by t. h. snyder
As I sit down at her kitchen table, I intently listen as she reads my fortune. Some things take me by surprise whereas others I am in shock that she could know so much about a stranger…I guess it all makes sense since she is psychic and all.
When the time comes for her to end our session, it seems as if all the answers she has given me only left me more torn and confused.
I step out of her trailer to see both Izzy and Rory waiting for me. Each of the girls has a smile on their face and such hope beaming from their expressions. For the rest of that day I sulk, still so unsure as to what I should do…stay or go.
The words of Es keep ringing through my ears.
Tomorrow is our last day here at the resort, and I still don’t know what I’m going to do. Everyone here has a past, something that has brought them to this place, yet living and working here has changed their futures for the better. I don’t know what happens if I do stay, but the one thing I do know is that I will be surrounded by constant love and support. As quirky and off the wall as this place is, it also has an overwhelming feeling of home.
After Es read me my fortune the other day, I’ve been swept in a mental tailspin.
Find your happy, find him.
Those words keep shouting to me over and over again.
Finding your happiness is closer than you think, but finding him is a journey you must partake.
Find my happy…is this place my happy. Find him…I thought I already did.
I’m so confused; I want to be sick.
The sound of the door opening pulls my attention toward the front of the room as Tristan enters the cabin. Without a word, he sets a few things down on the kitchen counter and looks in my direction. Our eyes meet as my heart aches.
How could a love so strong have such agony surrounding it at all times? Together we could have been something wonderful. If only I weren’t sick, if only I were able to give him what he needs and if only his parents could see me as the woman that will give him the world.
There’s always been too much standing in our way, a vicious circle of defeat. I’m tired of fighting what’s pulling us apart.
“Can we go for a walk?” he asks.
Nodding, I get up off the couch and move to the door, stepping into my chucks.
He extends his hand out to mine, and I accept it. The warmth of his touch against mine sent a shiver through my body. He affects me, even when my mind tells me to ignore it. I’ve always been so drawn to him; it’s a pain I can’t control.
This is it, the moment of truth…do I stay or do I go. I know the answer, yet it was still so hard to rationalize what I was about to do.
In the past, making decisions was one of the triggers that would set off an attack, but ever since we got to the resort, I’ve tried hard not to be that woman any longer.
As I glance into his eyes, I see years of love, laughter, heartache, and tears. I always thought Tristan and I could conquer the world together, but that was before I found this place. Everything about these surroundings makes me happy, and that’s all I ever wanted. The thought of leaving and going back to the hell we came from was devastating.
As much as Tristan said it would be okay, it’s the reality of what will become of us if I go back home. I’m a twisted tornado waiting to destroy everything he’s worked so hard to create. His life, the love he holds for his family…all of it is deserving of him but was I?
I’ve thought long and hard about my decision. It wasn’t something I took lightly.
“It’s time to go, Chelby,” he says reaching his hand out to meet mine.
My entire body trembles, not from anxiety but the fear of what was about to happen next.
The past few days have taught me a lot about myself. I’ve grown stronger, and I knew then that even in that short time, I would be able to overcome anything that stood in my way.
Will life continue to be a struggle? Yes.
Will I have moments of weakness where I feel as though I’m about to break? Yes.
Will I forgive myself for the choice I’m about to make? I don’t know.
While I look back at my new family, the friends that took me in as their own, a single tear falls from my eye.
Then I look back at Tristan, the expression on his face pulls at my heart strings.
Am I foolish to believe that I can live without him?
Tears cascade down my cheeks as the moment of truth hits me hard. I’d like to think crying only shows weakness, but with him it’s a sense of letting go of something that was never meant to be held back. He sees the good in me and strives to help me be the woman I want to be. I can’t guarantee that I’ll never fall apart again, it’s inevitable. But I can promise myself that I’ll do everything I can to try to be enough…for me.
I have to be strong for me and do what is right for my future.
As I focus my gaze on the ground, I take a deep breath.
“I’m sorry, but I have to say goodbye.”
The End…for now!!
Stay tuned for the full-length novel of Finding Us
Coming Fall 2015
Finding Us Playlist
Believe – Mumford & Sons
Home – Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
Shuffle – Bombay Bicycle Club
You Don’t Know Her Like I Do – Brantley Gilbert
Do I – Luke Bryan
That’s the Way – Eli Young Band
Getaway Car – Thompson Square
I Melt – Rascal Flatts
Win – Brian McKnight
Say You Do – Dierks Bentley
About the Author
t. h.snyder is my pen name.
I am a 35 year old single mother to two amazing kids.
I became an avid reader in spring of 2012 and since have read over 300 books.
My genre of interest ranges from Romance to thrilling Paranormal.
This is more than just a hobby for me, it’s a passion to read the words of great authors and bring life to their stories with my reviews and character castings.
I started writing my first novel in June of 2013 and I am anxious to see where this journey takes me!!
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Cursed Heart
Cursed Fate
Obsidian Desire
the Fight
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Cursed Soul (Cursed, #4)
the Win (Fight, #3)
Dreams of Her Desire
Our Last Dance
Torn to Shredz
Mended Love
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