“I don’t spend a night without thinkin’ o’ them funny helmets the Fritzies wear. Have you ever thought that there was something goddam funny about the shape o’ them helmets?”
“Can the helmets, kid,” said his friend. “You told us all about them onct.”
“I ain’t told you why I can’t forgit ’em, have I?”
“A German officer crossed the Rhine;
Parley voo?
A German officer crossed the Rhine;
He loved the women and liked the wine;
Hanky Panky, parley voo …”
“Listen to this, fellers,” said the man in his twitching nervous voice, staring straight into Fuselli’s eyes. “We made a little attack to straighten out our trenches a bit just before I got winged. Our barrage cut off a bit of Fritzie’s trench an’ we ran right ahead juss about dawn an’ occupied it. I’ll be goddamned if it wasn’t as quiet as a Sunday morning at home.”
“It was!” said his friend.
“An’ I had a bunch of grenades an’ a feller came runnin’ up to me, whisperin’, ‘There’s a bunch of Fritzies playin’ cards in a dug-out. They don’t seem to know they’re captured. We’d better take ’em pris’ners!”
“‘Pris’ners, hell,’ says I, ‘We’ll go and clear the beggars out.’ So we crept along to the steps and looked down. …”
The song had started again:
“O Mademerselle from Armenteers,
Parley voo?”
“Their helmets looked so damn like toadstools I came near laughin’. An’ they sat round the lamp layin’ down the cards serious-like, the way I’ve seen Germans do in the Rathskeller at home.”
“He loved the women and liked the wine,
Parley voo?”
“I lay there lookin’ at ’em for a hell of a time, an’ then I clicked a grenade an’ tossed it gently down the steps. An’ all those funny helmets like toadstools popped up in the air an’ somebody gave a yell an’ the light went out an’ the damn grenade went off. Then I let ’em have the rest of ’em an’ went away ’cause one o’ ’em was still moanin’-like. It was about that time they let their barrage down on us and I got mine.”
“The Yanks are havin’ a hell of a time,
Parley voo?”
“An’ the first thing I thought of when I woke up was how those goddam helmets looked. It upsets a feller to think of a thing like that.” His voice ended in a whine like the broken voice of a child that has been beaten.
“You need to pull yourself together, kid,” said his friend.
“I know what I need, Tub. I need a woman.”
“You know where you get one?” asked Meadville. “I’d like to get me a nice little French girl on a rainy night like this.”
“It must be a hell of a ways to the town. … They say it’s full of M.P.’s too,” said Fuselli.
“I know a way,” said the man with the nervous voice, “Come on; Tub.”
“No, I’ve had enough of these goddam frog women.”
They all left the canteen.
As the two men went off down the side of the building, Fuselli heard the nervous twitching voice through the metallic patter of the rain:
“I can’t find no way of forgettin’ how funny those helmets looked all round the lamp … I can’t find no way …”
Bill Grey and Fuselli pooled their blankets and slept together. They lay on the hard floor of the tent very close to each other, listening to the rain pattering endlessly on the drenched canvas that slanted above their heads.
“Hell, Bill, I’m gettin’ pneumonia,” said Fuselli, clearing his nose.
“That’s the only thing that scares me in the whole goddam business. I’d hate to die o’ sickness … an’ they say another kid’s kicked off with that—what d’they call it?—menegitis.”
“Was that what was the matter with Stein?”
“The corporal won’t say.”
“Ole Corp looks sort o’ sick himself,” said Fuselli.
“It’s this rotten climate,” whispered Bill Grey, in the middle of a fit of coughing.
“For cat’s sake quit that coughin’. Let a feller sleep,” came a voice from the other side of the tent.
“Go an’ get a room in a hotel if you don’t like it.”
“That’s it, Bill, tell him where to get off.”
“If you fellers don’t quit yellin’, I’ll put the whole blame lot of you on K. P.,” came the sergeant’s good-natured voice. “Don’t you know that taps has blown?”
