“Do not apologize Chaz. I need you to understand the effect you have on women. I need you to be mindful of the relationships you have had in the past. I need you to know you can’t do those things to me and expect me to stick around. You have to treat what we have differently.”
“Bella, I am a killer. I am afraid people will see that in me and be afraid of me. I do not want you to be afraid of me,” Chaz said softly. “I do not want to lose you.”
Bella paused at this confession but realized she knew that all along. Even without the details she knew Chaz’s other job involved taking lives. She just hoped it was all bad guys.
“You will not lose me if you respect and love me. I promise Chaz.”
Chaz breathed a sigh of relief and kissed the exposed skin on her stomach. Bella ran her hand over his face and then let her thumb brush against his lips. Chaz kissed her thumb before returning his attention to the exposed skin. He released his hold on Bella and stood before her. He took her face in his hands and kissed her supple lips. Their tongues caressed and Bella held onto his narrow waist. Pulling the tank top over her head Chaz freed her breasts. Wanting him to feel her naked breasts against his carved chest Bella wrapped him up in her arms. He ran fingers down her back kissing her shoulder as he did. Catching her chin, Chaz nipped and kissed it as she moaned. Going back to his lips she kissed him passionately. He gripped her ass with both hands. A slight push of her bottom towards his body and he lifted Bella. Her long legs wrapped around his waist and he laid her on the couch. Bella groaned as he kissed her neck moving to the valley between her breasts. Chaz spent considerable time on each breasts nipping and kissing them. Bella cried out as he teased her repeatedly.
“Chaz baby,” she groaned. Chaz ran his hand up to her neck and held it there applying a little pressure. Slowly his other hand trailed down to the drawstrings of her pajama bottoms. Chaz slipped his fingers inside her pajamas and Bella’s body shook when he made contact. The wordless groan that escaped her mouth was the sexiest thing Chaz had ever seen.
“I love you Bella,” he whispered. Chaz needed to feel her and removed his hand to take off her pajama bottoms. Bella reached for the band of his boxer briefs and pushed the fabric down. She ran a hand over his erection eliciting a whimper from Chaz. The feel of his hand on her special spot again caused her back to arch. Chaz loved her response to his touch. She gracefully elongated then wrapped a long leg around his waist. Chaz placed his head between her breasts as he slid inside his fiancée.
“Ah shit, Bella,” he whined. The sweet caress of her tight body greeted him.
“You feel so good baby,” Bella whimpered. Infinite tenderness was the order of the night as he gradually drew in and out of Bella. The sounds from her mouth gave him the encouragement he needed to make love to his future wife. Chaz had to fight hard not to come, she felt so fucking good. Her body was so primed for his intrusion that the desire to come was overwhelming. Chaz replaced his arousal with his mouth. He pushed her legs open and explored her with his tongue. Bella put her hand on his head as he moved his tongue over her sensitive nub.
“Ah Chaz. That feels so fucking good,” she purred. Chaz sucked on the small nub and felt her legs shake with her first climax. Bella screamed as the pleasure spread from her center down her legs. Chaz placed his hand on her quivering thigh enjoying the knowledge that he had pleased her. Removing his face, Chaz lifted her legs to rest against his chest as he slithered inside her saturated body. The last remnants of her orgasm gripped the intrusion causing Chaz to momentarily pause. He parted her legs allowing his body to hover over the writhing Bella. She opened her eyes to look at her fiancé and he could see the tears spilling off to the side.
“You never have to worry. I only want this. I only want you. I only need you,” he whispered gazing at her with love. The slow gentle strokes provided Chaz with a prolonged session that Bella enjoyed immensely. Bella opened her legs wider and that was Chaz’s undoing as he sank deeper.
“Bella baby, I’m coming,” he spluttered. Chaz spilled into his fiancée unable to control the sounds coming from his mouth. Bella clenched around his arousal causing Chaz to whimper. He tried to control his erratic breathing.
“Chaz, please, I need ah,” Bella mumbled incoherently. Chaz held her body as she shuddered forcefully mumbling more incoherent words.
