Falling Into Love
One More Night Trilogy
Selene Chardou
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Table of Contents
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Table of Contents
Dedication
Falling Into Love Playlist
Chapter One – London
Chapter Two – Wembley Stadium: Rehearsal
Chapter Three – Wembley Stadium: The Concert
Chapter Four – Paris
Chapter Five – The Stade de France Concert
Chapter Six – Confessions in Marseille
Chapter Seven – The Stade Vélodrome Concert
Chapter Eight – Drama, Drama & More Drama
Chapter Nine – Concerts & After Parties
Chapter Ten – Copenhagen & Heartbreak
Chapter Eleven – The Forum Concert
Chapter Twelve – Intermission (My POV)
Chapter Thirteen – Time Flies
Chapter Fourteen – Sydney in Sydney
Chapter Fifteen – An Argument & A Proposal
Chapter Sixteen – The End of The Tour & Back to L.A.
Chapter Seventeen – To Live & Love in L.A.
Author’s Note
About the Author
Contact Information
Current & Upcoming Novels
Dedication
To my fans and bloggers out there for rockin’ this series. This one is for you…enjoy!
Falling Into Love Playlist
“Only You” – Ellie Goulding
“Alone Together” – Fall Out Boy
“5 O’Clock” – T-Pain feat. Lily Allen and Wiz Khalifa
“Can’t Breathe” – Leona Lewis
“Around You” – Jes
“Passenger” – Deftones
“The Chemicals Between Us” – Bush
“Sola Sistim” – Underworld
“November Rain” – Guns N’ Roses
“Running To the Edge Of the World” – Marilyn Manson
“Backstabber” – Ke$ha
“When Love Takes Over” – David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland
“Make Me Wanna Die” – The Pretty Reckless
“You Look So Fine” – Garbage
“We Can’t Stop” – Miley Cyrus
“Paralyzed” – The Cardigans
“Madness” – Muse
“Evolution Revolution Love” – Tricky feat. Ed Kowalczyk
“Skin” – Rihanna
“I Remember” – Kaskade
“Romantic Dreams” – Deftones
“The Mighty Fall” – Fall Out Boy feat. Big Sean
“Made in the U.S.A.” – Demi Lovato
“Lover’s Spit” – Broken Social Scene
“Would?” – Alice in Chains
“Princess of China” – Coldplay feat. Rihanna
“This is Love” – will.i.am feat Eva Simons
“Wild Horses” – The Sundays
“5 O’Clock in the Morning (Who’d Have Known) – Lily Allen
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Chapter One
London
OUR FLIGHT LANDED in the muted light of an afternoon, which threatened to go dark soon. Clouds almost completely covered the sky and were an eerie gray that threatened rain any moment. The flight from Boston had been rather pleasant but I wouldn’t dare admit to anyone how happy I was to finally be on steady ground again.
Limousines carted all of us off to The Dorchester where we would be staying for three nights. The band had two gigs two nights in a row to perform at Wembley Stadium and the memory of Madison Square Garden continued to haunt all of us. The difference was this time, the bands would be playing in front of crowds that dwarfed any of the concert arenas they’d played in the States.
The average amount of fans they played to varied from twenty to twenty-five thousand back home but Wembley Stadium seated ninety thousand people, roughly four times the amount of people they were used to playing in front of.
There was no way Damira and I would be able to acclimate ourselves to a stadium that huge in two days so we had to take part of our free day just to get some decent photos of the whole place.
While Kaz had upgraded us to the Park Suite, the record company would only pay for Junior suites and all the other band members seemed to be okay with that.
Of course I wasn’t really worried about hotel rooms and the size of concert venues; my concern remained firmly rooted with Kaz. After his revelation about his brother, Randall, and the sexual abuse he had dealt with at the hands of that psycho, I wondered if I had merely opened Pandora’s Box just talking about it to him.
I’d had my fair share of problems as an adolescent—who hadn’t?—but I’d never experienced any sort of abuse from my mother or grandfather. Every form of abuse my body had been exposed to had been inflicted by me and me alone.
Men were simply different from women and where I knew I could move on from what happened to me as a teenager, I knew Kaz had never been able to move past what he’d been through and that hurt me terribly because I wanted to be there for him.
It was so odd because although the situation between us remained the same, something had fundamentally changed and he was not willing or ready to admit it. Neither was I to be honest. I loved him with all my heart and I knew he loved me too but were we ready to approach the next step?
Shortly after arriving at The Dorchester and settling in, the girls wanted to have a drink at The Promenade Bar. I’d showered and changed into a slinky black, lace-edge Versace cocktail dress and paired it with silver Christian Louboutin four-inch sandals. Kaz surprised me as I slipped on a couple of bracelets and kissed my neck.
“Where do you think you’re going in that sexy nightgown?” he joked before his hands gripped my breasts through the thin material.