The tent was silent except for the fast patter of the rain and Bill Grey’s coughing.
“That sergeant gives me a pain in the neck,” muttered Bill Grey peevishly, when his coughing had stopped, wriggling about under the blankets.
After a while Fuselli said in a very low voice, so that no one but his friend should hear:
“Say, Bill, ain’t it different from what we thought it was going to be?”
“Yare.”
“I mean fellers don’t seem to think about beatin’ the Huns at all, they’re so busy crabbin’ on everything.”
“It’s the guys higher up that does the thinkin’,” said Grey grandiloquently.
“Hell, but I thought it’d be excitin’ like in the movies.”
“I guess that was a lot o’ talk.”
“Maybe.”
Fuselli went to sleep on the hard floor, feeling the comfortable warmth of Grey’s body along the side of him, hearing the endless, monotonous patter of the rain on the drenched canvas above his head. He tried to stay awake a minute to remember what Mabe looked like, but sleep closed down on him suddenly.
The bugle wrenched them out of their blankets before it was light. It was not raining. The air was raw and full of white mist that was cold as snow against their faces still warm from sleep. The corporal called the roll, lighting matches to read the list. When he dismissed the formation the sergeant’s voice was heard from the tent, where he still lay rolled in his blankets.
“Say, Corp, go an’ tell Fuselli to straighten out Lieutenant Stanford’s room at eight sharp in Officers’ Barracks, Number Four.”
“Did you hear, Fuselli?”
“All right,” said Fuselli. His blood boiled up suddenly. This was the first time he’d had to do servants’ work. He hadn’t joined the army to be a slavey to any damned first loot. It was against army regulations anyway. He’d go and kick. He wasn’t going to be a slavey. … He walked towards the door of the tent, thinking what he’d say to the sergeant. But he noticed the corporal coughing into his handkerchief with an expression of pain on his face. He turned and strolled away. It would get him in wrong if he started kicking like that. Much better shut his mouth and put up with it. The poor old corp couldn’t last long at this rate. No, it wouldn’t do to get in wrong.
At eight, Fuselli, with a broom in his hand, feeling dull fury pounding and fluttering within him, knocked on the unpainted board door.
“Who’s that?”
“To clean the room, sir,” said Fuselli.
“Come back in about twenty minutes,” came the voice of the lieutenant.
“All right, sir.”
Fuselli leaned against the back of the barracks and smoked a cigarette. The air stung his hands as if they had been scraped by a nutmeg-grater. Twenty minutes passed slowly. Despair seized hold of him. He was so far from anyone who cared about him, so lost in the vast machine. He was telling himself that he’d never get on, would never get up where he could show what he was good for. He felt as if he were in a treadmill. Day after day it would be like this,—the same routine, the same helplessness. He looked at his watch. Twenty-five minutes had passed. He picked up his broom and moved round to the lieutenant’s room.
“Come in,” said the lieutenant carelessly. He was in his shirt-sleeves, shaving. A pleasant smell of shaving soap filled the dark clapboard room, which had no furniture but three cots and some officers’ trunks. He was a red-faced young man with flabby cheeks and dark straight eyebrows. He ha
d taken command of the company only a day or two before.
“Looks like a decent feller,” thought Fuselli.
“What’s your name?” asked the lieutenant, speaking into the small nickel mirror, while he ran the safety razor obliquely across his throat. He stuttered a little. To Fuselli he seemed to speak like an Englishman.
“Fuselli.”
“Italian parentage, I presume?”
“Yes,” said Fuselli sullenly, dragging one of the cots away from the wall.
“Parla Italiano?”
“You mean, do I speak Eyetalian? Naw, sir,” said Fuselli emphatically,
“I was born in Frisco.”
“Indeed? But get me some more water, will you, please?”
When Fuselli came back, he stood with his broom between his knees, blowing on his hands that were blue and stiff from carrying the heavy bucket. The lieutenant was dressed and was hooking the top hook of the uniform carefully. The collar made a red mark on his pink throat.
