And what did those bastards do? They laughed. They freaking laughed.
“I’m not trying to be funny you freaking assholes. Don’t think because I’m so short I won’t be able to kick you bastards in the nuts.” That got me more chuckles and I just clenched my teeth before I said something I would regret.
Beast hid his smile by dropping his head and shaking it from side to side. Drawing in a deep breath he looked up. The laughter was gone and his eyes were filled with sincerity. “I promise you will never go through shit like that ever again. I fucked up not telling you about her. I admit I fucked up with Chris and hurt her in the process but her turning all that shit on you isn’t right. She has been told to meet with Ice in the morning and he will set her straight. I’ve tried to do it but she obviously didn’t take it in. So let’s see if Ice can make her see the fucking light.”
I just shook my head. I really didn’t want to know anything more about his relationship with the bitch. And to me she was now firmly in the bitch category. I didn’t give a shit if everyone thought she was a nice woman, after what had happened in the dining room I wasn’t so sure about that.
“I’m tired and my leg is aching. Are we done here? If we are then all of you please leave because I’ve had enough of men for one night and I want to get into bed and rest my leg.” So many lies in one sentence.
No, I wasn’t tired and my leg wasn’t aching and I wasn’t angry at all of them, just with freaking Beast. Kid immediately came over and gave me a hug and a kiss on my head, totally ignoring Beast still crouching in front of me.
“I’ll see you in the morning, baby girl. Keep that leg raised and call if you need anything. Okay?” He was so damned sweet.
“Thanks, Kid. I’m going to do that as soon as everyone leaves. I’m okay, I don’t need anything.”
Hawk and Ice followed Kid out the door after chin lifts and muttered good nights.
Beast didn’t leave. He got off his knees and lifted me onto the bed and sat down next to me.
“I’ve tried to apologise to you, Ladybug, but you’re not listening to me. You want to keep this distance between us because you’re scared of how you feel. I’ll leave but know I’m not giving up. Not now, not ever. Ten years ago I made the biggest mistake of my life in letting you go, not fucking happening again. The fates brought you here, to me and I will be thanking them for the rest of my life. I’ll be back tomorrow morning, and my girls will be with me. I want them to get to know you.”
That made me so damned angry. “How can you do that to them? You’re confusing them by introducing them to different women. The way Chris spoke about Joslyn she knows them and now you’re bringing me into the mix as well. It’s not right.”
Beast lost his cool, like really lost his cool. “For fuck’s sake, Tori. What the fuck do you think I am? I’ve never introduced my girls to Chris or discussed them with her for that matter. All I did was fuck her and walk away once we were done. I have no idea where she came up with the shit she sprouted tonight. She was trying to hurt you and now I know she fucking succeeded. Jossy and Ellie aren’t taking ballet lessons because it isn’t safe for them to be away from the compound at the moment. Their fucking mother might just try and snatch them to get back at me. I’m not fucking taking that chance with their lives, ever.” He slammed a fist against the wall with a loud yell then dropped his head as I sat frozen on the bed. He stood like that for a few seconds then shook his head as if he had made a decision.
“You know what, I’m done apologising and explaining shit you don’t fucking believe. I’m going and I won’t be back in the morning. I need some fucking space to sort this shit out for myself.”
And then he was gone, the door slamming on his way out.
His words locked me in place on the bed. He was right. He has been apologising and explaining. And I have been having a hard time believing him. And why was that? Why did I not believe his apologies or explanations? It’s not as if our past was filled with lies. He had been honest with me right throughout our time together. He encouraged my dancing career, supported me unstintingly and constantly showed me how much he cared. Hell, he even waited more than a year before we had sex. He gently set me away from him every time things became too hot and heavy. Would someone who was only interested in using me for sex have done that? I think not.
Why the hell had I believed him when he broke up with me? Why hadn’t I fought for us?
Was it because of the way I was raised that I immediately believed him when he so brutally shattered my heart?