“Downstairs to have drinks with the girls,” I replied before I turned around to face him. My arms immediately laced around his neck and all the sudden, I didn’t care about drinks anymore. I just wanted to spend the night devouring this beautiful man.
Why couldn’t I get enough of him? I felt like a nympho in heat and no matter how many times we slept together, it never was enough. I would never tire of this man and the thought suddenly frightened me half to death.
I needed to get away just to breathe on my own and to stop what ever I was doing. It wasn’t healthy—my constant need for Kaz. I had to leave to see my friends, if only to prove to myself I didn’t have an unhealthy addiction to my boyfriend who turned me into a wanton sex kitten when ever I was in his presence.
His aquamarine eyes were bright and stared into my own; I had no secrets from him and there was no where for me to hide. “What girlfriends would those be?”
“Uh…” My mind suddenly went blank before the names came back to me. “Faith, Laurel, Sasha, and Damira.”
“So, you aren’t spending any time with Keren or Misty?”
I shook my head. “No, baby. Besides, Misty is pregnant and she shouldn’t be drinking.”
Kaz’s grip grew tighter on my body and I suddenly felt a strong sense of abandonment. I was abandoning him, the same way his mother had and I should have asked him if it was okay to go out that night. Not because I was afraid he would say no but because he needed me a lot more than the girls did.
“I can cancel,” I blurted out. “We could spend some time together—”
His blue-green irises turned cold. “No, it’s okay. I promised Jaden I would stop by and we would have some quality male bonding time together so you go and have fun, baby. Okay?”
“Are you sure?”
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nbsp; Kaz let go of me and began to stride into the bedroom as he replied, “Yes, I’m sure. I am a grown man, Syd—I don’t need a fucking nursemaid. Have fun with your friends.”
His biting tone pushed me to grab a small black clutch purse and I left the suite as fast as my legs would carry me.
By the time I arrived, all the women were there, gathered around a table laughing and conversing animatedly with one another. Talia was also there and my face lit up as I took a seat next to her.
“So, Kaz let you out of the cage for the night?” Faith inquired sarcastically.
“Shut up. He’s spending time with your man so don’t think you’ll be cutting out early,” I snapped back.
“Give it a rest, you two.” Talia glared at the both of us with determined pale green eyes. “At least you know you are loved. That is more than I can say about my current situation.”
Everyone at the table knew what she was talking about and to be honest, I still couldn’t understand why a woman as beautiful and intelligent as her put up with Seth’s bullshit.
The longer this tour lasted, the more I honestly detested the lead singer of Winter’s Regret. The rest of the group was cool. Kris and I could hold a conversation with no problem since his fiancée and I had become practically inseparable. Linx and Niko took some getting used to but they were good guys at heart and only wanted what was best to maintain cohesion of the band.
It was the same with Scarlet Fever.
I would be the first to admit I couldn’t stand Jaden at first because of what I thought he’d done to my best friend. And then I’d found out the hard way he hadn’t done anything to Faith she didn’t want to happen. They had a twisted and dysfunctional relationship but it worked for them and they were in love with one another.
Perhaps because he’d been brought up in a motorcycle club, he didn’t think there was anything wrong with sharing her with Kaz at one time and she certainly didn’t have a problem with it either. Beneath all that glamour and glitz was a very kinky bitch indeed but that wasn’t my business and as long as it was no longer going on, it was part of my boyfriend’s past. It couldn’t be changed and to be pissed about it seemed immature and a useless waste of energy.
I didn’t even care about their so-called “bet” about having Kaz break my virginity and then dumping me because we were friends again and I knew Faith had my best interest at heart. She didn’t think Kaz and I were going to go anywhere and that was pretty much how everyone felt but something had happened between us and we’d fallen in love.
Talia and Seth—on the other hand—had a relationship only one who was crazy and psycho would consider “normal”. They seriously reminded me of Eminem and Kim; their whole togetherness was “Love the Way You Lie”, Eminem’s huge hit with Rihanna.
Perhaps there was a true and wonderful love at one time but it had turned bitter and ugly. He cheated on her and didn’t care whether she knew or not. He did drugs like they were going out of style and he talked to her like she was a piece of trash. Talia didn’t have a name unless it was “Bitch”, “Cunt” or “Whore”.
I considered her my friend now and I hated the way he spoke to her but it wasn’t my business and in so many ways, I didn’t think I had any right to tell her what to do where he was concerned. She couldn’t see the forest for the trees but then again maybe she truly didn’t want to where he was concerned.
Faith poured me a fluted glass of Cristal champagne and set it in front of me. “Here, drink up!”
I smiled wryly before I took a long swig and enjoyed the aftertaste of golden pears and tart apples. There was an aftertaste left in my mouth that wasn’t the champagne. Perhaps it was the glass or my best friend had spiked it?