“All right; when you’re through, report back to the Company.” The lieutenant went out, drawing on a pair of khaki-colored gloves with a satisfied and important gesture.
Fuselli walked back slowly to the tents where the Company was quartered, looking about him at the long lines of barracks, gaunt and dripping in the mist, at the big tin sheds of the cook shacks where the cooks and K. P.’s in greasy blue denims were slouching about amid a steam of cooking food.
Something of the gesture with which the lieutenant drew on his gloves caught in the mind of Fuselli. He had seen peoople make gestures like that in the movies, stout dignified people in evening suits. The president of the Company that owned the optical goods store, where he had worked, at home in Frisco, had had something of that gesture about him.
And he pictured himself drawing on a pair of gloves that way, importantly, finger by finger, with a little wave of self-satisfaction when the gesture was completed. … He’d have to get that corporalship.
“There’s a long, long trail a-winding
Through no man’s land in France.”
The company sang lustily as it splashed through the mud down a grey road between high fences covered with great tangles of barbed wire, above which peeked the ends of warehouses and the chimneys of factories.
The lieutenant and the top sergeant walked side by side chatting, now and then singing a little of the song in a deprecating way. The corporal sang, his eyes sparkling with delight. Even the sombre sergeant who rarely spoke to anyone, sang. The company strode along, its ninety-six legs splashing jauntily through the deep putty-colored puddles. The packs swayed merrily from side to side as if it were they and not the legs that were walking.
“There’s a long, long trail a-winding
Through no man’s land in France.”
At last they were going somewhere. They had separated from the contingent they had come over with. They were all alone now. They were going to be put to work. The lieutenant strode along importantly. The sergeant strode along importantly. The corporal strode along importantly. The right guard strode along more importantly than anyone. A sense of importance, of something tremendous to do, animated the company like wine, made the packs and the belts seem less heavy, made their necks and shoulders less stiff from struggling with the weight of the packs, made the ninety-six legs tramp jauntily in spite of the oozy mud and the deep putty-colored puddles.
It was cold in the dark shed of the freight station where they waited. Some gas lamps flickered feebly high up among the rafters, lighting up in a ghastly way white piles of ammunition boxes and ranks and ranks of shells that disappeared in the darkness. The raw air was full of coal smoke and a smell of freshly-cut boards. The captain and the top sergeant had disappeared. The men sat about, huddled in groups, sinking as far as they could into their overcoats, stamping their numb wet feet on the mud-covered cement of the floor. The sliding doors were shut. Through them came a monotonous sound of cars shunting, of buffers bumping against buffers, and now and then the shrill whistle of an engine.
“Hell, the French railroads are rotten,” said someone.
“How d’you know?” snapped Eisenstein, who sat on a box away from the rest with his lean face in his hands staring at his mud-covered boots.
“Look at this,” Bill Grey made a disgusted gesture towards the ceiling.
“Gas. Don’t even have electric light.”
“Their trains run faster than ours,” said Eisenstein.
“The hell they do. Why, a fellow back in that rest camp told me that it took four or five days to get anywhere.”
“He was stuffing you,” said Eisenstein. “They used to run the fastest trains in the world in France.”
“Not so fast as the ‘Twentieth Century.’ Goddam, I’m a railroad man and I know.”
“I want five men to help me sort out the eats,” said the top sergeant, coming suddenly out of the shadows. “Fuselli, Grey, Eisenstein, Meadville, Williams … all right, come along.”
“Say, Sarge, this guy says that frog trains are faster than our trains. What d’ye think o’ that?”
The sergeant put on his comic expression. Everybody got ready to laugh.
“Well, if he’d rather take the side-door Pullmans we’re going to get aboard tonight than the ‘Sunset Limited,’ he’s welcome. I’ve seen ’em. You fellers haven’t.”
Everybody laughed. The top sergeant turned confidentially to the five men who followed him into a small well-lighted room that looked like a freight office.
