by Day Alyssa
Knew things she couldn’t have known, saw things she couldn’t have seen.
Flashes of brilliant blue-green light scorched through her mind and illuminated scenes of Alaric’s life, careening from image to image like some insane Ghost of Atlanteans Past, and all she could do was try to hold on for the ride.
Alaric as a child, running and playing with the other boys. Carefree and happy; but, even then, there was a certain reserve to him. He stood apart, and she felt the loneliness that never quite left him.
Alaric as a young man, riding a horse at a breakneck pace across green fields, with Conlan chasing after him, both of them laughing.
The two of them, carousing in what looked like a tavern, surrounded by admiring young women.
Quinn cried out again as an especially intense surge of power or magic or whatever Alaric must carry around inside of him all of the time spiked into her brain and she lost her senses for a few moments. When she climbed back up out of the dark to conscious thought, the images showed her an older, harder Alaric.
He shouted at Conlan that he didn’t want to be high priest. He didn’t want the duty or the responsibility. “What happened to our plans to travel around the surface for a few dozen years, doing nothing but eating, drinking, and wenching?”
But the Conlan in the vision only shook his head, sadness on his face, and the insane tour continued, with Quinn soon floating on the edge of a dark, dark room.
“The darkness of the Rite of Oblivion is only equal to the darkness in your own soul,” a voice was saying, but the voice’s owner was hooded and robed, so Quinn couldn’t see his face. She could see Alaric clearly enough, though, wearing nothing but a loose pair of pants, struggling as three robed figures pushed him toward a hole in the floor. Alaric’s clenched jaw, and the corded muscle starkly outlined beneath his skin as he tried to resist, told her that whatever waited for him underground was something that would terrify anyone with less courage.
“If the oubliette accepts you, it will give you back to us. If it does not, it will take you a very long time to die,” the sadistic bastard said, and then the three of them shoved Alaric into the hole.
Quinn screamed, but she couldn’t protect Alaric from his past any more than he could protect her from hers, and the merciless barrage continued.
Alaric, rising from the oubliette, noticeably thinner, his eyes sunken and wild, and the robed figures kneeling to him as one of them draped a robe over Alaric’s shoulders.
“All bow to Poseidon’s new high priest, long may he rule over our holy temple,” they chanted.
She wanted to kill them all, steal Alaric away and comfort and feed him, but the visions sped past, and soon she was watching him grow stronger, harder, and colder. More and more alone. He learned to wield the Trident, which was plenty powerful enough without its gems, and he learned to hunt and fight and kill vampires.
She watched him battle rogue shape-shifters and nests of murderous vamps. She watched him save and protect and rescue, over and over and over. So many deaths on his conscience, so much blood on his hands, all in service of protecting his prince, his people, and humankind.
After what felt like centuries of images buffeting her mind, she saw Alaric watch Conlan with Riley and felt how conflicted he’d been when he’d realized his prince loved this human, and then a blast of intense emotion nearly knocked her on her ass, but this wasn’t her emotion, not this time.
It was his.
She was watching him heal her, Quinn, from that bullet wound when they first met. She watched him as he fell back, blasted into shock by the force of his own feelings. She listened to him confess how much danger he believed himself to be in, simply from touching her.
“You want to know what happened?” With two steps, he was right up in Conlan’s face.
“I’ll tell you what happened, my prince,” Alaric continued, rasping out the words. “What happened was I sent my healing energy inside Quinn. Inside that human. And she grabbed hold of me.”
He shoved a hand through his hair and laughed a little wildly, eyes flaring green and hot.
Savage.
“She dug her mental claws into my balls, is what happened. I healed her, and she destroyed something in me. Shredded it.”
“What—” Conlan never got the question out.
“My control,” Alaric snarled. “The absolutely rock-hard control that I’ve spent centuries perfecting. Your little girlfriend’s sister reached out with her emotions, or her witchy empath nature, or what the hell ever, and all I wanted to do was fuck her.”