And if that was the case why was I allowing my shitty background to once again screw up my life?
Without another thought I jumped up and stormed out the door. Sam followed on my heels trying to make me stop but I waved him away.
Until I got to the top of the main stairs where DC stood watching something taking place down in the common room. She didn’t take her eyes from whatever it was, just held a hand in my face, forcing me to stop.
It was then I heard his voice. Hard, cold, relentless and scathing.
He was still here, hadn’t left yet and I knew he was talking to Chris because her sobs came through loud and clear.
“If I lose my woman because of you I will fucking kill you, bitch. Where the fuck did you get the idea that I was into you? That I would take you as my old lady? I made it very fucking clear all I wanted from you was an easy fuck. I never kissed you. Never stayed longer than was necessary to get off. Never hung out with you at a club party. Never put you on the back of my bike. And I certainly never fucking introduced you to my fucking kids.” His voice was raised and the tone had fearful goosebumps erupting over my arms.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I have feelings for you, and...and you always came to me. I thought it meant something. I was hoping you would see how good we were together and...”
He didn’t give her a chance to finish.
“For fuck sake bitch, we were fucking, that’s it. Where in the fucking short time that I fucked you did I ever give you the impression that you meant more to me than an easy fuck?”
I slapped both hands over my mouth to smother my gasp of shock. DC gave me a quick side glance then focused back on the scene playing out below.
“Beast, brother, don’t do this now. Let it go for tonight and we’ll sort it out tomorrow.” Ice tried to reason with him.
“Fuck that. After the shit this bitch spewed at dinner my woman is set to pack her fucking bags and put me in the rear view. All because of the fucked up half-truths this bitch threw around.”
“I’m so sorry, Beast. I was jealous and crazy. I’ll explain everything to Tori and make sure she knows we weren’t in a relationship. That it was all wishful thinking on my part.”
Heavy silence descended on the common room and then there was the sound of a heavy door slamming shut. Ice’s voice was the next I heard.
“Go to your room, Chris. I’ll see you in the office at nine tomorrow. And please, don’t say another fucking word. I very much agree with my brother about the shit you pulled tonight. Know that there will be consequences for your actions.”
That was when Sam pulled me away and quick marched me to my room. We stood just inside the room with the door cracked a little and listened as heavy footsteps sounded on the steel stairs then continued down the passage. Then we heard a door slammed shut.
“That was Hawk and DC, Ice and River most probably left right after he told her to go to her room. Fuck, this is bad, this is really bad, Tori. Chris is popular with the brothers and her pulling this shit might end her time with the club. No one wants the club girls to get ideas of becoming an old lady because a brother likes to fuck one specific girl. They already have enough of those ideas anyway.”
He gave me a quick glance before he looked away.
“Beast hardly every used the club girls, I just thought I needed to tell you that. Thank fuck the common room was virtually empty tonight but there’s still going to be talk. I have no idea why Hawk deci
ded it was okay for you to be seen. I don’t think it was a good idea, not with how the night ended.”
I frowned. “Do you think someone will talk outside the club?”
Sam shrugged. “That’s always a possibility. Some people like to run their mouths to seem like they know shit.”
Shit. Shit. Shit.
“I can’t take another revelation tonight. I’m going to sleep and hope when I open my eyes in the morning it was all a very bad dream.”
So that’s what I did. I went to bed, tossing and turning until I eventually fell asleep. Hoping like hell that in the morning all the bad shit would disappear like mist before the sun.
Wishful thinking, I know. So much wishful thinking.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
Beast
Sleep evaded him as he lay on his back staring at the ceiling listening to his babies breathe. Fucking Chris. Why the fuck would she think he had wanted more than just a quick fuck? He hadn’t treated her any differently than he did the other club whores.
None of the brothers actually saw her as a club whore. Not after they got rid of the sluts who used to hang out at the clubhouse and she made it clear she respected the brothers. Ice made her their bartender and gave her the option of choosing to fuck the brothers or not.
