by Sarina Dorie
I made my choice. Let Vega be the wicked one. I was going to be the good witch.
I set the book in the metal garbage can. It took longer to use the fire spell I had learned in Jackie Frost’s class than if I had used my own magic, but I was determined to learn the spells I needed to conceal my identity.
I set the book on fire. The cover smoked and resisted the heat of the flame. I focused and continued to work patiently. A breeze whistled in through the cracks in the shuttered window, giving the fire more oxygen.
I opened the shutters. The fire sparked to life. When magic failed, I wasn’t beyond resorting to human, mundane measures to achieve a means to an end.
The wind was warmer than it should have been for winter, bringing with it the perfume of spring and exotic places. It smelled like Derrick.
I took that to be a good omen. If he was out there somewhere, watching over me like a guardian angel, I was certain that was a sign he agreed with my decision.
A brown leaf and a scrap of paper fluttered in, landing on the desk. I dropped the leaf in the basket to be consumed with the fire. I was about to do the same with the paper, but I stopped when I saw my name.
Clarissa,
I keep seeing you in my dreams. I know you’ll be the one to unite Fae and Witchkin in peace. That’s why I gave you the book after I found it in Julian Thistledown’s room. I assume he stole it from Jeb’s office, though I can’t imagine the principal knew.
Use what you learn within the book wisely. The spell in Loraline’s diary is powerful, something your mother was able to perform. I’m confident you’ll be able to figure out how to use it as well. With it, you can resurrect the dead, create life, or break any curse. Once you learn to control your powers, you can use it to cure me of the curse the Raven Queen placed on me.
Your friend,
The signature was illegible, but I knew it had to be Derrick’s.
The book held the key to Derrick’s cure? I rushed back to the metal bin and turned it upside down. I grabbed the first thing I could find, which happened to be my sweater, and beat the flames into submission. The book was a black lump of coal.
“No!” I cried.
My determination to do good for the world had destroyed Derrick’s cure. I vowed I would find another way to help him, even if it killed me.
THE END
Excerpt from the sequel,
Hexes and Exes
CHAPTER ONE
My First Magic Lesson
Today was going to be the first day of my new life. I was about to have my first real magic lesson with Professor Felix Thatch. Even the idea of his snarky comments in the dark bowels of the school dungeon on a Saturday at seven a.m. couldn’t rain on my parade. I was going to learn to control my powers and channel that energy into something productive. I refused to have another accident after this.
I would be able to help my students and my former best friend and boyfriend, Derrick.
I hugged a foil-wrapped plate of cookies to my chest as I stepped into the doorway of his office, hoping they might take the edge off Thatch’s Sir Grouch-a-Lot mood.
Felix Thatch stood in the corner of his office, turned toward his pet bird in her cage. He removed a strip of red meat from one of the pockets of his tweed coat and fed it to the supposed crow. Priscilla pecked at it from between the bars of the cage and gobbled it up.
I knocked on the door frame.
Thatch turned toward me, eyeing my striped leggings and pink hair with a scowl. He was dressed in three-piece suit, the expanse of fabric as gray as the shadows of his dreary office. The white cravat and starched white shirt were nearly as pale as his skin. As always, Thatch’s shoulder length hair was simultaneously windswept yet immaculate. I wanted to get my hands on his magic hairbrush.
“I made some cookies. They’re no-bakes,” I said.
I set the plate of cookies on his desk between a leather-bound book and a stack of essays, carefully to avoid the crystal ball and quill. As I did so, I bumped into the rusty metal chair on my side of the desk. My striped leggings caught on one of the bolts sticking out from the side and snagged. It made me loath his fear-energy torture chair even more. I scooted back.
I was going to have to sit in it today to relive my fears to see if I could control my magical affinity. I’d been making progress before Julian Thistledown’s attack. There was no reason to believe I wouldn’t be able to continue to make progress despite what my ex-boyfriend had tried to do to me.
No reason, except I now had new fears to master.
