“Slayers have black blood because they choose self-interest over the collective good,” Niall explained.
“Because they choose the shadow over the light,” Sloane said.
“Why is that important?”
“Because Delaney’s blood has kept changing. When first he returned to us, it was dark and his eyes were empty.” Sloane frowned and Ginger thought again of zombies in B-movies. “It was as if his spirit had been banished to a hidden corner of himself.”
That adhered to Ginger’s impression of Delaney having endured some ordeal. She nodded in understanding. Delaney pushed himself to his feet and paced her kitchen, clearly restless.
Was he that anxious to die?
Or did he just dislike having his weakness discussed so openly?
“But then he was drawn to the heat of Donovan’s firestorm,” Rafferty added, pushing the sheet of paper aside and laying the pencil atop it. “The light pierced his darkness, summoning him like a beacon.”
“We always feel the heat of the firestorm,” Delaney added. She appreciated that he was trying to help her understand their world. “But we feel it more keenly when it’s that of someone we know well.”
“I was drawn to yours, for example,” Niall said, then smiled for Ginger. She understood then that he and Delaney were good friends, and that was why he was trying to ease the situation. “Not quite like a moth to the flame.”
“That was Delaney’s role,” Rafferty said, his tone joking.
“But close to it,” Niall concluded.
“So, what happened with Donovan’s firestorm?” Ginger asked, intrigued by the story they were telling her.
“He’s my brother,” Delaney said.
“And exposure to his firestorm turned Delaney’s blood red again,” Sloane said.
“Clarified it,” Rafferty said.
Niall pointed a fork at Sloane. “When Delaney protected Alex—”
“Donovan’s mate,” Rafferty supplied, “doing so potentially at his own expense—”
“He was wounded in the fight that followed,” Niall said, nodding.
“And his blood ran red,” Sloane concluded with satisfaction. “But since then, it’s wavered back and forth, the red ascendant but the black staining the flow. There was a change, but not a complete recovery.”
“It’s depressing.” Delaney glared out the window. He looked tormented again, burdened by the memory of some ordeal, and Ginger felt sorry for him.
“But you said something changed,” Ginger reminded him. “You said you were able to deny Magnus’s command in the sanctuary.”
He smiled at her, the change in his expression making her heart skip. “I was, and that’s because of you.” He held her gaze, letting her see his conviction. “That was no lie, Ginger.”
She couldn’t stop herself from smiling back at him.
Which just proved she was a complete sucker for this man.
And maybe not as bright as she’d always thought she was.
Ginger sobered and averted her gaze from Delaney’s smile, focusing instead on a piece of cold toast. It tasted like sawdust—organic sawdust—but she ate it anyway.
“Because of the firestorm,” Rafferty said. “His ability to deny Magnus is like his blood running red again. It’s a sign of healing.”
“The firestorm heals our wounds,” Niall said.
Sloane frowned. “But what I don’t understand is why the firestorm is still burning.”
“How long does it usually burn?” Ginger asked, and each Pyr developed a fascination with his plate. Delaney’s neck was ruddy again, but he was the only one who would meet her gaze. “What did I say?”
“Something I said, I’m afraid,” he admitted gruffly. “The firestorm burns until the Pyr and his mate are intimate. That’s when they conceive.”
Ginger knew enough about biology to argue the point. “That doesn’t happen instantly. It takes at least a week for the embryo to implant in the uterus.”
Delaney’s jaw set. “It happens immediately for us.”
“First time, every time. A Pyr and his mate only have to have sex once to get the job done,” Thorolf said cheerfully, cocking a finger at Ginger after helping himself to more eggs. “And hey, we know why you call him ‘hotshot.’ ”
Delaney had told his friends that he and Ginger had had sex. Why had she imagined he’d be more circumspect than that?
“Thorolf!” Delaney protested, but Ginger was already on her feet, leaving the table. She knew her face was scarlet. She spun around when Delaney touched her elbow. Sparks leapt from his touch, but she backed away until her butt collided with the counter.
