by Lauren Wood
Chapter 17
Celia
Why was he saying all of the right things and more importantly, why did I believe him? I didn’t want to, but it made sense to me that he was telling the truth. I knew that there was something going on with him and I had a feeling that I had taken it all out of context, but at the end of the day I was just scared. Being with him had done something to me and I had run away as fast as I could. I wanted him too much and that worried me. There was a part of me that was worried about what was going to happen next, but there was really nothing that I could do. Now I was going to have to be around him, have to see him and if I was truthful, it still scared me to no end. I didn’t want to feel this way about him, but it did all make sense. Maybe Carlos wasn’t that far off.
“I don’t know what to say Leo, I really don’t.”
His hand came across the table and touched mine. I didn’t pull it back right away and that was a mistake because I could feel the spark from before. Nothing had changed and that made me even more nervous. I finally moved my hand away and sat back. I was afraid that this would happen, so was Carlos, but there was really nothing that I could do. There was always something about him that had pulled me in and hearing him say the same thing made me think that it could be different.
“I don’t want this to go on like this. You are going to have my baby and it is obvious that you still feel the same way about me as I do about you.”
I was speechless and I wished that I could tell him that he was way off and I didn’t feel that way about him, but I did. I really did and it was hard for me to say it out loud, but even harder for me to deny it. I wanted him so badly.
“I am with someone now Leo. Carlos and I are together.”
His jaw tightened and I could tell that he did not like that reminder one bit, but it was literally all I had to hold on to at the moment. I liked Carlos, I really did, but there was something missing. Maybe it was only the fact that he was not Leo. It was there though and it was hard to imagine being with him in the same way. He didn’t make me feel like Leo did. He was a great guy, but he was not the one for me. Seeing Leo now just made me realize it even more and I can’t say that I liked that truth. He was kind and gentle. I should have wanted to be with him, but there was just something missing that I couldn’t control.
Leo acted like he knew and he smirked a little bit. I didn’t like that look and I wished that I didn’t feel the way I did. Carlos was a really great guy, but I knew that I was going to end up hurting him and I didn’t see any way around it. I didn’t love him, but did that mean that I loved Leo?
“Carlos is a good man, but I can’t see the two of you being happy. He can’t make you feel the way I can make you feel Celia.”
“We were only together one night Leo. Don’t you think you are over compensating and your ego is taking over? There is no way that we are what you think we are together.”
He sighed and I could tell that he was getting to the point that he was going to make me see his way. I wanted to. I wanted him to just tell me that I was his and that was that. It would have been so much easier, but there was another part of me that was afraid of that as well. Being with Leo was like a rollercoaster and it had been a long time. I wanted back on the ride, even though I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to get off again. Everything with Leo was terrifying.
“I think you are making this harder than it has to be. You wouldn’t have picked this spot and this restaurant if you didn’t know it was true.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean come back to my place and we can sort this all out.”
I shivered from his words ad I hated myself for doing it. I didn’t want to think that he was right, but he was. I knew that if I went down that that route, there was no going back. I wanted him and even the idea of him touching me was enough to make me tremble inside.
“I don’t know what you are talking about.”
He grinned at me and again I saw the problem coming towards me. It didn’t look good and if he wanted to push it, I was going to be in for real trouble. As he made his way out of the booth and back to my side of the table, I knew I had already lost. There was no other way around it.
“What are you doing?”
Leo just smiled and didn’t say anything. “I am proving the point that I am trying to make. We both know that you are not going to admit what we are to each other, so it looks like I am going to have to remind you.”
He moved to kiss me and I felt the need rise up in me almost immediately as our lips met. He knew my weakness and my weakness was him.
I didn’t push him away, even though I knew that I should have. I didn’t care that everyone was watching us. What I cared about was how he made me feel when our lips met and how incredibly soft they still were. I could only think about the passion behind it and how I was melting again him. This was a disaster and only when that thought ran through my head did I push him back and take a deep breath.
“Please Leo. Not here.”
“Come back to my place Celia. I want you so badly and I know that you want me as well. Let’s start the holiday celebration right.”
“We shouldn’t.”
“You are mine now. You are having my baby and I want to be with you.”
It was the first thing he had said about the baby, but I wasn’t thinking about that right now. My lips were tingling from his touch and I lifted my hand up to really feel the touch. What was I supposed to do?
“But I am with someone.”
“No you aren’t. You are with me. Carlos knew that he had lost when we talked. He knows that you are mine.”
I was afraid that he was right and it was the last thing that I wanted to do. I didn’t want to hurt him. I didn’t want to be the one that made him like me, untrusting and bitter, but I knew I was going to be. I needed Leo. I didn’t need Carlos. It was a hard fact to really think about, but it was true.
“This isn’t a good idea.”
“I will keep kissing you until you come with me. It is a good idea; it is the only thing that makes sense. I need you Celia. Don’t make me wait any longer. You tried to stay away from me, but we are meant to be together. Can’t you see that?”
