Page 11
Brian swings his bat in circles, raising his eyebrows, glancing from the boys to me.
The softball team has already gathered by the dugout. They’re watching the baseball boys act like idiots, and envy flickers on their faces. A volcano erupts in Laura’s eyes.
“Before we talk to the team,” Coach Lynn says, “do you want to tell me why you quit in the first place?”
“Well, um, it was family problems and some issues with friends…” I feel my face burning up.
“I figure it must’ve been pretty serious. ”
“It was. ”
Coach Lynn nods and touches my shoulder. She leaves it at that, and I’m grateful. But it turns out she doesn’t even need to tell the team. The minute I look at Laura, she lets out this whimper-scream-yelp thing that sounds like a puppy caught in a trap.
“Coach! No way!” Laura says, shaking her head like crazy.
Coach Lynn ignores Laura and looks from girl to girl. Some of them I know. Some of them I don’t. Some of them I used to share clothes and Animal Crackers with.
“Parker Shelton’s decided she wants to join the team this season. We’ll see how she does in practice tonight and go from there in terms of choosing her position and where she’ll bat in the lineup. But I imagine we’ll try to put her at third. ”
“But, Coach, this isn’t fair!” Laura whines. “We’ve been working out all winter, and practices have already started, and she just gets to waltz in and take over third base?” My former best friend looks like she might cry. Allie pats Laura’s back and nods vehemently at the coach.
“It is fair,” Coach Lynn replies, checking her watch. “I’m the coach, I make the decisions, and as captain, I hope you’ll welcome Parker back, Laura. ”
Laura pounds her fist into her glove and bites her lip. I bet she’s thinking: if Parker rejoins the team, I won’t be the best player anymore, and I have to be the center of everything or I’ll just die.
Some of the girls look at Laura with sympathy, but I notice a few girls rolling their eyes. I sort of want to tell them to stop, because our friendship was once good, and deep down, I still care about her.
Freshman year, one of our favorite things to do was to go tanning in her backyard. Then one day her dad, Brother John, decided to plant an apple tree right in the middle of our spot. Fourth of July was coming up, and Laura’s older brothers had been stockpiling fireworks. We stole some in an attempt to blow up the apple tree, so we could have our tanning spot back.
Let’s just say it didn’t work. Her parents were pissed, but we laughed like maniacs, then rode our bikes to Dairy Queen for Blizzards, singing Taylor Swift songs at the top of our lungs.
“Pair off and start warming up,” Coach Lynn says.
I pull my glove out of my bag and slip my hand into it. It feels soft, yet stiff, and it still smells like leather and dirt. Love. I pound my fist into it and chew my gum and whirl my arm around in a circle. My muscles ache, thanks to batting last night.
Everyone pairs off. I look from girl to girl, then one player—a sophomore whose name I can’t remember—shrugs and approaches me.
“What’s your name?” I ask.
“Sydney. I play catcher. ”
“I’m Parker. Wanna partner up?”
“Sure. ”
I nod and toss the ball at her, then take a step back. We keep stepping back until we’re at least fifty feet apart. I don’t miss a single throw.
“You’ve still got your arm,” Coach Lynn says. “But you need to put some muscle back on. ”
I glance down at my body. The minute I start working out, I won’t weigh 110 pounds anymore. Will any of my clothes fit? Will Laura call me butch again? A memory of leaving the locker room alone and crying flashes in my mind.
When it’s time for batting practice, Coach Lynn instructs me to go first. The sun has completely set now, and the area beyond the field is black. I grab my favorite aluminum bat from my bat bag and jog up to home plate. I slip on a batting helmet and glance at Brian’s truck.
His headlights come on, and he drives out of the parking lot. I wish he had stayed to watch me. Because, if I’m being honest with myself, he’s a lot of the reason I’m doing this.
“Run on your fifth hit,” Coach Lynn calls out. This means I’m supposed to hit the ball four times before running to first base after my fifth hit. I spread my legs apart and take a practice swing.
Laura winds up to pitch and whirls her arm around. The ball comes straight at my head. I fall to the clay, narrowly avoiding getting whacked. On the ground, I pant hard. On the mound, Laura cackles and digs her cleats into the mound. I lift my head to find Mel and Allie laughing, along with some other girls.
I lie back down on the ground, inhaling clay. This was stupid. Why did I think I could rejoin the team and everything would be okay? Because Brian, a twenty-three-year-old hot guy who knows nothing of my life, thought it would be a good idea? Well, it’s not. Tears spring to my eyes, and my heart races.
“Laura!” I hear Coach Lynn yell. “Come on. ”
This was stupid, this was stupid. Stupid, stupid me.
“Parker?” I peek up. Corndog threads his fingers through the fence. I rest my forehead on the red clay.
“I’ll bench you if you keep pulling this crap, Laura,” Coach Lynn says. But I know she’s lying. Laura’s one of the best pitchers in our region. She could steal the principal’s prized BMW and go mudding in it and the school would still let her play.