And there was his answer. As far as he knew he was the only one she had fucked in recent weeks. Fucking hell. The warning from his brothers and the feeling in his gut had come too late to nip this shit with her in the bud.
Now his woman was pissed off and he didn’t fucking blame her for being pissed. She had a right to be after the shit Chris had said.
But what did piss him off was the fact that she took it as an opportunity to put distance between them once again. He wasn’t going to allow her to do that. She was his. Had been his since the first time he had laid his eyes on her cute little jail bait ass.
Fuck giving her space. He would be at the clubhouse with his girls in the morning.
His woman needed to get with the program. His girls were going to be her girls when he put his patch on her back and his ink on her little ass.
He fell asleep with a smile on his face as he imagined his dark ink on her pale translucent skin. A smile that stayed with him through breakfast with his girls and his brothers.
Beast was pouring coffee after a great breakfast when Wolf asked about the reason they were there having breakfast together.
“You said there was something you needed help with. What do you need, brother?”
Picking up his giggling girls Beast led the way on to the back deck. He motioned them into the chairs while he took his girls to their swings and got them settled then went back up onto the deck to drink his coffee that Wolf had brought out with his own. As he sat down Beast immediately started to explain. He wasn’t worried his girls would overhear because they were giggling and whispering to each other
“Let’s get the latest shit out of the way first. The set up last night worked like a fucking charm. The bitch was grabbed as she was leaving, already on her phone talking to someone. Will and Terror grabbed her right before she started spilling her guts.” Beast sighed. “My woman though, she’s not good. You all heard her at dinner and later in her room when she threw us all out, pretending that her leg was aching. It fucking wasn’t, you saw the way she strutted out of the dining room. So, not only is Tori going to kick my fucking ass for the shit Chris pulled, she’s going to fucking gut me when she finds out we had used her as bait.”
Sin whistled softly through his teeth. “You’re in deep shit brother, fucking deep shit.”
“So what’s happening with Brandi? She’s always had a big mouth and never knew when to keep it fucking shut.” Wolf said in disgust. “Never liked that bitch which is why I never fucked her.”
“You’re right, she has a big mouth. I only fucked her once and she’s a mediocre fuck at best.” Beast scratched his beard. He needed to trim the damn thing.
“Fuck, I’m thinking we’ve been tapped on this one, am I right?” Sin took a deep slug of his coffee.
Beast gave a chin lift. “Yip. We’ve been selected to talk to the bitch and find out who she talked to and how much she has given them. Prez wants us on it as soon as possible. We’ll leave her to agonise over what’s going to happen to her until later this afternoon.” Beast sighed. “And that brings me to the original reason I asked you guys to breakfast.”
Both nodded and waited for him to speak. “DC had me build some shit for her new studio and even though she said it was for her I now know it’s for Tori. She built my woman a dance studio, which means she doesn’t want her to leave and that means I’ll have her support convincing my old lady to stay. And therefore I need to have a home for us to live in.”
Beast drew in a deep breath. “My girls and I have taken two of the rooms on the upper floor but we need more space. I had a chat with Rider and we came to an agreement to divide the house but we’ll share the common areas. Rider and his girl don’t have much in the way of furniture. Penny hates the shit the sluts left behind and wants it gone, but with the baby and everything they don’t have the money to splurge. And I have all that brand new shit sitting in my unit not being used. I need help to pack it up and bring it all here. Penny will go through the shit here and Will and Owen will cart away everything she chucks out and that includes the fucking bed I’ve been sleeping on. Can’t fucking stand sleeping in the same bed my prez used to fuck his sluts in.” His brothers laughed as if it was the biggest joke ever.
Beast glanced at his girls then threw them the middle finger salute and carried on explaining. “Because we’re short on prospects Hawk can’t give me more than two for a couple of hours. I’m going to need the brothers to help me move.”