Conlan stepped back half a step at the ferocity in the priest’s voice and dropped his hands to his dagger handles. For an instant, icy death menaced the air between them.
Alaric laughed, bitter again. “Oh, you don’t need your blades. In spite of the fact that I wanted her more than I’ve wanted anything in my life, I won’t touch her. Although, even now, my mind tortures me with images of pounding into her body, right there on the ground in the mess of her own blood, fucking and fucking her until I drive myself into her soul.” Alaric viciously kicked at a tree and shards of bark flew into the air, then disintegrated in the green energy bolts he shot at them.
This was new and dangerous territory, and Conlan attempted to proceed with caution. “Alaric, you must—”
“Yes. I must. I must never succumb to any lusts, or my power is ended. Certainly, I would be of no further use to you or to Atlantis. No use to the jealous bastard of a sea god whom I serve,” the priest said flatly, his voice suddenly devoid of the rage and passion that had infused it moments before.
“I must get away from her,” he continued. “Now. From this place. I am ruined for this day, in any event. This . . . this energy drain has voided any hope I had of re-scrying for the Trident until I recover. I will meet you back at Ven’s safe house tonight.”
Conlan grasped his friend’s shoulders, shaken by the blasphemy he’d never heard from him before. “Alaric, know that your use to me and to Atlantis goes far beyond the powers you gained from Poseidon. Your wise counsel has served me well for centuries, and I will need you when I ascend to the throne.”
Alaric stared over Conlan’s shoulder toward Riley and her sister. “These empaths. They signal a treacherous difference in our ways, Conlan. I can sense it. Change is coming. Peril that comes from within our very souls.”
Quinn shuddered as the most powerful wave of magic yet seared through her body, and she realized it was tinged with a dark, disturbing emotion.
It was tainted with shame.
Alaric must have seen what she was seeing; discovered that she had learned how he’d reacted to her that very first time.
“It was the same for me, you must know that,” she cried out, not knowing if he could hear her, or if her voice was trapped in the vision with her. “I was terrified of you and of the feelings you evoked in me. You can’t be ashamed of how you feel about me. Please, no.”
But the horrific visions kept coming, showing her what he had endured since she first met him; the impossible decisions he was forced to make on a daily basis; and, most of all, the bleak, icy loneliness he endured.
He was a man doomed to be alone by the very god he served, and not only for the space of a normal lifetime. Tears streamed down her face as the pressure crushing his heart and soul, increasing exponentially over the centuries, grew so much worse when, one by one, his friends and companions all found true love and the soul-meld.
He, of all of them, still alone. Always alone, with only the dream of Quinn to sustain him on so many long, dark nights.
“Never again,” she vowed, her heart full to bursting with her determination to protect him—even from Poseidon—to never let him be alone again. As the final vision, of Alaric standing on the roof of the palace in Atlantis, grim and solitary, faded, and the room around her came into view again, she reached another realization. Alaric’s magic hadn’t stopped funneling into her with all the speed and fury of that tornado in Japan.
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Instead, she had somehow become able to control it. She didn’t know how, or why, but somehow she’d gained the capacity to contain every ounce of the power he was thrusting into her in a metaphysical reflection of a far more primal act. All she could do was hang on for the ride, but at least she could hang on, with no more worries that the magic would incinerate her brain. With that realization came another, even more basic.
Even more important. One that he needed to know.
“I love you,” she told him. Without qualification; without hesitation. Never again would she doubt it.
His entire body shuddered, as if he’d been terrified of a far different reaction, and he opened his mouth to speak, but then his eyes glowed even hotter, and tiny blue flames danced in his pupils. He tightened his grip on her hands and said, “Quinn,” and then he was gone, probably lost to his own visions, and all she could do was hold on and pray that he still wanted her after he’d seen the blackest regions of her own soul.