I feel hands gently lifting my arms. “You hurt?” Corndog asks quietly.
My pride is broken. I shake my head. “What are you doing here?”
“Lawnmower broke down. ”
I laugh softly. “Really?”
“Nah. Just wanted to see you bat. Then I was gonna take off. ” He helps me to my feet. I wipe dirt off my sweatpants. “Come on,” he adds, leading me over to the dugout.
“You okay, Parker?” Coach Lynn calls, looking concerned.
“She needs a breather,” Corndog replies. We sit down on the bench together, and I pull my batting helmet off and drop it on the patchy dirt floor. It bounces away.
“What happened?” he asks.
“Laura. ”
“I saw. But why let it bother you so much?”
I lift a shoulder and peek over at Corndog. A tear slips out of my eye and runs down my cheek.
“You’re stronger than this. ”
“Why are you being so nice to me all of a sudden?” I ask.
“Competition’s over. You won. ” He grins and laughs, looking out at the field. “Hey, listen,” he says in a slow drawl. “I think it’s cool you’re going out for the team again. I never understood why you quit. ”
I drop my chin to my chest. I was right. Anyone can interpret my intentions however they want. “You think I’m a quitter. ”
“No…I just didn’t get it. I could tell how much you loved the game. ”
“Oh really?” I glance at him.
“Remember sophomore year, during the Prom Decisional, how you stole third base and slid into me?”
“Yeah?”
“Your cleats dug into my shin and you knocked me down. And then you stretched out a hand and pulled me to my feet. ”
“Sorry about that…”
Corndog waves a hand. “I liked that you didn’t gloat. You were just happy and playing the game. ”
“I love this game,” I admit, watching as Laura steps up to the mound, whirls her arm, and pitches a strike right down the center. “But I don’t trust this team. ”
Corndog looks confused and clutches his knees. “You gotta trust your team. I trust every single one of my guys. ”
I nod slowly, smiling a pained smile.
“You gonna go back out there now? You can do this. ”
I know I can do this. But do I want to? No, not really.
“Can you give me a ride home?” I ask him. Drew’s long gone, an
d I don’t feel like riding my bike tonight.
“As long as you don’t mind riding my lawnmower. Left my truck at home. ”
I give him a tiny grin. “I’m up for an adventure. ”
Drew is one of those people everybody likes.
Even crazy Max Reddick, the guy who spends all his time carving sculptures out of Ivory soap, rushes to get a seat at Drew’s art table.
On the first day of sixth grade, everyone was terrified of not knowing where to sit in the lunchroom. Students had graduated from three different elementary schools to attend Green Hills; middle school was another world. I felt lucky to know Laura, Allie, and Drew.
Will Whitfield had been homeschooled, so this was his first time learning with other kids. After paying for his lunch, he carried his tray in one arm and pushed his glasses up on his nose with the other hand. I saw the whole thing happen in slowmo. Someone jostled Will. The tray tilted.
The corndog went flying.
It hit JJ in the chest. JJ was, and still is, this huge football player, and he stood up and strutted toward skinny little Will. No one hits JJ with a corndog, that’s for sure. I don’t think JJ would’ve punched him or anything, but nobody wants to be humiliated on their first day at school.
“You’re right, man! These corndogs are crap!” Drew yelled, launching a corndog straight at JJ’s face.
Everyone knew Will as Corndog after that. Everyone knew him as Drew’s friend.
The day Laura told everyone I was probably just like my mom—a butch softball player who likes girls—Drew crawled into my bed and held me until I cried out every tear in my body. He held me all night long.
Even with everything that’s happened to me, I have to thank you for letting me keep Drew.
Written on February 17; kissed and tucked away in my Bible.
I’m sitting on my bed, removing my Passion Peach nail polish and chatting with Drew over Skype, even though he’s right down the street. I tell him what happened with Laura.
“She’s a jealous bitch,” Drew replies.
I tell him about Corndog giving me a ride home on the lawnmower, which was surprisingly fun, but very, very cold and windy. Not to mention bumpy.
“Huh,” Drew replies. Pauses. “So…did you talk to Coach Hoffman today?” he yell-whispers over the Internet.
“I didn’t see him. ”
That’s not technically true, but I don’t want to let on how I feel about him. I’ve never had a real real boyfriend, and I’ve never felt the urge to have a real relationship, ’cause what if the guy ditches me like Mom ditched Dad? Like Mom ditched me and Ryan? Like Laura and the other girls at church ditched me? A relationship never felt worth the risk.
Today I saw Brian when I arrived at school. He smiled and winked at me. I know, right? Scandal! But Drew doesn’t need to know he winked. It’s my secret. I set my cotton ball and nail polish remover on my bedside table and pull my laptop closer.
“What are you doing?”
Drew must be able to hear me typing. “Just checking my mail,” I lie, opening Brian’s Facebook page. I move the cursor over the “Add as Friend” button. I take a deep breath, close my eyes and push click. Now I wait. For a minute, for a month, forever.
Stealing Parker Page 11