Wolf didn’t say a word, just took out his phone and called. “Hey Dizz, you busy today? Fuck off, I know it’s early but Beast needs our help getting his shit from his unit to the house.” He listened with a grin. “Okay, brother, I’ll tell him.” He ended the call and slipped his phone back into the inside pocket of his kutte.
“Dizz is on board, says it’ll cost you a couple of beers. And he’ll get Dollar, Buzz, Ratel and Bullet to come with him.” Wolf sat back and took a sip of his coffee. “All we need to do now is take one of the 8 tonners from the office, pick up some packing shit and we’re set.”
“I’ll get on that.” Sin said as he set his empty mug down. “I want to check on some shit at the office anyway.”
“Thanks, brothers, I fucking appreciate the help. I want this place to look more like a home before I bring my old lady here.”
His brothers roared with laughter, then Sin waved at the backyard where his little girls were swinging happily.
“No way is anyone going to think this is a pussy house, brother. You and Rider are turning this into a kiddie paradise. What are you building next?”
Beast grinned as he put his empty mug on the table. “We’ve got plans to build a climbing frame and a fort and Jossy asked for a princess castle. So it looks like I’ll be spending a shit load of time out here building that shit.”
“No worries, Beast, we’ll organise a Saturday with the brothers and we’ll help build your girls a mini Disneyland in your backyard.” Wolf teased. “We’ll work for beer.”
Beast looked around the backyard and grinned. His brother wasn’t wrong. If they built everything he and Rider had talked about they were going to run out of space pretty soon. Fuck, they would just move the walls out further if they had to he thought with an internal shrug.
Looking at his watch Beast groaned. It was time to face his furious woman. “I need to get the girls ready to meet Tori. I don’t know how long I’m going to be, she might kick me out the minute she sees me. I’ll just have to play it by ear.”
“No worries, Beast. Sort shit out with your woman and we’ll get the truck and the brothers organised.” Sin checked the time and nodded. “It’s nine now, so let’s say you get away here at nine thirty and you spend an hour with your
woman and girls. We’ll meet you at the clubhouse at eleven and go pack up your place. While we’re busy that side the prospects can empty out this place and it will be ready to move your stuff in when we get back. I’ll organise another truck to take whatever gets thrown out to the ‘Helpende Hand’ (Helping Hand) charity in Pretoria. They can sell it to help with their feeding scheme or give it to someone who needs it.” Sin explained.
“That’s a good idea. Someone else could get some use out of the shit.” Beast agreed as he stood. “I’m going to collect my girls and get them ready. I’ll see you fuckers at the clubhouse. Oh, and not to worry about Penny, Rider told her about this shit last night already. She’s fucking raring to go.”
They all laughed and Beast jogged down the steps into the garden to fetch his girls.
His girls were giggling and bouncing on his bed as he pulled some clothes out for them, he wanted them to look nice for their meeting with Tori.
“Come on baby girls, let’s get dressed. We’re going to the clubhouse to meet a lady who is a ballet dancer. She’s a very special lady and I want you girls to be nice to her. Okay?”
Ellie stared at him those big dark eyes and nodded her curly little head, smiling shyly. Jossy’s eyes were so wide with wonder he had to grin. “Is she going to dance, Daddy?”
“I don’t know, baby. She hurt her leg and it’s not all better yet. We’ll ask her when we see her.”
“I wanta daass too, Daddy. Can I? Can I?” Ellie suddenly piped up and Beast almost stopped moving. His baby was talking.
“Yes, sweetheart, you can dance as much as you want.” She nodded her little head and her smile was like the sun breaking through the clouds, blinding.
Jossy suddenly shook her head from side to side. “Not those, Daddy. We want dance dresses. Not shorts.”
Fuck. Beast tried to explain why today wasn’t a good day for dresses. It made no difference, his girls wanted dresses. In the end he gave in to save some fucking time and dressed them in flouncy little dresses and pretty little sandals. Where they got them he didn’t know because he certainly hadn’t bought them. He dressed his girls, brushed their hair and tied in the fucking ribbons they insisted they needed in their hair.
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