“We’ve got to sort out the grub, fellers. See those cases? That’s three days’ rations for the outfit. I want to sort it into three lots, one for each car. Understand?”
Fuselli pulled open one of the boxes. The cans of bully beef flew under his fingers. He kept looking out of the corner of his eye at Eisenstein, who seemed very skillful in a careless way. The top sergeant stood beaming at them with his legs wide apart. Once he said something in a low voice to the corporal. Fuselli thought he caught the words: “privates first-class,” and his heart started thumping hard. In a few minutes the job was done, and everybody stood about lighting cigarettes.
“Well, fellers,” said Sergeant Jones, the sombre man who rarely spoke, “I certainly didn’t reckon when I used to be teachin’ and preachin’ and tendin’ Sunday School and the like that I’d come to be usin’ cuss words, but I think we got a damn good company.”
“Oh, we’ll have you sayin’ worse things than ‘damn’ when we get you out on the front with a goddam German aëroplane droppin’ bombs on you,” said the top sergeant, slapping him on the back. “Now, I want you five men to look out for the grub.” Fuselli’s chest swelled. “The company’ll be in charge of the corporal for the night. Sergeant Jones and I have got to be with the lieutenant, understand?”
They all walked back to the dingy room where the rest of the company waited huddled in their coats, trying to keep their importance from being too obvious in their step.
“I’ve really started now,” thought Fuselli to himself. “I’ve really started now.”
The bare freight car clattered and rumbled monotonously over the rails. A bitter cold wind blew up through the cracks in the grimy splintered boards of the floor. The men huddled in the corners of the car, curled up together like puppies in a box. It was pitch black. Fuselli lay half asleep, his head full of curious fragmentary dreams, feeling through his sleep the aching cold and the unending clattering rumble of the wheels and the bodies and arms and legs muffled in coats and blankets pressing against him. He woke up with a start. His teeth were chattering. The clanking rumble of wheels seemed to be in his head. His head was being dragged along, bumping over cold iron rails. Someone lighted a match. The freight car’s black swaying walls, the packs piled in the center, the bodies heaped in the corners where, out of khaki masses here and there gleamed an occasional white face or a pair of eyes—all showed clear for a moment and then vanished again in the utter blackness. Fuselli pillowed his head in the crook of someo
ne’s arm and tried to go to sleep, but the scraping rumble of wheels over rails was too loud; he stayed with open eyes staring into the blackness, trying to draw his body away from the blast of cold air that blew up through a crack in the floor.
When the first greyness began filtering into the car, they all stood up and stamped and pounded each other and wrestled to get warm.
When it was nearly light, the train stopped and they opened the sliding doors. They were in a station, a foreign-looking station where the walls were plastered with unfamiliar advertisements. “V-E-RS-A-I-L-L-E-S”; Fuselli spelt out the name.
“Versales,” said Eisenstein. “That’s where the kings of France used to live.”
The train started moving again slowly. On the platform stood the top sergeant.
“How d’ye sleep,” he shouted as the car passed him. “Say, Fuselli, better start some grub going.”
“All right, Sarge,” said Fuselli.
The sergeant ran back to the front of the car and climbed on.
With a delicious feeling of leadership, Fuselli divided up the bread and the cans of bully beef and the cheese. Then he sat on his pack eating dry bread and unsavoury beef, whistling joyfully, while the train rumbled and clattered along through a strange, misty-green countryside,—whistling joyfully because he was going to the front, where there would be glory and excitement, whistling joyfully because he felt he was getting along in the world.
It was noon. A pallid little sun like a toy balloon hung low in the reddish-grey sky. The train had stopped on a siding in the middle of a russet plain. Yellow poplars, faint as mist, rose slender against the sky along a black shining stream that swirled beside the track. In the distance a steeple and a few red roofs were etched faintly in the greyness.
The men stood about balancing first on one foot and then on the other, stamping to get warm. On the other side of the river an old man with an oxcart had stopped and was looking sadly at the train.
“Say, where’s the front?” somebody shouted to him.
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