they could go past time and stand beside me or past me, I'm going to shout. "Ghost!"
Then what would be the great gulf fixed in the 4D world? We wouldn't know in the 3D world. If we go past the 4D world, would I be born into the 5D world? Are we heading towards a more complex world like this? Can dying be a new birth that is out of our limitations? If that is true, then we'll be alive forever without dying. We just won’t remember anything from the previous world.
Would my wife be living in the 4D world? Would she be going back and forth the time with her soul since she has no body? If she's like that, she could show up in front of me, but I guess she's not like that. If my wife lived in the 4D world, I believe that she would have passed by me at least once even if I shout out 'ghost!'
A reporter gets the microphone. "The number of grandalphas that approached 40 million continuously decreased, and now there are about 10 million grandalphas working at the farm. About 3 hundred thousand people are estimated to be kicked out or escaped from the farm. Therefore about 10.3million people are the subjects who will be receiving the payments. Although we provide the absolute standard of living, the number is too big that we won't be able to do it considering the national economy. That's what the opposition party thinks.”
The same people from the morning news came out on TV and said the same things, and left the scene.
10The Earth
I thought I'd be dead in 10 years, because they said 10 years was the average. I survived more than 10 years. I take my clothes off and look at myself in the mirror. It's hard to stand still and look into the mirror because my legs are too weak and back is bent. I lift up my face and look into the mirror with all the wrinkles I have in the face. Now my body is all wrinkly and old. It hasn't even been 20 years since I quit using Shield, but my 50-year-old body turned into a 90-year-old. It's hard to stand still.
My skin lost elasticity, my internal organs are refusing to work, so I'm diseased. I'm taking so many drugs that I get full just by taking them. I'm extending my life by these drugs now. I've wanted to die so badly, but I'm still afraid of dying. What a coward.
'I think of Shield injection everyday although it's been 10 years now. Man's greed can never be fulfilled. Reasoning tells me that it's nonsense, but my emotions and body keep wanting the injection. I could get it just by paying the illegal dealers. This is worse than narcotics. One single injection will make me all young and alive again. I'm still thinking of it right at this moment. Just one single shot..
Living alone up in the mountains, I got so weak and old that I can't do anything on my own. I just wanted to die in the woods. I'd be dead anyways if I didn't do anything. One philosopher asked 'Is dying better than living a miserable life? If that is true, can the decisions you make while you're in the miserable situation be trusted? Well, I was certain, and I could answer that with 'Yes'. As the philosopher said, two situations are needed to compare what is good and what is bad, but there is no comparison target to death. I'm sure about that. I would never regret dying even if the comparative condition is worse.
I've been waiting to die for several months, but somebody reported me as he was climbing up the mountain. The police carried me, and I had to go to a hospital. I kept on saying that I want to die, but nobody listened to me. The hospital found out that I was a grandalpha, and they sent me to a national nursing facility. Now I'm spending each day waiting to die.
That philosopher took an example of this situation. Person A saved person B's life. B thanks A. However, A says, 'Oh, you probably misunderstood something. If you want to thank me for saving your life, I need to give you some kind of benefit. If saving life is a benefit, then we need two hypotheses that your life is valuable and it is better for you to live. However, we can't guarantee that you living is any better when we think of the two condition factors. For the two condition factors to be fulfilled, you need a condition that you'd be in after death, but if you're already dead, you wouldn't exist, and that nonexistence is not the "condition" we're talking about. Therefore, if you thank me for saving your life, you're in great confusion in philosophical view.’ Do I need to thank the police or the person who found me and reported me although I ignored my condition?
Today my great grandchildren are visiting me. Actually, they're the children of my great grandson. I found my great grandchildren after I was admitted to the nursing home for grandalphas. It took me several years to find them. However, I wasn't sure if I was qualified to meet them or if it was okay to meet them, because I didn't know how they thought of me. I changed my mind many times a day whether I should meet them or not, and one day they came to see me. My grandchildren saw me when they were little, so they recognized me, but I couldn't recognize them. They were all grown up, and looked different.
They welcomed me as a human. The fact that I have the compensation benefits from the government probably played a part. Well, so what? My grandchildren are here but I can't play with them. I just look at them playing as I stay lying in bed, and I'm almost bursting into tears because I'm so happy. My wife would be happy to see this.
When my children visit me, other elderly people get happier than me. This deadly silent nursing home becomes a playground filled with laughter and loud noises when they come see me. It can get quite noisy, but everyone just smiles and watches them play as they listen to them. The children go around the nursing home playing and fighting; they're just having fun with each other. The days that my children visited me go by so fast that I don't know how it went by. Then I wait everyday for them to come see me again. I thought that my skein of thread would never give, and will just disappear one day as it still has handful of threads. However when I saw my grandchildren, I began to think that my thread is twirling off and I'm starting give my threads to others. I was happy to think that all my thread will be gone some day. I even wished that I could see them grow. '
As I watched my grandchildren play I thought, 'can a person live on?' I need to think when I'm conscious.
We learned that all matters are based on atoms and electrons. However, we found out that atom breaks into polonium and radium. As science improves, we will learn that what we know now is not all there is to it. The particles are so small that we live ignoring them. What if this world is, no wait, what if the galaxy is the atom and electron of the dust in the place where something great, something that is beyond our imagination, lives? Then what would that make us? What meanings do we have if the space is just another small particle that makes up a small dust in the bigger world that we can't even imagine?
On the other hand, what would it mean if the particles that we call atoms and electrons are actually another galaxy with other forms of life? If the particles called atoms and electrons is actually some kind of a planet that other things live in, then the studies that we do with atoms and electrons such as putting them in a super high speed machine to speed them up and collide them would make the Earth vanish along with the study. If 1 second means 9,192,631,770 days or 9,192,631,770 years to them, that the life of the Earth would only be 0.5 seconds.
We are nothing. If some form of existence sees the Earth as an electron and try putting it in the super high speed machine to make the Earth spin and break down saying "hey, we finally found the basic structure of a matter.", then our great human beings will just disappear with the Earth.
If they were uncivilized, would the human race survive? My children will have their children, and they will have theirs and maintain as human beings for the next 5 billion years, then will disappear by other fate of the Earth. The scientists (0.5 seconds on their clock) say that the sun will run out in 5 billion years and become a white dwarf star. When it becomes a white dwarf star, the sun will get bigger and bigger and one day it will swallow up the Earth, and the Earth will go inside the Sun. Then the Earth will become a planet of lava where no humans or bacteria can live on it.
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