I was at a loss of what to say, but I knew that I had already made up my mind. I wanted him, badly and he was the only man that made me feel this way. I could fight it if I wanted to, but it was really going to do me no good. The only thing that was going to do me well was to just accept it. It did feel like fate just kept dragging us back to each other and it seemed pointless to waste any more time trying to fight it.
“Fine Leo. I will come back to your place, but I am not promising you anything.”
The grin on his face said it all and I was worried. I was going back down the rabbit hole and again, it was because I couldn’t resist him. I had never considered myself weak, but maybe I was. Maybe I wanted to be with Leo and that was what I liked about him the most.
He paid the check after tracking down the waitress and took my hand in his and led me out. It almost felt like he was afraid to let me go and it made me smile to myself. Could he really feel like I did?
Chapter 18
Leo
“Don’t be so nervous Celia. I like the changes. Your curves go on for days now and I want to see all of you. I want to remember every inch of you as you are now. It is going to change and I am looking forward to all of them that are going to happen. I was shocked when Carlos told me, but all I could think about was you having my baby inside of you. I can’t think of anything better.”
She still wasn’t sure and I could see the hesitation in her eyes, but it was just as good as unwrapping a present. It was hard to read her mind, but it didn’t matter. What mattered was that I was going to be able to finally have her again. The first time I was able to take my time, but I was afraid that it wasn’t going to fly this time.
I had tried to move on after I found her gone, but it had quickly been clear to me that it was impossible.
I didn’t want to be over her and no other woman did to me what she did to me. I didn’t want anyone else, but Celia and it had left a void in my life that hadn’t been filled. I needed her so badly now that it felt like it was killing me.
She was taking her clothes off and as I watched her, I tried to push her along, but she was just taking too long. I moved forward to help her, usually not this demanding, but damn it had been a long time, too long.
“Why are you acting so rushed today, Leo?”
“If you knew how long I had been waiting for this Celia, I am sure you would understand. I didn’t think I was ever going to see you again and I realized that if I couldn’t have you, I didn’t want anyone. It has been a long four months since you left my life and I am ready to get back to making up for it.”
She giggled and wouldn’t meet my gaze. I knew that I was pushing at a time that I should have been easing into it, but it really was impossible. All I could think about was getting back inside of her and the longer it took to get her clothes off, the longer it was going to be until that would happen.
I pulled the shirt over her head and took a sudden intake of breath. She was changing; I could already see the difference and when I pulled her bra off as well, those changes were much more pronounced. Her nipples were darker and the everything was fuller. When I bent down a little bit to take one of the tips into my mouth, she made a soft gasping sound that sent every last bit of my blood down to my genitals. How was I going to be able to control anything when she seemed bound and determined to drive me absolutely wild?
Celia was embarrassed by my reaction and it made me realize that I was going to have to temper my needs. It was hard to because the whole time I was looking at her, I was spellbound and didn’t want to look away. It was like the first time all over again and I hoped that she was really going to stay. A part of me wanted to lock her in, but I knew that I wasn’t going anywhere. If Grey called, he was just going to have to wait. There was nothing that was going to keep me from Celia, not this time.
“They are really sensitive Leo.”
She was getting a little red-faced and I found it impossible to stop the chuckle that came to my mind. I had a feeling that she knew that I wanted to bite them. I was sucking harder than I had before because she had liked it the last time. Now the same action made her gasp and I found it even more of a turn on. I liked that she was more sensitive, because that meant that she was going to feel things like I felt things. I was feeling like I was going to explode this time around. I wanted her to feel the same way.
“I will be gentle Celia.”
She paused. “I didn’t say that…”
I had to laugh. It was a relief to have her in my arms and this time I wasn’t going to let her go. This time around I was going to make sure that she stayed right where she was supposed to be.
As I was thinking this, the phone rang and she stopped, looking at it as if it was a shark in the water.
“I am not going to answer it, no matter who it is. Do you want me to turn it off?”
“No, just don’t leave me Leo. I hated waking up to you gone. It was one of the worst feelings.”
I promised her that I wasn’t going anywhere and I meant it. It was the last thing on my mind. I was in the business of keeping her, not losing her again.
When she was bare and I was practically shaking with need, I pulled her gently down to the bed and moved over her. I wanted to kiss every inch of her and started from her slim ankles and moved my way up slowly. I wanted to take my time, but it was damn near impossible with all of the sounds of need that she was making.
I got to the small slice of heaven that was in between her legs and just my hot breath was enough to make her wiggle. I loved the reaction, almost as much as I loved the taste, but this time she closed her legs and squirmed away like she wanted to get away from me.
I stopped and looked up at her questioning. “Please Leo. I don’t want to wait any longer. I want you inside of me more than anything else.”