Alaric didn’t even have a chance to apologize to Quinn. He’d had no idea that the soul-meld would subject her to the blasts of his magic, or he never would have asked her to do it. Hells, he never would have allowed it. He’d tried to release her when the surge of power intensified beyond human endurance, but the ancient ritual refused to be interrupted once begun, and its magic was far too strong for him to break.
He’d feared that she’d banish him from her presence, cast him aside, and even ridicule him once she learned the darkest secrets of his being, but instead—miraculously—she’d smiled. She’d told him she loved him. And now—now the soul-meld took him, and the time for reflection was gone.
Alaric watched, trapped on a crazy whirlwind like an insane version of a child’s carousel, as Quinn’s life spun in front of him in terrifying flashes. Losing her parents, joining the rebels, and lying to her sister. Constantly being forced to deceive the few friends she’d ever made; growing more and more alone and isolated. Choosing the harder path at every fork in the road, and offering herself up like a sacrificial lamb for the most dangerous missions and most suicidal battles.
He watched, his own composure rocked to its foundation, as she lost her faith in the very people she was fighting to protect, when the rebels were forced to fight against other humans. The collaborators were the worst. She despised them. Her hatred was so strong it smashed the walls of his mind as he watched her argue with a human who had killed other humans, again and again, for the chance to become a vampire.
“I’ll live forever,” the man had told her, smirking.
“Better luck next time,” she’d said, and then she shot him in the head. She stood over the man, impassive, as he died, and then she dropped to the ground and cried. She’d been fighting for several years by then, but it was the first time she’d been forced to kill another human, and something inside her had shattered, irrevocably broken.
Her innocence, perhaps.
He felt her emotions ice over, and her mental shields grow ever stronger, as she used her gift of emotional empathy to ferret out traitors among the rebel forces. He watched as she climbed through the ranks; as her clear head and fearlessness made her a natural leader.
He felt her cautious hope and then joy, when she met a tiger shifter who made a big impression, and a part of Alaric that he hadn’t realized was still afraid relaxed, as he experienced her love for Jack. A sister’s love for a brother—a warrior’s love for her comrade—but never a romantic love.
He swore to himself that when all this was over, he’d find a way to heal Jack and return him to himself. Surely in the combined knowledge of all of the libraries of Atlantis, there must be a way.
The soul-meld dragged him relentlessly on and on, forcing him to see the vicious attack when the vampire captured Quinn and killed her companions. Her terror and pain, hidden so well while she pretended to be her captor’s willing slave, nearly drove him mad. His throat ached, and he realized that perhaps the voice he heard roaring in rage and fear was his own.
But the visions kept coming.
The cascade of images was oblivious to his pain and rage, and unfeeling in the face of her darkest memories. They pushed him past the first time he’d met her, showing him her shock and terror at her reaction to him, letting him feel the powerful emotion that swept through her whenever she saw him or even allowed herself to think of him.
He felt the despair she’d known on that rooftop in D.C. when she’d told him she was ruined. He saw inside her heart when they’d first kissed, and now he knew that the searing heat of passion between them wasn’t only one-sided. She’d felt it, too.
Her amusement, gratitude, and resentment pulsed from her when, time after time and often in spite of her protests, he’d healed her from minor and major injuries alike.
Finally, finally, the visions showed him the dank space underground to which Ptolemy had stolen away with her, and her terror when Anubisa arrived. His stomach roiled with fury at Anubisa’s demands, and he felt Quinn’s anger and compassion for the girl who’d also been held captive.
The hotel. Quinn’s shock when she saw the wall of photos of herself; her relief when Alaric came for her. Her love for him.
Most of all, her love for him. It shone forth like a beacon, and his shriveled heart flourished in its warmth and light.
The visions faded, and he could finally see her again. His woman had the heart of an Atlantean lion and the soul of a fierce warrior, and yet was filled with the capacity to love so fully, so deeply, and without fear of whatever new crisis the future would bring them.
