by Alex Marwood
The patience, forbearance and support I’ve received from the people in my professional and personal lives (and the crossover) have been an absolute revelation to my untrusting soul. And the calm with which everyone greeted my mess of a first draft, the clarity and skill with which between them they nursed, prodded and guided me through hacking it back and finding the sense within still leave me breathless with respect and admiration. From the bottom of my heart, I thank everyone involved.
Laetitia Rutherford, my amazing agent, who like a swan gliding through the water never betrayed the frantic paddling beneath the surface as she negotiated the logistical ramifications while making me feel protected and supported. Having an agent with such a sharp editorial eye is also an extra, extraordinary gift.
Cath Burke at Sphere, who has always handled my eccentricities with calm and kindness, and to whom I owe a huge amount.
Abby Parsons at Sphere, who took on an addled author new to her and ploughed through with extraordinary steel and clarity.
Sam Raim at Penguin, who also had to do the same, and brought the same steel and clarity to the unknown. Both of you have my unending gratitude and respect.
The production, design, marketing, publicity and sales teams at both publishers, whose contributions generally go unnoticed by the reader, but who are essential to all books’ wellbeing.
All my foreign language publishers, but particularly Aleksandra Saluga and her team at Albatros, who have made me feel so welcome in beautiful Poland.
My friends and neighbours, so many of whom stepped up and checked up and kept an eye: including, but not confined to, BriBri, Charlie, Jane, Claudie, Ariel and Luke, Merri, Ali, Helen, Abbie and Alex, Filipa, Antonia, Venetia, Jo, Marie, Angela and Angie, Sue, Julia. If you’re not on this list, that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate you, simply that my memory really is dodgy!
Sarah Byrne and Marie Causey for giving me their names.
Erin, to whom this book is dedicated, and who is, as the dedication says, amazing.
Will, Ali, Cathy, David, Lina, Tora, Archie and Geordie, always.
The wonderful Rebecca Davis, whom we lost this year. I shall miss her keen intelligence, her pragmatism, our quiet words behind the scenes, more than I can say.
The beautiful strangers who have become friends on Facebook, who have provided constant blessed comfort, distraction and entertainment while I was unable to leave the house.
And last but not least, Baloo, who sat guard for a year in a darkened room and only asked for constant tidbits in return. A writer without a cat is like a soldier without Kevlar.
Table of Contents
About the Author
Also by Alex Marwood
Copyright
Contents
Dedication
Prologue
Among the Dead: September 2016
1. Romy
2. Sarah
3. Sarah
4. Sarah
5. Romy
6. Sarah
Before the End: 2001–2002
7. Romy
8. Romy
9. Romy
10. Somer
Among the Dead: October 2016
11. Romy
Before the End: 2002–2003
12. Romy
13. Romy
Among the Dead: October 2016
14. Romy
15. Romy
16. Sarah
17. Sarah
Before the End: 2008–2010
18. Romy 2009
19. Romy 2009
Among the Dead: November 2016
20. Sarah
21. Romy
22. Sarah
23. Romy
Before the End: 2010–2011
24. Romy 2010
25. Romy
Among the Dead: November 2016
26. Romy
Before the End: 2012
27. Romy
Among the Dead: November 2016
28. Romy
29. Sarah
30. Romy
31. Romy
Before the End: 2012–2014
32. Romy
33. Romy
34. Somer
Among the Dead: November 2016
35. Sarah
36. Sarah
37. Romy
38. Romy
39. Romy
Before the End: 2014
40. Romy
41. Romy
Among the Dead: November 2016
42. Romy
43. Sarah
Before the End: 2015–2016
44. Somer
45. Romy
Among the Dead: December 2016
46. Romy
47. Romy
Before the End: June 2016
48. Somer
49. Somer
50. Romy
51. Romy
Among the Dead: December 2016
52. Romy
53. Sarah
54. Sarah
Before the End: June 2016
55. Somer
Among the Dead: December 2016
56. Sarah
Epilogue
Acknowledgements