“So beautiful,” he said as he watched her orgasm take shape. Chaz stayed inside Bella kissing her mouth occasionally sucking her bottom lip. He loved the feel of Bella trembling beneath his body from the lovemaking and his love. He had never responded to a woman’s body the way he did when he was with Bella. He wanted to be loved, that had always been his issue, and now he was truly loved.
Bella’s soft voice laced with tears jolted him out of his revelry. “Chaz, please do not hurt me. Please Chaz, I need you so much. I want to give you all of me but I am scared.”
Chaz began a new round of kisses starting at her forehead, cheeks, neck, and finally her mouth. “Give me all of you. Bella, you have all of me, no need to be scared. I won’t hurt you baby, I love you.”
Bella began to cry covering her face with her hands. Chaz slipped his hand around her throat and renewed his thrusts. His voice whispered into her ear, “Love me Bella.”
“I do love you Chaz, only you baby.” She managed to stammer the words as he increased the pressure around her neck. The new sensations combined with his thrusts were taking her to a place of pleasure she had never been before. Chaz picked up his speed considerably and his language faltered into unintelligible jumble. Bella’s hands went to the hand around her neck as a sign of solidarity, not to remove them. The grip on her throat increased enough to make her feel as if she was going to pass out. Instead an amazing euphoric consciousness overcame her body and she vibrated almost literally off the couch.
“Bella, Bella, Bella, ahh,” Chaz screeched loudly. Bella howled as the sensation threatened to stop her heart. She managed to grab Chaz’s face in her hands kissing him uncoordinatedly as she blubbered buckets of tears. All the tears were not her tears as his body brutally discharged. They both stilled the only sounds were of hearts rapidly beating and soft tears falling.
“I am co-captain of a special reconnaissance team that specializes in acquiring enemy intelligence, hostage recovery situations, and counter terrorism measures for a Special Forces unit in the U.S. army. Our missions are global and I speak several languages besides butchering the English language. I have been to every continent on this planet. I can shoot a M24 with my eyes closed and kill my target on the first shot. Every time I fire my rifle I imagine my father’s face as the target. I love the feel of my bolt-action rifle in my hand and I love the hunt. I was recruited when I was twenty as a sharpshooter and quickly became a ‘quiet professional’. I have been on over forty missions since my recruitment. I have never truly been in love and I only know that because of how I feel about you. I want to give up my other job and have a normal life but I do not think I deserve a normal life. I am a killer and I enjoy being a killer for my country. The Army is the only thing in my life that has never let me down, until I met you.”
Bella felt the tears fall on her face with this admission. Her own tears continued because no matter the words, she was just like Trinity and all the other women he had slept with. She would not willingly leave Chaz. He would have to leave her and she would never recover. Chaz did not give her time to respond as he slipped off the couch. Bella was unable to go after him right away. Her brain was giving her legs a crash course in walking.
Chaz was standing naked in the bathroom splashing water on his face. Bella handed him a towel and he accepted drying his face. Chaz took a washcloth and wet it with warm water. He took the cloth and washed Bella’s tears away. Bella slipped one arm around his back followed by the other before placing her face against his chest. Chaz held her in his arms kissing the top of her hair.
“Let me love you. Let me be your wife. Let me welcome you home every time. Let me carry our childr
en. Let me be the normal life you deserve. Chaz let me hold you.”
Chaz smiled and looked down at his fiancée. “Let me love you. Let me be your husband. Let me come home to you every time. Let me father our children. Let me into your normal life. Bella let me protect you.”
Chaz walked them to the bed and they snuggled into each other. They slept soundly until Bella’s alarm announced it was time for her to get up. In the shower Bella kept replaying the mind-blowing sex on the couch. That was something they could only do on special occasions, it felt like she had been close to death but gave into pleasure instead. It had totally blown her mind and her body felt as if it had run a marathon. In the bedroom she slipped into a pair of black slacks and a plaid short-sleeved top with a pair of black high-heeled pumps.
“Good morning,” Chaz crooned. Bella turned around brushing out her hair before adding a strategically placed jeweled barrette on the side.