A thousand warriors combined could never match her courage.
“I never told you I loved you,” he said abruptly, and Quinn’s smile started to fade.
He pulled her hands up to his lips and kissed them, one and then the other. “I knew I wanted you, and I knew I needed you, but I wasn’t sure how to love, or even if it was possible for me. You showed me how very wrong I was.”
She started to speak, but he continued, needing to get the words out with some small measure of eloquence. “Mi amara, I will tell you now and every day for the rest of my life that I love you. You are the center of my existence, and you are the heart that beats in my chest. I would kill for you, and I would die for you, and I will spend all of eternity doing my best to make you smile.”
She was crying and she was laughing, somehow both at once in the peculiar manner of females. She launched herself into his arms, knocking him backward, and then she was kissing him, and his world was right with the universe.
Or it was, at least until he started glowing.
“Quinn?”
Her shock was plain to see—she didn’t know what was happening, either—and he could see light reflected in her eyes. He looked down and realized his entire body was glowing. Worse than glowing. He was shining like a lighthouse beacon, and the reason soon became painfully clear. His mind exploded outward as power rushed in—more than he’d ever channeled. More power than he’d ever dreamed of wielding, even in his darkest dreams of magic.
“You’re shining,” Quinn said, awestruck. “You’re beautiful. Doesn’t that hurt?”
He flew up into the air in the center of the loft and spun around, shedding light and magic like a whirling fountain. He floated back down, laughing out loud, as dawn broke and touched pale fingers to the brick-and-glass face of the building across from their windows.
“The sun is rising,” Quinn said wonderingly. “We were trapped in those visions all night long. Who needs the sun, though, with you in the room? This is amazing, Alaric.”
“Keely was right. The soul-meld has actually increased my power by at least tenfold.”
She flashed him a wicked smile. “Maybe she was right about the sex, too.”
He couldn’t bear not to be touching her, so he pulled her into the air with him and kissed her until she couldn’t breathe.
“Now all we have to do is defeat the bad guys,” she said when she caught her breath, and he grinned at her l
ike a fool because she was just so damn beautiful, and she was his.
Always his. Forever his.
“Mine,” he said happily, and she started laughing.
“Yes. Yours. Now let’s go save the world.”
Christophe suddenly broke through with a mental blast that had an edge of panic:
Alaric, wherever you are, I need to reach you now!
Alaric realized that the soul-meld must have blocked all else.
I am here, he sent back.
Finally. We have less time than we thought. Ptolemy must be using the tourmaline, because the Trident started going crazy again, and water is now seeping into Atlantis. You have to hurry and find that stone.
Alaric nodded and sent the good news back.
The soul-meld was successful. I will immediately strengthen my connection to Atlantis to help contain the Trident and shore up the dome’s defenses.
He focused his new torrent of energy and did exactly that, and he could hear Christophe’s whoop of joy in his mind.
You did it! Hey, did you and Quinn—
Alaric cut the connection, but he was smiling. He relayed the message to Quinn, who stood up, her eyes flashing.
“Right. Now I have to go back to Ptolemy and get him to give me that rock.”
Chapter 24
It took nearly an hour of argument, during which they’d raided the refrigerator and eaten a cobbled-together breakfast, and Quinn had to pull out the “we’re soul-melded, you should trust me” card, but Alaric finally agreed to let her approach Ptolemy, so long as Alaric was within one hundred feet of her at all times. Rescuing distance, in other words.
Once an overprotective high priest, always an overprotective high priest.
He planned to travel as mist, because even if Ptolemy really did have an Atlantean mother, that wasn’t enough for him to be able to sense Poseidon’s high priest when he didn’t want to be discovered, Alaric said. Of course, he hadn’t seen the extent of Ptolemy’s power, but Quinn decided not to mention that. Alaric was already about an inch away from trying to lock her in a closet somewhere, rebel leader or no, and so she decided not to press her luck.