Thatch removed his wand from his sleeve and waved it over the plate. The air above the cookies glowed with purple light. I’d seen my friend Josie use this spell before.
I crossed my arms. “I didn’t poison them.”
The crisp British monotone of his voice greeted me with his usual level of enthusiasm. “That’s what they all say.”
Satisfied with his test, he removed the foil. He wrinkled his nose at the lumpy brown blobs on the plate. “Those look like piles of unicorn manure.”
The insult stung. So much for cookies being the path to salvation.
I laughed, attempting to make light of his comment. “Fortunately, they don’t taste like manure. It’s my fairy godmother’s recipe, and you liked Mom’s cooking, so I figured you’d enjoy these.” Thatch’s genial relationship with my adoptive mother was nothing compared to his complex relationship with my biological mother, Alouette Loraline, wickedest witch in the Unseen Realm. Partly that was because Mom had made him baked goods, and partially because she hadn’t tortured him to near death like Alouette Loraline.
If anyone had a reason to dislike me—and resent having to teach me—it was him. Our professional relationship had gotten off to a rocky start at the beginning of the year. Now that Thatch knew me, I was certain I’d broken through his resolve to hate me. I even believed we could be friends someday.
Someday I would make all the other teachers see I wasn’t a wicked witch like Alouette Loraline who would kill people and try to take over the world.
At least, I hoped I wouldn’t.
His scowl returned. “Surely you made a mistake somewhere.”
I fidgeted with the fabric of my black skirt. “No, they’re supposed to look like this. Really.”
He loomed over his desk, formidable as ever. The only sound in the room was the rustle of the bird in its cage. She watched me with a black unblinking eye. Thatch might have trusted his bird because it was his sister, but I still wasn’t convinced the raven wasn’t actually in cahoots with the Raven Court, the Fae who had previously tried to kidnap me.
Thatch continued to scowl at the plate. The turd-balls of chocolate, oatmeal, and peanut butter were delicious—if he would only try them.
“Maybe you shouldn’t be so quick to judge appearances,” I said.
His dark eyebrow arched higher. “Some apples don’t fall far from the tree.”
“I’m not Loraline.”
“I didn’t say you were.”
The other teachers whispered I looked like her. I didn’t wear a pointed witch hat, have midnight hair, or a clear, creamy complexion; I was freckled and dyed my hair—pink at the moment—but the face on the painting of her in the upstairs stairwell was a mirror image of my own. It was going to be hard to undo other Witchkin’s preconceived notions I wasn’t going to be like her—that I wasn’t going to torture and murder people.
I suspected it wouldn’t help if they I’d killed Julian Thistledown. On purpose.
Thatch picked up the cookie, smelled it, and then set it down on the plate again. He plopped himself in his seat. “I hope you don’t think you can bribe me with cookies, especially inferior ones at that. It isn’t going to make me go any easier on you.”
This wasn’t going at all as I’d planned. “The cookies aren’t bribery. They’re a thank you present. You know, for teaching me.”
He looked away. “Ah, a thank you. You do know ho
w these things work in the Unseen Realm. If you thank a Fae—or a half Fae—you owe him a boon. Or if a Fae thanks you—”
“Shush. I’m paying you in cookies.” I gestured at the plate. “Just try one.”
He didn’t move.
“Never mind.” I reached for the plate. “I’ll share my cookies with Josie and Khaba.”
He smacked my hand with his wand. “Leave them.”
He leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms.
“Sit,” he said.
I swallowed and glanced at the metal chair. The last time I had sat there, snakes that were supposedly figments of my imagination had wound around me and bound me to the chair. Reluctantly, I sat. The chill of the metal seeped through my tights and skirt and into my legs. Cold leeched into my back despite the T-shirt and sweater I wore.
“Remove your sweater.”