“Good morning,” Bella replied. The smile on her face spoke of absolute sexual satisfaction. Damn her fiancé was too sexy for his own good. Despite her tired body she responded with those familiar sexual stirrings to his nudity. Chaz was initially worried that his confession might have been too much. Bella gave no indication that his confession had altered her feelings. In fact it appeared as if a weight had been lifted from their collective shoulders.
“You look pretty this morning.” Chaz gave her that panty-crushing smile. Bella walked to her fiancé and ran her hand over his face. Chaz closed his eyes as she touched him doing his best to absorb her love. Bella removed her hand and dropped to his morning erection. Taking all of him into her mouth, Chaz groaned loudly. He placed his hand on her head as she bobbed up and down. The sounds of her pleasing him filled the room. Bella loved his whines and whimpers as she took him deep into her throat.
“Bella fuck,” he moaned loudly. Bella moved faster as Chaz neared his release. He climaxed hard and fast into her mouth without messing up her outfit. She swallowed everything he gave. When she released him, he fell back onto the bed, his legs shaking. Bella stood and resumed fixing her hair. Chaz eventually went into the bathroom and shut the door. Bella opened the closet and extracted a white leather jacket. After adding some simple gold stud earrings, a gold bangle bracelet, and a spray of perfume she was ready to head to work. Chaz walked out of the bathroom, still naked before she could exit the bedroom. He snaked his arms around her waist and buried his face in her neck.
“I love you Chaz, have a good day baby,” Bella whispered. Chaz turned her around and kissed her softly.
“Are you sure you still love me?” Chaz whispered against her lips. Bella rolled her eyes and threw him a dirty look. “Were you not present a few minutes ago? I do not give goodbye blowjobs before going to work.”
Chaz laughed and wrapped her up in a massive hug. “I love you Bella. Have a good day at work sweetheart.”
Bella placed a hand on his face and pulled him in for a kiss. Chaz hated to let her go.
“I think I lost my man card last night,” he said to her retreating back.
“I think you found your man card last night,” she remarked walking out the door.
Chapter 15
“Kennedy, I love you like a sister but you should have put that bitch in her place,” Bella whispered over lunch. Kennedy shook her head in the negative. She thought Horatio should have just walked away.
“That skank was itching to get in bed with Horatio and she didn’t care that he had a woman. My presence did nothing but give her something to chase. I am not playing that game with Horatio to stroke his ego,” Kennedy replied. Bella shook her head disagreeing with her friend as she forked her salad.
“Bella, I do not see how you handle all these women swooning over Chaz. That shit infuriated me with Horatio and that bitch was so persistent.”
“Me?” Bella said pointing to herself. “I do not handle it well. Last night I almost used my kickboxing skills on Trinity.”
“For Pete’s sake Bella what the hell happened?” Kennedy continued to eat her lunch as Bella recounted last night’s explosive ending. Kennedy sat open mouthed as her friend explained how they almost came to fisticuffs.
“So in the end it all boiled down to Trinity being in love with Chaz. She hates me because he is treating me the way she wishes he had treated her. Oh and he can fuck me without external assistance,” Bella finished, taking a sip of her water.
“Damn Bella, I do not envy you. I love you but I do not envy you.”
“Last night was rough at home after that. We hardly spoke and I couldn’t sleep but we found a way later in the night to talk. I feel so good about this Kennedy. I can handle anything with Chaz. Fuck Trinity and any other woman that came before me. He belongs to me now Ken.”
Kennedy looked at her friend appreciating her new stance. “Good for you Bella. Make sure all those chicks know you are the Queen B in his life.”
“Now you need to go make up with Horatio. He loves you and I have never seen the man run like that when you took off in that taxi. Chaz and I had to take Mia, Ava, and Callie to the car. Mia and I exchanged some heated words before Callie became the voice of reason.”
“I was going to talk to you about that. I am not so sure we need to incorporate them back into our lives. I felt so uncomfortable on your behalf with Mia’s obvious crush. I mean Chaz did everything to show them he wanted no one but you. How do you not get that watching a man fuck his fiancée? He gave her no indication that he wanted her to join in on the fun.” Kennedy forked some of her salad. “Hell, Horatio flirted with her more than Chaz.”