His expression was unrepentant and that finished her.
“You told them?” she demanded. “How much did you tell them?”
Ginger held up a hand before Delaney could answer. She had made a mistake and she was going to fix it immediately. “No, wait. I don’t want to know. That’s enough. You try to get me pregnant; you intend to destroy the Elixir and get yourself killed; you’re going to leave me pregnant and alone; you tell your friends about your score, and I nearly get killed by dragons on top of it all.” She pointed to the door. “That’s it! The kitchen is closed. All of you, out!”
“Ginger, it’s not like that . . . ,” Delaney said, beginning to make an appeal that Ginger didn’t want to hear.
“There is nothing you can say to save this situation,” she told him, and meant every word. “In fact, you can leave first and lead the way.”
“They asked why I hadn’t satisfied the firestorm before going after the Elixir,” Delaney argued, his own voice rising as he got to his feet. “I had to defend my decision! I had to tell them I had fulfilled my responsibility to the Pyr. . . .”
“What about your responsibility to me?” Ginger demanded. “What about my choices? What about my privacy?” She slapped her forehead. “Oh wait, that doesn’t matter. I’m just a mate.” She pointed to the door again. “Out!”
Chapter 8
Ginger thought that Delaney would just surrender the fight, but instead, he got a determined look. He came after her, pursuing her right across the kitchen. He was so intent on arguing his case that she was surprised.
Wasn’t he the one who’d planned to just leave? Why should he care what she thought of him?
But he did.
Ginger hated how appealing she found that fact.
His eyes shone. “I had to tell them that I’d fulfilled my responsibility to the Pyr, to sate the firestorm. I admit that I wasn’t thinking further than that. . . .”
Delaney reached for her, but Ginger interrupted him. “Let me explain something very basic to you,” she said.“I believe in love and I believe in romance. I believe in two souls finding each other and making a future together, one based on choice and mutual respect. I believe in creating a family out of love, not out of biological urges, and I believe in waiting for a match that is worth having. I believe that nothing of merit comes for free.”
Delaney folded his arms across his chest to watch her, but he didn’t interrupt.
Ginger took a deep breath. “Your firestorm makes sense to me, as a kind of kismet thing. You seem to view it as a reproductive necessity, like a bitch that has come into heat being in the same pen with the stud.”
“I never said that!”
“You didn’t have to. I got the subtext. And if you’re not interested in making a permanent relationship, then I’m not interested in having a child, firestorm be damned.”
“The firestorm is a mark of destiny,” Delaney said.
“Well, I believe in free will, too,” Ginger retorted. “You had no right to make that kind of choice for me. You were absolutely, totally, out of line, and since you don’t understand that, there is nothing to talk about.” She pointed to the door. “Out.”
Rafferty began to applaud, a gesture that earned him a ferocious glance from Delaney. “I like feisty mates,” Rafferty said, his tone teasing. “It keeps things interesting
.”
“But the firestorm shouldn’t still be burning,” Sloane reminded her. “As Thorolf said, it should have been sated as soon as, well, you know.”
“Ginger . . .” Delaney took a step closer and Ginger felt that predictable flush of heat. Her toes curled in her boots and she was keenly aware of the breadth of Delaney’s shoulders.
And the appeal in his eyes.
This man was dangerous. He could make Ginger forget everything she knew to be true, and act against her own best interests. “Wait,” she said when he might have come closer and eliminated her ability to think clearly. “If the firestorm burns until a conception is made, then I’m not pregnant, am I?”
Rafferty shook his head.
Ginger took a deep breath. “Well, then, there are only two possibilities, aren’t there?” she said. “Either my pill is working”—she pointed at Delaney—“or you’re shooting blanks, hotshot.”
Delaney’s eyes flashed green fire.
Sloane’s expression turned pensive. “Now, that’s an interesting idea,” he mused.