I hesitated. He probably had a reason for asking me to do so that had nothing to do with him being the controlling dungeon master trying to get a young woman to remove her clothes in his office. The problem was that part of me wanted this attractive, off-limits professor to ask me to take my clothes off because he was interested in me. Realistically, I knew he would never be able to look at me that way after his history with my mother.
Guilt raked my insides when I had these sexy Thatch thoughts as if Derrick didn’t exist. I still longed for Derrick, even if I didn’t know if I would ever see him again.
Thatch sighed, misunderstanding my inner conflict. His tone was patronizing, as though he were talking to a small child. “The more of you that is in direct contact with the metal, the more likely you will reach a meditative state. That means more of you will be in contact with the magic.”
“Okay, got it. Fear magic. It’s just that it’s so cold in here. Would you be willing to turn up the thermostat?”
“No. You need to learn to ignore the sensations of your body. I know you can turn pain into energy. Do the same with the cold.”
Grudgingly, I removed my sweater. I draped it over my lap. The armrests of the chair were about as warm as icicles. I shivered against the back of the chair. It occurred to me how I could fit in this chair, whereas most chairs were too large for me. My feet touched the ground and my back rested against the cool metal. That meant it had been made for someone small, a child perhaps. The idea of that was even more creepy, knowing what it did.
“Close your eyes and relax your muscles.” He walked me through the visualization.
I transformed my discomfort into energy that spiraled around in the red ball of glowing light in my belly. The cold left my body as I sank deeper into myself. Slowly my focus changed, and I became aware of my body once again.
A tickle against my neck drew my attention. I fought the urge to open my eyes. Something small and light snaked over my arms and coiled down around my wrists. The movement was slight at first, but the pressure increased as it tightened. It didn’t feel the same as the serpents that had bound me before. These felt more like ropes. Only they smelled more like my fairy godmother’s garden.
I winced as the ropes bit into my flesh.
It was all an illusion, I told myself. The chair was just drawing out my weaknesses to challenge my affinity, my magical power source. More pricks of pain poked against my arms. The air smelled of roses and spring. Slender coils wound around my ankles, drawing my legs closer to the legs of the chair. I knew what my weakness was and didn’t look forward to facing this fear.
“Relax your muscles,” Thatch said.
Right, because being bound to a chair was so relaxing.
Sharp stabs of pain dug into my calves. I pushed the sensation out my skin and ignored it. I could control pain. Pain was an illusion.
The darkness faded into light, and I became aware of the room, though I was certain my eyes were still closed. It wasn’t snakes or ropes that held me, but plants. Thorny vines clawed at my skin. White roses blossomed before my eyes. Droplets of blood clung like dew against the white petals.
The cookies I’d eaten for breakfast sank like bricks in my stomach. Thatch sat on the other side of his desk, eyes closed, muttering something under his breath as he waved his wand in the air. Behind him stood a shadow.
It was hard to make my eyes focus on the man-shaped form behind him. He was little more than a translucent shadow, vague and blurred. I saw the figure better out of the corner of my eye, like the painting of Loraline in the hallway. He leaned closer to Thatch, whispering something in his ear. Thatch chanted. Light from his wand drifted into the man, making him stronger, greener, more whole.
My heart pounded. Was Julian’s spirit controlling Thatch? Influencing him to give him magic and power? Or was his ghost conspiring with my teacher?
The shadow solidified, green moss and lichen hanging off his body. His face was made of rotting wood and his hair ferns and grass. He unbent his curled spine, looming higher than Thatch at his full height. A centipede crawled out of his decaying mouth. He was as monstrous as the last time I’d seen him.
I knew where this was going.
Julian Thistledown’s voice came out as a raspy hiss, the sound of wood scraping against wood in a windstorm. “Miss me?”
I screamed and tried to tear free of the chair, but I couldn’t. The vines tightened around my limbs. The thorns of the roses gouged into my flesh. My muscles shook with fatigue.
Julian stepped forward, leisurely, drawing out each step. I screamed and continued to struggle.