“I think it is okay but I will wait before I invite them out with us. Maybe she can find someone to date. Then we can invite them to join us. Just think we were the nerds and now we have the crazy social life.”
“Yeah, all because you were a hoe and went home with Chaz the first night you met him,” Kennedy laughed. Bella hit her arm playfully and laughed because it was true.
“Seriously, go make up with Horatio. The man is messed up about yesterday. He loves you Ken and I am only saying this because I know how much you love him.”
Bella mimed a blowjob as Kennedy blushed profusely. Kennedy covered her face with her napkin as tears of laughter flowed down her cheeks.
“You only do that when you are in love,” Bella reminded.
“I need you to teach me that nifty little trick you did to Chaz. Damn Bella. I couldn’t believe my best friend has been holding out on me,” Kennedy said astonished. It was Bella’s turn to cover her face with the napkin.
“My gag reflex is not super sensitive and I do a lot of breathing threw my nose.”
“Watching you two was pretty hot. Don’t hit me but Chaz is fucking sexy. Not as sexy as my Horatio but I see why these ladies swoon over him.”
Bella extended a high five to Kennedy.
“This is why Chaz and I fuck like bunnies. How did we find two fine ass men with bedroom talent?” Bella shrugged her shoulders. “So go make up with Horatio and let him give you many orgasms to make it up to you.”
Kennedy considered Horatio and his bedroom prowess drifting off for a second. Bella snapped her fingers before Kennedy’s face laughing. Kennedy jumped up from the table pulling on her jacket.
“Can you pay the bill? I will repay you later. I need to go.”
Bella gave a quick nod and grabbed the bill. Kennedy hurried out of the restaurant on her cell phone. Bella happily went back to work knowing that her best friends were going to reconcile.
Chapter 16
Kennedy hurried to her apartment after calling her secretary to cancel the rest of her day. Having to spend the night without Horatio after such a good weekend sucked. She missed his touch and his humor. Kennedy peeled off the blazer and stepped out of the matching pants. Quickly she pulled the soft pink shell blouse over her head and removed her bra. Inside her lingerie drawer the black long sleeve lace babydoll waited for her to put it on. Kennedy slipped out of her everyday panties opting for the m
atching lace thong. The buzzer indicated that Horatio was downstairs. She pulled on the blazer and matching pants careful to button all the buttons. After surveying her room and finding it in order she walked to the front door.
“Hey baby,” Horatio said when he walked in. He went in to kiss Kennedy but she turned her head. The kiss landed on her cheek versus her lips. “I guess I deserve that.”
“I had lunch with Bella and she advised that I hear you out,” Kennedy said sternly.
“So you didn’t want to see me? Bella had to convince you to see me?” Horatio looked hurt that she hadn’t made the decision because she missed him. Kennedy wanted to hug and kiss him but she had to be tough. She wanted him to know that he would have to put these previous women in their place.
“You said you wanted to talk Horatio. I am listening.” Kennedy folded her arms across her ample breasts. Horatio took a seat on a nearby recliner.
“Yesterday was a mistake. I should have let Lisa know right away that you were my woman. I shouldn’t have let her go on like that.”
“She had her hands all over you and it didn’t seem like you minded.”
“Actually she surprised me and I wasn’t prepared for that blitz attack. Kennedy, you said that we were together. Why didn’t you come over and assert yourself as my woman?”
“Horatio we are together. I did come over but she was all over you. It pissed me off that you didn’t shut her down immediately. You seemed like you weren’t sure about us,” Kennedy said looking away. She felt the tears welling up in her eyes.
“Kennedy, baby I am very sure about us. I fucking love you,” he said walking to her.
“She seemed to have some kind of hold on you, literally. I am not about to try and compete with a gang of women to be with you. If the tables were turned how would you have responded?”
“It just shocked me especially since Chaz and I were talking about the Mia crush. I was trying to help him get away from that girl and then Lisa comes out of nowhere. She and I used to have a strictly sexual relationship, not what you want to hear, but I never had feelings for her. That was her motivation to see if she could get me to ditch someone I cared about. You do not have to compete with a gang of women. I want you Kennedy. I love you baby.” Horatio leaned in to kiss Kennedy snaking an arm around her waist.
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