by Ruth Dugdall
They drove me back to the same police station I visited just three days ago, they put me in a different cell though. This one, I think, is for special prisoners. It has cardboard furniture so I can’t harm myself. As if it was even possible, for me to do any more damage.
I was allowed one phone call. It was enough, to hear Achim say that you are home. Showered and fed and tucked into your bed. Safe.
It is enough, to know that you came home, eventually. And so I have just one question for you, one thing I need to know: have you learned your lesson?
Are you going to be a good girl now?
They sent a psychiatrist to see me and he has said I am sick. I could have told him that! Sick with worry for my little girl, whom I have not seen for ten days! Tomorrow he will tell the judge about my illness, and then they will see about getting me some treatment. And soon, very soon my solicitor says, I will be home.
Because none of this was my fault, I was sick and soon I will be well.
And you were bad but now you will be good.
Everything is okay, Ellie.
Mummy will be home soon. I promise.
Acknowledgements
I am indebted to the following people who gave their time so willingly, and answered so many of my questions:
Firstly, thanks to Laurence Hever, Assistante Sociale at the Association de Soutien aux Travailleurs Immigres (ASTI), whom I found through a Google search, and thank goodness I did. When I was exploring the subject of illegal immigration, and the difficulty of finding medical assistance for a sick child, I called her up, asking, “Could this scenario happen in Luxembourg?”
Laurence replied, “Ruth, I had a family in my office just today, with exactly this issue.” Whilst I was reassured that my plot is therefore authentic, it saddens me that such a wealthy country as Luxembourg is not providing for the most needy. Laurence, and the work she does at ASTI, is both essential and admirable.
Thanks also to Joseph Sadler, Commissaire en Chef with the Police Judiciaire, who gave me an alternative perspective on human trafficking and also an insight into how Luxembourg faces the challenge of organised crime, as well as answering several random questions on police procedure.
I am grateful to the Association Luxembourgeoise des Visiteurs de Prison (ALVP) who, despite my terrible French and non-existent Luxembourgish, welcomed me into their ranks. I am in awe of the voluntary commitment they offer prisoners in Luxembourg, visiting regularly for months or years. Their stories and insights gave me an additional viewpoint on crime in the city.
For my research into Algeria, I am indebted to Kheira Si Larbi. Thank you for a pleasant afternoon looking at photos of the Djudura mountains, and chatting over what it means to live in Tizi Ouzou. The prayer mat, the gallet stone, all derive from this conversation.
And to Kamilla, who made our weekly waits in the driving range car park so much more interesting, and who answered my questions with such vigour.
As always, thanks go to the wonderful team at Legend Press, especially my editor, Lauren Parsons.
And to my writing group, Lizzie Ferretti, Morag Liffen (got it right this time!), Jane Bailey and Sophie Green. Thanks to my probation colleague and friend, Janet Wood, for her eagle eyes and advice on current practice.
Finally, thanks to my husband, Andrew, and children, Amber and Eden, who were frequently press-ganged into strange outings to places such as Heidelberg hospital, Mertzig wolf park, and the dodgier parts of Luxembourg. I love you all.
The character name “Achim Scheen” was supplied by its original owner, who won the right to have it featured in Nowhere Girl during a charity auction to raise funds for Make-A-Wish Foundation, Luxembourg.
Achim, thank you for having such an interesting name, and I hope you like the book!
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Table of Contents
Title
Copyright
Day 0: Schueberfouer, August 2015
Day 1
Day 2
Day 3
Day 4
Day 5
Day 6
Day 7
Day 8
Day 9
Day 10
Epilogue
Acknowledgements