“You didn’t slip me a roofie, did you?” I questioned wryly.
Faith glared at me with icy gray-green eyes. “Um, yeah right. I don’t want a verbal ass kicking from Kaz. That is just pure Cristal, which is costing us a mighty pence in this overpriced joint. I didn’t think you’d want a cocktail since you are used to nine-hundred-dollar bottles of scotch.”
Sasha whistled. “Jesus! You do realize that is coming out of Kasper’s pocket. He orders Macallan 30 by the case. I heard it’s a very smooth whiskey. Is it?”
“It’s not whiskey, Sash, it is scotch.” Laurel hit her sister playfully on the left arm. “And yes, it is every worth every penny. I have had it and talk about good. I love the taste of it and I am not even a scotch gal.”
I tried to concentrate on the conversations going on around me but I suddenly felt dizzy and stood. “I think I need some air.”
Damira’s brows knitted together with concern. “Honey, you aren’t looking very good. Are you okay?”
“I don’t know…” I trailed off.
Talia was the first to stand and walked over to me. “Let’s take a trip to the ladies room.”
I followed her as she held my hand and I could suddenly understood why she had suggested it. My stomach did flip flops and I knew I would upchuck any moment.
I barely made it to a stall before expensive champagne and everything I’d eaten that day ended up in the toilet. I kept vomiting until there was nothing left and my stomach continued to lurch dry heaves.
My heart raced as I wiped my mouth with toilet paper before I flushed and stood on legs that felt like spaghetti.
Talia was by the sink and watched me with knowing eyes as I rinsed my mouth out with tap water and cleaned my mouth again with several fancy paper napkins.
I finally met her gaze, albeit reluctantly. “When’s the last time you had your period?”
“Um…not that long ago. Maybe a couple weeks or so. Why?”
“You on the pill?”
“Duh? Of course.”
She crossed her arms against her breasts. “I don’t mean to state the obvious but even with you being protected, I’m sure Kaz bare-backs. I have had an abortion as have two of my best friends…I know what it’s like. I know what pregnancy is like and…though you are definitely in the early stages…I would get a test in about a week. Enough hormones should be in your urine by then. Stop with the birth control pills because they’ve failed you and you don’t want to have a miscarriage—”
“I can’t exactly be pregnant on this tour either!” I exclaimed.
She smiled and shook her head. “If you want an abortion then you go to a clinic. You do not want to deal with a miscarriage, believe me. Do it right…but tell Kaz first. He has a right to know.”
I shook my head as I looked away. “I can’t, Talia. He’ll think I did this on purpose and he’ll hate I tried to trap him when I didn’t plan this. I thought we were being careful and I was taking my pills the same time everyday…”
Talia grabbed my hands and squeezed them. “Syd, he loves you. He isn’t Seth and he would want to know. Xander is his world…you don’t think he’d care if he knocked you up or not? Don’t ever do that to any man because you are asking for a world of trouble. Why do you think Seth treats me the way he does? I killed his baby and didn’t tell him. Perhaps I deserve how he treats me because he heard he was garbage enough when he was growing up and I just threw his kid away and that was the final nail in the coffin.
“I know you gals all think I am crazy for staying with him but his childhood…after I left Boston…it was really bad. Everyone he has ever loved has abandoned him, even his brother. I can’t do that to him and he will get better but the tour has been much more stressful than he imagined it would be. He isn’t ready to play Wembley Stadium because he doesn’t think he’s worthy. It’s hard work being with him but I can’t give up on him…not now…perhaps never.”
My head pounded but I looked at Talia and tried to act non-judgmental. “You deserve so much better, Tal. I’m gonna dispense some advice you don’t want and it’s only because I consider you a friend. I see the chemistry between you and Kaz and if I wasn’t in the way, don’t you know I would want you to be with a man like him?
“I know what you’re thinking
—he’s a rich white boy who had it easy and that’s why he doesn’t have the problems Seth has but…he deals with his own demons and they aren’t pretty or glamorous. He doesn’t know but that night he couldn’t sleep, he must have gone to Jaden’s and got high. I could smell the drugs coming out his pores. Probably a combo of cocaine and Oxy. I didn’t tell him because it’s not my place and after what he’d told me about his childhood, I couldn’t really fault him.”
“Kaz is using hard drugs?” Talia bit out with anger and frustration.
“It was a relapse. He hasn’t used since then and to be honest, it was probably a certain phone call he had with his father. If I can keep him away from his parents then I can keep him on the straight and narrow. You see how controlled he is? He could never deal with falling apart because it isn’t part of his DNA and he hates that kind of weakness in others.”
She nodded. “Yeah, I get where you’re coming in but Seth and I aren’t breaking up any time soon. It just isn’t going to happen. Save your breath…I know I sound like a stupid bitch but I know how to handle him and he would be completely lost without me.”
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