I couldn’t help the way her words made me feel and I moved to the side of her and started to shimmy off the pants that were in my way. It was hard to tell how badly I needed her, but I hoped that I was doing a better job than I felt like I was. I was dying for her it felt like, literally and every time I looked over at her nakedness, it felt like it just took longer. There was no way that I was going to be able to slow down once it all started. I wanted to prolong it, but I knew as soon as I slid inside of her I was going to be lost. I was already there as it was.
Celia didn’t give me time. As soon as my pants were off, she was crawling on top of me and trying hard to pull the shirt over my head. I had it halfway off before she was licking and kissing on my chest, nibbling on my erect nipples about as hard as I had done to hers before. It made the hardness in between my legs even worse and she made a whimpering sound as she started to lower herself on to me.
“God, I missed this Leo.”
The shirt was over my eyes and I couldn’t see her face, but I could hear the hitch in her voice and it drove me absolutely insane. Did she not know how good she felt or the way she sounded made me a little crazy inside?
Celia giggled and covered the shirt on both sides so that I couldn’t remove it. She thought it was a game and I was unable to stop the pleasure that flowed through me. It was hard to do and I let her have her way as I focused on the feel of her insides squeezing every part of me. It was suffocating and I swear it felt like I was unable to think straight when she was like this.
Her movements were slow and deliberate and I felt her lips on mine through the shirt. There was something about the lack of sight that really got to me and it made every other sense so much stronger. It was hard to deny how I felt when she was riding me, but it was almost too hard to put into words. I felt like I was melting into another universe and I became glad that she couldn’t see me because I was going to lose it if I could see her.
Her hips started to move faster and it was all I could do to grit my teeth and think of anything else to get my mind off of the fact that I was falling for her every second. She felt perfect, beyond perfect and I was sure that it was because she was that very thing. I wouldn’t have felt this way if she wasn’t completely made for me and I knew then that it was all going to be okay. She had to feel the same for me.
The light in the room finally reached my eyes as she pulled the shirt over my head and braced herself against my chest after a quick kiss on the lips. Her eyes closed after our gaze met for a moment and she was breathing harder. She was ready to come and I started to rise up with my hips slowly, so that I could meet every bit of her need.
Her head fell back as she came and I could feel the liquid coming out of her. She was crying out in pleasure and her action was slowed down because of it. I could tell that she had reached her end, but I also knew that she was able to come more. I wanted her to be pleasured again and again, but I knew that I was going to have to take control.
I liked the view of her tits bouncing in front of me and I didn’t want to get her off of me any time soon. I pulled her down to me and started to kiss her, holding her a bit so that I could start pushing up inside of her. I wanted her to feel it like before, come like she had before and I wasn’t disappointed because it wasn’t long before she was crying out and moving back.
The sounds of her and the feel was more than I could handle and it wasn’t long before I was calling out her name. She was perfect in so many ways and I didn’t want it to end but I didn’t have a choice. I couldn’t hold back any longer. She just felt that good and the more I tried, the harder it was to stop myself. I never wanted to be outside of her again. I wanted us to stay connected like this forever.
She pushed on my chest to let her up and as I did, we both groaned and growled when she sat up fully on me. It was a moment that I wasn’t able to describe and it just felt so good. I stalled her for a moment, holding the sides of her hips so that she couldn’t move. I lifted up my hips once more to feel a
s deep as I could. She made a noise and I finally let her go, even though I didn’t want to. God, she just felt so good. For a time I had thought I had lost her and it was the worst feeling that I had ever had. I didn’t want to be without her, ever again and I wished that I could bottle up this moment forever.
Chapter 19
Celia
I was still trying to catch my breath when I heard the phone ringing. At first I thought it was his, but then I realized that it wasn’t his ringing, but my own. I had a feeling that I knew who it was and reality came crashing down on me again. It was hard for me to think when I was around Leo, but I was just supposed to be here to talk things out. I didn’t want to answer and face the music, but I knew I had to.
“Come on, you are going to get that?”
Leo wasn’t pleased and I shrugged, telling him that I had to. I knew that I didn’t want to talk to Carlos, but in reality I owed it to him to at least answer the phone. He was a good man and the more I thought about it, the more I regretted what I was going to have to do. I think he loved me, he said he did and it was going to be hard to tell him the truth. I didn’t even know what the truth was, but I knew that my future did not involve him, no matter how badly he wanted it to. There had always been something off, no matter how hard I tried for it to work out. Carlos had been the safe bet because I knew that my heart was never going to be all the way in it.
“I have to get it.”
He wasn’t happy about it, but I really did have to take care of it. The more I tried to put it off, the ringing really got to me and I finally picked it up. It was Carlos. I knew it would be.
“Hey Carlos.”
“So how did it go?”
He was still at work and didn’t know that I hadn’t gotten home yet. I was going to have to tell him eventually. He was going to find out after all, but there was part of me that didn’t want to it right now in front of Leo. Leo was eying me and I could see that he was jealous. It was hard to ignore the look in his eyes and I turned my back to him. This was harder than I thought it was going to be.
