.