“You didn’t truly think you could kill me? Did you?” The rotting skin of his face stretched into a hideous grin.
He stroked my cheek with a hand made from the gnarled roots of trees. “This time there’s no escaping me.”
“You’re dead. You’re a figment of my imagination. Go away.” He couldn’t be back. This wasn’t real. It was part of the fear magic my subconscious manifested in the chair, I told myself.
I tried to take slow yoga breaths, but fear squeezed my chest like a vice, and I only managed shallow pants.
“Miss Lawrence,” Thatch said. “Control your affinity. You are dangerously close to harming yourself with your magic.”
“Help me. Please, don’t let him do this to me again.” Sobs bubbled out of me, making my words unintelligible.
“Focus,” Thatch said. “Face your fears and conquer them.”
Julian’s rough, wooden fingers scraped against my face. Thorns dragged against my flesh, simultaneously biting and sensual. I hated how he had used magic to control me—my own magic.
I tried to focus on my affinity, to soothe the red ball of energy roiling in my core. I needed to ignore my fears, to push away physical sensations.
“Go ahead. Conquer your fears,” Julian whispered against my ear, his breath rancid and warm. “It won’t make any difference. I already have you.” His lips inched toward mine.
I shook my head and leaned my face away from him.
“No matter what you do or what you learn, no matter how strong you are, I will always have an advantage over you.” Julian grazed his lips against my neck. “I know your weakness. Even in death, I can make you want me.”
“No, you can’t.”
But it was true. As much as I hated him, my body responded to the magic. The tension in my muscles melted away. I relaxed against his mouth. I loathed him and loathed myself even more that I wasn’t stronger to resist this magic.
My affinity flared and then shrank, as if unable to decide what it wanted to do. I didn’t want to be attracted to him. He was a monster. He’d intended to make me bear his children. But he understood my magic and how it worked. Touch might be my weakness, but it was also my strength.
“I won’t let you control me!” I shouted.
Instead of ignoring the vision and quelling the sensations making the magic inside me rise in an overwhelming tide, I embraced the crimson light crashing and sparking inside me. I pushed the Red affinity out my arms and into him. The candles i
n the chandelier flickered out. Lightning flashed in the room. Ozone and charred flesh mingled in the air.
I blinked. I was no longer sitting in the chair.
Thatch stood back against the wall, his arms raised up protectively in front of him, his wand lifted. He and his bird were on one side of a blue barrier that rippled like water. The raven’s wings flapped against the wire cage, frantic to flee. The papers on Thatch’s desk were scattered across the floor. Some of them were burned. His crystal ball was shattered. My sweater was under my feet, getting dirt on it. One of the sleeves was on his desk.
He waved his wand in the air and the barrier dissipated. His lips pressed into a line. I’d failed my lesson.
My eyes burned, and I sniffled. “Do you have a tissue?” I dropped back into the chair in exhaustion.
Every muscle in my body shook with fatigue. My wrists and ankles prickled where the thorns had raked my flesh in the vision. There was no blood.
The shock of the magic must have numbed my senses. It was only when I hugged my arms to myself that the lance of pain on my palms drew my attention. My skin was blistered and burned, just like the last time I’d used my affinity to stop Julian. Now that I’d seen the wounds, my palms throbbed.
Thatch untucked a handkerchief from his breast pocket and placed it on the desk in front of me. It was clean and white. “You know how to control your pain,” he said.
I was too upset to meditate. I covered my face and cried, embarrassed I was crying so uncontrollably in front of Thatch. The sting of the burns jolted through me every time I moved them. I couldn’t stop shaking. If he had been anyone else, I might have asked for a hug, but Thatch wasn’t exactly the warm teddy bear type of person.
Thatch busied himself in the closet, examining vials and jars until he returned to his desk with a ceramic canister he placed before me. He uncorked it, the familiar scent of lavender, echinacea, and calendula greeting my nose.
I regained control of my breathing and blew my nose. Thatch didn’t offer to heal me.