Ginger wasn’t interested in his conclusions.She reached for her jacket and hauled on her boots. “I’ve got stock to check. When I get back, you’d better all be gone.”
“Ginger, we need to talk.”
The way Delaney said her name was seductive and sexy, reminding her of the way she had shivered beneath his touch the night before. It would have been easy to listen to his explanation and find it plausible. It would have been easy to surrender to him again, to drag him back to her bedroom for another round.
The man had an ability to mess with her own clear thinking and she was right to toss him out.
Even if it felt wrong.
The only good news was that she evidently wasn’t pregnant. She’d gotten lucky, and she wasn’t going to count on that happening again. If putting distance between herself and Delaney was the only way to achieve that, she’d do it.
“I think you’ve said plenty.” Ginger paused at the doorway. “It’d be nice if you did the dishes, but I know better than to expect too much.”
Niall winced.
“Ouch,” said Thorolf. “No point letting this go to waste,” he added, and loaded his plate one more time.
Sloane was lost in thought, as if he was trying to remember something.
Rafferty was utterly still, except for his gaze flicking over everyone in the kitchen in turn. Ginger knew he was noting every nuance of response and had the sense that he had enjoyed her outburst.
Ginger didn’t look at Delaney. She didn’t dare. She simply left, letting the kitchen door slam behind her. It wasn’t often that she was in the mood to muck out the barn, but she was sufficiently fed up with the Pyr to be looking forward to evicting bullshit.
From her barn and from her kitchen.
Ha.
Well, that had gone well. Delaney turned on his so-called friends and let his lousy mood show.
“Thanks for nothing,” he said. He knew he had to pursue this quest alone and even with the firestorm’s appearance, he’d known he could handle it. There was a puzzle to be solved about breaking the Elixir’s vial, but he’d solve it.
As well as the mystery of why his firestorm continued to burn. The last thing he needed—and the one thing that could condemn his chances of success, at least with Ginger—was the Pyr’s collective presence.
“Again, I have to ask whether you guys don’t have some place better to go.”
Rafferty settled back to savor his coffee. “I always insist on ringside seats to a firestorm.”
“This isn’t a group effort!”
“But your success with Ginger concerns all of us, dude,” Thorolf said. “Like Erik always says, we need more Pyr.”
“I could stand having fewer Pyr, at least in the vicinity,” Delaney retorted. “Why don’t you all leave? I’ll call if I need you.”
“Right.” Niall watched Delaney with affection. “The boy learns to fight and thinks he can kick the whole world’s butt by himself. Wait till I tell Donovan.”
Thorolf jabbed his fork through the air at Delaney. “You need help with those Slayers. Without Niall and Sloane, you’d have been drinking the Elixir yourself by now.”
“And I’d be staving off its effects again,” Delaney replied. “I’m tougher than I was, and I can handle this.”
“Your plan sucks and you should be smart enough to know it.” Thorolf ate with gusto even as he criticized. His attitude only made Delaney more angry.
“My plan is the only plan,” Delaney insisted.
“Delaney’s right,” Sloane said abruptly, pushing to his feet. “I’ve got other things to do than stay where I’m not wanted.”
Delaney wasn’t the only one surprised by the Apothecary’s change of heart. Rafferty watched Sloane with consideration.
“Like what?” Thorolf challenged.
Sloane smiled. “I want to catch up on my reading.” “Ah!” said Rafferty, as if this made perfect sense. He emptied his mug of coffee with satisfaction, then set it aside and stood. “I suddenly recall that I also have errands to run.”
“You really don’t want us around?” Niall asked Delaney. He was still seated at the table and looked reluctant to leave.
“No.” Delaney was adamant. “I need to talk to Ginger. Alone.”
“You need to seduce Ginger, man,” Thorolf corrected.
Delaney glared at him. “Which also isn’t going to happen with an audience. You heard the lady. Out.”
“You’ve got to promise not to go after the Elixir again alone,” Niall said.
“I don’t have to promise anything,” Delaney argued.
“I know what I have to do, and I know what I’m up against. You don’t.”
“Delaney . . .” Niall began to argue again .
“Look, could you maybe respect my insight on this?” Delaney demanded, knowing his tone was sharp. “I don’t want help. I don’t need help. You all need to leave. Now.”
Thorolf and Niall exchanged a look and rose to their feet in turn. “If you insist,” Niall said with obvious reluctance.
“I do.”
The Pyr headed for the door, their strides revealing their respective levels of enthusiasm for departing, but Rafferty halted in front of Delaney.
“You’ll see that it’s not as simple as you believe,” he said with confidence. There was wisdom in his dark eyes, and understanding. His words were low and fell slowly from his lips.
Delaney braced himself for advice from the ancient Pyr, who was the most enamored with the idea of the firestorm. He didn’t doubt that Rafferty had a comment or two, and he knew those comments wouldn’t change his mind.
“You have to recognize that the Great Wyvern chooses a mate for each of us who can best help us learn what we need to know,” Rafferty said. “Pyr and mate can be two halves of a whole, partners working together, the better to fulfill their respective destinies.”
Delaney ran a hand over his hair. “Okay, I should have talked to her. I understand that now. . . .”
“More than that,” Rafferty interrupted with quiet force. “The Great Wyvern will demand far more of you than that.” He held Delaney’s gaze steadily for a moment, then pivoted and strode to the door. He held up his left hand, letting the white and black ring catch the light. That ring was all that remained of Nikolas and Sophie, and just the sight of it stole the breath in Delaney’s lungs. “There are many kinds of sacrifice, and sometimes the one that appears to be greatest isn’t the greatest after all.”
Delaney was impatient with Rafferty’s tendency to make enigmatic comments. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Rafferty smiled. “That choosing to live can be harder than choosing to die.”
Delaney didn’t know what to say to that. Nikolas and Sophie’s mutual sacrifice had been key in destroying Magnus’s dark academy, after all. They had died to cleanse the earth of that foul place and that had been no small accomplishment.
How could it b
e wrong for him to choose to make a similar sacrifice, and surrender his own life in exchange for eliminating the Elixir? How could it be wrong to surrender everything he had to make the world a safer and better place? How could it be wrong for him to guarantee that his son or his fellows never had to suffer what he had endured?
It couldn’t be. Rafferty just didn’t understand the stakes.
Rafferty had never felt the Elixir try to claim his body.
Rafferty had never known the despair of realizing that his body was tainted forever and that the only way to make his life worth anything was to die as Sophie and Nikolas had.
Delaney held the older Pyr’s gaze without flinching, completely convinced that he was right. “That’s not the case here.”
Rafferty studied him for a long moment, then turned away with a shrug. “No point remaining where we aren’t welcome,” he said with a heartiness Delaney didn’t trust. The Pyr left the kitchen and paused to survey the sky from the porch.
Niall murmured something, but Rafferty silenced him with a touch on the shoulder. The gesture was so quick that Delaney might have missed it if he hadn’t been paying attention.
As it was, he wondered what his friends were up to.
He’d believe they were leaving when they left.
Rafferty glanced back from the porch. “Thank Ginger again for breakfast and the coffee, please.” He smiled. “We’ll leave the dishes for you.”
“That’s not the only mess you’re leaving me,” Delaney complained, and Rafferty laughed.
Then the four took flight, shifting in shape in unison as they leapt off Ginger’s porch. The snow quickly obscured the sight of them as they ascended.
At least the neighbors wouldn’t see them.
At least they were gone. Delaney grabbed his coat and headed for the barn, following the line of Ginger’s boot prints.
All he had to do was figure out how best to apologize to her.
He’d worry about persuading her to try to sate the firestorm again once she would stay in the same building with him. He felt the press of time, and knew he had to attack the Elixir again soon, before the Slayers recovered from this morning’s assault.
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